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everything is different
produced irby
love u all, thanks for everything

lyrics:
its been a long time

i dont know how i can get better
i hate when the times just change the weather
i lied, liked it better in december
i wish, that i could just forget her :(

but it never happens, never, no
and things start to change and i lose hope :/
and people refrain from helping me cope
from all the mental abuse from all the people i kno

i ask myself, when will things start changing?
you say that, you liked it but, you hate it
amazing, complicated, never basic
life will never b good unless you make it (true)

i wanna make it right
but you dont really want me to win
i hate it when we fight
i have to go repent for that sin
my future is not bright
all the blame just seems to be pinned
on myself, me and I
and that is why i cant win

wanna impress my idols but no one pays attention
i try my hardest but i dont even get follows or mentions
they like my song, say im good, but they dont even listen
im an outlier, on my own, never seem to fit in

maybe one day ill be good enough
think that someday things will not be rough
maybe i wont get excluded by everyone
i wanna call it quits, i really wanna be done

but it never happens, never, no
and things start to change and i lose hope :/
and people refrain from helping me cope
from all the mental abuse from all the people i kno

i ask myself, when will things start changing?
you say that, you liked it but, you hate it
amazing, complicated, never basic
life will never b good unless you make it (true)

but will it ever be good?
yeah idk
inches away from the top
yeah im so close...
ever since this yr its been so damn different
everybody shuts me out and disregards my feelings

but i shouldnt care about that oh no
i got many friends, dont have many foes
and all of the people that doubted are low
this is where i belong, this is truly my home!

but it never happens, never, no
and things start to change and i lose hope :/
and people refrain from helping me cope
from all the mental abuse from all the people i kno

i ask myself, when will things start changing?
you say that, you liked it but, you hate it
amazing, complicated, never basic
life will never b good unless you make it (true)

grateful for everything
thank u all
project soon

different prod irby

its like time moves... n i always stay behind
@LXCCA


Lyrics -

ahay -

it's like time moves and I always stay behind 
drownin in my cup now im feeling alright
masked up I never leave without my 9 
these voices telling me I'm out my mf mind
"why do u always say that?"

I don't believe a word they saying 
can't even trust myself wth was I thinkin
these feelings fk my health everyday feels wasted
I do my best to keep a face but I don't wanna feel a thing 
I don't want this shit no more 
leave my body wit these sores
u can hate me idgaf I'm broken to the core
ashing on my true religies gotta wipe that to the floor
gotta wipe that to the-

LXCCA - 

How'd I hit rock bottom in a
years time
Used abused and left to rot
Off these drugs can't See right
Say she love me loves me not
So Close to blowin my head off
When did I become so weak
And If this is my Send off
Please Don't remember me

F43 - 

haven’t felt this way in a minute 
feeling like a fucking burden, i can’t start when i’m finished
yes i love 2 see the flashing lights believe i won’t give in
i don’t even gotta face u 2 walk away living

sick of living on my own
ofc i had 2 pave the road
sick of living on my own
you’s a bitch go catch a bone
sick of living on my own 
ofc i had 2 pave the road
sick of living on my own

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stay behind w/ LXCCA & F43 (tgwog & jeunekash)

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i might do lyrics eventually but this song is pretty legible

i got like three dollars 😁 (w/ any1else) [elxnce + kurai + vinso]

hope u like :)
more music soon
lyrics:
Know I hate it how you paint me as the bad guy
Every day I'm contemplating, should I take my own life
Know this life ain't what it seems like on the outside
Can't believe I thought our love would go and last a lifetime

Know I hate it how you paint me as the bad guy
Every day I'm contemplating, should I take my own life
Know this life ain't what it seems like on the outside
Can't believe I thought our love would go and last a lifetime
You told me every day
How you don't give a fuck
I told you I don't wanna talk
Don't wanna fall in love
You wanna play my heart
Stay flying like a dove
You wonder how I'm living take a look inside my cup

Fuck it I don't wanna die like that
Alone out here out in the hills
Call back
You know I hate it how this life so sad
So don't ask me how I'm doing
No I won't call back
You said that the love we had would last forever
I'm sitting here I'm in my room I'm missing us together
Make up stains be sitting on my chest my sweater
Make up stains be sitting on my chest, my sweater, my sweater

Know I hate it how you paint me as the bad guy
Every day I'm contemplating, should I take my own life
Know this life ain't what it seems like on the outside
Can't believe I thought our love would go and last a lifetime

Know I hate it how you paint me as the bad guy
Every day I'm contemplating, should I take my own life
Know this life ain't what it seems like on the outside
Can't believe I thought our love would go and last a lifetime
You told me every day
How you don't give a fuck
I told you I don't wanna talk
Don't wanna fall in love
You wanna play my heart
Stay flying like a dove
You wonder how I'm living take a look inside my cup

life time

stream

life time [siemspark x 5head]

city prod v3major

go [lazylabor]

mixed n mastered by me
prod by @tgwog & @sshinju
lyrics:
ahay- 

all my friends are fuckin dead I stuff em right into my pocket too
I'd stay all in my bed if I ain't had shit that I had to got to do 
living thru the day jus tryna get comfy with all the trauma 
get my life back, 
my thoughts back,
atleast for what I got through 
 
I think I don't Fw no one yall make me feel uncomfortable
"you gotta go ur own way" ... been doing that I feel unstoppable
doing what I did, it felt impossible
hell.. every day I wake's another fuckin obstacle

I can't change the way that you see me 
keep my strains stacked like CDs
make promises I fail delivery on
u shouldn't wanna be me 
I'm trained to go but I'm sleepy 
speak my mind as freely as I want 

get out my bucket here we go 
can't trust a thing you show 
pistol on the stove , who's at the door, can't trust a soul
murder what she wrote , burdens I'll never disclose

LXCCA-

When you livin fast then you know the crash is imminent 
Say they’re open ears but there’s really no one listening
Try to Keep my head Keep my head up Through the Dissonance 
I might Pop myself pop myself just like a Ritalin  
World spinning will you be there when the day it stops 
I could make the whole show stop just like a clot 
All this pain and I only know one way to stop it 
And I try but can’t forget

pocket

insta :3

pocket w/ LXCCA (shinju & tgwog)

My Ex (feat. Yin)

mixed n mastered by me. 
prod @blxty & @tgwog
Lyrics: 
ahay- 
I know everything exists within my pain 
can't keep running, but I never change my pace 
Medusa, there's some shit I'll never face 
there ain't no way I could be rich, my feelings changed 

I don't sleep right 
I don't think right 
I don't act right 
Yeaa
I don't feel right 
on the brink like 
is this sink too high? 
bluhh
Im in that zone again 
everything is closing in
nothing seems fine 
but ima be alright 

just another day 
I disassociate 

at least I changed.. 
you wanna talk about me? 
at least I changed.. 
you always talk about me... 

LXCCA-
Gave me a lil hope and then ya snatched it 
Havent seen right ever since like broken glasses
She was the cause of my decline and it was rapid 
Remember back the words would rhyme I  wasn’t rapping 
It hurt so bad said said how it was I wasn’t cappin 
She wasn’t at fault but was a factor 
I wasn’t at fault but was a factor 
Now I got motion shoutout Kappuh 
Help my dawg out in the field just like a tractor 
Ya I smiled in some faces then adapted 
Ya I smiled in some faces started laughing

I might’ve changed but I evolved 
You stay the same bump on a log 
I always work like a revolver 
Been in the game not far along

medusa

insta<3

medusa / changed w/ LXCCA (blxty & tgwog)

@brokitz 2023 archive throwaways, here for you

christy

mentions

[LYRICS]

my friends get on my nerves like all the time 
they’re all i got so i try not to fight with them 
cause it’s so scary out here 
my daddy told me that fear 
is just a feeling you feel 
cause fear will keep you alive 

you think you’re better than me?
getting all fucking jealous when they dap
me in the streets
yeah your clothes on fleek 
but your numbers don’t talk once 
you’re talking to me 
it’s all pretend to me 
but this is real life better watch homie 
and when i’m dying down 
it’s the only fucking time that you’ll come around 

my numbers are getting low
i feel like i don’t mean shit 
i’ll probably be forgotten 
discarded all the things that got you haunted 
comparison is the death of me 
but i wanna be just like my homies
i wanna be bigger than just something 
i wanna be bigger than just one thing 
oh i’m yearning for more 
oh it’s a party for ghost 
cause noboody is here me for it’s all empty 
i wanna crash out the devil wanna tempt me 
i see visions grandeur than this 
i hope that i don’t exist 
oh god it’d be blessing to fall 
for me to step back just to think of it all 
what did i what did i get into?
what did i get into it?
if i cause the problems 
then ive got to solve them 
all i do is fuck it all up 
i’m not the person to love 
narcissistic all the above 
i’m way better than all of you fucks

you think you’re better than me?
getting all fucking jealous when they dap
me in the streets
yeah your clothes on fleek 
but your numbers don’t talk once 
you’re talking to me 
it’s all pretend to me 
but this is real life better watch homie 
and when i’m dying down 
it’s the only fucking time that you’ll come around 

i do not own any rights to this beat it is all owned by strive beats :)

EGOIST [StriveBeats]

prod by @blxty @47e @tgwog
lyrics:
me-
let me be real 
i dont know where my heads at, whats the deal
need to process not choke, but i cant feel 

i dont wanna face it anymore
will anybody ever listen to me?

7gs a day i don't wanna fuckin feel a thing anymore ay
get my keys and skate, I just wanna feel the way I used to before ay 
i dont wanna explore a
different kind of escape plan
made it this far i cant wait man 
no more no more
rip my lil brother wish i got ur feet out that door 
now everyday feels accompanied by the past I can't ignore it

medicate (idk) till I suffocate and boy am I all for it x2

LXCCA-
Seeing things, can’t feel a thing 
Tried all the meds there ain’t no healing me 
Know all my friends don’t wanna hear from me
 All the people I wish were here to see
 I don’t wanna face it wanna wake up but I can’t 
I don’t wanna chase her but she got me in a trance
 Don’t care to be famous but still rock designer brands
 Get to the paper to the paper like a stamp
 Hang my coat on my way out
 I won’t need it where I’m going 
The way that things are going now
 Tryna fix it I’m not proud 
And my feelings always showing
 Painted to look just like a clown

idontwannafaceit

idontwannafaceit w/ LXCCA (blxty + exo + tgwog)

TouchDown (prod. cloak)

Molly II [ChaseJuggz]

[ay-hay]
long live jerm.
he/they

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medusa / changed w/ LXCCA (blxty & tgwog)

ahay

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