huge thank you to anthony for working on this one with me
go show him & his band this wild life some love <3

lyrics
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and we live just to die
so i pray i'm alright when i do
i'm shooting stars at the sky
not a crow left in my point of view
in the midst of a fight
throwing jabs till i knock out a tooth
if he pulls out a knife
and gets rid of my life
will the righteous ignite me with truth
(cause)
i will hide somewhere behind the dark that casts into
a room that thrives with blinding lights unwinding onto you
if only for a second i'm infected by the hue
please just promise me your honesty cause honestly i hate all that i do

and it lives deep inside
building homes in the holes of my heart
i've set my sights to the light
but i've been paranoid from the start 
red dot beamed on my forehead
deep breath this'll be a night you won't forget
cold sweat dreams terrorizing my cortex
woke up drowning outside on my porch steps
the waters been rising for years
hypnotizing my peers
into thinking they know me
but i live in fear
that they don't quite appear
to the likeness instilled in the old me
i swallow my tears
wander outside for years
with the hope that a god will come smite me
replenish these gears
cut my body with shears
make sure nobody's near even slightly

blue lights flash in the distance
red light stop i don't listen
projectiles from a piston
couldn't do it by myself need assistance
pink matter painted onto the concrete
think of this gunshot as a downbeat
red dot beamed on my forehead
this'll be a night you won't forget

it lives where i live (prod. anthony del grosso)

Roc Marciano - Diamond Cutters feat Black Thought - Beekool Beat2

one of my favorite songs i've ever made. big shouts out to the homie guardin for getting on this with me!! check him out here:

soundcloud.com/guardinmusic

sample credits: https://soundcloud.com/yungcold

sad chill - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWgkYnqG4u4
guardin - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pfn_ugMCzmQ
静的 static - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V_UlSTkw1k

california dreaming (feat. guardin)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyMz-LiCySE&feature=youtu.be&ab_channel=yesterday

prod: @whatevenisreal

my shawty think i drink too much
my homies know i think too much
i crack a 40
roll a dutch
pop ambien to sleep
i pour some out for all my team
i wear my heart out on my sleeves
a burden boy until i die
i hope it ends tonight

ohhhhh
you do not know what the fuck that ive been thru
ohhhhh
writin these songs just to vent bout my issues
ohhhhh
you can tell by all the lyrics that i fuckin miss you
fuck all these feelings
id rather not deal
pull up in the whip
put my head to the steel

ohhhhh
im sorry if you found out
ohhhh
i wonder how youre doing
put the past right out my brain
i never will address a thing
slowly decay by 21
my soul will lead me to my grave
my hair is blonde
my heart is black
these bitches never hit me back
my headphones on
as i walk alone
thru places
used to call my home
i just wanna drink my life away
with hopes that i wont wake today
i hate how people give a shit
just let me rest in peace

Follow me <3

burden boy (prod. br//oken)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-when-it-runs-up-lyrics

produced by @guccihighwaters and softheart
guitar by @cisco-kid-music

When It Runs Up (feat. guccihighwaters)

prod. svbertooth 

LYRICS:
I think it’s finally time I tried to pick up all of these pieces
 it’s been a year of wanting you now I don’t even need this 
most the time just fall apart don’t kiss me like you mean it
I’ve been fucken up since 
The first time I believed in you

Why can’t we touch like we touch on the weekends been thinking so much that it’s time to believe to be leaven
Club closes at two and know you knew the whole evening 
Crawl in my sheets my sheets fall asleep I’m not sleepen 
Fall in love with being numb and shit 
You gotta gum a bit to really feel it hit 
I’m finna call it quits if she don’t call in the morning 
Thought I was your winner but still I’m in mourning 
How do I go from forever alone to haven a friend then driven alone on the interstate fuck it guess for me love comin late
fuck it guess for me love coming late
Reminisce the kiss can’t believe in it
I just can’t pick up the phone I might need a bit 
Thought that it would mean so much more but you're keepen in low
Keep my name fuck out of your perfect lips and darling I just bought of fifth of whiskey to remember how they tasted 

I think it’s finally time I tried to pick up all of these pieces
 it’s been a year of wanting you now I don’t even need this 
most the time just fall apart don’t kiss me like you mean it
I’ve been fucken up since 
The first time I believed in you

Spotify

Pieces (prod. svbertooth)

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

explicit

girlinblack IG @HARDLYLUVD

she doesn't wanna miss me (but she does)

https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

weepings
Head in my hands as you walk away
I still reside in this vacant place
watch the rain fall down from the windowpane
silhouette of you baby I'm missing that face
~
Head in my hands as you walk away girl
I don't really know what to say girl
I've been blinded by the light-er
still I stay beside her 
drowning downing alcohol 
my future has looked brighter
keeping everything in the present time
cause the past was a blast I can't change that line
wear a mask skipping class, whats the point of trying?
everything you doing now changing up you're mind
and I don't know if you noticed, everything in this life make you lose focus
breathe in breathe out keep that self inner lotus
do whats fulfilling to you fuck that bogus 

unknxwn. & weepings
I don't know why insist on leading me on
If you wanna leave then why won't you just be gone?
You get in my head and you're there from dusk to dawn
I don't really get you, I don't know what you want

weepings
Head in my hands as you walk away girl
I don't really know what to say girl
I've been blinded by the light-er
still I stay beside her 
drowning downing alcohol 
my future has looked brighter

unknxwn.
Feel the weight press in, now I'm stresin'
I don't wanna wait for the death that I'm destined
I get too fucked up cause I feel too sick
I gave her trust and she made me feel stupid

Lost all my love to a bitch that was useless
Heart had enough and it made my mind ruthless
Planted a tree would grow to be fruitless
I'll never know why you did the shit you did

So till the day I leave this earth
I'll feel that pain, I'll feel that hurt
I feel the ache inside my bones
I'll never taste, I'll never know love

From no one, I'm so done
I say that shit so much but words don't mean shit huh?
And I know that's how you feel
Cause if you really loved me then I would never be here
You made me feel like nothing

Head in my Hands w/ unknxwn. [prod. hieloways]

* Your mentality is your reality *
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