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co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

produced by caves : )

were u being sincere when you calling me
everynight for a few months you were onto me
its getting too much when you leave
why'd you make it so hard just to breathe
i blame it on you but i think it was me
i knew you would go but i thought we would speak
just stay get rid of my fears
the last thing id say is that i love you dear
your head on my bed im holding you near

im nervous another year you look over
you're perfect i need to let go of her
but i cant but i cant wish i could but i cant
but i cant cos i loved her

id kiss on your neck but it brings it my tears
stay right here get rid of my fears
i cant even say your name
no way your happy being mine
touch my neck im getting shivers down my spine
not getting better but i tell everyone im fine
i think that you would be happy when i die
i want it end it all when i see him lie
i wanna hurt him bad if you cry
all i ever had was the sky
now its all bad when you fly
im really not glad your my ally

im nervous another year you look over
you're perfect i need to let go of her
but i cant but i cant wish i could but i cant
but i cant cos i loved her

now your just a name on my phone

nervous

guitar by @prodjpjp
prod me
lyrics

im eating her bodyweight no, i know that you hate my face. bro
neck it down w a slice of cake yo, lets hold back from tainting grace, hoe
stomach thin w a feint of shake woah, she grows back but cant stay, loyal

im curious by the way that he touch you
im destroying us by the weight of my bad mood
im enjoying us, everyday is so bad dude
depression getting worse, i cant even leave my home dude
do i deserve this bad, i swear that i want to hold you
ur all i never had, i swear to god that i told you
does he want you back, as much as i do
i guess i like, i guess i like you

im eating her bodyweight, laying down as i deflate
where are you now, as i replay
deep in the ground is my only space
where are you now, i got something to say
i live in hell its the only way
i couldent tell that i need your face
locked in a cell and its called my place
how can you tell that i need a razor;
the trees when i stepback feels like safest place
if i see your guy ima stomp on his face
are you alright im not scared to embrace
whats that from your eye, get those slits of your face

cake

produced by sleepwater
piano by melon musik

wait for me in my next life
i swear that ill be fine
got three new chains on my neck fye
tell me im divine
got a deer trapped in the headlights
in a road full of pine
its coming near, following through me
i dont really mind if i die
through the window my neck and spine
i watched my body die
on the ground theres blood on the floor
never leave my side
tendants broken to the core
pendants my neck when im sore
penance she let her mourn
permanance purgatory
in doors

It's october, branches casting 
dont let go were everlasting
antidote w car fumes rising
way too close my hairs nearly frying
check his pulse a boy here is dying  
dont convulse a tear, see him trying
release from every joy now im crying
convinced u not to steer, into the dying

chemicals in my heart i feel so gloomy
with you youll tear me apart
im scared youd lose me

me
her

mourn

w @xona

produced by sleepwater speedlmt leftquiet and xona

lyrics

i needed some revenge
but i dont wanna vent
can you hear me now
its hurting my head
stop shutting me down
you were half of me wow
but now your not here
i need a way out
u were liquid to me
maybe mixed w some sea
but now she is flying
i wanna retreat
guard my heart
while u stand
from the mill
its feeling far
when u tell me its real
how could i move on when
i dont even want to
ill let this go on
cos i dont know how to
miss you
another song where
i vent bout my issues
waitings long come rip
out my tissues
im so selfish
everyones got traumas
im not speaking can u let me follow her
do i need therapy or pills in my fucking head
my life expectancy
cheers for all this fucking stress

im escaping every night my fucking hed
pls dont aim in
counting on my fucking hed
collecting all my fucking debt
pounding hard right out my chest
guess im sleeping thats a flex
lets skip eating and have sex
what are you eating guess thats bread
what are you doing no no
who are you with now
its how it spread
would u even like me
cant u tell that im trying
oh pls just like me
i swear that im crying

xona
i thought i need to go and let loose of me
but I’m stuck inside where the sun don’t seep
so i just watch along as the days runs deep
and i got my tea in hand so I’m calm for the least
and i don’t know, who i could be
i feel alone, when there’s others around me
i can’t cope, you know it better than me
to let it go but I’m the worst you could be
to go back home
where I could find a home cause I feel alone
falling, dying right here for you

oh i dont wanna talk
im ruined

ruined w/xona

produced by sleepwater 

lyrics:
i hate everyone except you
lovers leave is overdue
i let myself   accept you
everything was made for two
i need a girl with hair
down to her shoulders yeah
hurry dont hurl round here
well i  know its cold my dear
we'll never lose hope round here
dont ever give up

 oh yeah, hello, oh yeah, help

pushing my limits no one going to stop it
killing my ex promise you never saw it
bashing our heads against the floor and the faucet
bath tub full of blood limbs in the closet
savour her head tie it up in a forest
its friday tonight but not the thirteenth
take off my mask so you its real
BURY HER BODY AND LET EVERYONE SEE
butcher that witch and go in for the kill
fill up the cask until her blood spill
leave her in a ditch then im going to chill
move on to next she got eliminate

violent

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and melonmusik

lyrics:

leave it down in my heart now
seeing stars in your eyes now
im alive but i cant tell
my life is fading out
stay here in my arms fly away
i look at you in my head to keep away
tomorrow dont come so i say today
i need you and i love you
ima relive it again
again again again
again again again

i slammed their door im scared of it all
ran past a brick wall and threw my phone
it felt alien that place you call home
i was never welcome there
inside the ufo
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
and says im not having this
and says im not having this

suck me up in the ufo and tell me you wanna go with me
you can feel my cuticles ur face has took a hold of me
pressure on my arm babe you damaged my artery
i might be unusual atleast i got everypart of me

feels like you had afair
places i wouldn't not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this

am i the anomly
or am i common
im not an enemy
im too broken
im too broken
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here

come here, i love you

'paranoid' produced by heylog

lyrics:
we go and hike in the woods
what a perfect place to be
all my troubles behind
no sign of reality
i could live here and build
a shelter out of trees
say goodbye to the world
no electricity
the way the sun hits the water
i swear i see god himself
i feel shame, i feel hurt
it's like i'm somebody else
i try to hide but it's not
gonna help or save me
cover up all the shame
like adam and eve

i intimidate her
i think she's scared of me
cause your biggest fear is that i'll leave
and then you'll carry on
like nothing happened
and then you'll think about me one night and leech in
why don't you try me
i'm always hiding
i'm like a needle in a haystack, u won't find me
my teeth, i'm grinding
feel like i'm flying
i told you once, i'll say again you'll never find me

hanging out down by the creek
couple deer following me
if i stop to look at them they just stand there as if they freeze
why haven't they ran away?
figured they wouldn't have stayed
hear some branches crack behind now i'm paranoid of this place
look to my left and my right
check my shoulder one more time
maybe i'm a schizophrenic, i be fearing for my life
you hear that, you hear the tones?
i'm convinced i'm not alone
maybe i'll go deeper in the forest to find out if i'm pyscho

we go and hike in the woods
what a perfect place to be
all my troubles behind
no sign of reality
i could live here and build
a shelter out of trees
say goodbye to the world
no electricity
the way the sun hits the water
i swear i see god himself
i feel shame, i feel hurt
it's like i'm somebody else
i try to hide but it's not
gonna help or save me
cover up all the shame
like adam and eve

spotify

paranoid

6.
prod. awfuldrama

I’m anxious, so I’m sorry for saying sorry uh
You fake it like nobody, like nobody does
Set the pace then, when you climb on, when you ride on top
Make it painless, when you fuck me, when you fuck me up

Cause it’s the inevitable that you’ll leave
No one seems to stay with me
Pessimistic, I know
Just realistic that’s how it goes
Could you call me before I get the wrong idea
Cause I’m stressing with you not right here

I’m anxious, so I’m sorry for saying sorry uh
You fake it like nobody, like nobody does
Set the pace then, when you climb on, when you ride on top
Make it painless, when you fuck me, when you fuck me up

sorry for saying sorry

1. 
prod. softscars

(Don’t runaway from this, it won’t just disappear)
(Do you see the veins in your wrist, come here babe face the fear)

It’s all changing so fast
Drifting from my past 
What do I have left if it’s not you?
I needed your help, don’t know what to do
Singing code blue
Sick as fuck, flu

Don’t runaway from this, it won’t just disappear
Do you see the veins in your wrist, come here babe face the fear
Face the fear
Face the fear
Face the fear
Face the fear

code blue

2.
prod. awfuldrama 

I felt so awful for how I treated you
You’re leaving me, tell me why so soon?
(Why so soon, tell me why so soon)
Now its just me left here inside this room
And all I smell is your perfume

And I’m calling out to you
You’re on the other side 
Of the river 
And there’s nothing left to do
But to photograph your life
And leave it all, in the picture 
I feel it all slip out of my hands
You said we shoulda just stuck to our plans
All good in hindsight, yeah I guess
And I’ve been blindsided by a friend 
At least someone I thought was here for me
Yeah I guess it’s not always what it seems
Had to take a step back, God, I had to breath
I’ve really gotta fucking have a rethink 

I felt so awful for how I treated you
You’re leaving me, tell me why so soon?
(Why so soon, tell me why so soon)
Now its just me left here inside this room
And all I smell is your perfume

perfume

3. 
prod. sinxi & oc

Everyday is starting to feel the same
I feel like I’m starting to lose my face
When you call, I’m there
When I call you’re not
My life’s in standstill
Like I’m stuck in a rut

And it all just repeats on loop
The same damn day
Said you’d call that wasn’t the truth
I hate the games you play 
And nothing is changing, my feelings grew faded
I’m not good with patience, so don’t keep my waiting
I’m out of creation, my thoughts running vacant
I’m sick of disgracing the people who made me

A state of decay
Leaves me rotting away
It’s hard to retain 
All that sense you’ll replace
What matters the most 
When I’ve been here with scorn
Your face can convey when your pushed to the wall

And it all just repeats on loop
The same damn day
Said you’d call that wasn’t the truth
I hate the games you play 
And nothing is changing my feelings grew faded
I’m not good with patience, so don’t keep my waiting
I’m out of creation, my thoughts running vacant
I’m sick of disgracing the people who made me

groundhog day w/ sinxi

drops on all platforms - friday 13th june 💫

produced by: @prodjolst
featuring: @ripskele

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it 

[skele]
i pray that someone take me home 
im not seeing right 
im mixing pills into my drink
so i can sleep tonight 
god i know u make me sore 
i don’t need reminded 
fucking kicking down that door
didn’t try to hide it
pouring up this drank 
into my cup gon make it worse 
i can’t even speak 
fuck up this check 
so it don’t hurt
put this metal to my brain 
go afk 
i’m making sure
hope i forget about ur face 
i pop this k 
like its a cure

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it

tired w/ skele (jolst)

at least he wanted something 

prod: @vito2300
 
you know i like it when you speak to me soft 
most nights i spend with you alone
feels like we don’t even talk 
know you don’t need me at all 
i’m just taking up this space 
know i’m just here by default

don’t want another 
staying here is gon make me suffer 
n my body shudder 
another night i spent playing lover 
so over summer 
sunlight poking right thru the shutter 
laid under covers
every time i just let him under 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

facing the repercussions 
it’s just what happens 
i can’t help that i'm no good at loving 
i’m just so unbecoming 
he only want me in passing 
at least he wanted something 

yeah is it too much 
promise i’ll be good enough 
be what you want 
even if i can’t feel your touch 
i'm leaking blood 
just waiting till i'm getting crushed 
and when we’re tongue to tongue 
i almost feel like there’s an us 

i’m just a body 
take it off 
and come put it on me 
no need for talking 
when it’s done 
you don’t need to call me 
this shit gon haunt me 
coming round it gets so disheartening 
i guess he caught me
every touch it just leave me starving 

but i’m still there 
right under you
every time 
you call my name 
in the way that i like 
don’t make me feel like 
i am more than a night 
god i tried 
god i tried 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

i know i do this to myself 
i know what’s going on here 
i know i could avoid it, well
i know you’ve put it so clear
and it’s so stupid that i’m wiping my tears 
yeah it’s so stupid that i hold you this dear

unbecoming

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i'm a mess
i barely know me
and my head
is so unholy
but i'm good
somethin pulled me
i don't know
she kiss me slowly

i gotchu figured out
you did me wrong and u wonder why i'm distant now
i stepped away cus i got sick of the room being loud
staring at a screen for hours designing sounds
and bringing in a crowd
how did i make it work
and i never thought i'd be saying "i did it first"
projects so big to where i couldn't even finish dirt
got my speakers shaking like this shit could blow a surge
i think my neighbors heard

open my window
breathe in air
sun sets at 8
wrap my arms around her body
while she kiss my face

whatever they said, don't believe em
don't let your own friends deceive you
whatever she said, don't believe that
i'll always look out for your back
don't believe a single word that she said
everything you heard is far from the truth
don't believe a single thing that she says
she says
she

don't be nervous
take a deep breath in
who you know doing it like this
face first going straight in the pavement
might as well just embrace it
weekend night
everybody goin out
except for me
it's the gym or my house
saw you just got back from the bar
that's cool
i'm just locked in makin art
prolly knocked out
2am i'm working
making my sound
i'm my own person
couldn't really tell you where i'm at for genre
i do everything and i'll do what i wanna
put your phone down, i don't want a photo
put a song out and don't even promo
post it on the gram, lotta people on it
post it on my story and your sister saw it
gotcha 
knew you wouldn't like that
flip flop
watching this moron crash
can't blame no one except for yourself
that's gotta be a record for switching that fast
how you gonna call me ugly
but stick around still obsessive w me
like i ain't dumb enough to put you under my sleeve
knock out, ya shoulda thought before u said anything

obsessed

produced by jolst & taylor morgan 

i’m stone cold 
with the pole
like i’m frozone
she split the 80
like a pro
n now im so sold 
she ask me if im cool 
i’m like 
idk bro
i’m feelin like a junkie 
poppin percs
when im solo 

and i hope she didn’t clock it
my girl nearly find like half a 80 in my wallet
i jus poured the whole set now i’m feelin supersonic
i got a g.a.p hoodie on like im no longer in the closet 

and i just spilled my fuckin cup, shit
half a litre deep
rockin that “can’t get in the club” fit 
i’m pourin amber til im kippin in this cockpit
and im pourin santa i got bells up in my cup, kid rock with the glock 
i got weed in my sock, 
kicked the cup 
and for what ? 
poppin pills 
throwin up
poppin pills
i pop a lot
until i choke 
like papa doc 
i hunt rabbits papa doc 
my name ain’t clarence papa doc
pulled the glock said pop a squat
or get a hole straight through your top
catch an AM robbie knox 
paradox like robbin cops
on ur block im robbing shots
im giving testers to ur pops 
bring an army to the block 
n they’ll get slept like shannon ross 

i’m stone cold 
with the pole
like i’m frozone
she split the 80
like a pro
n now im so sold 
she ask me if im cool 
i’m like 
idk bro
i’m feelin like a junkie 
poppin percs
when im solo

IDK (JOLST + TAYLOR MORGAN)

FACEDOWN

lyrics ⬇️

when you call me
i wont pick it up
you should know this
yea you shoukd know this
and im not sorry
you shoulda noticed
i was there for you yea i swear i was closest

look how the flow switch
i know that they gon love it
thought everything was picture perfect until
you had broke it
you broke it
now i can’t even focus
not inside of my room or when im at work but im hoping

wonder when ill get outta my head out my headspace
im locked inside my skin when i scream they dont hear me
so whats the reason i should be here clearly
i shouldn’t
i know its not alright but ima keep it keep it pushing
and i dont wanna lie but i been doing what I shouldn’t 

they dont wanna see me happy but im chillin here im grinnin
i dont wanna see you they think that im crappy im a villain
maybe that is true
but i refuse to see that vision 
i dont wanna lose my hope if i dont have to

i got bad news
you wont see me no more ima be way past you

should i (hostile)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
time will tell
pick the gun up and shoot in the head (in gta)
don't worry
you don't have to get by playing pretend
tried to be nice 
but i ended up losing friends
i disappeared and don't ever wanna talk again

driving on the freeway
the same one i saw that look on your face
you told my boy it's been hard to reach me
"talking to log isn't easy"
stop tryna get me to hangout
without you i've picked up the pace now
just go ahead
select all, delete it
i'm done and i'm leaving
been a while, i wonder if you'd recognize me
always thought what we had was strong as concrete
spoke too soon and i shoulda moved on way long ago
don't know you and i can't believe we used to be close
tempted to pick the gun up and shoot him in the head (in gta)
at the time all i wanted was for you to be dead
stupid bitch, you don't wanna live life playing pretend
don't be asking for guidance or for a hand to lend
swear it felt like yesterday
i don't recognize this place
it sucks that shit's permanent
and that scar won't go away
it don't matter where you are
at your house or in your car
i'm stuck there next to your hip
your fault you took it too far

shoot

thank you to https://soundcloud.com/sendflowrs https://soundcloud.com/remghost https://soundcloud.com/jvbeats666

it's so ugly
i let everyone control me 
and i can't think 
so i just lay awake and worry
blurry
your words just cut me , have some mercy
you never fail to leave me scars
that's why i'm hurting

it's why i'm hurting
i can see your eyes
i know they're burning
and i can't feel you in the dark
i know you're lurking
you really love to see me bleed
i'll close my eyes now
you really love to leave me scars
so bring the knife out

(flowrs)
knife out, knife out
baby bring the knife out 
and i’m so fucking sick of this
i guess i’ll say goodnight now
and i know you’re laying with him 
so i’ll scratch my fucking eyes out
you’re tryna match his breathing
he’s asleep, i’ll fucking cry now
gave me 3 chances, 
blew em all i guess i’ll strike out 
your rope is weak, this fucking hole i’ll never climb out 
she told me “never go to sleep with all the lights out”
cus she won’t show me mercy, wants me dead, i guess i’ll die now

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