Her Scent, Voice, and memories are fading but the pain and long lost love is still there. gotta let go of the good times to make room for the best times I guess. here's to you

Love this sm. So glad i found this track💚

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Something's in the Way w/ guardin (Prod. Sinxi & Tagliatore)

VInyl & CD pre-sales

the tallest man on earth - honey won't you let me in (guardin cover)

lyrics
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so take all that stress
decompress it & hang it up right at the door
feeling like this isn't fun anymore
not that it ever was
but lately everyone's 
misunderstanding what's really import
tantalizing sights & feelings ignored
paths to get over it never explored
overgrown nothingness
stemmed from destruction
it's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence

goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

so maybe it's grim
but i'll spill on a whim about all that i think
my thoughts subside till i'm pushed to the brink
miscalculated
so often equated
to shit so insane i think i need a shrink
traumatized by flies that hatch in my head
metamorphosis ensued till i'm dead
it's funny how they can grow
little do they all know
their home is rotting & damn near condemned

dissociation 
deserting my patience
i don't think i'll wake up & realize
that feeling this vacant
no communication
is simply leaving me terrorized
i see all these faces
inside of the places
that only exist when i close my eyes
so if this is a phase 
that is bound to erase
then i guess that i ought to just give it time
 
goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

all i ever will be
is someone that'll kill me 
a parasitic head fuck
monotonous & willing
all i ever wished for
is sanity by twenty four
but i never got that
i never got that

all i ever will be

s/o chxse bank
rip summer
got some new shit for y'all real soon
<3

august (prod. chxse bank)

9TAILS - Ill Try To Explain

Lonely night - Gaurdin & Yung Van (Prod. by TRA$H)

w/ @guardinmusic
prod. by @taylor

lyrics:

why does this 
seem never ending i try to be patient
i wake up everyday just trying to escape it
this darkness is lurking don’t want to embrace it
i left my sanity dead in the basement
i burn with the demons
i drink till i’m wasted
this life full of color just seems to have faded
though i know my hearts temporarily jaded
and i will be free on the day that i face it

oh no
if i you go down this road
i’m gonna die soon
and i don’t wanna die soon
oh why do i
do this to my health
it’s like i’m killing myself
i’ve created this hell

(guardin)
why do i
even try 
i swear that i've 
lost my mind
it's not right
losing sight
of direction objection i'm losing my pace
caught in the storm and my head's outta place 

grip my hand and we can make it out alive
trust my integrity it's eating me inside
they say honesty is crucial to survive 
but i know a couple people comfortably living a lie
so why do i feel so uninviting
head vs heart and they keep on fighting
lost my mind but i just keep writing
lock my door in my bed i'll be hiding 

(ooo ooo ooo
oh no
oh why)

oh no
if i you go down this road
i’m gonna die soon
and i don’t wanna die soon
oh why do i
do this to my health
it’s like i’m killing myself
i’ve created this hell

oh no ft. guardin (prod. taylor morgan)

original sample: https://soundcloud.com/kahlua-and-milk/cheap-wine-1
by kahlua and milk 

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
lips on your thighs got the roses beside 
swear to god i think the stars have aligned
drunk out my mind like your pussy is wine
stuck on your lips like a grape to a vine 
words fall from petals like roses
loving you shawty you know this
cupid hit me at my lowest
missing you takes all my focus

9TAILS:
turning grey
youll be okay though
no halo
i am no angel
gotta worn down old face
cold gaze
how im spose to love you how u want it
with a full plate
every step i stumble i got no grace
its a trick maze
up inside my mind im on a tight rope
how i fix it up fuck if i know
fuck a high note
smoking blunts singing slow while my eyes low
thoughts attack me make the lyrics sappy
turn up the tune cause my voice scratchy like a vinyl
i hear another person bitching i might uninstall the game
eye strain back pain tooth aches weed shakes
took a break from the music for a week 
came back and it was all the same
new face with the same sound
damn
something like a "we already lost" game plan
fucking up they life to make a new song slam
u wont make a banger just because u kick cans
still it could be poppin if u got the right friends
no reason to sweat it tho u bringing in bands
you and me are gone eventually we all end
we should live the life we proud to live amen to that
amen to that

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
i'm losing sleep over you
dreaming of colors that i never knew
painting the picture of you in my mind
wish i could somehow just stop all the time 
from the ashes of your love
we can go and fly above
leaving rainbows when we die
really hate it when you cry
feeling really slow
i got the flow
give her the ice now she colder than snow
i wanna know will she love me for long
or is it a feeling from ripping the bong

flowars:
babe i'm afraid
i'm just letting you know
i never loved someone like you before
hearts in my eyes
i been shot in the skull
mind in the sky
feeling gravity's pull
oh
words fall like petals from roses
your beauty is never unnoticed
shawty you're glitching my focus
oh shit
shawty you're glitching my focus
you're bringing hope to hopeless
i think you already know this
know this

lotus love w/ 9TAILS & flowars (prod. taurusmoon)

suffocate in my sheets

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Choked Up Feat. Sewerperson (Prod. SPLASHGVNG)

Support Venus: www.youtube.com/c/venusboy

_____________________________________________________
I Miss your scent on my clothing girl
it's been a year, but you are my world
I wouldn't trade this for anything, thoughts of a wedding ring
let's not get ahead of ourselves
we've got a whole life left 
and there's nobody else I'd rather spend with it
girl, you are perfect so sometimes I reminisce 
about just going back and just restarting this
~
so I can learn again how much I love you so
how much those green eyes can relieve my pain from my soul
can you believe it
It's already been a year
and it is crystal clear
that they'll be many more to come
~
girl I love you and I hope you know (hope you know)
I will always be around to hold (loving you)
I'll be kissing on you till I'm old (life moves on)
find your shelter in my loving arms (carry on)
baby girl I'll keep you from all harm (but you'll be here with me)
for the first time I felt trust in one (kiss my lips til they bleed)
from your head down to your toes
in and out you're beautiful (In and out)
can you believe that this has just begun

Scent [prod. venus]

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
--------
hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

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