INTRO
(epitome)
cryin in the backseat 
i don’t know what’s happening
face down on the concrete 
not feelin very complete
it’s hard to know where the story will go
i just hope i don’t end up alone
it’s getting hard to breath
with this anxiety
feelings trapped in my chest beneath
i think that i should go
for a person like me i don’t have a home

(paperthinwalls)
all alone yeah i’m all alone
run back to you it’s all over 
and i think that i’m growing father
pick me up i’m falling over
another song i cannot sing
two weeks i guess we’ll see
why is it so hard to breath
NOW IM FALLING BACK TO SLEEP

CHORUS
(epitome)
don’t let me go
i don’t wanna be alone
just hold on
you’re the only one i’ve ever known
please just say something 
it’s getting hard to breathe

(paperthinwalls)
and it’s hard to
feel the same way as you
you know it kills me the way i hurt you
i take it back you know i didn’t mean to

VERSE
(paperthinwalls)
i didn’t mean to call you that night
i always meant to say goodbye
now i’m going i’m always going 
what is wrong with my head 
and i feel like i can’t think
and my mind is always empty 
what is goin on with me 
it’s always something that i can’t see 
(my head falls apart i know that i have fallen arms i know that i can’t see you now fall apart i’m on the ground)

(epitome)
your eyes seem lost
you’re fading away from me
what’s the cause (what’s the cause)
i’m holding to your memory for what seems to be an eternity (you’re not with me now)
every moment i spent with you 
was like a dream to me that came true
now i don’t know what i’m gonna do
when you say to me find someone new

CHORUS 
(epitome)
don’t let me go
i don’t wanna be alone
just hold on
you’re the only one i’ve ever known
please just say something 
it’s getting hard to breathe

(paperthinwalls)
and it’s hard to
feel the same way as you
you know it kills me the way i hurt you
i take it back you know i didn’t mean to

dont let me go w/ paperthinwalls (2001)

It seems that the snow has begun to fall...

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Featuring Production From:

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OC
Nvki
Yokai Dreams :)

Afterthought lyrics:

brick walls seem to separate u and i
reach above and rudely block my view of the sky
can never seem to find a way to halt these changing times
a destiny bestowed upon me by a starry night
loose sleeves bruised knees
and a blind eye
u would not believe the things that have graced my sight
do things routine til we finally die
is that the way that u truly wanna live your life?
live your life
i don't wanna cry
but i just might

because after all
i live within an afterthought
just an image that u soon forgot
as the curtain falls
i feel myself begin to drop
but i would give u all i got

Afterthought (OC)

(p. splashgvng)
Made this when i was bored :)


mix and mastered by me 
produced by splashgvng
cover art by me

i h8 myself

ive had these for months, sorry it took so long lol. shoutout wstd again and also secre.. I know I only did one secre song (ran outta time) but there will be fr sure mor comin from both prods

lyrics

fall
and get back up until i get it all solved
bae i wanna talk i wan it to be like before 
she dont check the phone no not even a sorry
where u going will u be back in th morning

where u going like where the fuck are you
i dont wanna have to clean up all this mess im not responsible
leaving me with scars to heal on my own like is that possible
didn’t know the damage u created

was a phase
still i cant take it 
oh i hate it 
oh my days
fucking faded
i wanna change 
but now im wasted
ill go out but i won’t say shit
swear my minds in different places
right now musics got me taken
ride it out till i cant make it
ride it out till i cant make it

im tryna move on wit my day but now im stalled
i think she got it but jus chose to ignore the call
blue cheese by own thinking i jus lost it all
yeh i trip but that dont mean that i should

fall
and get back up until i get it all solved
bae i wanna talk i wan it to be like before 
she dont check the phone no not even a sorry
where u going will u be back in th morning

where u going like where are you
(lots of times)

where r u (wstd)

Maybe he'll see it if yall run it up enough :3

Gift me closure
But how long I gotta wait for an answer
I guess we never change ur a monster now
Be honest u had never put in Effort
And it hurts me

Im at home here
My tears will wash away as I mold here
But if life had stayed the same I would’ve rot here too
So what’s the harm in giving me the closure from u
Im so alone here
Its so cold inside my place with the ghosts near
But Baby please dont be afraid I will hold u
It doesn’t No matter what they say they cant control u
And yet they own u
Fight back
U taught me how to harm try that
I see in my dreams but ur all but my friend
Tell me how the fuck u got in my head
Huh
Velvet
My hands come out my head coated in a bright red
But the pain feel amazing the more that I bled
Painting every time her shoes tread

Im at home here
My tears will wash away as I mold here
But if life had stayed the same I would’ve rot here too
So what’s the harm in giving me the closure from u
Im so alone here
Its so cold inside my place with the ghosts near
But Baby please dont be afraid I will hold u
It doesn’t No matter what they say they cant control u
And yet they own u

Gift me closure
But how long I gotta wait for an answer
I guess we never change ur a monster now
Be honest u had never put in Effort
And it hurts me

CLOSURE - Sewerperson (REMIX)

and i said i wasnt ready but
you insisted that i stay
theres like no way in hell
that you could ever make it all okay

i dont wanna put my faith in
somebody else
the only person ive ever trusted
has been myself

ive been this way for so long
ill just stay this way
and write my little songs
i dont need anyone at all
at all

dont try to tell me
you think that your so good for me
your not!
cuz i dont wanna waste no ones time
so please just stop

please stop 
i dont wanna hear you talkin anymore
just wanna sip this drink
until pass out on the floor

and i dont have the patience
for people anymore
cuz when flowers lose their fragrance
they just go and buy some more

yeah dont waste your time on me
ive already made up my mind dont you see
i dont wanna give u everything
cuz thats the one thing i wont receive....

insisted [+heydium]

\\\\heres a new self prod, expect much new stuff

LYRICS
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so im picking you back off your toes
its a long time, that we've been alone
my strategy, would always fail
and every time, i would watch you prevail

and i never know where to go
I'm 6 feet deep, all alone in the snow
that's how dreams would always fair
its time to leave, before i fail

*before it takes me whole!
please just take me home
i cannot take anymore, anymore, anymore, anymore, anymore!*

but please
listen to me!
the cottage, breeze
is not what it seems

its holding up, up against the wall
its telling me stories, i wish that would go, just go from my brain
and keeps on asking me to stay
and what should i do, i might go insane

and i never, ever realized, the pain

you keep on pushing pushing, pushing me away

cottage breeze

@facel1ft

lyrics:
will u hold me close when im falling down to ashes
gonna say that im faded just so i dont have to answer
will u be around just in case i finally snap
too many thoughts i keep on going til i get it out my head

say im bad, no stress, bitch im falling down to ashes
scream my name, walk away, bitch im falling thru the cracks
i got a pain in my chest, doesnt ever get better
keep on going til ur fine, i couldnt get u out my head
say im bad, no stress, bitch im falling down to ashes
scream my name, walk away, bitch im falling thru the cracks
i got a pain in my chest, doesnt ever get better
keep on going til ur fine, i couldnt get u out my head tonight

will u hold me close when im falling down to ashes
gonna say that im faded just so i dont have to answer
will u be around just in case i finally snap
too many thoughts i keep on going til i get it out my head

i said im back
she said "J why tf u so dramatic"
this no drama
bitch im cutting all the fake friends off
on my own
need no one
all alone
making these songs
just to heal my broken soul
i keep on praying that it does
for my bros
fuck these hoes
all these flows
im fucking floating
hear the songs
deep meanings
there's a reason 
just believe me
all the texts
that i sent
did u ever even read
fucked up
im ready to give it all up

ashes (prod. facelift)

Teri Yaad

Divine Enragement

I’m giving you the keys to my entire blueprint.

This is the sound of a man who finally put the past down and decided to own his narrative. I took the grit and steel of the city that raised me, mixed it with that deep, resonant Neo-Soul, and put it over a modern, undeniable rhythm. It’s hard, but it's vulnerable.

Reading the Ink

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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