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These songs are a deeply personal and emotional journey of self-expression, creativity, and resilience in the face of depression, loneliness, pain, and despair. They explore the therapeutic power of writing and music as a means of coping with the darkness and finding solace in the silence. I want to convey a sense of longing for connection and understanding while also celebrating the liberating force of artistic expression. Ultimately, they offer a message of hope and perseverance, affirming the human spirit's capacity to find beauty and meaning in the midst of sorrow and pain.

My Cathartic Writing songs

This is a collection of powerful songs that confront the shadows of mental health. This thought-provoking playlist delves into the complexities of depression, suicidal thoughts, loneliness, and emotional turmoil.

Featuring haunting melodies and raw, honest lyrics, these songs provide a cathartic outlet for those struggling with inner demons. From the desperation of "Last Resort" to the haunting vulnerability of "Help" and the intense emotional release of "Kill the Noise", each track sheds light on the darkness that often accompanies mental health struggles.

Purpose: To provide a voice for those struggling, foster empathy and understanding, and encourage open conversations about mental health.

Resources: If you're struggling with mental health issues, please reach out to:

- National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-TALK)
- Crisis Text Line (text HOME to 741741)
- Your local mental health resources


*Warning:* This collection addresses sensitive topics; listener discretion is advised.

Sad/Depression/Suicide 😢😭

This playlist is for the moments when the silence feels deafening, and the only sound is the echo of your own thoughts. It's for the nights when the city outside feels alive, but inside, you're struggling to find connection. These songs are a reminder that you're not alone in feeling alone - that there are others out there who have felt the same emptiness, the same longing for human touch.



My songs about Loneliness

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Your Mix 1

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Verse 1:
In the dead of night, I find my voice
A lonely whisper, a heartfelt choice
To pour my soul into the empty space
And let the melodies fill the darkened place

Chorus:
Oh, these songs I write, they set me free
A cathartic release, from the pain that's me
In the silence, I find my sound
But echoes of loneliness, forever surround

Verse 2:
Sleepless nights, they become my friend
As I strum and sing, till the morning light creeps in
I write of hope, of love, of shattered dreams
But the emptiness remains, like a hollow theme

Chorus:
Oh, these songs I write, they set me free
A cathartic release, from the pain that's me
In the silence, I find my sound
But echoes of loneliness, forever surround

Bridge:
Maybe someday, someone will hear
The whispers of my heart, the tears I hold dear
But till then, I'll write in the night
And let the music be, my guiding light

Chorus:
Oh, these songs I write, they set me free
A cathartic release, from the pain that's me
In the silence, I find my sound
But echoes of loneliness, forever surround

Outro:
So I'll keep on writing, through the dark of night
And maybe someday, I'll find the light
But till then, these songs will be
My solace, my refuge, my melancholy sea

#AokiChallenge #contest

Melodies in the Dark

While screamo metal isn't typically my genre of choice, I felt an intense, aggressive sound was necessary to convey the emotional depth of this song. For those who have experienced the overwhelming darkness of severe depression, you'll understand the urge to unleash a primal scream into the night, seeking release from the suffocating pain. This song is for you.

#AokiChallenge #contest 


LYRICS

[Verse 1]
In the silence of the midnight, I'm lost in my thoughts,
Pages filled with sorrow, every line’s a battle fought,
Words spill out like tears, but no one sees their light,
I'm a ghost in my room, screaming into the night.

These songs are my escape, my own form of therapy.

[Chorus]
I write songs for the lonely, whispers of despair,
Where the ink bleeds my sorrow, floats on empty air,
No one hears my story, just echoes of my plight,
But these verses keep me breathing through the endless night.

[Verse 2]
Each strum of the guitar is a heartbeat out loud,
Melodies of anguish, wrapped up in the crowd,
But in this darkened corner, I'm safe with the pain,
Wishing for a moment, someone else felt the same.

Lost in this rhythm, where the shadows stay awake.

[Chorus]
I write songs for the lonely, whispers of despair,
Where the ink bleeds my sorrow, floats on empty air,
No one hears my story, just echoes of my plight,
But these verses keep me breathing through the endless night.

[Outro]
In the quiet, I'm alive, just me and my pain,
These songs will never fade, they’ll keep me sane.

Midnight Confessions

This song is a powerful and emotional ballad that sheds light on the painful and traumatic experiences of a child who has suffered abuse and neglect. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a young heart lost in darkness, shadows, and silence, with tears falling like rain and scars etched on their soul. The chorus is a call to action, urging the voiceless to scream, to fight through nightmares, and to stand up in the shadows to bring truth to light. The song's message is one of resilience, hope, and liberation, with the outro offering a message of freedom and healing. The tone is haunting, intense, and deeply moving, with a soaring melody that conveys the emotional depth of the lyrics.

My own personal description of this song is in the description of 'My songs about Child Abuse' Playlist...
https://on.soundcloud.com/YSCep


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
In the silence of the night, shadows creep,
Whispers of a heart that's lost, and deep,
A child’s tears fall, like rain on the ground,
Inside these walls, where no love is found.

Echoes of pain, scars etched on my soul, 
This troubled heart never feels whole.

[Chorus]
Scream for the voiceless, the cries unheard,
Lost in the chaos, no solace, no word,
Fight through the nightmares, reclaim what is right,
Stand up in the shadows, bring truth to the light.

[Verse 2]
Behind closed doors, where darkness resides,
A broken spirit, where innocence hides,
Anger burns like a flame, fierce and wild,
Each bruise a reminder of the lost child.

Fury roars, can’t hold it inside,
Trapped in a battle, where hope has died.

[Chorus]
Scream for the voiceless, the cries unheard,
Lost in the chaos, no solace, no word,
Fight through the nightmares, reclaim what is right,
Stand up in the shadows, bring truth to the light.

[Outro]
Rise from the ashes, let the past bleed,
A heart still beating, but forever freed.

Whispers of the Silent

Step into the haunting world of 'Monsters Under my Bed,' where childhood fears come alive. This eerie, atmospheric track weaves a terrifying tale of creatures lurking beneath the bed, waiting for nightfall. With haunting melodies and pulse-pounding rhythms, this song embodies the primal fear of being trapped in a never-ending nightmare. 

Imagine yourself as a child, lying in bed, paralyzed with fear as whispers creep and monsters stir beneath. The darkness pulsates with malevolent life, feeding on your dread. Will you escape, or will the monsters consume you? 

Embark on this spine-chilling journey, where fear and imagination collide. 'Monsters Under my Bed' will leave you breathless, questioning what lurks in the shadows.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
In the shadows where they play,  
Whispers creep and hide away,  
Little feet upon the floor,  
Monsters' eyes, they want more. 

Beneath the bed, hear their growl,  
Waiting for me to take a bow. 

[Chorus]
Under my bed, they wait for night,  
Silent screams, too scared to fight,  
Dread is clutching, fear's the guest,  
Monsters rise, they know me best. 

[Verse 2]
Fingers scrape across the wood,  
Heartbeats echo, misunderstood,  
Every creak a chance to run,  
But darkness laughs, "I'm far from done". 

Just a nightmare painted black,  
In the dark, there's no way back. 

[Chorus]
Under my bed, they wait for night,  
Silent screams, too scared to fight,  
Dread is clutching, fear's the guest,  
Monsters rise, they know me best. 

[Verse 3]
Shadows dance upon the wall,
Echoes of forgotten calls,
Footsteps fade, the darkness grows,
Monsters' whispers, my heart knows. 

[Bridge]
Under terror, can't escape,
Darkness surrounds, my soul aches,
Frozen in fear, I lie awake,
Monsters' playground, my heart shakes. 

[Verse 4]
Creaking floorboards, a sinister grin,
Eyes glowing bright, from within,
The darkness pulses, alive and strong,
Monsters' realm, where I belong. 

[Chorus]
Under my bed, they wait for night,
Silent screams, too scared to fight,
Dread is clutching, fear's the guest,
Monsters rise, they know me best. 

[Repeat Verse 3]
Shadows dance upon the wall,
Echoes of forgotten calls,
Footsteps fade, the darkness grows,
Monsters' whispers, my heart knows. 

[Repeat Verse 3]
Shadows dance upon the wall,
Echoes of forgotten calls,
Footsteps fade, the darkness grows,
Monsters' whispers, my heart knows. 

[Outro]
In the silence, I hear their call,
A haunting whisper, beyond them all,
A chilling reminder, I'm not free,
Monsters under my bed, eternally.


Monsters Under My Bed

"Lonely and Scared" is a haunting, introspective ballad probing the shadows of painful relationships. With poignant lyrics and soothing vocals, it confronts the darkness of recurring heartache, questioning destiny and self-worth. The song's narrative delves into the anguish of emotional and physical scars, echoing the longing for answers: "Why does love come with a price?" and "Do I even deserve?" It's a relatable, soul-stirring exploration of vulnerability, resonating with those weary of love's trials, wondering if happiness is within reach.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I feel the echoes of a love that's long gone,
A heart that’s been shattered, just trying to hold on.
From scars on my skin to wounds deep inside,
Every chance that I take, I just seem to collide.
Got me questioning life, all that I’ve known 

[Chorus]
Why does love come with a price that I pay?
When will the darkness just fade into day?
I’m seeking the light, but it ends in a blur,
Lonely and scared, do I even deserve? 

[Verse 2]
Each face is a mirror, reflecting my fears,
I’m trapped in this cycle, lost count of the years.
Still haunted by moments of trust that I've lent,
Wondering if love was a path I was meant.
Maybe it’s fate, or maybe it’s me?

[Chorus]
Why does love come with a price that I pay?
When will the darkness just fade into day?
I’m seeking the light, but it ends in a blur,
Lonely and scared, do I even deserve? 

[Outro]
Twenty years later, I’m still on my own.
Love's just a ghost that I've never known.

Lonely and Scared

"Break the Silence" is a poignant anthem of resilience and hope, encouraging embracing vulnerability, speaking truth and finding strength in shared struggles. With soaring vocals and an inspirational melody, it shines light on the transformative power of self-expression, overcoming adversity, healing through art and unity, reminding us our voices matter and together, we can rise above darkness.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
We live our lives in shades of gray
Words unspoken, feelings astray
Losing hope with every passing day
But I believe we'll find our way
Spoken words cut through the dark 

[Chorus]
Let the silence break, let your voice spark
From the depths of our souls, we embark
On a journey of healing, of love, of art 

[Verse 2]
Tears fall like rain in the night
Facing demons, ready to fight
Yet in our vulnerability, we find our might
Together, we'll emerge in the light
Whispers of hope in the dead of night 

[Chorus]
Let the silence break, let your voice spark
From the depths of our souls, we embark
On a journey of healing, of love, of art 

[Chorus]
Let the silence break, let your voice spark
From the depths of our souls, we embark
On a journey of healing, of love, of art


Break the Silence

"Vines of Doubt" is a poignant, emotional journey through the shadows of self-doubt and fear. Haunting melodies, introspective lyrics, and soaring vocals capture the struggle to overcome.


LYRICS:

[Verse1:]
I'm lost in the shadows, where fear takes its toll
A prisoner of doubt, where darkness makes me whole
I question my worth, and the choices I've made
A never-ending cycle, of self-doubt and shame

[Chorus:]
Vines of doubt, they creep inside my mind
A silent assassin, that I've learned to hide
The weight of my fears, is crushing me down
Vines of doubt, are they my greatest enemy, or my crown?

[Verse 2:]
The silence is deafening, as the world rushes by
A cacophony of chaos, that I try to deny
The vines keep snapping, as new doubts arise
A constant reminder, of my deepest, darkest lies

[Chorus:]
Vines of doubt, they creep inside my mind
A silent assassin, that I've learned to hide
The weight of my fears, is crushing me down
Vines of doubt, are they my greatest enemy, or my crown?

[Bridge:]
Maybe I'll find my way, through the darkness and the pain
Maybe I'll learn to love, and let go of the shame
But till then, I'll sit here, in this endless fight
And wonder, which path to take, through the dark of night

[Chorus:]
Vines of doubt, they creep inside my mind
A silent assassin, that I've learned to hide
The weight of my fears, is crushing me down
Vines of doubt, are they my greatest enemy, or my crown?

[Outro:]
Do I push, do I pull, or do I sit and hide?
Do I leap, do I crawl, or do I step aside?
The vines keep whispering, "you're not enough"
But I'll rise up, and shine, and shatter the doubt.

Vines of Doubt

This song is a deeply personal and emotional ode to the transformative power of music and creativity. It's about finding solace, peace, and inspiration in the process of writing and composing, and how that creative expression can be a source of comfort, healing, and self-discovery. The lyrics weave a poetic and introspective narrative that explores the intersection of heart, mind, and soul, and how music can be a universal language that transcends words and emotions.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
In the silence, I hear your call
A melody whispers, beyond them all
I'm drawn to the shadows, where words come alive
In the darkness, I find my light

[Chorus]
Oh, the symphony of my soul
Echoes of emotions, forever whole
In the harmony of heart and mind
I find my solace, my peace of mind

[Verse 2]
Like a phantom, inspiration haunts me still
A fleeting dream, that I must fulfill
I chase the whispers, through the night's dark veil
And in the morning's light, my heart sets sail

[Chorus]
Oh, the symphony of my soul
Echoes of emotions, forever whole
In the harmony of heart and mind
I find my solace, my peace of mind

[Bridge]
In the language of lyrics, I find my voice
A world of feelings, in a single choice
Of words that weave a tapestry so fine
A reflection of my heart, in rhyme and time

[Chorus]
Oh, the symphony of my soul
Echoes of emotions, forever whole
In the harmony of heart and mind
I find my solace, my peace of mind

[Outro]
And when the music fades away
I'll hold on to the words I've made
For in the silence, they remain
A symphony of love, a heart that still sustains.

Symphony of Love

This song is a deeply personal and emotional reflection on the pain of feeling abandoned, ignored, and silenced by those who were supposed to be there for me. The lyrics are a heartfelt expression of the isolation, shame, and desperation that can come from being left behind by friends and family. It's a cry for help, a plea to be seen and heard, and a testament to the enduring pain of being forgotten. I hope that by sharing this song, I can connect with others who have felt the same way, and remind them that they are not alone.

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Whispers in shadows scream to the void
Heartbeats echo yet they are destroyed
Loneliness in a crowded room
Drowned by silence
Left to gloom

[Verse 2]
Eyes like ghosts that fade away
Words unspoken
Got nothin' to say
Walls closing in
Suffocation's near
Eyes burning with unshed tears

[Chorus]
Silent echoes
Call my name
Ignored
Forgotten
In endless shame
Break the silence
Hear my cry
In darkness
Where angels die

[Verse 3]
Mirrors shatter in my mind
Lost reflection
Hard to find
Noise around me
No one hears
Drowning fears
Hiding tears

[Bridge]
Voices muted
Screams are hushed
In this silence
Dreams are crushed
Begging
Pleading
Unheard plea
Won't someone
Someone see me

[Chorus]
Silent echoes
Call my name
Ignored
Forgotten
In endless shame
Break the silence
Hear my cry
In darkness
Where angels die

Where Angels Die

This song is a heartfelt and emotional expression of the pain and frustration that comes with feeling ignored and unsupported by those who matter most.

Born out of the darkness of depression and loneliness, this song serves as a cathartic release of emotions and a testament to the power of music as a means of healing and self-expression.

The lyrics convey the hurt and anger that comes with sharing my creations with loved ones, only to be met with indifference and silence. It's a painful reminder that sometimes, those who are supposed to care the most can be the ones who hurt us the deepest.

Despite the pain and frustration, this song is also a declaration of resilience and determination. It's a message to those who have ignored and unsupported me, and a testament to the power of music to transcend pain and adversity.

To those who have taken the time to listen to my songs and support me, this song is a heartfelt thank you. Your kindness and encouragement mean the world, and are a reminder that there is still good in this world.

So listen closely to the words, and let the emotions resonate deep within your soul. This song is a gift from my heart, and a reminder that you are not alone in your pain and struggles.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
In the darkness, I created light
A symphony of emotions, a heartfelt fight
I shared my soul with you, through every lyric and line
But you didn't bother to listen, you didn't even try

[Verse 2]
I thought our bond was stronger, our love more true
But now I'm left to question, if I'm just going through
The motions of a relationship, that's lost and cold
A facade of family and friends, that's growing old

[Pre-Chorus]
You're supposed to care, but you're not even there
A silent indifference, a hollow, empty air
I'm screaming for support, but you're turning a deaf ear
Leaving me to wonder, if you even truly care

[Chorus]
Will you ever take the time, to listen to my songs?
It isn't hard, it doesn't take long
Strangers are lending an ear, and showing they care
Why can't you, family and friends, show me you're there? (Show me you're there!)

[Pre-Chorus]
You're supposed to care, but you're not even there
A silent indifference, a hollow, empty air
I'm screaming for support, but you're turning a deaf ear
Leaving me to wonder, if you even truly care

[Chorus]
Will you ever take the time, to listen to my songs?
It isn't hard, it doesn't take long
Strangers are lending an ear, and showing they care
Why can't you, family and friends, show me you're there? Let me know you truly care!!

[Bridge]
Maybe I'm just a ghost, invisible and unseen
A fleeting thought, a moment's pause, a life un-lived, a dream unseen
But my songs will rise above, my words will cut like a knife
I'll make you hear me, I'll make you see, the pain you've left in my life

[Pre-Chorus]
You're supposed to care, but you're not even there
A silent indifference, a hollow, empty air
I'm screaming for support, but you're turning a deaf ear
Leaving me to wonder, if you even truly care

[Chorus]
Will you ever take the time, to listen to my songs?
It isn't hard, it doesn't take long
Strangers are lending an ear, and showing they care
Why can't you, family and friends, show me you're there?

[Outro]
So I'll keep on writing, my heart beating loud and clear
And maybe someday, you'll hear me, and wipe away my tears
But until then, I'll rise above, creating my songs unbroken and free
A testament to the love, you refuse to give back to me.

So Called Family and Friends

So Called Family & Friends

This song is a haunting and emotional journey into the depths of darkness, pain, and mental turmoil. It's a raw and honest portrayal of feeling trapped in a never-ending cycle of suffering, with fear, anxiety, and despair looming large. 

The lyrics convey a sense of desperation and hopelessness, as I'm drowning in my own emotions, unable to escape the shadows that haunt me. The song's atmospheric and introspective soundscapes perfectly capture the feeling of being lost and alone in a world that seems to be suffocating me. 

Throughout the song, the I grapple with the idea of losing myself to my inner demons, wondering if I'll ever find a way out of the darkness. The song's poignant and emotional delivery makes for a deeply relatable and cathartic listening experience.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Lost in the darkness, I'm searching for light
A never-ending nightmare, haunting my sight
Can't sleep, can't wake up, I'm drowning in pain
A prisoner of my mind, forever in chains 

[Chorus]
I'm going under, suffocating slow
A slave to these dreams, that I'll never let go
Is this the end of everything? Or just a new way to bleed?
Trapped in the fog, where shadows proceed 

[Verse 2:]
Fear is a poison, that infects my soul
A constant reminder, of the darkness I hold
I try to escape, but it pulls me back down
A never-ending cycle, of this endless frown 

[Chorus]
I'm going under, suffocating slow
A slave to these dreams, that I'll never let go
Is this the end of everything? Or just a new way to bleed?
Trapped in the fog, where shadows proceed 

[Bridge]
It's true, we're all a little insane
Fear is only in our minds, a toxic refrain
But what if I'm lost, and can't find my way?
Will I forever roam, in this endless gray? 

[Chorus:]
I'm going under, suffocating slow
A slave to these dreams, that I'll never let go
Is this the end of everything? Or just a new way to bleed?
Trapped in the fog, where shadows proceed 

[Outro]
I'm fading away, into the night
A whisper of hope, in this desperate fight
But the darkness whispers, "You'll never be free"
And I'm trapped, forever, in this misery.



I'm Going Under

"Only One, Bad Move" by A-laise is a track that blends a powerful beat with emotional depth, conveying a sense of firm resolve never to return, yet also revealing a faint trace of lingering feelings for the other person. With a lively, infectious rhythm that fuses elements of dance-pop and R&B, the song carries an undeniable groove.

Only One, Bad Move

A-laise - Only One, Bad Move

This song is about resilience and determination. It's about being broken, battered, and bruised, but refusing to let those experiences define me. I've been through the flames, but I'm still burning, still standing. The song is a declaration of strength, a refusal to be defeated or silenced. It's about rising above the pain and the noise, and finding a voice that's born from fire. I'm unbroken, I'm untamed, and I'm still standing, and that's a message I want to share with all of you.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I've been to the edge, I've been to the floor
I've been broken, but I'm walking out the door
I've been lied to, I've been cheated
But I won't let it define me, no, I won't be defeated 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 2]
I've been to the darkness, I've been to the night
I've been searching for a light, a beacon in the fight
I've been trying to find my way, through the noise and the pain
But I won't let it break me, no, I won't be chained 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 3]
I’ve been called too much, been told to hush
Felt the world try to crush me with every push
But I scream louder, I rise higher
You can't drown a voice that's born from fire 

[Bridge]
So go ahead and write me off again
Say I'm too wild, too fierce, too much to mend
But every scar is just proof I lived
And every fall gave me more to give 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Outro]
Still standing, still burning
Still fierce, still learning
I’m unbroken — yeah, I’m still standing

Still Standing

This song is a deeply personal and emotional journey, exploring the complexities of pain, hope, and resilience. Through the lyrics, I aim to convey the struggle of navigating darkness and finding solace in creative expression. The song is about holding on to hope, even when it feels like everything is falling apart, and using music as a lifeline to cope with the pain and find a way forward. It's a reflection of my own experiences and emotions, and I hope it resonates with those who listen.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Wake to the gray, no reason why
I fake the smile, let the silence lie
Tears beg for release behind my eyes
But I swallow them down, like lullabies 

My pen’s a blade, it cuts me free
I bleed the words no one else can see
In minor chords, I pour my soul
A shattered heart in a broken scroll 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one knows how loud it screams
When all you are lives in your dreams 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 2]
I’ve painted skies in midnight tones
Sung lullabies to broken bones
But in the shadows, sometimes I find
A spark that whispers, “You’re still alive” 

The joy I fake, the hope I write
Is how I learn to fight the night
A fragile light behind the veil
A voice that says I will prevail 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one sees the war I wage
Behind the smile I wear onstage 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 3]
It’s hard to stand when silence screams
But I keep building lifeboats from dreams
Some days I write just to survive
Others I sing to feel alive 

My sorrow’s ink, my joy’s disguise
But somewhere deep behind these cries
There’s a fire that won’t die
No matter how much I want to say goodbye 

[Bridge]
So here I am, broken and bold
With songs like scars that never grow old
This voice is cracked, but it’s still mine
A lullaby lost in time 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Sung from the ledge where hope once bled
If I can feel, if I can write
Then maybe I can win this fight

Each chorus pulls me back from fate
Reminds me that it’s not too late
And through the tears I leave behind
I still believe I’ll be fine 

[Outro]
So I write... and I cry
But I don’t say goodbye
My song’s are not done yet
And I’m still alive you bet


Notes from the Edge

A song against fascism in America (and around the world)
Check out the music video! It's not a dull political lecture - it's fun, I promise!
https://youtu.be/ljzN-jlpQoY

No Kings for Me

I will not bow
My knees will not bend
There are no kings for me

I will not yield
Send your goon squads back to hell
There are no kings for me

How did the worst of us rise to the top?
Degenerates and hypocrites
The ugliest Americans
They won't depart you if you're white
And love is their kryptonite

Now I am a vagabond in their stupid eyes
But this vagabond is free
Here's how it goes:
A coup by twisted billionaire bros
But there are no kings for me

I'll hide my face
From their dark surveillance state
I'll piss on their graves
You'll see
Their fear hate and lies
And lies and lies and lies
I've built up immunity

How did the worst of us get to decide
That we support murderers and genocide?
Better watch your step because
Here come the masked American thugs

I will not kiss
Your gangster ostentatious ring
There are no kings for me
Your time is up
Your fascist dream is crumbling
The vagabonds sing "we are free"

And why do the worst of us hate us so much?
I never hated them until
They bowed down to the antichrist
They chose their path to hell
I wish that I could wish them well

No I will not bow
My knees will not bend
There are no kings for me
I will not yield
Send your goon squads back to hell
There are no kings for me

No Kings for Me

https://youtu.be/cyrC7TQS4HA?si=BsLgIt15MQmfZ_xC

LOST IN THE SAUCE.mp3

This is a powerful anthem born from a movement of strong, talented women who are redefining the music industry. This song is a celebration of female empowerment, creativity, & solidarity. The spark that ignited this movement came from the incredible @bobby-b-phoolan, who started the #UnapologeticallyHER Playlist on SC & brought together a community of women artists who are making their voices heard. As a member of this group, I wanted to honor Bobby's vision & the sisterhood we've formed, so I created this song as a tribute to the movement & the women who inspire me every day. This song is a reflection of our experiences, our struggles, & our triumphs. We're not just making music; we're creating a legacy. We're unapologetically ourselves, & we're proud of who we are. From the lyrics to the beat, every element of this song is a testament to the strength & resilience of women. So, get ready to join the movement. This is #UnapologeticallyHER
https://rb.gy/qcoi3i

[Verse 1]
Step in the circle, the fire ignites
We queens link up, redefining the heights
Not lookin’ for permission, we buildin’ our own
From verses to beats, every woman in her zone
They said it’s a boys’ club, we flipped the script
Now SoundCloud buzzin’ with the power we spit
Bobby lit the spark, now the torch gets passed
From René to Sarena—yeah this movement gon’ last
No competition, just rhythm & rise
We see through the fake with truth in our eyes
Sisterhood born from the pain we survived
Now we unapologetic, loud, fierce, & alive

[Pre-Chorus]
We ain’t sorry for the shine, we ain’t dimmin’ for none
Every scar made a star, now the healing begun
We got dreams in our pens, got strength in our verse
So we spit with a purpose & rewrite the curse

[Chorus]
Unapologetically HER—yeah we show up bold
Every rhyme like gold, watch our legacy unfold
We don't ask, we take the mic, break the mold
Ain’t no fear in our flame, only stories untold
Unapologetically HER—every note, every line,
Got a crown on our soul and a reason to shine.
We the sisters we needed, the fire, the cure—
Together we rise, Unapologetically HER. 

[Verse 2]
They call it confidence? Nah, that’s just truth
Been grindin’ since day one, in and outta the booth
Some say we lack courage—boy, you must be blind
We birth galaxies daily from the depths of our minds
Bobby built the vision with her heart wide open
Gave a voice to the silence turned pain into motion
Now JazZee, ShAnkAri, & every soul in the thread
Turn the page on the past, let the future be led
No more waitin’ for seats—we makin’ our table
Queens with a dream & the will to stay stable
We show love, drop gems
never do it for clout
We just speak from the soul that’s what HER is about.

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
DMs full of "almosts," egos & schemes
But we movin’ with vision, not thirst for the streams
We hear the backhanded love brush it off, keep on
'Cause we queens, we creators we the break of the dawn
From solo battles to collabs with grace
We found our tribe, found our sacred place
This ain’t just a chat, it’s a vibe, it’s a wave
It’s the anthem of the brave, for the ones who stayed
We ain't here to be liked—we here to be loud
To spit bars that heal & make our mamas proud
We got purpose in rhythm, divinity in rhyme
And we ain’t shrinkin’ for nobody, not this time

[Bridge]
To every girl told “no,” now you got a crew
A mirror of your power & a place that’s true
So when the world says hush we just turn it to art—
Bobby sparked a revolution straight from the heart

[Chorus]

[Final Chorus]
Unapologetically HER—this our sacred sound
From the underground queens to the world-renowned
We won’t beg to belong, we just build & roar
This is HERstory now—can’t ignore us no more

[Outro]
So here’s to the visionaries, the rebels, the real
To every lyric that dared to feel
To Bobby, the spark—we honor your flame
We’ll carry this light, keep pushin’ the name

Unapologetically, beautifully, fiercely HER—
No silence, no shame, just the sound of power
🎤👑✨

Unapologetically HER

After 18yrs of releasing a new song, Hostal Handshake are BACK!
Maybe just a single, maybe just an EP or maybe...an album? But we are Back! :D
#ripOzzy

Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYcakJJnz1E
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lyrics:
This is not a drill!

Give me something to break it in two
give me glory to rule the fools
take me in your house on a big flat screen
Ready to sink you on a dark black dream

Are you ready to become a slave of me?
Corrupted government ain't gonna set u free
All these righteous pre-election pigs
are now pointing the finger for you to pay the fee

Now it's the time, this is not a drill
ain't got no privilege , got nothing to feel
Your heart is gray from the news today
only your soul left in the end to pay


(p) & (c) 2025, Hostal Handshake.

This is not a drill! (new song 2025)

Automatic For The People

Everybody Hurts

Watch the music video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wfISNlnN0bI

Produced by: DJ Pumba

Snow Tha Product - Waste of Time

2019-04-10

Snow Tha Product - Say Bitch

Download 'Good Nights & Bad Mornings 2: The Hangover' now: http://bit.ly/GNBM2

Produced By: Money Moss

Download GNBM2

Damn It

20/20

Last Resort (2020)

Better Without You

Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here. Especially for some of the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course, I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️

BTW if you follow me, I will ALWAYS follow back. If I like your music, I will follow you, but if you don't follow me back within a week or so I will probably unfollow. The same goes for when I see someone listening to my music, I WILL follow, however, if they don't follow me back within a week or so, I'll unfollow, because I'm at my limit of follows and I want to follow back everyone who follows me. Did not know that SoundCloud limits us to following only 2000. 😢











