w/ @glitter_throat
prod: @prodmelik

@anti-light
this passing of time
i’m missing months in my diary
this passion aligns
with your indifference entirely
i keep coming back to your comfort
chains ‘round my heart
you’re the cracks in my walls
think i’m a breaking a promise again
don’t gaslight me i’m not your toy (ah)
wrapped around your finger (ah)
i’m torn inside my mind is light no more (ah)
cut deep my sight lost to your thorn (ah)

@glitter_throat
bloody hands, bloody legs, bloody heart
feel the pressure of a valve
that’s about to give out
i’m dying, pulling out thorns
i’m trying
(it’s never enough)
even on the floor, bleeding
but i always suck it up, i can’t get enough
i’m a victim to myself, i just play it out
if i’m dead and gone
do my wounds play a song?
so you know you were wrong?
even when i’m dead, i’m playing along

@anti-light
this passing of time
i’m missing months in my diary
this passion aligns
with your indifference entirely
i keep coming back to your comfort
chains ‘round my heart
you’re the cracks in my walls
think i’m a breaking a promise again
don’t gaslight me i’m not your toy (ah)
wrapped around your finger (ah)
i’m torn inside my mind is light no more (ah)
cut deep my sight lost to your thorn (ah)

Spotify

Thorn w/ glitterthroat (melik)

thx for listening :D
prod. @shatter3d and @jichuuu 

//

Memories tucked in a locket
I just wish I could stop these
All these false promises
Can you give me a second
I cant deal with this stress and
I just really need a rest man
I’m feeling less
It’s effecting me

Got this pressure in my head
I’m walking around like I’m half dead
I’m leading myself closer to my death
And I’m pleading with myself but I can’t get through my head
It’s no one’s fault but mine
This chill runs down my spine
I’m walking such a fine line
I just want to leave it all behind
Leave it all behind :/

false promises

false promises (shatter3d + jichu)

@prodkirian @makemeapromise i love this beat so much <3
- this a new era for me I cant wait to show what I got in store :D
// TYSM FOR LISTENING \\

when we talk i just want to leave
what you say I can't believe
and I cant live on like this
its not how all this should be
I'm done now you wont sway me
I'm finished I'm not waiting
all you do is just degrade me
now there's nothing remaining

if you want to try me you'll see
I guess ill show the real me
Im gonna let it all free
i guess we couldn't agree
ill leave this all behind
i see it chasing after me
i just hope it doesnt find
i hope it doesn't find me

I hope it doesn't find me
I'm so done with all this fighting
ill leave it behind me
I think I'm done trying

thinking too hard and I might just lose it
feelings so scarred and I cant improve it
I cant put down my guard cause I know you'll abuse it
lost all regard for you, ill lose it

I've been walking so blind
and I don't know why
I cant look in your eyes
and I think we might die
you can cut me in two
now I'm looking see-through
I wish I never knew
what I'd be put through

sitting here I cant no
longer here I don't owe
nothing now let me go
was it worth it now I don't know
too much in my head it'll overflow
you want me dead I already know
can we look ahead it was long ago

it was long ago

if you want to try me you'll see
I guess ill show the real me
Im gonna let it all free
i guess we couldn't agree
ill leave this all behind
i see it chasing after me
i just hope it doesnt find
i hope it doesn't find me

I hope it doesn't find me
I'm so done with all this fighting
ill leave it behind me
I think I'm done trying

i'm done trying

i'm done trying (kirian + surgeon)

@krmeee
drums + drop are me

playing pretend in the back yrd
hoping the story nvr ends
but she has to be inside at 9

now u go home n tell ur dad
tht boys just arent ur style
he says..
"honey ur just in denial"
u cant go back home
ur mothers words were final
go upstairs pack ur shit
or look down the end of a rifle

sending old love letters
hoping one day it reaches her
cus u were in love with the neighbor girl
when u were dumb and 17
but she never writes u back
maybe shes dead and gone
does any of it matter
when lifes still moving on

spotify ^w^

lifes still moving on (kuromee lilith)

tysm for listening :D
@makemeapromise @pw4prez

\\ lyrics //
I just woke up I don’t want to do this not again
I think I’ll choke up don’t know when this will end
Just leave me alone
Cause I know how this ends
I just want to go
I know that you’re not my friend

I don’t like it when you’re near me
You were never kind
This is all getting clear to me
Every time I’m near you make me weary
Yeah you never treated me sincerely

I don’t want to lose myself
My mind is numb and I can’t feel a thing
Don’t ask me to come
You know I’m not dumb
I won’t succumb
I won’t let you see me

I just want to throw it all away
Throw it all away
I won’t fall today
When you look my way
When you look my way

You never look at me kindly
I don’t want to see you beside me
And if you see me don’t mind me
I know that you never really liked me

pls don't come near me

pls don't come near me (surgeon + sochi)

me and my gang up nexx frfr.
@haveonlyonechance
w/ @nvrfallen + @ilyeczotic | @yureiclub
samara:
I'm going crazy with the Brodies 
I don’t wanna talk unless you know me 
You a bitch, you is fake, you a phony
Talking shit about my gang we kick you like a pony 

oh my god, all you is do always talk shit. 
Shut your fucking mouth bitch, why you is so toxic? 
You know I’m all paranoid, please do make me off it
Chilling with the yurei club and you we gonna pop shit 

Why you acting big bold? 
Bullets leave him mental
We is up it’s irrefutable
Please don’t ask it’s indisputable 
She’s an L I don’t want her 
I don’t care where we were 
And if you try to stop us we come back just like it’s rebirth

nvrfallen:
i think u tryna steal my flow
btchs doubt me idk
and ill die where i go
y r u always faking
i've been down bad i hate it
i take a minute to let my problems sink in
lately i feel like i have been forsaken
i wrote this verse to explain
lately my emotions have been of vain
and i like it that way 
whenever i see u i go away

eczotic:
get bands and i cannot stop it
u a op ur tracks keep floppin
yea dont try to talk to me keep walkin
enough talkin leave u in a coffin
bullets we gone hand out
hit him once then he ran out
big knife issa rambo
ima leave u where u stand bro
wit yo btch light a candle
later she gone ride me wit no handles
yuh gimme top ina lambo
yea i keep like two glocks they akimbo

rebirth w/ nvrfallen + eczotic (tenoji!)

prod @shatter3d @jichuuu
+ with @xokragz :D
TYSM FOR LISTENING

lyrics:
(me)
I cant pretend that it’s fine
I’ll lose it I cant live my life
It terrifies me feeling confined
I keep fighting cant escape my mind

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

(44everlast)
i gave a chance to you now
don't want to talk tryna find a way out
can't you see all the pain you been putting me through
all the promises made that i was never enough

fly away don't want to talk just
go away don't want to try
i fade away
theres something in the air right now
you played with me
now you pray for me

(me)
I cant pretend that it’s fine
I’ll lose it I cant live my life
It terrifies me feeling confined
I keep fighting cant escape my mind

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

I swear I swear I’m trying
I cant stop what is already dying
Turn me off I’m not surviving
Hear me cough you know I’m not lying

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

As I am crushed

i watched it turn to dust

i watched it turn to dust w/ kragz (shatter3d + jichu)

big cypher with some of my frIends ^_^ (tysm for the support recently)
thank you guys for being apart of this ily <3
@rewind214 @222bino @valberrie @law16lie @29cengi @1kidsora @lifegiverr @lukebike @breakupbreakdown @mis4ortune @sawlvy @ilyexotic @nvrfallen @noahsuri @bloodl3ak @alrunaxo @xternalz @sshiro @user-241106459 @i6neiru @gloomed
mastered by me ofc c;
s/o @gaugemountedthisone for mixing lukes vocals <3
s/o @tzunahmie for helping out aswell <3
s/o @yureiclub + @souls0ciety <3
prod @metisxx + @ton_bo0 <3
timestamps:
0:17 - 0:51 (me)
0:52 - 1:08 (rewind)
1:09 - 1:25 (vin0)
1:26 - 1:43 (valberrie)
1:43 - 2:00 (lawlie)
2:01 - 2:17 (cengi)
2:18 - 2:34 (kid sora)
2:35 - 2:52 (etterna/life)
2:53 - 3:09 (lukebike)
3:10 - 3:26 (breakupbreakdown)
3:26 - 3:43 (mis4ortune)
3:44 - 4:00 (sawlvy)
4:01 - 4:18 (eczotic)
4:19 - 4:35 (nvrfallen)
4:36 - 4:50 (noahsuri)
4:51 - 5:26 (bloodl3ak)
5:26 - 5:43 (alruna)
5:44 - 6:01 (xternalz)
6:01 - 6:18 (shiro)
6:18 - 6:35 (mika)
6:36 - 6:52 (i6neiru)
6:53 - 7:09 (gloomed)
7:10 - 7:44 (me again)
lyrics will be on genius or sum too much text smh

talk about it cypher

talk about it cypher + rewind, vin0, valberrie, lawlie, cengi, kid sora & more (metis x tonari)

@atractixn:
lyin to my face, is that an option?
it’s cold outside while im walkin
see my breath come out my face cause i’m exhausted
it’s not safe here, plz proceed with caution

can’t talk cause i’m runnin out of oxygen
in the back of my mind i hear you talk to him
there’s a switch on my glock and i’m cockin it
and there’s nothing you can do cause i will always win

@texxuu:
ill give you time to run bitch
you know i can make it
emptying out my gun clip
you know i cant fake it
pulling up at best buy
yeah im kinda messed up
i just want to get on
know if ill go far with it

but its all right, i can still remember
i threw you my heart and you saved it till december
now i wanna get high so i can forget it
now i see the hallway, send me thru the nether

yo estoy tan frio cold as ice
staying for the night
never want to die
i can come for yall now
gritaste y no entendi
me tiraste por ahi
ya nada te complace and i dont fw you

@atractixn:
stayin up in the night cause i’m miserable
she thinks that i’m fine cause it’s not visual
so i’ll wait for her to ask if i’m okay now
fast forward to the night, nothin to say now

can’t talk cause i’m runnin out of oxygen
in the back of my mind i hear you talk to him
there’s a switch on my glock and i’m cockin it
and there’s nothing you can do cause i will always win

oxygen w/ texxu (augury)

tysm to @jichuuu and @pw4prez for the help!!

firework

thx for all the plays recently im rlly humbled by the support :>
prod @prod_dxvi
TYSM FOR LISTENING
//
lyrics:

every time i look in your eyes i just want to die
too much in my mind every time, think i'll lose it now
feel it building up, i cant talk, i cant do this now
gotta give it up, i cant walk, i cant leave and go
i just feel the same, feeling lost, dont know whats up next
i dont want to run but im done, cant put up with this
tell me where to go i dont know what im doing now
pick me up and choose, i cant fix myself, never could

i think ill lose myself
and i know i cant fix my health
all these pills that i take
they cant ever make me feel the same way
not as i did back then

i cant make this end
wish i could but i cant pretend
ill lose my mind when you look at me again
(look at me again, look at me again)

every time i look in your eyes i just want to die
too much in my mind every time, think i'll lose it now
feel it building up, i cant talk, i cant do this now
gotta give it up, i cant walk, i cant leave and go
i just feel the same, feeling lost, dont know whats up next
i dont want to run but im done, cant put up with this
tell me where to go i dont know what im doing now
pick me up and choose, i cant fix myself, never could

lost

lost (dxvi)

new song this friday 
discord: xternalzog
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alt: @staywithmenow <--beats/instrumentals and stuff
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i'm done trying (kirian + surgeon)

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