maybe im nuts kaido

honest

circa december 2022

oh ill do it my way
just a whisper planting thoughts in my brain
i can't understand why you look sideways
i don't understand why you like dying
move this way ill hold you
you're so pissed off
i told you
i would run if you needed my help
im tired of feeling like im on the shelf
ill splatter my brain and leave it on the walls
im tired of liking you it wont resolve
open that door you know i can't do that
i'm jus a fool with intentions to move back

sideways

throwitonthefloor w/ kaido

i've lost it
no passion i'm exhausted
no rest i swear i'm worse than you
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god
mother i've grown so distant
condolence for the way i'm living
spoke too many lies
i'll pack all my bags and i'll move out tonight
but i gave it a try
spoke too many lies
i'll pack all my bags and i'll move out tonight
the strongest of hues are impaling your eyes
although i'm not perfect i gave it a try
i gave it a try
gave it a
i've lost it
no passion i'm exhausted
no rest i swear i'm worse than you
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god
mother i've grown so distant
mother i've grown so distant
mother i've grown so distant
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god

distance

give it a month or two, i’ll break my shoes in
cross my hands, it’s so confusing
just tell me how to do it right
just tell me how to do it
don’t you act like i’m clueless
in a month i’ll be cooling
gotta get it for my brothers cause my brothers show me love
you put my head inside the dirt uhh
tell them that i’ll die for them
got me wishing on the stars on them
it’s in my best interest you’re safe and not crying
say hi to my momma, don’t know that i’m fighting
should’ve texted you back, didn’t have the words to reply and
i’m stuck up on things i should’ve forgot like years ago
it’s fuck it though

months

Gochujang w/ Jay kim and Spoder

i made a wrong move
i tie both my shoes straight
darling what's new?
you're half a world away
i bite my tongue and graze my teeth
at something only god can see
ask the teller, "what's got into me?"
he just sighed and gave me sympathy
my love, what's new?
my love, what's new?
my brown leather skin
your face of an angel
i repent for my sins
hear your voice close my eyes i'm in that condo again
when i was only a kid
when i was only a kid
when i was only a kid

what's new

ivory (p. sickboi)

thank you again, be ready for a lot to hear this year.

empty

Afterthoughts

I left my coat on your chair again 
The threadbare kind you used to mend 
Your laugh still echoes in the room
But you won’t be back 
Anytime soon

A half-full glass on the windowsill 
Makes me think that time is standing still 
But the clock hands tick they never rest 
Like the beating heart inside my chest 

Afterthoughts they creep 
Afterthoughts they crawl 
Bouncing off an empty wall
Every word we left unsaid 
Spins like a record in my head 

I throw a glance at your chair once more
Your face is a ghost and I know for sure
You won’t be back 
Ever again
There’s nothing here for me any more

The cobwebs forming on the wall
Remind me that time will take its toll
The house will become alive again
We had it all in so many ways

Perhaps we’ll meet again some day
But if we do what will we say

Lyrics by Phil Hawker







what's new

2poder