huge thank you to @jauntsen for making this track complete

produced by lowtyde

thank u for listening <3

means of survival; methods of coping (feat jauntsen) [prod lowtyde]

[LYRICS]
this is the end of the nightmare it’s the end of the curse
you’ll understand when i’m dead

i’ll close both my eyes
with the ghost of you
go from park to drive
i lived a wonderful life
and as i’m kissing the stars
just like i did with your scars
they taste much better than you
she’s so much better than you

yeah she’s the ghost of you
she’s glowing off the moon
darling can’t you see
that it’s meant to be
oh i’ve been getting fucking wasted under the moon light
it’s like the harder i try
the fucking deeper you bite
oh i’ve been praying to god
to get you out of my mind
call me crazy could you end me?
call me crazy could you end me?
cause life without you is no life at all

i’ll close both my eyes
with the ghost of you
go from park to drive
i lived a wonderful life
and as i’m kissing the stars
just like i did with your scars
they taste much better than you
she’s so much better than you
yeah shes the ghost of you.

thank you to everyone who has supported me this year. u guys mean the whole fucking world to me. I had many ups and downs this year. I made and lost friends, but still music is what drives me even when im at my worst. <3

WONDERFUL LIFE

WONDERFUL LIFE [dollatega]

feat. @aftrrs

[intro]
let me know if youre tellin the truth
please dont forget me 
cause i could never forget you 
yeah its best that you left for yourself and im glad
that you got all your help 
and hes there for your hand

[hook]
no i dont want you anywhere near me 
but know that its a lie 
yeah its a lie 
yeah its a lie 

cant concentrate i cant think clearly 
cause all my thoughts tell me to die
they tell me die
tell me to die 

[verse]
talk down
talk down to me 
dont tell me what you want from me
you dont give just take all of the pieces that i needed

know this wont work out
work out i need it 
takin down these drugs repeated
i dont give no fucks bout my own feelings
no i dont see them ima

act so oblivious and say im doin fine 
but its just
so fucking hard you planted seeds inside my mind
i cant waste no time im fuckin fried
no i dont want no one hit my line
u know that ive been
ive been so lonely 
ive been
ive been so lonely 

ive been
ive been so lonely 

[aftrr]
tell me if you're leaving tonight
do you know how i feel inside
change the topic, press the issue
it don't matter who's wrong or right
waiting on you to decide
wanna skip to the end of my life
who gon wipe your tears when you cry?

i'm tired of missing someone
can't believe i thought you were the one
but i can't lie, without you, it's no fun
like who am i, who have i become

overdue communications
fall through on complications
stand on two's, i don't gotta say shit
acting rude with no basis

[hook]
no i dont want you anywhere near me 
but know that its a lie 
yeah its a lie 
yeah its a lie 

cant concentrate i cant think clearly 
cause all my thoughts tell me to die
they tell me die
tell me to die 
x2

refrain

SPOTIFY

refrain ft. aftrr! (plantcham)

feat @luvkurtis
prod https://www.youtube.com/@anticonbeatz

lyrics:
[Chorus: heroine diaries]
It's not enough, you fucked it up 
I'll kill myself, don't call my bluff
You gon' find me out in Rikers Island
Asked if you was with him, you denied it, lyin'
And I'm on the drugs and I deny it, hide it
Don't wanna wait for you to find it

[Verse: kurtis]
Find it, find it again
I should have known, a bit more
Don't try too love me no more
Take all you wanted and go 
I let it get unhandled 
Champagne and blooded candles 
Now run away and change homes
You ain't got no where to go
Can't let these people all know
How fucked my mind is isn't copin'
Been hopin' one day you're showin'
Your true emotion, keep goin'
Hours passin' by, without none of us knowin'
Been zonin' out for way too long
It's only me I'm, I'm terrified

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
It's not enough, you fucked it up 
I'll kill myself, don't call my bluff
You gon' find me out in Rikers Island
Asked if you was with him, you denied it, lyin'
And I'm on the drugs and I deny it, hide it
Don't wanna wait for you to find it

the end of every netflix movie (feat. kurtis)

extraterrestrial

lyrics 

she wanted me to chance 
I'm nothing like before 
I'm crawling in my bed
I guess you're all a dream
she wanted me to chance 
I'm nothing like before 
I'm crawling in my bed
I guess you're all a dream

you said again 
it's in my head
you want me to 
to forget about things
I hear you're voice again
I want it out of me 

how how

she wanted me to chance 
I'm nothing like before 
I'm crawling in my bed
I guess you're all a dream
how it's always been you

how I'm just like you
and I can't fake it
how it's all because of you 

how how

she wanted me to chance 
I'm nothing like before 
I'm crawling in my bed
I guess you're all a dream
how it's always been you

how it's all because of you 
how it's all because of you

Spotify

it's all because of you (dead yami)

[LYRICS]
i been tryna get on
headlines headlines 
but im frozen like a deer in front of headlights 
and i wanna make it clear that nothings alright 
seems like everything i feared is right by my side 
oh i swear to god it’s like they’ll never notice 
talk to me like i’m some sort of bonus 
im nobody you’re nobody important 
all the vices that i carry make me dormant 

i’m feeling a rush going right through my blood 
then it disappears and it makes my body numb 
i’ve been feeling so vacant and i’m still patiently waiting  
i’ve been fucking up my life for no reason drugs and pretty faces my weakness 
praying night and day oh jesus 
ill accept the last resort when hell freezes 
oh i cant simply forget it 
i’m just a low life a peasant 
and i would kill just to get it
a life that i’d never step in
thats why im tryna get on

headlines headlines
but im frozen like a deer in front of headlights 
and i wanna make it clear that nothings alright 
seems like everything i feared is right by my side 
oh i swear to god it’s like they’ll never notice 
talk to me like i’m some sort of bonus 
im nobody you’re nobody important 
all the vices that i carry make me dormant

HEADLINES

HEADLINES [happytears x fxckyeahako]

✦ it's out now everywhere i hope u enjoy!! thank u for listening <3 listen to it on other sites here: https://share.amuse.io/PywdA2IRD7Yx ✦
@decayinganyways @bitekivibes

lyrics
--------
and i just cannot walk on
girl why u taking so long
i guess that u got enough
im really just nothing more
i told u you were so wrong
now i just dont give a f*ck
my heart it is getting crushed
by u, you're tearing it down 

time flies i die, cold nails dead flies
on my coffin tonight 
don’t write don’t act don’t say 
that we’ll find that you’ll just go stay 
you’ve been gone to long
but somehow you still got your claws 
inside my chest the cavity 
i’m bleeding out entirely 
can’t say it any differently 
it’s killing me

so long

spotify <3

so long w/ decayinganyways & biteki (yasuo! x jibaorockin)

produced by mix 
this one means a lot to me
https://open.spotify.com/track/0jR8O452oApzcsn1ehsj5v?si=efd9e5f072894773
https://music.apple.com/us/album/stones-single/1740737359
hope you enjoy :>

lyrics:
I always tried my best, but you still left
you say I just need rest, but I'm a mess
and I hate the words you say, it hurts my chest
I'll let you beat me to death
and I know I try to fake, but idk what's next
is this really the end?

tell me why did it end this way?
cause you promised, you promised me you'd stay
I'm lost for words, is there something I can say?
no idk if I'll ever see the day where I will be okay

spent all my time caring for you
and I said sorry when you were wrong too
I wanted love, you wanted it too
always to you, always for you
spent all my time talking to you
did you even see how much I loved you?
even still now, I'll care for you
it's always to you, always for you

ohhhhhhhh
ohh ohh ohh ohh
ahhhhhhhh

tell me why did it end this way?
cause you promised, you promised me you'd stay
I'm lost for words, is there something I can say?
no idk if I'll ever see the day where I will be okay

(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
x2

NOW THE SCARS WILL NEVER FADE
I CAN'T WISH FOR BRIGHTER DAYS
END ME PLEASE, I'M NOTHING WITHOUT HER
WILL YOU HEAR IF I SHOUT LOUDER?
KILL ME PLEASE MY HEARTS BEEN SHATTERED
INTO PIECES IT'S ALL BEEN SCATTERED
TO YOU DID I EVER FUCKING MATTER?

BREAKING ALL MY BONES
SHE RIPS INTO MY SKULL
TO WHOM I LOVED SO DEAR
I WISH YOU WERE HERE
HER TEETH START AT MY JAW
NOW ALL HOPE'S BEEN LOST

I trusted you I loved you
I trusted you I loved you
but you hurt me too
you hurt me too

I trusted you I loved you
but now I gotta go without you
cause I wasn't enough for you

thank you <3

stones

https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/6Sg2Qn50VzKsWCWNr6Y3Tb?si=bfa367228c6147ed
feat. @itsseele
prod. @nevrfall

woah i dont wanna let you go
now the phonecall declines everytime

oh i dont really wanna let you go 
but you probably dont even know me 
the way that you would show me
and oh i wish you were here when im cold
cause i thought together we could turn old
but it turns out it was something that we wont be
walking through the snow all by my lonely 

walking in the snow
walking in the snow
oh i dont really wanna let you go 
but you probably dont even know me 
the way that you would show me

(the way that you would show me love)

the nights get colder but my fans still spinnig
feeling lose but girl at least youre winning
falling out of love and youre feeling sad 
when i was there it wasnt all that bad 
and you run to other guys that will treat you bad like

like
woah, what she does when shes alone
and now i dont really wanna know
can you kiss me through the phone,
like we used to kiss at home?

oh i dont really wanna let you go 
but you probably dont even know me 
the way that you would show me
and oh i wish you were here when im cold
cause i thought together we could turn old
but it turns out it was something that we wont be
walking through the snow all by my lonely 
 
(seele)

call me when youre there
i just need you right by my side
cold wind is blowing back my hair
think i should get back inside
i love you
i just wanna stay here with you

walking through the snow (ft. seele)

produced by lostcage
enjoy -.-

lyrics:
is this real life?
and is this really happening?
do i feel right, cause i start to overthink
my parents would'nt understand a single thing i say

my parents would'nt, my parents would'nt understand

talking to you is like the best time of the day for me
talk to me cause i hate the time when u dont talk to me
walk with me cause i wanna hold ur hand just walk with me
talk to me, baby can u talk to me?

(stare, stare me in my eyes
brown, hazel brown your sight
look me deeply in my eyes, tinted blue but i am still a kid inside
i don't understand what i am even tryna say here
my head is just so complex i don't get it myself dear)

i think i fall in love again
i think i really like u damn
i love u hope u don't forget
i'll be waiting till u say ot back
i love u hope u don't forget
i'll be waiting till u say ot back

walking through the snow (ft. seele)

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