pain.

process

12/26/21

weepings

<3

lyrics:

(cyzun)
Everyone dying got me thinking bout death
I’m only 20 and I think that I’m next
Losing everybody is making me upset
I just wanna grab the gun and put it to my head 
All this paranoia makes me wanna feel it
I don’t think that anyone would care if I was dead
Even if I tried a suicide attempt 
I don’t wanna live my life with regrets
I don’t think I’ll ever understand it
Why do we live just to die and that’s it
All that fucking time thats gonna be wasted
Honestly that thought is making me pissed

(unknxwn.)
I don't wanna talk about the things that I did
I just wanna stop breathing, I'm sick of this shit
Everything I've thought I wanted, I got rid of it
Ain't nothing what it seems in life, can't wait till I'm picked

To die, I don't wanna be alive
But I got so much shit to do with my time
I got things to experience, life is an experiment
And I am a mad scientist, I'm tired of the crying shit

So alone, like where should I go now
I don't know, I think I should slow down
Take it step by step, and don't rush it
Everything that I have felt is all rushing in

(cyzun)
Everyone dying got me thinking bout death
I’m only 20 and I think that I’m next
Losing everybody is making me upset
I just wanna grab the gun and put it to my head 
All this paranoia makes me wanna feel it
I don’t think that anyone would care if I was dead
Even if I tried a suicide attempt 
I don’t wanna live my life with regrets

paranoia w/ unknxwn. (lxvesick)

Shout out @prodskellington ive always wanted to work with him. This is my favorite song by far. Enjoy <3

cover by fatih

Lyrics:

Rn now im fucked up
I think she is leaving
And that im doing to much
I dont get love
I brake my own damn heart
Just so i can feel some

She says i need to run 
But i dont give a fuck
Im tired of the waiting
Im tired of the lust
I just want someone
Who i can really love
I think i have had enough 

Rn now im fucked up
I think she is leaving
And that im doing to much
I dont get love
I brake my own damn heart
Just so i can feel some

im doing too much (skellington)

lyrics

if i could i back to the past god forbid
id strangle the fuck out of that little kid
the damage hed cause to all those around him
tho hurting inside all those sins were still his
his temper and cold words could cut like a blade
to ask for forgiveness would not be okay
when he was called out he would promise hed change
but progress was slow, and it still felt the same
a victim complex was inbuilt in his brain
toxic in nature with poisonous veins
mutual destruction was something he craved
enabled by rights that he placed on his faith
but he never listened, he always knew best
and then with a blade he pierced everyones chest
as he lay there bleeding, well u know the rest
something inside him would not let him rest
his body was broken and hollow inside
eased by the substances fueling his mind
and he blamed his father and slights to his kind
and took from his flesh as to punish his pride
but they saw no difference, and thats fair enough
twas just superficial, it wasnt enough
with that reputation words stuck to his name
whispers and lies would become commonplace
when he fell again's when he started to change
said fuck it, im done, ill admit my mistakes
and it may be the cause, but no justification
ill learn how to deal with my pent up frustration
but it seems that my time and my effort was wasted
tears falling down as the train leaves the station
all of these things that u do on a whim
i bet u hate waking up next to him

he, him, and i (pekarot)

midnight freestyle (puhf x tennis player)

lyrics:

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

I could do it all perfect and they’d still need more
I already quit once I won’t hide no more
Its lonely in ur head and I need the bottle to survive here
There are no fucking breaks I chose the path and ill die here
Oh u miss my pain well here’s the pain now clap
This shit feel the same as on that bridge when I had snapped
Eat ur fucking food u better enjoy it it cost souls
Im sitting in my room at 2am just drunk and stoned
Of course were all a bit fucked up that’s how it goes
But my job relies on being fucked up to go gold
The stress destroys me quickly but they love it so I stomach it
Abusing all this shit inside my body im in love with it
I cant hold relationships cause my body doesn’t work right
She touch me on my chest her hand went numb and she got frostbite
I been broken forever so u can treat me how u deem right
Vomit on my sweater Im throwing up because it feel nice
Its only right I give my wounds time to heal yea yea
I thought 150mg of Zoloft pills might help
I was wrong I was cursed from my birth I swear
This aint shit to fix with cigarettes and dyeing hair
I been out my mind since I got back on my meds
I cant even fuck or feel emotions in my head
I feel so alone inside this home that I built
This shit been my life every day it dont feel real

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love
Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

i start to rust (eric godlow)

prod @eric-godlow
I just want give a shout out to Eric for always believing in me from the beginning, i am nowhere close to where i want to be with my sound. Without Eric and my friends i dont think i would have kept making music so thank you <3

p.s. cover art by Fatih

lexapro // brain zaps freestyle (ericgodlow)

I'm left wanting more
it rains and it pours
and I'm sitting here in and out every year while death lurks at the door
I try to just find
some peace in my mind
but she left me quick
a gust blew out the wick 
watch the smoke rising on
~
I'm never content with myself
and truthfully I need some help
but ill say I'm fine
I'm never fine
I cannot find
the answers to questions I play on repeat again inside my mind
I'm so damn blind
my life seems so perfect but contemplate worth and I'm met my time
I hope this is worth it, I'll push on to taste those lips one more time

Left Wanting More [Prod. IOF]

cover of the lo-fi version of a song that’s been on repeat since high school :)
hope y’all enjoy <3

artwork done by @se.b.drawin on instagram
mixed + mastered by @skullkiddxx

lyrics:


I think you'll notice when things become different
The good vibes in our lives won't feel so consistent
And, less becomes more 'cause the weight is too heavy
I swim in the water that's breaking your levee

The way that you left me's all right, it's all right
If I argue the point then we yell and we fight
And I won't be home for the rest of the night
You might hate my words but you know that I'm right
You know that I'm right

This is your life, there's no way to run from it
The doubt in your brain, or the pain in your stomach
I only have the one complaint at the moment just
Don't paint me black when I used to be golden

The way that you left me's all right, it's all right
If I argue the point than we yell and we fight
And I won't be home for the rest of the night
You might hate my words but you know that I'm right
You know that I'm right

“Clairvoyant - Lo-Fi” Cover 🧚🏼‍♀️🥀 (The Story So Far & Mik)

prod wisssery
featuring horosha

lyrics:
another night alone got me feeling so guilty
shouldnt be here right now shouldve killed me
bullet to my head let the led fucking fill me
i dont really know who i am do you feel me x2

on the sidewalk where i lay
fall light as a feather in the winter weather
fall light as a feather
im not okay
tryna get myself together but my hearts in a tether 

horosha:
I can’t feel my hands 
I try my best to explain but the words just won’t come out 

I’m frozen in place.
Like the first frost of winter, anxiety takes it’s hold 

Cuz no one told us how to cope with this 
and every passing year’s got me feeling more selfish 
Cuz I used to dream of leaving the world better than I found it, 
Now I just wanna save myself 

I can’t believe that this is all I could become,
strangled from the lack of love 
I lay here watching the snow come down 
Let it bury me 
I’ll let it bury me 

I can’t believe that this is all I could become,
strangled from the lack of love 
I lay here and watch the snow come down 
I’ll let it bury me till the spring comes

winter weather (feat. horosha) (wisssery)

boywontcry live (wunderworld fest)

XXXTENTACION - Carry On

Don't know what I have till its gone
I can't move on
I can't resist you
I'm stuck in the past using my bong to relieve all my issues
I thought we would last
baby I'm missing your presence need tissues
we're moving to fast don't want to live unless I am here with you 
x2

every single day i fade away to get away
in the mirror i see monsters taking my own name
why'd you stick along so long I am a mess
I just pack another bowl and claim that it helps with the stress
but it don't
don't leave me along
I'm clingy little fuck
I just be grippin on my phone
always have my doubts about myself I hope you know
that's why I need your full trust attention baby are you home?

baby are you home?
baby are you home?
baby are you home?

Don't know what I have till its gone
I can't move on
I can't resist you
I'm stuck in the past using my bong to relieve all my issues
I thought we would last
baby I'm missing your presence need tissues
we're moving to fast don't want to live unless I am here with you 
x2

I've seen brighter days
I will not trade away
cause memories of you are better than none
even if it causes pain when we're done
I hold you so tightly my hand on your back
we kiss until one of us falls back collapses
pull on your hair and I slap on your thigh
holy shit fuck I'm so glad i'm your guy

temptation [prod. jody]

[verse 1]
you could see it in my face when I come down
I'm like please girl give me space but still come around
I can't fucking take it I am so pathetic
constant need for reassurance that what we have is magnetic
like what did I do
or is it my mind that plays tricks on me to
like baby please tell me that you miss me too
I feel you don't care but aware that you do

[chorus]
I've fallen again
I'm in need of a friend
but everyone's fake
I try to sleep but I lie there awake
Girl please look me in my eyes and just tell me everything's gonna be fine
but it's not.

[verse 2]
summer is ending the leaves are all falling and I know you'll be here beside me
I have my doubts but I hope this works out for us baby just know that i'm sorry
If you stick along for long
baby I won't be gone
I'll get my shit back together
I'll be beside you no matter the weather

[bridge]
I can't seem to focus
the world fake a lotus
flower blossoms
love bottoms 
waiting for us to notice
don't take action i'm
i'm lackin' the drive to get the bonus
feelings vanish I panic i'm gone like hocus pocus

[chorus]
I've fallen again
I'm in need of a friend
but everyone's fake
I try to sleep but I lie there awake
Girl please look into my eyes and just tell me everything's gonna be fine
but it's not.

falling [prod. ryini]

prod. taurs
Linger is now out on all streaming platforms!
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Lyrics:
stumble out of bed at five like
yeah sure i'm fine oh never mind sike
I can see your actions are in vain
The more I linger pointing fingers is much easier a game
got me nauseous thinking thoughts bout back before I knew insane
I can't help it feeling helpless it's like I don't know her name
on a whim the trust within slowly melted and became
toxic thoughts and memories I hide away out of my shame

look I'm sorry our canoe couldn't stay afloat upon the seas because of you
this was a sad excuse for a relationship got me feeling mentally abused
yeah i'm sorry you can't take that
I just hope I can escape that
No I really cant mistake that
Am I insane to wanna stay with you i'm attached

Latching onto who I thought you were
afraid it got me catching feelings for you don't embrace it
she's a psycho she is type manipulative 
but i still wonder If she was the one I hated
guess i'll never find out
I just smoke away the pain won't face it unless its packed loud
I can't take this I am struggling to stay on top
how can my life just change so quick one day onto the next wow

Linger

"𝕀𝕥𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕒 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕙𝕦𝕣𝕥𝕤 𝕔𝕒𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕚'𝕞 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘"

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lyrics:
why the fuck you gotta lie I can't take this
I can't make this up , I gotta break this
this was one whole big mistake
I'm forsaken d
lie awake and toke inside my basement

this was all fuel for the fire
you are a liar
I can't believe what you said
flashback, memories of us making out in your bed
I try to believe that she's alright in the head
honestly I cannot get over her
Its the idea that hurts cause i'm hating the real thing
constantly thinking bout her
yeah my visions a blur I've been drinking a lot
getting so high of the pot
will I come down again? hopefully not
maybe Ill try again
I think to myself I know that
I can do what I wanna do
my mind,  yeah I control that

why the fuck you gotta lie I can't take this
I can't make this up , I gotta break this
this was one whole big mistake
I'm forsakened
lie awake and toke inside my basement
x2

don't even bother bitch don't hit my line
I won't reply
when we were still dating you texted so dry after that night
and you had the nerve to ask me for help bitch that's fucking absurd
bitchin bout problems that you left uncured I've had enough of it kicked to the curb won't let you return
get the fuck out my life
gotta move forward forget all the strife
now I've opened my eyes
fuck all the others; stick to my own strive

Liar [prod. ryini]

Prod. taurs
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Lyrics:

opened the eye of my mind, i think i might die
stage curtain closed
coke up his nose
i'm looking for a way out of this go
out of my mind and escape this forever
this shift in perspective might cause me to 
sever my ties say my goodbyes
but its so hard when I look in her eyes
I cannot take this I sure ain't complacent but what do I want (yuh)
I'm so fucking lonely can somebody hold me
i'll spark the blunt (yuh)
I puff and I pass
and you know that shit gas
this shit ain't from Vermont (yuh)
I try to surpass everyday from the last
so these feelings don't haunt ya

I thought what I did was all just a struggle
an action on whim when I buckle
the thoughts inside my head in puddle
I'm caught up in the rain again, you had your way
sitting all alone on a Saturday
yes I know i'm stupid to stay with the hate
but I fucking promise that we had our days
we part our ways
I move swiftly that shits at an end I just spark up an endo and make some more plans
I am tired of filling the void in my chest
I just lift my head up and pretend i'm the best

Perspective

Blvckehart - Your Parallel - prod. tsurreal

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