<3 why this bringing tears to my eyes wtf xipz 😭

Damnnnn your growth has been crazy to see this is gold😭🫶

this is crazy! this just came on randomly and i made the loop lmao

love you ryan<3 talk to you soon.
beat prod by: wisssery x nihil
written and performed by: popularreject

Ryan's song (p. wisssery x nihil)

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Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: xipz x cxrter
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
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LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
i guess i understand it, you dont wanna feel right now
i dont wanna feel either
im lost when im not with her
im an ass and i tend to act out
baby i think i need a breather
but i dont wanna breathe right now
i dont even wanna be around
no, not right now

[Verse 2]
i guess i understand it, you dont know what you want
and neither do i
but im falling apart as shes with other guys
so i look at the moon, admire the sky
while i got tears falling out my eyes
god why cant i just be him
whats she need that i cant give
god why cant i just be him
whats she need that i cant give

i guess i understand :/

Sorry for my inactivity recently. been finding it hard to put my thoughts into writing. thank you for 2k on your loss with @caspywaspy, thank you for my first 5k, and most importantly thanks for sticking by me. Ill be back fully asap.

Lyrics

man fuck why does nothin ever last
Wonder what that means for the people that i have
Will they miss me like ill miss them?
if they dont then what does that say about my worth 
Uhh , will 
I be okay?
usually i can sleep off all the pain
I tell myself the same every night 
Tomorrow ill be feelin alright

ill be fine when i wake up
Hate when they treat me like something im not 
trying my best to suppress the depression but im so damn close to just giving me up
Fuck
Sorry mum
I wish that i could be the son that you want
A credit to you but im useless as fuck
I should kill myself i wish i was enough
(I wasnt enough)

not doin enough
promise im trying my best to keep up
with all of my friends and my family my loved 
but this shits so hard with my mind in the mud

ill never be who i wanna be
Just a fat piece of shit with a brick for a mind
How did people ever like me?
What do you see in this excuse of a guy
Why do you all stick by me?
i did nothing to deserve that
shit would be best if i died, see?
Spilling my blood in the cold bath

ill be fine when i wake up
Hate when they treat me like something im not 
trying my best to suppress the depression but im so damn close to just giving me up
Fuck
Sorry mum
I wish that i could be the son that you want
A credit to you but im useless as fuck
I should kill myself i wish i was enough
(I wasnt enough)

enough (autrioly)

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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artists: teddyboi x Crizzy White x Danny's Adventures x GetBetter x JadedLoner
Produced by: lil XipZ x Crizzy White
Mixed by: lil XipZ x teddyboi x Crizzy White x Danny's Adventures x GetBetter x JadedLoner
Mastered by: teddyboi
Cover Art by: lil XipZ
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LYRICS:

[Intro: teddyboi]
yeah idk what i did but i really seem to fuck up
everythings to loud can you please stfu
you dont get it like me
pray that someone else kill me im like please
said i got a pyramid on top of my head
lots of percocet and codein all over my nightstand
best friends with Vyvanse and best friends with nicans
it over yet i cant im sorry but i cant

[Verse 1: lil XipZ]
i want you to kill me
just end it all quickly
im tired of feeling the worst

im lost inside the haze
im lost inside a maze
babe come look at my face
im the worst

[Verse 2: Crizzy White]
I know I'm the worst
Babe
I know that it's thirst
Babe
It's always the same things
Getting up in my way
Anxious tendencies
ADHD 
On the worst days
When it was our first date
Loved you from the first date 
I'm the punchline of a joke
At the end of my rope
Dead end of the road
Broken boy that you don't know
You only know me in the flow
You only know me when I grow
You'll never know me like for real
You only know what imma show

[Bridge: Danny's Adventures]
break me down, break me down now
hear me out, hear me out now
can not forget, still have no regret
anywhere you wanted to go i would take you there
oh yeah anywhere i go i cant leave you there
youll leave the rest behind

[Verse 3: lil XipZ]
thought that i could move on
i guess that i was wrong
dont know what im feeling
id say im feeling numb

you loved to see me at my worst
id say it isnt true, but it is and it hurts
feeling like my hearts gonna burst
next time you see me itll be in a hurst 


[Verse 4: GetBetter]
idk his lyrics

[Verse 5: JadedLoner]
She got me down on the floor
Damn near begging for more
I cannot stand this whore
Rather feel the blade soar
Over my wrist again
Now she’s calling my friends 
No I’m not feeling great more like I need a break 
And I’m 

Feeling the worst 
Even calling you first 
Catch me slip on that verse
Name dropped that lil bird
I’m the one that she stuck on 
I am hurt
If everyone wasn’t dying 
Probably pop me a perc 

[Outro: Crizzy White]
Suffering
Im mutilated
Spill my guts 
I'm recreated
Only live a lie
That's why I'm so dead inside 
I took the bottle to my brain
I said I'm ready for the ride
It's full throttle in the rain
Clip the bridge and fucking die
I'm a psychopath 
Insomniac
A broken boy
A fucking act
A filtered noise
Through broken glass
Of screaming thoughts 
I shouldn't laugh
But everything I hear 
I fear I'll feel it the morning 
I hold it way too dear
And near the tape is now recording

FeelTheWorst (w/ teddyboi x Crizzy White x Danny's Adventures x getbetter x Jadedloner)

prod. metlast x sor
mix: me
master: teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
art: my girlfriend <3

lyrics:

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat 

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing 

3 in the morning
i should be sleeping but im not
this anxiety has got its grip on me
this is something you won’t see
cause you’re caught up in a dream
so far away from the disease
im begging im down im on my knees
for someone to save me
but no one’s here lately 

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing

now you see me
now you don’t
now i’m gone and missing
you shouldn’t have gotten close

close (metlast x sor)

~2300~

Lyrics:
Eye's on my back
I wanted that
Moments lapse
And I collapse
So you can run and tell your friends
That i'm mental
All the words they use to keep it simple
Paranoid they're watching through the window
Hard to quantify the times I've missed you
Sift through the gore
Red on the floor
Beg me for more
Learned to sleep through the violence now
You let me down

Lot of old friends they don't wanna shake up
When I walk in all I get is fake love
Cut the grass saw the snakes on the way up
Try to code switch on me when the light's off
Lot of new friends hit me when they want sumn
Fake an ego trip i'm really on one
Was it dumb luck
Fell in with the wrong ones
Know why i'm still hung up on what it once was

And if you really bout it you can show me
One foot out of the door in case you're right
No use trying to force it i'll be fine
It seems you've finished your portion of my life

false-hearted

lyrics ⬇️ <3

(me)
cold heart
long arms you can reach
restart although I don’t wanna repeat
it’s hard for you to see
you can hardly even believe 
but I been going through it
so you have been deceived 

there’s high waters where I’m coming from
no way out I need someone to come and cover him
don’t bleed out
no high hopes I’m always suffering 
so astound
yea this time I don’t need a single thing from your mouth

but they’re never proud and I been alone
you’re never around to see
i don’t like my town I don’t like my crowd
but I’m not allowed to leave
somebody please help me
I’ll give you my love and peace
I’ll listen to wind hit trees
theres no way that I can sleep

and just like the rain all my tears have been pouring
she used to just make me feel so damn important 
inside
i trusted ur love but u sold me some lies
keep holding my hand while we wait for the time to tick
trying to cross but u burning my bridge
self medicate ima roll up a spliff
so unaware of the shit that you did 
to me
and honestly it’s getting hard
but trying my best is what tore us apart
and each time i talk you dont care what i say
i think it’s my fault im the one with the blame
and im sorryyyyy
i’m sorrryyy i knew where this would go
(me)
put the lights out tell everybody to leave
when the price down I always spend all my money
i try to hide out
but everybody come an find me
like what’s to cry abt
Like baby look at what’s all wrong with me

(greenwood)
'u up?' at 3 but i black out at 2
lately it's more than 'im not in the mood'
know that i wish that i wanted it too

i fill this cup like im probably dead in a year by myself
it's entirely on what i said
but i hate that you lied to me, fuck

solid states turn to disarray
at the edge, do you feel the same?
off the ket i've been up for days
you're the best, baby never change

i saw your face on the way down
cover yourself as it fades out
i'd be ashamed if you stay now
cover yourself, would you stay out?

and i fuck it up like a prodigy
on my own shit, i just wish that you'd talk to me
i feel at home with my place as a prodical
i take these pills, im ok when i'm off of them

never this way, it just fits so improbable 
hear what you said in the dark in the hospital
black in my skin i feel bad when i'm falling in
ask what had changed, i break down
fucking all of it

this town is a burden w/ halfhearted & Greenwood (slashy)

lyrics//

{halfhearted}
see the rain coming down and i wonder why,
why you took me out the game and you’re switching sides?
we both know we’ve been here before
put a knife in my back, pull me off the floor

they don’t know where i’m going
got a winter coat wrist froze from the snowing
you were how i cope 
i don’t need an oxycontin 
but when you let me go lonely roads i found hope in

used to get so lost in your eyes, now they haunt me
heard you found some other guy, but he’s not me
hope you have a wonderful life
i hope you have a wonderful life 

you can try the best that you can 
i’m still standing
heard he put a rock on your hand
that’s outstanding 
i don’t have no words left to say but i’m sorry
he can put a smile on your face, i’m still calling

it’s a long and winding road
and the ropes they got me choking
wrapped around my throat
with the words we left unspoken
you can try the best that you can i’m still standing
i heard he put a rock on your hand


{Greenwood}
off the side of the shipwreck
tracing in the sand what we did best
it's just hard when you live less
than i did this time last year and i miss it

moments encased but i feel this place like a prison
yeah you said that you're the same but we did shit that he didn't
couldn't talk to your parents i know they think that i'm different 
i'm just going through the motions, i thought this one was bigger

there's a wrong way to tell you
on a park bench in Bayview, i let the waves through
wrong way to tell you
i just hope that it happens again

maybe i triple up my output
started selling theses beats
put like most of it aside to buy you shit that you need
yeah i heard he's on some primo shit with cash he could waste
just to buy you shit you want i wish that i could relate

i heard he put a rock on your hand w/ Greenwood [wisssery & cxrter]

are you the real one
idk
if you don’t feel nun when 
ur alone

wont even let me finish any sentences
do it again and I’m leavin the premises
i don’t hate nobody but you been acting like villains so u be my nemesis

i cant trust nobody near
i got too much on my conscious 
some people fill me with fear
i look to my god he can solve it 

new issues
blue tissues from tear drops
i miss you
if you miss me then go rot

tell me what it was that I said 
i guarantee you don’t know it
you ran away so you could sob
but know that I do not forgive you

why did I think I could fix you
beginners luck idk what to tell you
beautiful person but I miss the real you
you

areyoureal w/ VITO (cxrter x vito)

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) (Ciche&Jarn)

try and tell me she don't play
try and tell me she don't play
i pray hope to god shit is gonna work
everything it could be worse 

yea i stand on that
till my feet hit the air damn i can't go back
promise you was gonna be there 
taking two flights baby 
baby don't be scared 
i been up all night baby

yea i stand on business
tell my famo what
i got my heart right here
pack yo ammo 
i might go go nuts 
put down your phone or somethin
alright i'm almost done 
i stand on i stand on 

fuck wait i don't need no relations 
no i won't open gates i won't make no mistakes
you trippin over texts leave that shit on read 
like why you always tweakin thought my phone was dead
always saying you ain't needing nobody ( it's all the time ) 
you fell in love with someone ( someone someone )
and now we're here it's all done 
sometimes i say it's over 
but i been moving closer 
can't fall in love with no one ( no one no one )
and i like i said it's all done ( with her )

worst

@vanity444

Selfish, it dont matter.

$25 features

i guess i understand :/

xipz

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