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production by maxeem

sure its funny 
but its still jst hard 2 talk abt
sayin that u luv me but its toxic evry time arnd :/
sure ive got some problems but i shudnt b who u talk abt

i dont lik when ur lik tht :/
i jus want another chance
some things come n go
its another one of those
u have 2 push against the stone
its okay no one ever knows 
"wont u shut up? let it go."

srry..

dont covr ur face
its 2 hard 2 look away
didnt work out :/
mayb we shud try another day
im attached to a screen
i cant seem 2 put it down...
i was screamin out ur name
didnt u hear me call it out...

sometimes its 2 hard 2 let go..
i was way to attached..
its like u shuda known tht.
mayb its my fault after all..
losin sleep over a dream
i dont think life is what it seems.

stream

addict (p. maxeem)

@rouri404

(maxime)
you left me open cut me open like a surgeon
cut so fucking deep now its got me hurting
yeah i didnt deserve this always lookin at it wrong
like did you deserve this?
yeah im uncertain get the money
then you know im fuckin splurgin
on a never ending cycle self destruction
blow it up escape this rut and then im running
now i fuckin run shit

(rouri404)
cut 2 deep blood puddled 2 my ankles
constant state of panic
Know id do it if u say so
anxious throwin up always say we goin up
know I used 2 give a fuck 
now I just want on that payroll 
clawing out my eyes at the sight of seein u with him
sun will never rise if I don’t admit 
2 myself that I need 2 get over this shit

self destruction w/ rouri404 (p. jolst)

eos (ft. heylog)

produced by xona

-lyrics-
im worried on what i do 
battleground where i fought for you
betting steps on my life, I’m tuned
to the harmonies that ensued

new year, who’s me.. huh?
nothing’s different, knowing me… no-
you’d pull the trigger in front of me, god
within these trenches where we meet “love”

~

you would KILL ME in a sec lose track of your senses
deep end- WITHIN MY ROOTS
you would LEAVE ME IN A SEC UNDER PRETENSES
you’re so NERVOUS UNDER THIS PRESSURE

feeling awful to my stomach (oh)
you make me sad and you love it (oh you love)
i suppose i feel off it (so off)
but it’s the same since of august

mm oh i don’t want you now
we don’t even click and that’s something profound 
Ill keep my mouth shut, no attempt to make a sound-
but i can’t keep still when you’re killing me around

~

you know when you talk to me
we can’t be tight or we fall by piece
and ember’s all through my chest
it’s the weight of me that kills the rest-

god..

velvet

spotify

produced by xona

- lyrics -
and my body 
feels light and I can’t go with you
and my skin falls off, it’s so cruel
but I’ll hang till you kill me this day
I won’t chase when you think I’m this way 

your spit 
(your words)
your spit
(got me)
oh~ voiceless 
(haunted)
voiceless

go

talk like you’re drugged, fucked up from all 
your wrongs but point to one’s you love
but if I die today, would you sing my way?
but do you feel that change? cause I feel betrayed 

the war begun and I’d entrust
many lives with my love

~

and my body 
feels light and I can’t go with you
and my skin falls off, it’s so cruel
but I’ll hang till you kill me this day
I won’t chase when you think I’m this way

spit

winter

via @universalchill
prod jolst x viera
music video: https://youtu.be/J9w6bF2pk90

go home,
go home 
out the cold
i feel so cold 
so cold
i just wanna keep you warm
but you lay in the dirt
in the dirt

n jus go home 
go home 
out the heat 
i am so hot 
so hot
i need your helping hand but u just let me burn
let me burn 

and this happens like every fucking autumn 
baby let the leaves fall down on my coffin 
i’ll make u a coffee when i leave in the morning 
the morning 

im fuckin geeked up when u be callin
i’m sorry that i slur i know u just don’t want it
i can’t help myself bein sober 2 boring 2 boring 

ima sleep in a little bit don’t hit my phone up
it’s not like i’m hurting anybody out here

i cancel all my plans and just cut the cord cus i need two 20’s for my head to feel clear

talkin bout 20’s i jus pop and pop them 
i know it’s not cool but im already here

i need a pretty girl to just cock her shotgun
and evaporate my heart 
i don’t wanna be here 

n i can’t make the music if the energy ain’t right 

n i can’t focus up unless there TR in my sprite 

i pour the pinewood till my chest don’t feel so tight 

2 fucked up u can’t kill me twice

think my heart just caved in 
i’m thinking bout all the time that i jus wasted
texting u but i don’t get a reply
like no way

i’m just a waste of space and
even with this music i don’t think i’ll make it
i’m spilling all my guts on this stupid
fucking iphone notes page 
x2

tarnished (jolst x viera)

music video:
https://youtu.be/DyWl0tQbD9Q

don’t go
please don't go I need you
you’re a fever dream and I'm sick of you
i can't find a reason you'd wanna be here with me
i adore you
you keep breathing yeah I'm in ecstasy
i won't stop
i’m driving all night just to have this for a second and

i’d ride all the way across the desert for you
y’all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
they don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
you the only one I can't see myself getting over

i’d ride all the way across the desert for you
y’all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
they don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
You the only one I can't see myself getting over

i really wanna be fine
i’m sorry I can't be that all of the time
you understand I'd do anything to make you smile
i don’t even wanna save you from yourself
i just wanna make you someone you like
i was lost and taking it slow I thought i’d do this right
got on i-95 and drove all night
when you're all alone I can't stand it
call me back when you hear this

i’d ride all the way across the desert for you
y’all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
they don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
you the only one I can't see myself getting over

i’d ride all the way across the desert for you
y’all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
they don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
You the only one I can't see myself getting over

fever dream (p. tennis player)

Well the world don't seem so small
When you're so far away from me
Tried to call you late last night 
But I hung up before the second ring 
Tried to follow my heart
But I would rather just fucking scream
Nothing makes no fucking sense
I need to wake up from this dream 

But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to live without you
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same 
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same
But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to fucking live without you 
Without you

the problem [bonus track] (p. shiki xo)

produced by xona

short song <3

-lyrics-
ill walk it back home and leave your love roam
your bitter tongue holds to find another one

home
(make it)
home

im not here for you no-uh cause im just tired of what you've done
you could call up all on my fuss but i'd ignore all of your calls
uh, yeah and im a side for you and you know that too
home is where i knew where im safe from the truth

ill walk it back home and leave your love roam
your bitter tongue holds to find another one

home
(make it)
home

home.

prod by me :)

lyrics:

smokin brick in my free time, 
if he wanna test me we gon show him how the lights shine
i think you should ask him if it's brighter on the other side
don't be talkin shit if you can't back it boy it'll save your life

don't be takin shit from people I don't even understand
that's why you'll stay in my dm's actin like some fucking fan
you should really grow a pair and say it with your chest man
actin so pussy but you never even seen that

I know if I keep on talking shit things will get bad
but you hurt me and I won't forget that
If I go to hell you're gonna have to come with me


[[retaliation & hesitance]]

clone

Prod by me :l


"Fuck-Society."

I see blood red, keep a [?]
kissing on my bruises, she might cause an omen
I see blood red, keep a [?] 
kissing on my bruises, she might cause an omen


I got attached now I know I should have closed you, 
your virus spread quicker than some ordinary flu, 
infecting all my cells, somethings with you
I could have sworn that I would only trust you
I came to find the things you say aren't right
I see your face and it gives me fight or flight
My circle is small because I like it being tight
I never talk so don't expect an invite 


I see blood red, keep a [?]
kissing on my bruises, she might cause an omen
I see blood red, keep a [?]
kissing on my bruises, she might cause an omen


[bitter-sweet short term re-acquaintance]

epicure

produced by xona

new insta since my last one got falsely terminated:
https://www.instagram.com/uvxona

-lyrics-
when you’re in my head
got your words into threads
“I don’t think you’ll ever find yourself”
now I feel like shit
still in my bed
where I am I just need your help
thinking what I’d done
my mind spirals a ton
it gets worse when I’m all alone
I got the blade of it all
I’m still holding your arms
whenever you wanna come and talk

time slips off my hands now
I can’t stand my own ground
got chains that hug me around
yet, you got me all the way down

down (x4)

chained to the bottom, got me under suffocating 
you put me on the side, nothing felt nothing changing
got too many things going on, too many faces
nothing i could switch, yet I’m always tryna chase it

whatever you said
I know it’s filled with some red
your voice is what I always miss
but why I do care?
you’ve been stalking for years
now that I made this myself
it was stupid at first
I knew the end of the verse
where we both knew we’d get hurt
it’s taking a truth
rip apart and then chewed 
I got nothing left for you…
 
for you (x4)

chained to the bottom, got me under suffocating 
you put me on the side, nothing felt nothing changing
got too many things going on, too many faces
nothing i could switch, yet I’m always tryna chase it

spit

xona

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