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Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

I don't believe in myself no more
I don't even really seek help no more
I don't wanna feel this regret no more
I'ma let it all go, don't wanna fight no more

But before I do that, I'll leave you with a part
Of me I never grew back, it's dead inside and dark
I could prolly make this work out
But I don't wanna fail if I can't make this work out

I tasted what I wanted
And then I fucked up and lost it
I chased it till I caught it
But I don't think I'll ever top it

I had hope then fucked it up
Where do I go? How do I cope?
Fuck this life, I've had enough
But I won't go, I'm needed too much

I don't wanna try, don't wanna quit, don't wanna do nothing
How I feel inside I can't describe but it ain't too fun
I lay up at night and I just think bout what I did wrong
Or if I'm solely only here cause I was did wrong

I don't believe in myself no more
I don't even really seek help no more
I don't wanna feel this regret no more
I'ma let it all go, don't wanna fight no more

But before I do that, I'll leave you with a part
Of me I never grew back, it's dead inside and dark
I could prolly make this work out
But I don't wanna fail if I can't make this work out

no more.

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

spotify.

shiver. | Produced by septfree

slumber.

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I don't wanna go through
Life if I won't ever hold you
I been tryna show you
I was true with what I told you

But you don't care to know me
And you won't ever show me
That you feel what I feel
Guess I won't ever heal

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

ICLWY!

Produced by flower

Lyrics

Wait right here, I'll be back in the morning
Don't know why I still call, I know you'll ignore it
Don't know why I care at all, I'm not important
Told me that you needed space but you just needed more him

Less me, you won't help me
Think about you all the time, I know that this ain't healthy
So sad, you're the best I ever had
And I gotta cope with the fact that you wish you never met me

Never learned to let go, all I know is hold on
Baby hold on, you're all that I know
I'm incapable of moving on, so I can't go on
You left me for him but babygirl I don't got no one

Don't got no one, babygirl I'm broken
Don't try to save me cause I know it's hopeless
Why you hate me? Never did you no wrong
Should've known that you were faking when you said you'll come

Pick me up, save me from my doom
They think that I'm great, I just scream inside a room
All I know is pain so I turn it to a tune
By the time that I'm done, don't know what I turned into

Don't know what I turned into, I don't know what I should do
I been talking to myself cause I cannot talk to you
Mean I can but I know that you won't care
Where you at? Told me that you'd always be here
Fuck this, I don't wanna be here
You said be right back but you went to see him
I won't ever see you again, I won't ever see you again

i'll be back in the morning.

Produced by soprettyanxiety, Nuxe & Coward

This song is an intense and raw reflection of my internal struggle, creative frustrations, and the pressure to meet external expectations. It reveals the depth of my pain, the ways I’ve used music as a coping mechanism, and the realization that something essential was missing throughout it all. From a faith-based perspective, this song represents a moment of reckoning—a realization that no amount of external validation or creative expression can fill the void that only God can complete.

The Missing Piece:

“This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I’m missing a piece.”

This line beautifully conveys the feeling of incompleteness. In the Bible, this missing piece is often identified as the absence of a relationship with God. No matter how complete the “image” appears, the soul longs for something more—God’s presence.

Scripture reminder:

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." (John 15:5)

The Frustration with External Expectations:

“They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don’t know that he hated that shit.”

This reflects the weight of being misunderstood by not only my audience but in the world. I've carried the burden of creating art that resonated with others but didn’t align with your inner truth. 

Scripture reminder:

“Am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” (Galatians 1:10)

Questioning Your Path:

“Oh my God, which of my turns were wrong? I can’t find out, I been here way too long.”

This moment of desperation acknowledges the need for guidance. The Bible encourages us to seek wisdom and trust God’s direction in our lives.

Scripture reminder:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Lyrics

They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don't know that he hated that shit
They don't know that he needed to scream, that he needed to sing to get out that ditch
Yeah the lyrics were deep but the shit he was saying did not feel complete
This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I'm missing a piece

I might swing fist at all of this
I'm stuck, it's fuck my monument
I'm sick as shit of all of it
I wanna make you feel just how I get

When I'm stuck in the back of my mind
Where no one even looks just to see if it's fine
I feel like a book that ain't got any spine
So when I turn a page, I don't know if it's mine

Resonate with that song so much I can't make a part 2 and say one single line
Sick of these comments coming from people that don't got a life tryna comment on mine
"Hey, unknxwn. you fell off with rock" "Hey, unknxwn. I'm missing the old shit"
"Hey, unknxwn. I fuck with you a lot" I DON'T CARE! CAN YOU GET OFF OF MY DICK?

SAY YOU LOVE ME, YOU THINK THAT I CARE BITCH?
ALL I CARE ABOUT ME, NO ONE ELSE BITCH
WHAT I SAY AT THE START ABOUT SCREAMING?
IF I DON'T THEN I CAN'T GET UP OUT THIS

I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'D BE IF WITHOUT THIS
REALLY AM BUT I ACT LIKE I'M NOT PISSED
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, OUT OF OPTIONS
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, I CAN'T STOP IT

They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don't know that he hated that shit
They don't know that he needed to scream, that he needed to sing to get out that ditch
Yeah the lyrics were deep but the shit he was saying did not feel complete
This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I'm missing a piece

Oh my God, which of my turns were wrong?
I can't find out, I been here way too long

this is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that i'm missing a piece.

Produced by flower x luffysome

This song expresses raw pain, rejection, and a deep longing for love and validation. It reflects a cycle of seeking fulfillment through a relationship, embracing pain as a necessity and using anger as a coping mechanism. From a faith-based perspective, it highlights the emptiness of trying to fill a void that only God can truly satisfy. It’s another piece of my story that could be reframed as a testimony to healing and transformation.

Misplaced Identity and Worth:

“I need the pain, I ain’t nothing without it.”

This line reflects a dependency on pain and rejection to define my identity, which ultimately leads to toxicity and despair. God calls us to find our worth in Him, not in our suffering or others’ approval.

“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession.” (1 Peter 2:9)

The Futility of Seeking Validation:

“Gave her my heart, she ain’t care nothing about it.”

This lyric echoes a common struggle: placing your heart in the hands of someone who cannot fulfill its needs. God offers the love and care that no human can perfectly provide.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)

Embracing Pain as Inspiration:

“Fuck inspiration / I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it.”

While pain has driven my creative process, this lyric reveals the limitations of using anger and despair as a source of inspiration. God invites us to channel our experiences toward healing and purpose.

“Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” (Romans 12:21)

Longing for Love and Connection:

“I just wanted to hold your hand.”

This simple yet profound statement speaks to a yearning for closeness and intimacy. The Bible reminds us that God is always present, offering a love that fulfills this deep need.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

Lyrics

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
Say she love me but I fucking doubt it
Nobody saved me, I was drowning
They don't hear what I'm saying, they just hear how I'm sounding

She don't care that I'm hurting, she left me deserted
I want her love but I guess I ain't worth it
I just spoke up, don't ask how I wrote it
I feel like a rodent

Everybody I see only wanna get rid of me
You don't understand what you just did to me
Girl, I wish that you knew what you meant to me
I'm so good to you but you so mean to me

What you mean to me, guess I don't mean to you
Girl, you're my drug and I fiend for you
Baby, call me when your lips are black
I would bleed for you

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

Know that I should but I can't let it go
Did so much but you don't even know
If she isn't there then I don't wanna go
Need the pain so I don't wanna cope

Fuck inspiration
I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it
Broke my heart but bitch, I ain't breaking
This a song but bitch, I ain't faking

Bitch I ain't faking, I swear
I would prove it to you if I cared
But I don't so I guess that you won't
And it's cool cause I know that you don't

Understand all the shit that I'm sayin'
I just wanted to be your man
I just wanted to hold your hand
But you told me that I can't

i just wanted to hold your hand.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

Produced by GAXILLIC & DreamUnion

Lyrics

I know what I did, please don't rub it in
I'm already beating myself up over it 
And I don't need you telling me what I already told myself
Couldn't care about you hating me, I loathe myself

I tired asking God to forgive what I did
I hurt so many people but that was not my intent
I was tryna heal my mind with a heart that was hurt
I would lie, lie, lie just to feel like I was worth

I wanna die, die, die, put my body in a hearse
I don't know why I feel I'm only getting worse
I can't get no better, fuck this, my head hurts
Won't wash that sweater, I can still smell her

You're not here and you won't be back
I'm so stressed and I can't relax
I send text's but you won't read that
You're the one that got away but I'm just your ex

I needed you but you didn't need me
You never told me that you were leaving
Girl I told you I'd be there for you
Told me I wasn't enough for you

I never know what to do and I'll never know what I did
All of the love that I want is in you but all of the love that you give is to him
What in the fuck did I do wrong? Baby just let me fix it
If we're not meant to be together then this ain't a life worth living

you're the one that got away but i'm just your ex.

Lyrics

Fool me, told me that you would be there but you never was
Choose me, baby, I wish that you would give me your love
Use me, anything you need to do to me to be enough
If she doesn't want me, I'm not enough
If I give her time, then she'll see that I'm enough
Move on, wish that I could but I can't cause baby I'm stuck
Don't wanna do none, I had my hope, love, and dreams crushed
I miss that girl but she don't give a fuck, feel like 2019, not enough
And I know that I'll never bе, and I know that I never was
And I know that you nevеr cared, and I know that you never could
When you told me that you would be there
Part of me knew that you never would

when you told me you'd be there part of me knew that you never would.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

2 layer track ive been working on for about a month Lyrics are from February 2020. Converted a poem into a song "I Am The Key". Thank you so much for listening and supporting! it means a lot for a little indie artist like myself...

The Key

Like glass, All I wanted was to fix you, Now my hands are bleeding.

you're the one that got away but i'm just your ex.

unknxwn.

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