idk i thought i’d be dead by now

SadBoyProlific - I Dont Need Ur Help

Lyrics:

I'm sick of all the fighting
The fire is igniting, so what's the point of trying to go another night
I'm sick of all the lying and thoughts about me dying
Like what's the point of crying, just wanna end my life

Cause I'm lost and nauseous, living is exhausting
Tried to end a couple times but never really offed it
Caution, shocking, sick of all the talking
Wish I wouldn't die alone but I don't have the option
I had a lot fun in this life but it's misery
Thought that it'd get better with time but I'm incomplete
Built you up you fed me with lies now I'm distancing
For right now I think I'm alright but I guess we'll see

So I'll die a fucking burden, a piece of shit and worthless
Could never put the work in, my life is a disguise
I'm numb but also fragile, my love is more than astral
They tell me I'm an asshole but all I am is nice

Cause I'm lost and nauseous, living is exhausting
Tried to end a couple times but never really offed it
Caution, shocking, sick of all the talking
Wish I wouldn't die alone but I don't have the option
I had a lot fun in this life but it's misery
Thought that it'd get better with time but I'm incomplete
Built you up you fed me with lies now I'm distancing
For right now I think I'm alright but I guess we'll see

I been giving it my all to get by
I really wish I didn't wanna die
I Keep trying to get better
I still don't understand why my chest hurts
I guess this what I signed up for
But really I could never be sure
I'm really feeling under the weather
It's raining in my head I feel I pressure

Cause I'm lost and nauseous, living is exhausting
Tried to end a couple times but never really offed it
Caution, shocking, sick of all the talking
Wish I wouldn't die alone but I don't have the option
I had a lot fun in this life but it's misery
Thought that it'd get better with time but I'm incomplete
Built you up you fed me with lies now I'm distancing
For right now I think I'm alright but I guess we'll see

Lost and Nauseous

produced by jhove
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
maybe when we're older
i'll finally get it right
lay your head on my shoulder
as we drive into the night
i dont wanna be here if im not with you
(be here if im not with you)
maybe when we're older
i'll finally tie the knot
im so immature 
but i ponder it a lot
i just wanna spend my life with you
(spend my life with you)

yeah i know im making excuses
im on the brink boutta lose it
when you are feeling by yourself
i just sit and make music
yeah it's messed up i know it
i care and wanna show it
but it's kinda difficult
because i know you're also broken
i can change it, trust me
i know it's hard to love me
there's a lot that i dont talk about
i shrug it off, its funny
how i know you feel the same
and im the one to blame
maybe someday i'll grow up
but for now i'll stay the same yeah

i dont deserve you
(i dont deserve you)
i know i have issues
(i know i have issues)

yeah but you helping me through them
healing my cuts and my bruises
what you been doing is working
and my conditions improving
oh take me back tonight
i cant explain whats inside
and now im feeling the vibe
and now im feeling alright
(and now im feeling the vibe
and now im feeling alright)

maybe when we're older
i'll finally get it right
lay your head on my shoulder
as we drive into the night
i dont wanna be here if im not with you
(be here if im not with you)
maybe when we're older
i'll finally tie the knot
im so immature 
but i ponder it a lot
i just wanna spend my life with you
(spend my life with you)
x2

when we’re older (jhove)

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Lyrics:
I got butterflies and I feel it all up in my lungs 
Reaching heights and I can almost even touch the sun 
A million lies I could have told, but never ever once 
I can't mess this up when I know you're the one 

I got butterflies and I feel it all up in my lungs 
Reaching heights and I can almost even touch the sun 
A million lies I could have told but never ever once 
I can't mess this up when I know you're the one, for me 
Playing hide and seek with my feelings, I'm too scared to talk to you because of all the reasons 
I just wanna take a walk up on the beach side, but first I gotta build up courage just to say hi 

It's gonna take time 
Just to say hi 
Cause I gotta commit and never ask why 
Time to grow a pair 
Brush my teeth and fix my hair 
Red or blue or does she care? 
Take a breath and get some air 

I'm breathing in and then I'm breathing out 
Does she even care? or is it just self doubt? 
I give off too many feelings, but i'm the one who needs this 
I'm the one who needs this, losing all my feelings, don't know how to see it 

Jomie:
I'm uh
Doing what I have to 
Caught up doin the most, so I don't see you in a bad mood 
I'm made outta stone, and I'm really trying to smash through 
I don't really get it, but it's fine I'll have better luck tomorrow 
Still got your whispers in my head, they've been engraved 
Tell me when you're satisfied, "When you're in a grave" 
I was born inside the darkness, I'm feeling like I'm Bane 
And you should have saw it coming, before he had to break 
But it's cool though, I've been out this world they say I'm goofy like I'm Pluto 
You know what they say "If the shoe fits" I wear the suit yo 
You can really catch my cool though, I don't like to fight 
Brought a knife in case you rude though, ah ha mmm 
Life is an exam, best believe I failed the test 
Put me in a circle, still I'm different than the rest 
They like told me "If you up, why you find the need to flex?" 
Cause they all counted me out, this is what they couldn't guess 

Lxst Boy:
I got butterflies flying out of me 
Yeah, you got me in a panic, happened suddenly 
So I hope there's not a line 
I just got something on my mind 

I just wanna talk and take your time 
I know I won't fall asleep tonight 
Cause I got you on my mind 
I'm hoping I could be your guy 

I got butterflies and I feel it all up in my lungs 
Reaching heights and I can almost even touch the sun 
A million lies I could have told but never ever once 
I can't mess this up when I know you're the one, for me 
Playing hide and seek with my feelings, I'm too scared to talk to you because of all the reasons 
I just wanna take a walk up on the beach side, but first I gotta build up courage just to say hi

Butterflies (feat. Jomie & Lxst Boy) (Prod. Cløud & Jkei)

Hearing Voices (Prod Rajaste)

So Thankful

Lil Neecy – Cold Nights

A dark, melodic trap anthem with heavy 808s, spacey synths, and emotional auto-tuned flows. “Cold Nights” blends pain and flex, heartbreak and confidence — inspired by the late-night energy of Future but stamped with Lil Neecy’s own sound.

🎵 Vibe: Toxic love • Hypnotic • Night drive
🔥 Genre: Trap / Hip-Hop / Melodic Rap

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Cold Nights

room to breathe

convolk - A Million Messages; No Response [prod. deject]

this is an old song, but it means a lot to me.

verse 1

last night
wasn’t my best night
my wrist looking like i got into a bear fight
i’m kinda scared 
because i really don’t feel right
i mean,
is everything supposed to be this bright? 
i might past out this time 
and i’m having flashbacks of my timeline
yo, i’m thinking that these cuts 
are way too deep
please help me,
i don’t wanna fall asleep.
and that’s when,
i heard the call on my phone
so i picked up 
because i’m all alone
and you didn’t even know 
you were just at home
so i put it to my ear and said hello
and you asked me if i was okay
then i said no.
not really today
then you told me,
you were heading my way
how did you know that i needed a save?
i’m just glad that it wasn’t too late

(hook)
do you know why i’m a mess
i’m never out of bed
it’s all inside my head
and on the stereo 
a song i listen while i bleed
i hope i never breathe
the way you look at me
you see right through my sleeves

verse 2

tell me how you do it though
girl i really wanna know
it’s not like i’m that public yo
i’m never on the radio
you treat my sleeves just like a ghost 
how do you know?
can you see my cuts?
do you watch them grow?
if it wasn’t for you
i’d be six feet deep
i’m strong now
but i once was weak
you know i’m hurting 
when we still don’t speak
your eyes froze 
from the blood in the sink
i’m sorry that i put you through this
but i promise that i’m on a new movement 
i might fall 
but i know i won’t lose it
so i thank you and look imma prove it
yeah

(hook)

sleeves (prod. haruhi) [unreleased]

somewhere nobody can see us (prod. noria)

Gone by Lil Yung Pharaoh
available on all streaming platforms

lyrics:
Yeah, yeah
We doin' drugs in the party
Shit, somebody come stop me
I might OD on coca
I can smell the aroma
We got that snow, Nova Scotia
I sip until I'm slumped over
Shit, we off Percocet pills
My bro just touched me on shoulder
He said he wish life was over
Then I said, "Bro, why you trippin'?"
I wish I said something different
'Cause if I said something different
Then maybe he'd still be livin'
I swear sometimes when I'm drivin'
I wanna fucking crash the whip
I don't like being in public
So I just do the dash and dip
I always wish I told him this
Instead of, "Homie, pass the spliff"

Don't commit no suicide
Right now, it's a do or die
Wish it was just you and I
Don't commit no suicide
Right now it's a do or die
Wish it was just you and I 
Buss down on the Cartier
Sad songs my guitar, ay, yeah
Do drugs in the party, yeah
Buss down, buss down, Cartier
Do drugs, do drugs, Cartier
Do drugs in the party, yeah
Yeah, yeah

I was gone off some molly
If I OD it's on purpose
I'm just tryna stop the hurting
But shit man these drugs ain't working
I just touched bro on shoulder
Told him I wish life was over
Same bro that I grew up with
Them birthday parties, sleepovers
He just brushed me, said I'm trippin'
I don't think he was sober
He must have thought that I was joking
He was gone off the coca
I'm so gone off the molly
Tell my family, "I'm sorry"
I tried to reach out they brushed me
Now this blade finna cut me
20 years up on this earth, then I just turn into a ghost
They said I could have been so much
But that's how the story goes
(So I just do the dash and dip)
I always wish he told me this
Instead of, "Homie, pass the spliff"

Don't commit no suicide
Right now, it's a do or die
Wish it was just you and I
Don't commit no suicide
Right now it's a do or die
Wish it was just you and I (Dee B got that heat)
Buss down on the Cartier
Sad songs my guitar, ay, yeah
Do drugs in the party, yeah
Buss down, buss down, Cartier
Do drugs, do drugs, Cartier
Do drugs in the party, yeah

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Produced by @citrusgastank & @skinnyatlas

Cover art by ig @yaboyavid

you only want me when you're sober

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