I Used To Float (Billie Eilish Cover)

A wife of many years sings to her husband in his decline from Alzheimer's Disease.

Lyrics:

(Verse 1)
In the fading light of evening, I see you drifting away,
Lost in the fog of memories, that won't let you stay.
Your eyes search for answers, in this cruel and confusing haze,
And I wish I could reach you, but you're lost in a maze.

(Pre-Chorus)
I see your frustration, as you struggle for words,
The pain in your eyes, as your voice goes unheard.
I'm here by your side, but I can't make it go away,
The heartache I feel, as I watch you fade each day.

(Chorus)
A shadow descends, casting a veil on your mind,
But I'll be your light, through the darkness we'll find.
Though you might not remember, our love it won't change,
I'll hold your hand, through the pain and the strange.

(Verse 2)
You talk of the past, like it's happening now,
The lines of time blurred, on your furrowed brow.
You're searching for comfort, in a world that's lost its face,
And I'm here to embrace you, in this heartbreaking place.

(Repeat  Chorus)

(Bridge)
I'll sing you our song, and dance with your ghost,
Through the echoes of laughter, and the time that we've lost.
Though your mind may be wandering, your heart beats the same,
And I'll cherish each moment, in this heartbreaking game.

(piano solo)

(Outro)
I will cherish the love, that's stronger than time,
All the moments we shared, and the feelings divine.
Though your mind may be fading, my love will remain,
I'll be right here waiting, 'til we meet once again

A Shadow Descends

Billie Eilish's song "What was i made for" Darkified!
Vocals by Astrid Solvrid

Lyrics:
I used to float, now I just fall down
I used to know, but I'm not sure now
What I was made for
What was I made for?

Takin' a drive, I was an ideal
Looked so alive, turns out I'm not real
Just somethin' you paid for
What was I made for?

'Cause I, I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday, I might
Someday, I might

Mm, mm, ah
Mm, mm, mm

When did it end? All the enjoyment
I'm sad again, don't tell my boyfriend
It's not what he's made for
What was I made for?

'Cause I, 'cause I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday, I might
Someday, I might

Think I forgot how to be happy
Somethin' I'm not, but somethin' I can be
Somethin' I wait for
Somethin' I'm made for
Somethin' I'm made for

I Used To Float 2024

got back together in middle of November .AHH. made it through a couple of months. 'yeah?'
 it all fell through now what do I do. 'oh no!'
homeless again, now hear what I'm saying what the f*** am I going to do?
two kids under two and another one due. take a look Andrew, learn what you gotta do. 
go back together in middle of November made it through a couple of months. broke up in February found out January she was pregnant again. 
rewind a couple weeks, when she said to take a beat. Kicked out of my own house.
 need a place of own a place to call home for three kids in time plus I. 
 everything she promised it was all pointless as I'm "so paranoid" Fuckin more than annoyed as I've just been toyed.. over and over again, says it's all my head just more disappointment I'm fed even when your face is dark red. 
I know what to do so cheers to fuck you heres to my future and more.

in November

What to do if you have only a few short sketches, and nothing more in stock? All that's left to do is to thread a needle and sew something like a patchwork rug :)
P.S. Apologize for the clipping - I didn't get the recording level right :)

«Thread and Needle». Etude in patchwork style. Op.166. (2025)

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Tensions in Paradise

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Continuing the "Buendiana" cycle based on Marquez's One Hundred Years of Solitude...
Liberalism is like a flame - one breath can extinguish it and plunge everything into darkness. But a breath in other conditions can fan the flames and destroy everything around...
People are unequal, but oppression is disgusting.
Force is destructive, but only a counterforce can stop it.
Truth is not in the middle, as many think, but higher - it is above the "plane" of extremes.
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Storm

The Final Run

The track is inspired by the rise of AI in the ARTS.....which I see as coming from the "dark side". I don't condone it and am very much opposed to it. We can already see the confusion it has caused regarding copyright etc. I have no doubt that in the short term it will prevail, however "real" art will survive as long as all artists (musical and otherwise), continue to create. Not having a crystal ball, prevents one, maybe for the better, seeing how the future pans out.  
Meanwhile from a musician's/composer's aspect, I shall endeavour to play and create without the use of AI. Neither will I listen to it in any shape or form.
Alan



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Ignite the Pyres

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