Bbyifuluvme

winter

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stream: https://open.spotify.com/album/0pbIjyvmEVF1qSXIpu7YwF?si=Y-7D5ztGRne-YDAHijFgfA

lyrics:

the king of the dead
opened his chest
found nothing resembling a heart
he looked and he looked
and then looked some more
he seemed to be lacking the part
had wires and chains
mistaken for veins
he functioned from movements of gears
he screamed and he shouts
he always had doubts
but this had confirmed his fears

he looked with surprise
and said "what am i
if not an abomination?
something between
the man i have seen
and a sort of unholy creation
i'm scared of myself
i'm scared of these hands
i'm scared of the man that i've been
do you think that i could start again?"

i'm a grown ass man
i can't be caught cryin like a baby
but the things i've seen
you wouldn't believe how it could change me
i'm the king of the dead
all my friends come from lower places
and i have to accept
no one out there is coming to save me

was the blood i bled all bled for nothing?
maybe so
maybe so
think that might be something i should know

king of the dead

i love you w/ notahero (neverforever)

TRYIN MY BEST

lyrics 

deep in the woods (in the woods)
i see the faces i took, the different ways that they were shook
to live is so much harder than it looks
the world’s crumbling top-down
it’s hard to reverse when hearts are on lockdown
hard like a rock, cold, cold like it’s frostbite
dark in the night, less dark in the nightlight
mist came forth like a bright light
and what appeared was unknown life
i’ve been living with this hate so much longer than i should
cold, dark, hard to escape, this deep inside the woods
these messages i pray aren’t heard or understood
i wonder if the face that put me here is even scared to look
pages of the book, not letting a thing off the hook
i take each word so fucking personally, everything you’ve got, you took
skin covered in soot, the ashes recooked
not a trace of what is meant to be is here, wasn’t left put
deep in the woods, no
you’ll find what you’re looking for
too deep in the woods
and you won’t be able to leave no matter how hard you try
every day a loss
passing up my feelings from the moment for a future that ain’t promised
i got my mindset set on chronic
if i wasn’t before, now i’m on it
you’ve got side quests for vision
mine’s so blurry, but still, i want it
i don’t have a fucking option
since i could, yeah, i’ve been running
the awareness got me jogging
you’d think that i’m not fronting, uh
but trust me, i ain’t slowing down
i’m just saving myself for when the unknown hits town
deep in the woods (in the woods)
i see the faces i took, the different ways that they were shook
to live is so much harder than it looks
the world’s crumbling top-down
it’s hard to reverse when hearts are on lockdown
hard like a rock, cold, cold like it’s frostbite
dark in the night, less dark in the nightlight
mist came forth like a bright light
and what appeared was unknown life

heartwood

heartwood (flesh) [bonus tracks from album on spotify]

The Other Side Of The Tracks (p. wraithontheporch)

face down in this lake
but you smile now?
no face i got nothing to worry about
i need new friends
heads gettin kinda empty
short walk home but my legs resent me
ugly face
i’m losing feelings
ugly mind
now it’s getting too revealing
crashing out
there’s no one to see it
songs get dark
only some have meaning
read my words
hears my voice 
ignore my scars
i made the choice
2018 she made it worse
so unlikeable it hurts
whole personality has changed
even i don’t know this way
does no one here know that it’s fake
i’ll just adapt to you today
i’m sick of my own voice
this song has got no flow
i miss when i had school friends who’d be blowing up my phone
turns out not everyone is good
i even see that in myself
i just expose myself in words
while i’m hiding inthesnow
every song is so repetative
i’m losing creativity 
the beat is way too loud
and i’m losing my alibilties
there’s so much more to say
but i fear i’ve become villiany
an unbalance in my brain
i really wanna get rid of me

repetative [desolent]

6shots

Let me be alone

@tothegood

backed down to the corner of my closet
stay put, this'll all be over soon enough
my minds in need of something different
too bad its another lame occassion
teeth gold from the years that ive been smokin
wrist froze from the reason ive been chokin
bad bitch told me imma be a shinin star
but as of late, i dont seem to be goin too far

nothing lasts forever
for the worse and for the better

dont fuck with me
i gotta go, gotta flea
i guess theres no fight in me anymore
now i see

1000 words couldnt say
or nearly capture the way
ive come to feel on this day
u think u know dont u?
i can tell by ur smile
everyone told u
im stuck in denial

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1000 words (prod. tothegood)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

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king of the dead

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