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Lyrics

I don't know how to feel at all
No emotions, I killed 'em all
I don't wanna go back to where I dread
I don't like some of the things that I said

I'm not a bad guy but I've done some bad things
Build it so high / turn it into nothing
I don't understand, I don't like where I am

In this room all alone, I'm just staring at my phone
and I really wanna call but you do not care at all so why would I?

Why would I?
Why should I?
How could I?
How could I?
How could I?

Love her so much when she don't give a fuck at all
I fall again, building up a wall again
I know it's not right but I don't like these times
Where I lay in bed all night and cry about my fucked up life

I don't get this and I don't want to
I'm so afflicted, why do I want you?

bitter. (unwritten) | Produced by alicks

Lyrics

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

I'm so cold, I don't think I feel a thing
I just wanna get a pole, put a bullet in my brain
I know you ain't wanna know about the shit that I can say
When I'm in my room alone, letting out all of this pain

But I gotta let it out, yeah I gotta let it fly
I don't wanna see you pout, I don't wanna see you cry
When you see I'm out of time in the moment that I die
Cause when I was still alive you ain't pull me to to the side

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

alone. | Produced by sketchmyname

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

Drunk, stuck, don't give a fuck
I still ain't had me enough
Why so shook? Knew what was up
I never lied about none

I told you I wasn't what
You were still searching to find
You hurt you
I was just taking advantage and passing the time

I'm not even what's close to divine
I lost hope and I never will find
It again, I'm in the shit again, I'm never fitting in, God I know that I'm not getting in
Your heaven, I'm hellbent on my only purpose

You think I'm at the top
But I feel like I'm losing
Life's hard wanna stop
Something in me keep choosing

To fight off these thoughts
That tell me let it off
That tell me that I'm not
Worth everything that I got

That bitch ain't care
Why the fuck should I?
There's some in the air
That makes me wanna die

So why do I fight?
When I think I'm lost?
Maybe because I
Can only fight when lost

Stuck in a cycle, that's how my life go
Honestly think that I'm psycho
Midnight, can't keep my eyes closed
I might need Nyquil, I never like it when I feel

Like I can't sleep cause you'll be in my dreams
Even when you don't care you're the one that I see
In my life for the rest of eternity
Why this love in my chest keep on burning me?

Why the girl that I love keep on hurting me?
Don't know what's wrong with me, everyone always deserting me
God why the fuck did you burden me? Death is an urgency
All my emotions are murkin' me

mercury.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

(unknxwn.) 
Don't know where I went wrong
Been tryna figure it out all night long
What do I do? How do I leave?
What hurts me the most is the fact that it's me

I'm what I hate, I know I'm fake
Been trying my best to learn a new way
Evil is rooted down deep in my core
If I lose it, I'd lose it, don't know what to do when

All is okay when I wake with no pain
I been hurt for so long when I'm not, I'm just grey
Look to the sky, don't know why I'm alive
Spill my heart on my art cause I can't even cry

I just wanna go away, I don't even wanna try now
I don't wanna see a face, think I might just rip my fucking eyes out
I don't wanna hear your words, they won't ever really work
They don't ever fucking heal me, shut the fuck up you don't feel me

Shut the fuck up, you don't know
All the bad stuff that I hold
In a part of my brain I won't show
To another other than me

I wish that I could though
But I know that I can't
Don't tell me that I can

(cuts)

i know im a mess and im far from the best
but i cannot change cos i feel so deranged
i know that you hate when i say im no good
i promise that i try but i wish that i could

be the person that you miss the most
that persons dead, now im just a damn ghost
you want one thats happy, not fucking depressed
but im just a human, mediocre at best

i wish i was perfect you see its impossible 
ive been so broken you cant feel responsible 

i did all of the things you would ask me to
i ask for one thing now it’s all about you
im always the bad guy that’s just how it seems
but you were projecting your mistakes onto me

you say that you hate me and you want me dead
you have no remorse and i don’t think you’ll dread
im crying and pleading while it points at my head
i didnt think it was grave but the guns in your hand

i just wanna go away w/ unknxwn. (itb)

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf


🎧 Free to streOriginal composition by thAImonk  
Language / Style: English – Ambient Hip-Hop / Lo-Fi Rap / Spoken Word  
Genre: Ambient Hip-Hop / Lo-Fi Rap  

A deeper, warmer version of “Reaching Nirvana” with softer pads and more spacious temple ambience.  
Calm baritone spoken-word delivery floats over lo-fi percussion and low sub-bass pulses.  
Peaceful, cinematic and introspective — a meditative storytelling moment.  

🎧 Free to stream & use in TikTok / Reels (credit @aithaimonk)
#thaimonk #ReachingNirvanav2

Reaching Nirvana v2.mp3

madden freestyle. (prod. the6erz)

Lyrics

Run away, run away, run away from all the thoughts that just keep on destroying my head
Pain in my body, I'm nothing without it, the point of my life is to wish I was dead
Leave me alone I know I need a friend but I don't wanna end up all broken again
Sometimes I feel like I'm better but day turns to night and I feel like I'm hopeless again
You wanna get to know me? I'm sad and I only vent over emotional beats
If you think I'm not a lost cause, go speak to the last person that said that same thing to me
I will leave you in the past, you want my love? I can't give you some I never had
Why do I not give a damn? I think I got it from my piece of shit of a dad
I ain't seen him in some years, me disappearing like that might be my biggest fear
So silent I cannot hear, I pour up a glass and I look in the mirror say cheers
I wish I could say goodbye
Sometimes I wish I could cry
Sometimes I wish that the person I was would be the complete opposite of I
So when I'm sad they're flowing with joy
And when I cave, they're making a choice
and when I die all full of regret, they'll die with a life they enjoyed

FR87. | Produced by røse

lyrics:

Disappointing disappointment death I need an appointment
Life is pointless scream into to the mic until I go voiceless
Overthinking situations till I start to hear voices
My music is a medicine I make from the poison

That intoxicates every single part of me
They said it was a phase but it seems like its a part of me
Only way that I escape, is the drugs that take a part of me
Away from me, the sadness goes away but it takes away the heart of me

So its hard for me, to give back all the love that you would offer me
If it didn't hurt my mom, I would off me
Put myself into a coffin where I oughta be
Yeah thats where I rather be

I'm too weak, life is too much, all this fuck stuff
In two weeks, I'll be heldback, school is rough bruh
I'm amounting to the things that they said I'd be
If you asked them to describe me they'd say "dead to me"

I'm dead to me too, so they're right next to me
Fallin' through a void and there aint nobody catching me

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Archive: unknxwn.