Really happy that I've finally been able to make something that I enjoy in this style, I hope y'all like it as well :)

All beats produced by lofi god Eric Godlow: https://traktrain.com/ericgodlow

Shoutout to hero for the fire feature: https://soundcloud.com/h3roofficial

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lyrics:
it's 16 degrees below
i feel a chill run along my bones
head filled with thoughts of home
but in the wastes is where i roam
don't know what the future holds 
you swear i'm in control
i may come across as cold
but with just one fell swoop i fold

i'm way too damn far
underwater
i've escaped the surface light
i lose my breath as 
i go farther
but my goal will soon be in sight
i start to pass out
know i'll soon drown
but i still continue to fight
we start to fiz out
not what i wanted 
but maybe we were never really right

fish scales rub along my legs as i swim by
shark tails surface in my way but i'll be fine
new gills surface on my face help me breathe right
accustomed to these new ways i say goodbye

maybe it's in the water i will feel at home
maybe my life awaits me deep within the flow
on the ocean floor i see dim lights glow
but as i approach they go
they're so confusing
all these new ways
they try to make me cry
must be amusing 
to watch my cold face
as i die a little on the inside

//hero\\

caught out in the riptide
in the sunlight
how the fuck did i get out here the cold bites
middle of the ocean
lost my motor functions
i can't swim
and my hope has already sunken

i won't die here
it won't happen
i'm not gonna go down 
till my lungs have blackened 
plastic in the ocean 
becomes my coffin
the thought of death has got me feeling really nauseous

my fingernails peeling off
in the freezing waters
i'd give an arm just to see a copter
now
i need it now
is this the end my sealing vow

i'm taking water in my lungs
i don't think that i'll see the sun
shut my eyes under the blue taking over vicious sums
the mermaids under here they fucking speak in tongues
what i woulda gave for a bullet and a gun

i'm way too damn far
underwater
lose my breath as
i go farther
sorry to be such a bother
sorry could you tell my father x2

underwater w/ hero

Nostalgia (noun) - a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

Nostalgia is something that has always troubled me, as I found that it's difficult to properly put my emotions towards it into words. It's not necessarily, or at least in my opinion, a happy or sad emotion, it's just something that we feel. Remembering a possibly warped perception of the past to focus on because the present seems so grim. Looking back upon my childhood and early teenage years does invoke a sense of melancholy and nostalgia, and I tend to think that things were much more simple back then. Maybe it's because the problems of that time are over now that I am able to look at them so clearly, as the problems of the present are shrouded in fear and uncertainty.

I remember stomping through the woods with my friends, then going home to play my gamecube or gameboy, not really caring or thinking about the world around me. Maybe I get stressed out when thinking about nostalgia because I can't properly explain how it makes me feel, whether it's positive or negative, I'm not sure.

It's like a purple mist that surrounds distant memories, just slightly altering my perception of that time. It's interesting.

Thanks for listening <3

Retro Fantasia [prod. xmichaelwarren]

3rd attempt at self producing

lyrics:

small town with a fuckup in it
i don't wanna talk no i don't wanna finish
ok i admit i hit him
think you missed a couple little tidbits
small town with a fuckup in it
think that i hit my limits
throwing up give me a few minutes
what's the matter w/ me why my head still spinning
x2

small town with a fuckup in it

Really happy with how this one turned out, expect more in this style in the future!
Special thanks to Anthony Sidoti for his amazing feature!
Produced by nateonthetrack x Gavin Hadley

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Stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yokaidreams/lighthouse-feat-anthony-sidoti

Lyrics:
{Yokai Dreams}

Shipwrecks
On grey nights
If I take your hand
Will you take mine?
Through stormy skies
And high tide
If we skip the plan
Will we be alright?

No I don't
Wanna wake up right now
I just need to lie down
Til I get through this week
Those harsh words
Break these glass walls right down
I can't find a lighthouse
Soon enough I'm beached

{Anthony Sidoti}

This is not the life that you wanted 
Turned bad now and your running
Don’t look back it’ll be just fine 

Yeah right, now I’m just Down bad 
Every time you start a fight you want a new man 
So why do you say that you love me 

This was never easy 
You wanted more 
But need me? 

Well this ain’t right 
You gotta leave tonight 

We'll sail off into a dream 
I know when your with him 
your stuck thinking of me 
Oh no
What we used to be 
Was so damn bad 
Now its history

{Yokai Dreams}

No I don't
Wanna wake up right now
I just need to lie down
Til I get through this week
Those harsh words
Break these glass walls right down
I can't find a lighthouse
Soon enough I'm beached




Love u

Lighthouse (feat. Anthony Sidoti)

@leavecaspyalone x @thefalseshepherd

lyrics-
waiting for something to change in my life
problems arising, avoiding what's right
i can sit and think 
about a path i need to travel down
execute temptation
there's a better way than fuck around

afternoon vibing
i've been plastered on the couch again
i just sleep around that depression fucking crippling
logging into discord i'm ignoring all my friends and kids
but it's nothing personal i love em, i'm not feeling it

insecurities  have got me limited, it's nothing new
i just want to be myself
but people flock away as soon
i open my mouth, what the fuck is that about?
keep it up, can't control 
the sewage pouring from my mouth

i know you've been crying
when i'm at work in the freezer
best believe, i got the treatment
for the loneliness your feeling
that's the problem though right?
missing lover boy i, feel the same real talk
feel the struggle at night

terrified of disappointing you 
i have this paranoia 
i know you won't cheat
but fuck my thoughts they like to lie about ya
i don't want no other
i won't push on, i'm a goner
in the gutter, swear i love her
forget chaos you bring order

severed bones and a few missing organs
left my heart in my room cuz it's safe there
the thoughts in my head are the wardens
protecting me from a botched love affair 
extracting my soul like a torrent
i wanna get out of this nightmare
every night another anxiety attack
my brain is to blame while my heart feels like thumb tacks

afternoon vibing
i've been plastered on the couch again
i just sleep around that depression fucking crippling
logging into discord i'm ignoring all my friends and kids
but it's nothing personal i love em, i'm not feeling it

insecurities  have got me limited, it's nothing new
i just want to be myself
but people flock away as soon
i open my mouth, what the fuck is that about?
keep it up, can't control 
the sewage pouring from my mouth

Spotify!

recluse ft. caspy (prod. emptyvenom)

DONT SAY SHIT

MIXED: ARI
MASTERED: ARI
PRODUCED: HIELOWAYS
WRITTEN: ARI VEGA

LYRICS:

Trapped in this world
I see no colour
A kiss on those lips, I know they’re another
Hating me now, you hated me then
I see in your eyes, I know that this is the end

God only knows
I see you with her
I’ve been trying but these feelings of anger,
anguish and despair
I’m jealous from nowhere
I want you all for myself, I know that this love is unfair

I know you hate me
I lost a friend
“Why don’t you like me”
I made my amends
I know you tired
I know how this ends
You said you loved me
Was it all pretend?

LOST A FRIEND PROD. HIELOWAYS

@shikixo
this one is fucking crazy, so proud of it
much love to all of you for the support recently
<3

intro: shiki

im way too numb i cant let go i dont where i am
i feel my ribs they make me scared of everything
i wanna kiss u in the car when its about to crash
i feel my ribs i see my shadows just bleeding

verse: soph

well i dont know my way out of this
i feel so numb to everything
i sing my sorrows every night
i tell my sorrows good bye

verse: shiki

lost soul, I don't ever wanna go home
i let u bleed me out
before im without u
and nothing lasts forever baby
and dont i been waiting all night
but you never picked up the phone

chorus:

oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out

falsetto part:

prechorus:
i'll make u bleed me out
i'll make my lungs collapse
ill make my heart stop and start
if thats what u want
i'll make u bleed me out
i'll make my lungs collapse
ill make my heart stop and start
coz thats what u want

chorus: shiki
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out

bleed me out (ft Shiki XO)

lyrics:
Is that ok
I'm just running cycles
I fall again
But it won't break me on the tightrope
Walking straight try to balance
Hopin I won't fall
This strain is bringing pain
Just the same way
As were just running in cycles

Your okay
Still I think I'm not worth it
Defining me but I still got no purpose
Trynna find a calling
I don't see at all
Scratching for some surface
It's all fake
Its just all a cycle

Is that ok
I'm just running cycles
I fall again
But it won't break me on the tightrope
Walking straight try to balance
Hopin I won't fall
This strain is bringing pain
Just the same way
As were just running in cycles

leftquiet:
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www.instagram.com/left.quiet/
@leftquietverified
www.youtube.com/channel/UCma1cmscc7ejh7clSV9Shww
twitter.com/left_quiet

cycles

prod. nvki, go support him :)

[chorus]
cause baby girl you know i’m sick of trying but not with you
and every time i open my eyes all i can see is you
and girl you know got my heart don’t break it in two
just keep it in love and i’ll stay here right next to you

[verse]
darling don’t you know 
darling don’t you know
my hearts been froze
cold as the snow
but i can keep it warm when you’re around
and yeah i hate the silence, but i love your sounds

[chorus]
cause baby girl you know i’m sick of trying but not with you
and every time i open my eyes all i can see is you
and girl you know got my heart please don’t break it in two
just keep it in love and i’ll stay here right next to you

stream!

with you (prod. nvki)

Til We Saw The Morning Sun

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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