This song is a deeply personal and emotional journey, exploring the complexities of pain, hope, and resilience. Through the lyrics, I aim to convey the struggle of navigating darkness and finding solace in creative expression. The song is about holding on to hope, even when it feels like everything is falling apart, and using music as a lifeline to cope with the pain and find a way forward. It's a reflection of my own experiences and emotions, and I hope it resonates with those who listen.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Wake to the gray, no reason why
I fake the smile, let the silence lie
Tears beg for release behind my eyes
But I swallow them down, like lullabies 

My pen’s a blade, it cuts me free
I bleed the words no one else can see
In minor chords, I pour my soul
A shattered heart in a broken scroll 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one knows how loud it screams
When all you are lives in your dreams 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 2]
I’ve painted skies in midnight tones
Sung lullabies to broken bones
But in the shadows, sometimes I find
A spark that whispers, “You’re still alive” 

The joy I fake, the hope I write
Is how I learn to fight the night
A fragile light behind the veil
A voice that says I will prevail 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one sees the war I wage
Behind the smile I wear onstage 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 3]
It’s hard to stand when silence screams
But I keep building lifeboats from dreams
Some days I write just to survive
Others I sing to feel alive 

My sorrow’s ink, my joy’s disguise
But somewhere deep behind these cries
There’s a fire that won’t die
No matter how much I want to say goodbye 

[Bridge]
So here I am, broken and bold
With songs like scars that never grow old
This voice is cracked, but it’s still mine
A lullaby lost in time 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Sung from the ledge where hope once bled
If I can feel, if I can write
Then maybe I can win this fight

Each chorus pulls me back from fate
Reminds me that it’s not too late
And through the tears I leave behind
I still believe I’ll be fine 

[Outro]
So I write... and I cry
But I don’t say goodbye
My song’s are not done yet
And I’m still alive you bet


Notes from the Edge

A world of chaos, the work of man.

Cumbianaut-Ritmos de verano

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The Ballad of the Golden Calf / Double Dutch Mix
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another fictionalive /+/ szalap collab - Shout-out!
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/// the ballad of the golden calf
by fictionalive: re-imagined, written & performed narration
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music you hear = two tracks:
‘lab’ + ‘samples mastered’
written, produced & provided by szalep
courtesy of szalap @kacper-razdwarazdwa
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fictionalive + szalap aka mc fukoff
arrangement & mix
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fusion of it all –
fictionalive with the popoems series and the hyper media reports
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cover art: fictionalive, that’s it
fair use only
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dropped july 21st, 2025
01:01 pm – central european hot summer time / rainy, cool breeze today
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keep shining ✨
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The story of the golden "Kalb"—better known in English as the Golden Calf—is a famous episode from the book of Exodus in the Hebrew Bible. 
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Here’s what happened:
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After Moses led the Israelites out of Egypt and up to Mount Sinai, he went up the mountain to receive the Ten Commandments from God, staying there forty days and nights. 

His long absence caused anxiety among the Israelites at the camp below. Fearing Moses might never return, the people approached his brother Aaron and asked him to make them a new god to lead them.

Aaron told the people to gather all their golden jewelry, which he melted down and fashioned into a golden calf—a symbol likely borrowed from Egyptian religious imagery. 

Aaron then declared that this idol was the god that brought them out of Egypt, built an altar, and proclaimed a festival. 

The Israelites began worshipping the calf, offering sacrifices, feasting, drinking, and dancing around it.

Meanwhile, God informed Moses of the idolatry and threatened to destroy the people for their unfaithfulness. 

Moses pleaded for mercy on their behalf, and God relented from total destruction but promised consequences.

Moses returned to the camp, enraged at the sight of the idolatry. He smashed the stone tablets of the law, burned and ground the golden calf to powder, mixed it with water, and forced the Israelites to drink it. 

Moses then ordered the Levites to punish the ringleaders, resulting in the death of about three thousand people. 
God later sent a plague as further punishment.

The story’s moral is a warning about the dangers of idolatry and turning away from faith, especially at moments of uncertainty. 

It also underscores the necessity of strong leadership and devotion in maintaining spiritual discipline. 

The golden calf remains a potent symbol, often interpreted as a lesson about the perils of faithlessness, materialism, and communal disobedience.

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The Ballad of the Golden Calf / Double Dutch Mix

Monkeys and Robots

Dreamarrest

Tuning 440
Timing 4/4 (Changed to 2/4 bar 49 this is to cheat the DAW into not stretching midi vs wav then anything else - delay on the beat achieves the actual step up in tempo after the timing change)

Chords // Bm  / G / Em //


JJ Calls

Praying hands
Whatever cause
Once the greater good not lost
Bored children create their fun
We shelve French horn for this fine one
"Nice one lads" We read it all!
Vacation taken
To JJ calls
Neighbour to good Mickey Moore
Find Michigan piano pure

Down the road city of cars
To Howell front deck
Dad and Guitars
We jam that love then tell the world
Love and service human highway knurled
Good bi-product of happiness sought
With Croatian fun to cloud we court

Terrell Terminator in Jungle
Predator for good
Keys like Mr Bungle
Faith in more like we could
He Thanks you
It's lifestyle
Built from a porch
Good collective friend
Keep lighting that torch

Some moments sealed, marked and moulded
Pure intention
Dark blindfolded
Howl from human to Howell good soul
Keyed keystone as collective role

JJ calls
Darkness falls
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
JJ calls

JJ Calls - Session 4

Velvet Groove - BOUKHA Paris

#The EDM #Club #Dance #BigHouse #Progressive house 

This song was written and created by: J J Samuel ✍️ 🎧 🎶 

Who doesn’t like a cool refreshing beer! Or Cerveza in Italian 😎 🇮🇹 🕺 🎶

Cerveza

Metamorphosis (Into You)

The chrysalis is broken. Soul emerges and takes flight.

Sweet Symphony of Light

Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here. Especially for some of the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course, I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️

BTW if you follow me, I will ALWAYS follow back. If I like your music, I will follow you, but if you don't follow me back within a week or so I will probably unfollow. The same goes for when I see someone listening to my music, I WILL follow, however, if they don't follow me back within a week or so, I'll unfollow, because I'm at my limit of follows and I want to follow back everyone who follows me. Did not know that SoundCloud limits us to following only 2000. 😢













Notes from the Edge

VickStiX