i'm running out of words to describe this feeling.

Produced by kledyy

Lyrics

I opened up my chest, laid it bare for you
I pulled out my heart, something I never do
I scraped out the pain, every secret, every scar
I was hoping that you’d see me but you always stayed so far

I gave you the pieces, every single one with care
I was hoping that you’d hold them but you just left them there
I poured out my soul, let you see it all
But you never even caught me when I began to fall

I scraped it clean, down to the core
Gave you the love I’d never shown before
But you turned away, left me bleeding out
Now I’m hollow inside and I'm filled with doubt
I gave you my heart, every piece that I could
But you never would love me in the way that I thought that you would

You were the light I reached for in the dark
The warmth that I chased to mend my broken heart
I showed you all of the places I hide
The ghost of my past that I kept deep inside

Now there's nothing left but an empty space
Echoes of a love that time itself won't ever erase

i've scraped my heart clean to give you everything i possibly could.

Lyrics

I wish I had back my friends, I just wanna turn the time back
Losing another I love, I don't know if I can take that
I replace pain with a drug, mom ask about it, I fake that
One day I'll stop doing pills but until then let me take that

I stay up late watching movies 'cause I just see sleep as a skip to the next day
And every time that I wake up I'm just hoping that I don't succeed to the next day
It's so fucking bad, I'm always angry but I'm never mad
Fucking depressed, I'm not just feeling sad, I wish that my body was inside a bag

I wish that I wasn't awake, I wish it was all just a dream, I wish it was all fucking clear
There's always a read in-between, and I fucking hate it, it sucks
Always asking why I'm not enough
I'd end it all if I could, put a knife into my fucking gut

unknxwn. - If I could.

i'd end it all if i could. (2017)

Lyrics

Finna stop doing this music shit, I do not give a shit
Everything I do, I seem to quit
My life is full of shit, world is the toilet
Losing all hope and I don't see no benefit

I'll be a bum for the rest of my life
Please do not tell me that I'll be alright
I've made my choice and I'm not gonna fight
Just cause the sun is out don't mean it's bright

They say that money ain't happiness
But everyone's sad and I bet they wish they were rich
Don't even lie cause you're scraping for change
And I know you think yourself that life is a bitch

I'm 17 and I'm already dead
Why do these thoughts always enter my head?
Fuck everyone and the words that they said
Honestly, I would be better off dead

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

unknxwn. - I don't know what that is

i don't know what that is. (2017)

Lyrics

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

You never told me how you really feel
Silence took over and it broke our deal
My heart gets broken and it never heals
I want to forget so I resort to pills

You played along like you actually cared
You couldn't leave me cause you were too scared
All of my problems you just couldn't bare
You used to be here but now you are where?

These words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

unknxwn. - dead

dead memories. (2017)

Lyrics

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

I don't ever get why people leave, man I'm such a mess
Honestly, I don't want you to leave but I think it's best
Say you're not the samе, I don't believe, you'rе just like the rest
God, take away the pain please, I don't wanna stress

I don't wanna feel all this fucking pain
I don't wanna deal with what I have inside my brain
I don't think I'm normal, I just think that I'm insane
I should pull the plug, I know life is just a game

Always up too late, working on a song
Tryna get too baked, I wanna feel numb
Tik-tok-tik, feeling like a fucking bomb
Now I'm underwater, ain't no air inside my lungs

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

i think it's best. (2017)

Lyrics

I'm not an evil person but I've got some evil curses
Why God do I feel worthless? Honestly, I might deserve this
'Cause sometimes I don't play the victim
Broken pages in a book, I ripped them
Arrows shooting at your back, I sent them
All the hurtful things I said, I meant them
Sometimes I wanna go away, sometimes I like the noise
Sometimes I feel the hate, sometimes I feel the joy
Why can't I hold myself down? I guess if I could, I'd be dead by now
I would allow myself to drown

sometimes. (2019)

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

Lyrics

I act like I don't but girl I miss you
Every thought of you cost me another tissue
I don't wanna make another similar issue
So I won't another get as close as I let you
Come back, please, come back, I'm so sorry
I didn't mean to hurt you, I know the cost now
But if you somehow hear my heart out
I'm sorry that I put our loves flame spark out
If you feel like it's not you I'm talking about know I miss Oats too
I miss all the times we would say some weird shit
When we spent all our nights watching shit on Netflix
I want back all I let go, I fucking hate it, I don't wanna feel love no more

LRG. (2019)

Lyrics

I swear that I'm sick and tired of lies, I'm struggling just to get by
Yeah, I can slide on a hard ass beat but that don't change the fact that I just wanna cry
I swear ain't a day that go by where I do not think "I'd be better off if I died"
I tried let all this shit out but it ain't enough words to speak on the shit that's inside

I gotta spit on that 808 just so people can hear what I say cause when I do sad shit, they be like "Damn you rap pretty good but I just can't relate,"
What in the fuck does it take to show me you care? Don't act like you did when I break
The day that I die don't fall for the liе that people werе there cause I swear that they ain't

What do you get when you mix a life that's hard and give it some shit hand cards
And tell it it's gotta go on to live in a world where all he sees is just dark
You get a bomb with a short ass fuse and all that it needs is a spark
So just stay away, cause the day that I do, I swear imma tear all this bullshit apart

I lost my life when you lost yours, and that's not a play on words
I don't wanna change, I like being sad, not really but tryna be happy's absurd
I try to stay home, I don't wanna drive, sometimes I wanna head straight for the curb
This life is a lie, you say that I'm blessed but it don't feel like it ain't shit but a curse

Wish I could drown in all my tears but I'm numb, ain't able to cry
I wish I could face on all my fears and kill them, but honestly, why even try?
Why this girl calling my phone at 2am? Like bitch, you not even mine
Telling me all of your problems, I cannot solve them, don't you know I'm just a guy?

spark! (2019)

Lyrics

Oh, my life is so, don't even know, it's getting old
All these songs bout the same old shit
Guess I'm still hung on the same old bitch
Switch

If I love another girl, I won't let her know
When I fall in love again, imma let her go
She said she would always stay, tell another joke
Look at me and lie again, imma fucking blow up on you

Like bombs do, I swear I don't want you, but I can't get you out my head
All I really want is you in my bed
I know I'm a mess, you know you could care less
I know you think I'm worthless, I wish that I could forget

But I can't, so I smoke till I blackout
No drugs, I'm awake till I pass out
Still awake, ain't no telling when I'll crash out
Suicidal thoughts in the whip, wanna crash now
This ain't a damn phase, I been stuck like this
Wasn't always but 2014 hit, then I lost my shit, and I still ain't came back
If that was God's wish, how could I praise that?

Life is a disaster, I wanna be Casper
Death is on it's way but I think I can do it faster
I won't regret it, I won't be able
I'm dead inside, I'm becoming more unstable

Wake up everyday and wonder why I wanna die
When you ask me how my day, I'm more inclined to tell a lie
I could never tell the truth, I don't want you to see me
I'll push you away just so that you could never leave me
'Cause in my head, I can already see the end
I'm still not dead, God, why you keep playing pretend?
Why'd I stop meds? Should've known that I could never win
You wanna know me? Listen close cause I won't tell you shit

I'm just a human going through it, ain't nothing special
I'm through it, all the bullshit, I've got a head full
And why you asking me what's wrong? I know you don't care
I'm not the one to cry to cause honestly I don't care

Why can't I quit breathing? Why's my heart still beating?
My life line's receding, life's a bitch, I'm cheating

blackout! (2019)

Lyrics

I'm fucking up again, so God, forgive my sins
I'm losing all my friends, how did I come back to this?
I ran away till it caught up, fuck all these games tear the card's up
Don't know what this is but it's not love
My heart's put away and it's locked up
You can't save me, not like you'd give it a try though
I'm still breaking down but I sing on the high note
It's okay if you hate me, I know you used to have high hopes
Please don't chase me, if yes really meant no, I would be right
How far could I get if I really tried? Don't care about shit, if I do, then I lied
I found a genie stuck in a bottle, I wished for death, and I still havеn't died
Why can't I get out of my head? I think I'd bе better off dead
Lies making me say that again, life took me back to the bottom again

sins. (2019)

Lyrics

I found a buyer, soul in the fire
You're such a liar, stab me like Meyers
What's love? I forgot
Numb in every spot, alright I am not, I can't make it stop
Writing the same songs, I need a new pain
Felt this for too long, maybe I can't change
Stuck in the same cage, why can't I escape?
Death's all I got left, life, I need a break
Leave me alone I don't care anymore at all
I fucking suck, I know
Let me go, let me fall

I found a buyer, soul in the fire
You're such a liar, stab me like Meyers

I'm a piece of shit, I know that
Where's my soul? I sold that
Her heart's gone, I broke that
Hands on her neck, I choke that
I'm not an angel, I'm a monster
Head full of trash, I'm a dumpster
Smoke up the pack till my lungs hurt
Typing up tracks till my thumbs hurt
Heart's not beating, I'm dead
Want me to care? I can't
Red flag, you don't notice
Don't be surprised when I unload it

i'm running out of words to describe this feeling.

Archive: unknxwn.