finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

addict.

(unknxwn.) 
Don't know where I went wrong
Been tryna figure it out all night long
What do I do? How do I leave?
What hurts me the most is the fact that it's me

I'm what I hate, I know I'm fake
Been trying my best to learn a new way
Evil is rooted down deep in my core
If I lose it, I'd lose it, don't know what to do when

All is okay when I wake with no pain
I been hurt for so long when I'm not, I'm just grey
Look to the sky, don't know why I'm alive
Spill my heart on my art cause I can't even cry

I just wanna go away, I don't even wanna try now
I don't wanna see a face, think I might just rip my fucking eyes out
I don't wanna hear your words, they won't ever really work
They don't ever fucking heal me, shut the fuck up you don't feel me

Shut the fuck up, you don't know
All the bad stuff that I hold
In a part of my brain I won't show
To another other than me

I wish that I could though
But I know that I can't
Don't tell me that I can

(cuts)

i know im a mess and im far from the best
but i cannot change cos i feel so deranged
i know that you hate when i say im no good
i promise that i try but i wish that i could

be the person that you miss the most
that persons dead, now im just a damn ghost
you want one thats happy, not fucking depressed
but im just a human, mediocre at best

i wish i was perfect you see its impossible 
ive been so broken you cant feel responsible 

i did all of the things you would ask me to
i ask for one thing now it’s all about you
im always the bad guy that’s just how it seems
but you were projecting your mistakes onto me

you say that you hate me and you want me dead
you have no remorse and i don’t think you’ll dread
im crying and pleading while it points at my head
i didnt think it was grave but the guns in your hand

i just wanna go away w/ unknxwn. (itb)

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Tryna change is hard
Don't know where to start
It's so many parts
I can't see it all
I turned off my heart
I can't turn it on
I got all this pain
I can't turn it off

Never got no help
I been on my own
Everything I felt
You could never know
I came out my shell
I was vulnerable
You sent me to hell
Now my heart is stone

I be needing help
And I don't ever ask
And I lost all my hope
And I can't get that back
What's the point if I did?
I won't ever have that girl back again
No one could turn on those feelings within
She has that key and she won't unlock it

i turned off my heart.

Lyrics

Don't know where I belong anymore
Where do I go from here now?
I ain't got nobody to give me a hand now
I need someone to tell me that it'll be all okay
But nobody wanna talk to me
Did it to myself when I ain't want them talking to me
Gave her all my love, she ain't want it
Thought I was but I guess I'm not important
It'd be smart to move on but I'm a dumbass
Don't care about my future, I just wanna go back

Wanna hold her, need a shoulder
You were supposed to bring me up, you pushed me lower
It's okay though, I forgive you, and I always will cause I miss you
And I hope for the day that you come back
Don't wanna start over again, I want your love back
Staring at my phone, I'm waiting for you to call back
I lost who I was, I know I won't get it all back

Don't know where I belong anymore
Where do I go from here now?
I ain't got nobody to give me a hand now
I need someone to tell me that it'll be all okay
But nobody wanna talk to me
Did it to myself when I ain't want them talking to me
Gave her all my love, she ain't want it
Thought I was but I guess I'm not important
It'd be smart to move on but I'm a dumbass
Don't care about my future, I just wanna go back

it'd be smart to move on but i'm a dumbass.

Lyrics

I'm not an evil person but I've got some evil curses
Why God do I feel worthless? Honestly, I might deserve this
'Cause sometimes I don't play the victim
Broken pages in a book, I ripped them
Arrows shooting at your back, I sent them
All the hurtful things I said, I meant them
Sometimes I wanna go away, sometimes I like the noise
Sometimes I feel the hate, sometimes I feel the joy
Why can't I hold myself down? I guess if I could, I'd be dead by now
I would allow myself to drown

sometimes. (2019)

Produced by flower x fonkyfake

Lyrics

Holding on to nothing
I don't care, I just needed something
Drugs I'm off and drinking? Stopped it
Had to resort to another option

Don't know where I'll go from here though
I wanna save you but I'm not a hero
I need God, I need a miracle
I don't think my vice is curable

This ain't talent, this is pain embodied
Speaking through my body
I'm not alive, I'm a zombie
Pain is what I eat when hungry

Lost my heart, I won't ever find it
My mind's dark and I won't ever light it
I been battling my demons and I'm tired of the fighting
Fuck ken, detmer's who I can confide in

I don't wanna hide it
Yeah, I kinda like it
I don't wanna fall short
But I might really fall in

God can you forgive me?
For I know not what I do
Will it take away the pain?
If I give it all to you?

this ain't talent, this is pain.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Look into my eyes, you can see the pain
You can feel my vibe but you can't feel my rage
Baby we ain't gotta talk, I can hear your thoughts
You could never fool me, I can see your heart

Baby you ain't gotta hide, I see what's inside
I can see those demons, come into the light
I know you think I'm alone, you could never know
What I got beside me, what I'm keeping close

Put some metal in my head, bitch I feel like I'm magneto
I heard what they said but it don't matter to me though
All they worried bout is bread but they don't even like wheat though
Why you tryna eat the fruit that you ain't even plant a seed for?

Okay, I see what you are, you just tryna feed
You ain't tryna give but you tryna receive
Niggah I know we allowed but I can't allow
I can't be around you, I see what surrounds you

M, 13-44.

margiela island

Margiela Island

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run

it'd be smart to move on but i'm a dumbass.

Archive: unknxwn.