bro more stuff that I can fall asleep to hell yeah I love you lots bro keep it up

stay away please

Well the world don't seem so small
When you're so far away from me
Tried to call you late last night 
But I hung up before the second ring 
Tried to follow my heart
But I would rather just fucking scream
Nothing makes no fucking sense
I need to wake up from this dream 

But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to live without you
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same 
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same
But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to fucking live without you 
Without you

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the problem [bonus track] (p. shiki xo)

this isn't really the most me kind of song
just a lot of gibberish thrown together but i did want to share at least something as it's been a hot minute
i hope i'm back to usual soon <3

Lyrics:

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

could you tell me that you love me
even if you'll never mean it i need something
i been needing reassurance that i'm something
this shit is fuel for giving up please
so could you tell me that you love me
it's fucking lonely in this body so i share it with her lusting
oh could you fuck me

could you fuck me right back
i won't get attached
just need to make it thru the night without a rollie or a pack
at least the music has my back
yuh
cuz i know people never last
yuh
i made this shit so in a week i'll have a song to cry to
i made this shit so in a year i'll be at peace and i won't mind you
she said that she'd be right there nothings ever right there
i'd honestly be dead if i found another life there

so let me know if you relate
or i'm alone to fight my fate
i tend to fall in love too quickly
have the habit getting clingy
have a habit sort of sticking
it's probably something that i'm missing
from my childhood or misery
and now i can't remember much
but i know i never really wanted this
and the things i'd give to run back life again
now i fantasize bout the corny lovey shit
but it's probably better you're never hearing this

yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this
yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

something, anything.

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace ft. popularreject (hero)

Hey y'all, I haven't uploaded in a while so I hope you enjoy this song!! I've got some bangers coming out this summer so be on the lookout!! Love y'all minivans <3

@twotwntytwo
@sorrow_bringer

Lyrics:

yung van/
To feel better, I tell myself that nothing even matters
Even when my life is a disaster
Even when my life is a disaster
a disaster

I’m alone inside my room
Sweep all of my problems under carpets like a broom
Tell myself I like being alone but that’s not true
I push everyone away cause it’s easy to do
I’m alone inside my room
I don’t want no friends because a friend can break you too
Tell myself I like being alone but that’s not true
I push everyone away cause it’s easy to do

two:22/
I’m the one to push you away because it’s easy to do
Got me wrapped up in cellophane, cause you know it’s nothing new
No one’s there for you, I fold my cards I’m through, rip me apart in two, from where we never flew
Look me in the eyes, feel it deeper in my soul
Love is our demise when it swallows you whole
But I’ll never let go, to the times that we hold
And the dust on my shoes leads me right back to home

yung van/
I’m alone inside my room
Sweep all of my problems under carpets like a broom
Tell myself I like being alone but that’s not true
I push everyone away cause it’s easy to do
I’m alone inside my room
I don’t want no friends because a friend can break you too
Tell myself I like being alone but that’s not true
I push everyone away cause it’s easy to do

Getting so tired of the highs and lows
Giving me vertigo
I know none of its personal 
But it always feels personal

I need a friend now
I pray that somebody is home
I’m Peter Pan now
Cause I’m afraid of growing old
I wanna stand out
But I can’t stand up on my own
I’m surrounded by your bones
That’s why I’m always alone
I need a friend now
I pray that somebody is home
I’m Peter Pan now
Cause I’m afraid of growing old
I wanna stand out
But I can’t stand up on my own
I’m surrounded by your bones
That’s why I’m always alone

i like being alone

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i like being alone w/ two:22 (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

prod. safeatlast, no samples <3
@breckenford

dont leave me alone here
i dont know what you see here

so i try and i try just to make you remember
the way that you left me alone in september
drink on my own ima drink til december
wont pick up the phone no i wont ever answer

so please let me go
i dont need you no more

say what you want cuz i wont ever listen
my body cant go on i cant make the distance
i cant tell my rights from my lefts whats the difference
if you were to stay or just leave in a minute

i wont admit it
ive reached my limit
ive reached the end of my life whens the next one
cant bear to look in your eyes since i messed up

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell
i hope that ur resting well

i hope that we meet again
cuz i been trapped inside this cell
and i cant break myself out

[FøRD:]

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

i cant tell you what I want in my life no more
telling the truth I think it’s time to cut the cord
deathly afraid of heartbreak cuz i can’t afford
anymore time with a girl who only ignores
so what do I do? Stick to my lonely
substance abuse “I don’t need you”, not what you told me

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back

i hope that we meet again ft. brecken

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

mulch

Distant memories
_____________________________________________________________
Lay on an open field at night
Where the stars' our only light
With a kiss she gave me life
Just to burn it all & watch me die
& I coped with the way the smoke made me feel
Made some friends on the way, it felt so real
but The abyss doesn't pick and choose
Push away the closest to me & self abuse

Distant memories I hold
At the time I didn't know
They are worth their weight in gold
My only comfort on this road

How could you know who I am
If I don't even know who I am
How could I set up a plan
If I don't even know where I stand

I will never figure this all out x2
Better to accept it now than pout x2
Nowadays I'm always filled with doubt x2
But life will never have a perfect route x2

Distant memories I hold
At the time I didn't know
They are worth their weight in gold
My only comfort on this road
_____________________________________________________________

Produced & mixed by John Wehmeyer & Weepings
Written by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Eternal September | 2023

Distant memories

"you're the hardest thing I've ever had to quit"
Prod by. @hkfiftyone2
Cover art by. @walkerdunnvisuals on Instagram

lyrics-
I hate it that you haunt me
You don’t have to try, I don’t wanna hear you’re sorry 
I hate when you’re high, cause you always try to call me
I know I should block you but I love it when you want me

I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit
I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit

I thought you were the girl of my dreams
Loving you, ruined me
you showed me that my heart could bleed
you hurt me more than I let you see
I hate it that you haunt me
You don’t have to try, I don’t wanna hear you’re sorry 
hate it when you’re high, cause you always try to call me
I know I should block you but I love it when you want me

I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit
I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit

I don't need you, and I never did (Prod. HKFiftyOne)

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lame (residential cover.)

[Verse 1]
Lost in the darkness, I walked alone
Mocking the faithful, a heart of stone
But then God's love, it pierced my soul
I wept and surrendered, made fully whole

[Chorus]
From the shadows to the light
God's grace shone so bright
Leaving my old ways behind
His purpose for me, I'd find

[Verse 2]
I ran, I wandered, but couldn't hide
God's call pursued me, a place to abide
Fasting and praying, I heard His voice
"Prepare for the harvest, in Me rejoice"


[Chorus]
From the shadows to the light
God's grace shone so bright
Leaving my old ways behind
His purpose for me, I'd find


[Bridge]
Risks I took, obedience my aim
Greed I forsook, no longer the same
A heart reborn, 
(a life reclaimed
To harvest souls, my passion inflamed)

[Chorus]
From the shadows to the light
God's grace shone so bright
Leaving my old ways behind
His purpose for me, I'd find
always there
A darkness I knew
No friends remained, but I didn't care
For God's great love was always there


(The darkness I knew, its grip so tight
But God's light broke through, His radiant sight
No more to mock, souls to reap
His love in my heart, forever keep)

[Chorus]
From the shadows to the light
God's grace shone so bright
Leaving my old ways behind
His purpose for me, I'd find


[Outro]
Leaving myself
I died myself
the world 
mocks at me, for what
I use to do.
But for His glory,
I now shine
for his glory
I die to my pride
oh oh oh oh oh 
oh oh oh oh oh

Shadow to Light

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