feels so good to be back i missed this
prod me and @makemeapromise featuring @remiliaxd

me :

oh, i know im not like before
words can’t reach me anymore
and I’m tired of feeling like a corpse
like a corpse

i just need space
and i cant relate
is this all for them or me?
i cant tell anymore

i cant do it
lets just drop this
i cant stop this
everything is calling
calling me now
and I don’t know how
i can stop my path
from going south

@remiliaxd :

i can't hear you calling
why can't i stop myself from falling down
idk what's left tonight
beware my love, don't hold me tight

let it go
so alone
lost control
but i don't know where to go
oh, but i don't know where to go
gotta find another light, gotta find you love

me :

oh, i know im not like before
words can’t reach me anymore
and I’m tired of feeling like a corpse
like a corpse

i just need space
and i cant relate
is this all for them or me?
i cant tell anymore

i cant do it
lets just drop this
i cant stop this
everything is calling
calling me now
and I don’t know how
i can stop my path
from going south

spiraling + remilia (me + surgeon)

amv - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aoR8Jdom6QQ

@domerrz
@whyhaze
@victxrw
@rewind214

instagram.com/01domerz/
instagram.com/whyhaze/
instagram.com/victxrw/
instagram.com/rwnd214/

[@domerrz]
i can't run
where's the fun in this if i'm still feelin numb?
took my heart in ur hands u crushed it to dust
and oh its so wrong
been hurtin for too long 
I cried when uUu left 
I turn then ur gone :/

[@whyhaze]
my heart no longer beats
i die when you leave
i tried to get it back
but it’s all for you to keep
i turn when you’re gone
toss and turn in my sleep 
keep my head down when i walk
cuz i wish you were next to me
i know it’s all hard to process 
i turned when you walked away
i keep walking
I took too much feels like I’m falling and falling 
feels like I’m running and running, but what we had just keeps calling me. 
I keep my head up high, my body still on the ground
Will you be there when I need you
I pick you up when you’re down 
I’ll ask you am I enough 
enough for you to stay around 
enough for you to stay

[@victxrw]
u didnt notice
how time flies
feels like im floating
i close my eyes
i say tht im hoping
tht we'll be fine
my chest is wide open
waiting 2 die

simply im not enough
im not enough for u
i know this feeling sucks 
just wait for me a day or 2
just wait for me my luv
i care i swear i do
they caught me coughing up my blood 
its only for uUu

SPOTIFY

i cried when uUu left w/ whyhaze, victxrw (rewind)

prod @neohnq

@arid
@k4rson

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/3U578ZQWzil2mILcukUzdk?si=CEGVFxrZQ26lEgCseoBbgQ&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4hmcQnGQdtz23kZjqnIXUG
beat breakdown - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1FCuyKoA_IQ
amv - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQjGdy0LEFs

arid -
yea i dont wanna stay when ur always awake
yea i knew back then u would throw me away
right back to where we started
only hold me close ur the one i wanted
put my head on ur shoulder
can u tell me its over
tell me right now before my feelings get colder
push it aside
theres no where to hide
dont feel safe yea im not alright

karson -
change on me
i know everybody is gonna change on me
these drugs they gon help to take the pain from me
im searching aimlessly
dont put the blame on me
we're not the same 
you see i'm doing better
move on i thought i'd never
drink til my fucking head hurts
these pills gon hit my stomach 
i dont care whatever
thats it im fucking done bitch
don't hit my phone not ever
you made my mental plummet
go back no i could never

arid + karson - it's over (neohn)

@wintfye

is it that wrong to feel this way
and i've been trying to convey
as long as my heart decays
be with you till my heart decays
x2

what would it take to be any closer
and not to be a burden on your shoulders
taking four leaves from a clover 
it's one step back till it's over-

you decide how i lie how we go on
i mean it's not like i'm everything you don't want
but does it matter to me its still my fault
but does it matter you're everything i want

heart decays (wintfye)

featuring @clay0127
prod. @xternalz x @ihateukidu

@akasukii 
i dont wanna let go
i just want someone to hold
u dont say it but i know its true
that you're halfway gone, and im losing u
but if i fall i’d rather fall slow
cause i dont want to let go
i dont want to let go even if it hurts
even if i drown in the weight of ur words
i’d rather feel the pain than the emptiness below
cause baby i dont want to let go

@clay0127
let go
feel forever in my throat
cause i cant break the mold
all you needed was a moment
to be left on your own
and all i wanted was some closure
before i let you go

all your regret, its haunting me
when i remember all our endeavors
i cannot breathe

i dont wanna let go 
i just want u to hold
 
i cant lie baby i miss you
and everydays an issue
without you in my arms
im just wishing i could kiss you
but now its been official
that i cant be there with you
i know its beneficial
whats a poet without issues?
i cant lie, my heart
its bleeding babe and no amount of tissues
are ever gonna fix it
got no one i can vent to
instead im gonna scream it
and make you feel that shit too
you really dont deserve it
all these feelings that i misuse

@akasukii 
i cant lie my heart
its breaking falling apart
without u here my baby 
i need u here so badly 

u dont say it but i know its true
that you're halfway gone, and im losing u
but if i fall i’d rather fall slow
cause i dont want to let go
i dont want to let go even if it hurts
even if i drown in the weight of ur words
i’d rather feel the pain than the emptiness below
cause baby i dont want to let go

i dont want to let go w/clay [xternalz x kidu]

gonna try for 1 more song before new yrs///
@neoprada  @dimpleb #beautifuldayguaranteed
#####
(oh, oh)
(i'll wait for you)
just tell me you're safe
tell me your okay
i'll cherish every moment
what you want me to say? (hello)
when i had no friends that would call me  (you say hey)
and last year she want me so bad
baby you know that 
i hope that she knows that

now she don't wanna text back
ay, i wake up head is spinning still
i'm gonna blow my brains out
i just wanna know
if your still missing me
i need that
(but not one call or text)
guess i just gotta laugh it off
(if i had you i would have it all)

@lifegiverr

just tell me what u really want
and what u really need
just cut the silence baby cant u tell its killing me
its all the violence in my heart and thats whats eating me
yeah ive been bleeding from the start i just want u to see

u want to play these games
just tell me who u are
i been away for so long girl u feel so far
i know its different noww
but thats just who we are 
and i just hope that u know that

tell me ur safe +neoprada (dimpleb)

@domerrz
@jonsve
@pw4prez
@popilization

[@domerrz]
it's you, it's you, it's uUu 
I do every little thing for you 
for you, all for uUu
never thought I would have made it through
for you, for uUu
I'd tear myself apart for you
and after all the things we've been through
I'd do everything to get to you

you x1000000
make it back 2 u
my path always leads back 2 uUu

[@jonsve]
don't leave me by the wayside, girl
i know that you're my place in the world
praying it's a phase and your words aren't true
loving has a face and it looks like uUu
you're a part of me
everything i say is outta honesty
stop calling me
if you're not for me
please just leave me be if this is curtesy
you're all i need
i know i'm alright
you still give me butterflies
but i'm hurting baby i still need you by my side
if you're leaving me
just leave me in a ditch to die
im not your enemy
i just want you in my life

it's uUu x3
i do every little thing for you
for uUu x2
and i'm hoping we can make it through

SPOTIFYE

for uUu w/ jons (sochi + pop)

prod @decago + @1rokit

i miss making music
thanks @fabs4k for finding the cover art

lyrics:

you know i cant lie
this past is haunting all my life
twist your knife into my side
cause i dont care ill be alright

its all done for you
one more second and ill lose
why cant you just say the truth?
im tired of doing this for you
for you

say what you want, i wont give you it back now
the letter in my house now
you wanted me to change how i felt
i wont do this with you
its all no use
we're crashing our heads against the wall again and again
im seeing the end
no place for us would prevent this from happening
im falling down
girl, i cant think
face to the ground
lost everything i had to begin with
when i think i just want to end this
end this all

when i saw
what you said
it took a second for me to even address
every flaw
in duress
you pointed out and left us in this mess

you pointed out and left us in this mess
yeah you left us in this mess

you know i cant lie
this past is haunting all my life
twist your knife into my side
cause i dont care ill be alright

its all done for you
one more second and ill lose
why cant you just say the truth?
im tired of doing this for you
for you

twist your knife into my side

twist your knife into my side (decago + 1rokit)

@lifegiverr @1akura @decago @kyoakyo @afterstoryx
i dont expect u to change
but pls hear me out
the noise & the pain
is getting to loud

can u hear me now?

scratch and tear at my seams
but i dont think u know what it means
all the bruises and the cuts how they sting
its like you dont see a thing

its like im wrapped with a string

and i cant tell if u love me or hate me
cant seem to save me
all that i said 
was it all just a waste thing

cut me apart && 
my memories paste in
to the end of the earth
youre my doll im ur plaything

life - love&hate (akura, decago, kyoa)

🔬 One lab. One seductive biologist. Will you become a subject in her little biological research? 
Step inside and surrender to... Stimulant X: You ❤️

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✨ This song was created with a passion for storytelling and the fusion of human creativity and AI:
• Lyrics: Thrillian
• Music: SUNO AI

