so long. (unmixed/snippet)

curse.

slumber.

Produced by luffysome x noah808

This song reflects themes of regret, relational conflict, longing, and an inner struggle with social disconnection. It also subtly introduces faith through the acknowledgment of prayer and Jesus as a source of healing. From a faith-based perspective, this song could become a testimony of personal transformation, focusing on breaking cycles of sadness, detachment, and misplaced priorities.

Regret and Letting Go:

“I miss what I had / I wish that I could but I know I can’t go back.”

This line speaks to the pain of holding onto the past. The Bible encourages us to release what is behind and look forward to what God has in store.

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!” (Isaiah 43:18-19)

Social Disconnection and Vulnerability:

“I’m so antisocial, I might smile and save yo digits / Just so if you choose to call me, I can choose to miss it.”

This highlights a defense mechanism to avoid vulnerability. God desires authentic relationships, grounded in love and truth.

“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.” (1 Peter 4:8)

Cycles of Sadness and Prayer:

“Say ‘I’m done’ 100 times, 1,000 times I’ll crawl back / Gotta keep on praying, if I don’t then I’ma fall back.”

This shows a battle with repetitive struggles and the recognition of prayer as a lifeline. Prayer is indeed essential for breaking cycles and drawing closer to God.

“Pray continually.” (1 Thessalonians 5:17)

Free Will and Redemption:

“Every saint has a past, every sinner has a future / Your life could be good or bad, the free will is in the chooser.”

This beautifully summarizes the gospel message: no one is beyond redemption, and our choices determine our path.

“This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live.” (Deuteronomy 30:19)

Lyrics

I miss what I had
I wish that I could but I know I can't go back
I wish you would call but I know you won't do that
Why I fucking care at all? Why I keep on running back?

Why the fuck I keep on making all these songs that sound so sad?
I got friends closer than my fam & fam that ain't my friend
Like yeah okay, we share DNA
But we don't share no memories from way back in the day

I got 130 contacts in my phone
I don't even call that many people in a year alone
I'm so fucking antisocial, I might smile and save yo digits
Just so if you choose to call me, I can choose to fucking miss it

We could of avoided this if yo ass just had called back
Karma just like me fr, one day it's gonna come back
Say "I'm done" 100 times, 1,000 times I'll crawl back
Gotta keep on praying, if I don't then I'ma fall back

Niggahs think I'm playing, if they do then they can fall back
I know that shit hurt, give it to Jesus, he can solve that
Every saint has a past, every sinner has a future
Your life could be could be good or bad, the free will is in the chooser

I miss what I had
I wish that I could but I know I can't go back
I wish you would call but I know you won't do that
Why I fucking care at all? Why I keep on running back?

Why the fuck I keep on making all these songs that sound so sad?
I got friends closer than my fam & fam that ain't my friend
Like yeah okay, we share DNA
But we don't share no memories from way back in the day

I got 130 contacts in my phone
I don't even call that many people in a year alone
I'm so fucking antisocial, I might smile and save yo digits
Just so if you choose to call me, I can choose to fucking miss it

i saved your number to make sure i miss your call.

vanished. (2021)

Produced by racky

Lyrics

Quenching my thirst with a poison, no wonder I keep heading back, I ain't know it was that
But I'm at point where I been here for so damn long, even though I know, I'ma go back
Cause that's all I know, if I stop then that means I'ma have to restart and that's so fucking hard
And I wanna be comfortable even if comfort is killing me, cause at one point what it meant to me

Was more than anything, if I know anything, I know I'll find her
She'll never get away, tried to get away, I was right there behind her
Baby please don't be afraid, that man of yours, he was in the way
Got him out the way, lets get away, we need to get away, they tryna find me

You hear those sirens? They getting closer, I can see all of the colors
You gotta make a decision right now, come be with me or you'll be another
Body I give back to the earth and we all gotta die but I swear you'll be first
I know I said you got a decision, this ain't a debate, if you choose the wrong one, meet your fate

Don't walk out that door if you don't wanna see what's out there
Baby I'm the only one who's out here
It's funny, there's 8 billion people in the world
But we're the only 2 in this specific part of it, no stopping this

You ain't wanna choose me, I'ma choose for you
I'll take us out this world and there ain't nothing that you could do
To stop it at all, you could of been involved with me some more
You gave me just a taste of your love but I needed more

All I was, was honest, you were so dishonest with me
The heart I gave was real but you just gave a copy to me
We could of avoided this if you just weren't so sloppy to me
You stepped all over me and now I got your blood on my feet

I see your blood on the floor
It's sad that all of that lead to this
Like what was it for? I guess that we'll never know
Guess that we'll never know

the heart i gave was real but you just gave a copy to me.

Produced by fowni x jaysset 

Lyrics

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

Told you before, I'm delusional
You treat me so ugly but you're beautiful
Found you again what you moving for?
You won't escape me until you're a corpse

Keep fucking with me and I'll expedite it
If it makes you feel safer then go ahead, change your name
But I swear that I'll still find it
If you stayed then I wouldn't be like this

Don't try to say that this ain't your fault
You coulda saved me but you said fuck off
Tasted your love, baby I need it all
My head is spiraling and it won't stop

It never will because you won't come back to me
Won't ever be enough for you but you were already enough for me

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

if you stayed then i wouldn't be like this.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

She was my queen, I thought I was her king but she jacked up my heart, I got played like some cards
I don't know why you left, I don't know why you ran, girl you know that I'll find you wherever you are
Did you think we were done? Girl, I'm sam I am, I can have you near, I can have you far
Girl my life won't be better, my life won't be okay
Until the day that I have your heart

She was my queen, I thought I was her king so I trusted her but she fucked me over
I got a void in my chest, it won't be put to rest until her life is fucking over
Girl I'm just playing, I need you alive if you're dead then there isn't a purpose in mine
Either I'm tryna get you or I'm the one with you

Yeah you might feel what I'm sayin', you do not know what I been through
Hold up this wasn't the plan, I don't know what I got myself into
Bitch, why in the fuck is you playin'? You can't get rid of me that simple
Acting like I ain't ever did shit when you know damn well that I did though

Why you gotta be like that? Beat me down, make me so sad
You ain't gotta do all that, can you keep me around? You're all that I have
Baby can you please come back? Who I was before you, I can't go back
They say that hearts don't have bones...how the fuck she broke that?

*auditory agony*

until the day i have your heart.

Produced by luffysome x noah808

Lyrics

I need you back, whatever he has I seem to lack

Oh, why'd you ever have to leave me hopeless?
Make sure where the bodies go is where nobody notice
I don't wanna be fixed, I got used to being broken
It don't matter how I feel, I don't ever wanna open up

I'm so fucked, you just wanted sex
Baby all I want is love
I'll succumb, I'll become
Anything you ever need and anything you want

Baby I'm not worth it if you not with me, you can hit me
You know I'll forget about it as soon as you kiss me
Don't care what you do to me just don't forget me
I can't let you do all that to me and simply leave me

Bae it ain't that easy, we gone have to both go
Don't go, I need you here with me or I won't cope
I ain't got no need to cope if you just don't go
Moving on is what I need to do but I just won't though

Been in a bad mood ever since I woke up
Lux said I ain't need to write, so I spoke up
With the bogiebois in ATL & we gone smoke up
Love me, hate me, baby I give no fucks

Don't go, please don't go, girl I need you back, I can't let you go
I'm cold, I'm so cold, I ain't got nowhere to go I can call home
She's gone, she won't come back anymore, I guess I'm alone
I know that I should move on but I don't wanna move on

i don't wanna be fixed, i got used to being broken.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

See your face in hallways but you're not there
Why I always end up back here?
Tried so hard but I failed again, I feel like selling my soul again
Named my heart winter how cold it gets, I know I won't get her but I'm still not over it

Cause without her I feel like a no one
I know she hurt me but at least I'm someone
Someone she hurts and abuses
But at least I'm somebody she uses

Treat me worthless baby
You're so perfect baby
I don't know what I'd do without you
I'll always ignore the truth about you

Like when you laughed at me when I told you I'd be there for you forever
I guess there was someone better that you were talking to in secret
Cause you left that same damn evening
And don't you dare tell me I'm wrong, cause you got there at 12 but you found him at 1

See your face in hallways but you're not there
Why I always end up back here?
Tried so hard but I failed again, I feel like selling my soul again
Named my heart winter how cold it gets, I know I won't get her but I'm still not over it

i don't wanna be fixed, i got used to being broken.

unknxwn.