finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

wired.

produced by king theta 

not sure if i like it but im posting it anyway

lyrics: 

why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away
they talk about me like they know my name

tears come in tidal waves
alyssa she told me that im okay
ill miss her but im better off this way
im hurting these feelings i try to shake

stuck in my head tears on my bed
i take back everything i had said
stuck in my brain dont look the same
i fell for you over again

im not tryna throw shade but you told me you love me 
you told me you told me you told me
you wont leave you told me to trust you, you told me dont worry 
i worried i worried i worried i did

and now look at me 
just watch as i bleed
just watch as i fall
just watch as i crawl 

right back to you baby i know you dont care about me like you said that you did but i need you right now and i swear ill do better this time… this time

but im still learning
my heart is burning
our love is fading
and im still waiting for you

so come back 
it hurts so bad
my tears they wont last
but my bloods gone black

so why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away

why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away
they talk about me like they know my name

eliasz (king theta)

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Produced by gaxillc

Lyrics

Fuck what I did cause I hate what I'm doing
Is life really worth it? I feel like it's stupid
Detmer told Garrett "Shut the fuck up and do it"
Ken is so useless, unknxwn. just wants music

I found a fire but I been so cold for so long
Something tells to put this bitch out
Lost my desire, I don't wanna hold anyone
If the songs that I made ain't about

Misery loves company, why am I lonely?
If my life has only been miserable
My life will only be memorable
When I no longer belong to the side that is physical

I really thought I'd be better by now but I guess that I won't ever be
Thought I could leave behind what's keeping me behind but I guess Detmer just won't ever leave
Don't look at me like I'm crazy, I'm exactly what she turned me into
We're still both breathing, I'm hurting, I guess the answer is simple

I don't need a phone if your numbers not inside it
I don't need a home if it's not where you're residing
I wish I was gone, I don't wanna be alive
Need a bullet in my dome, shouldn't come as a surprise, shit

I wanted her, she wanted you
You'll never love her the way that I do
I wasn't sure, didn't know what to do
I give up trying, I guess I'll just lose

I'll never win back her love
I'll never be who she wants again
I think I've dealt with enough
I won't ever feel that love again

Fuck what I did cause I hate what I'm doing
Is life really worth it? I feel like it's stupid
Detmer told Garrett "Shut the fuck up and do it"
Ken is so useless, unknxwn. just wants music

I found a fire but I been so cold for so long
Something tells to put this bitch out
Lost my desire, I don't wanna hold anyone
If the songs that I made ain't about

Misery loves company, why am I lonely?
If my life has only been miserable
My life will only be memorable
When I no longer belong to the side that is physical

miserable.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

Enduring

CORPSEBRIDE

Lyrics

Got stuck in the nightfall
Look in my soul see the lights off
Honestly I would still save you
But you wouldn't catch me if I fall

I'm too into myself
I'll be the reason that I go to hell
Cause sometimes I'm the one ringin' that bell
At least I'm aware enough that I can tell

Fallin' I'm fallin'
Why do my demons keep callin'?
No matter what key I try or I turn
Everytime I try start I keep stallin'

I can't move on
I'm fuckin' stuck in this rerun
I don't like pills but I need one
I lost my heart now I need one

Got stuck in the nightfall
Look in my soul see the lights off
Honestly I would still save you
But you wouldn't catch me if I fall

I'm too into myself
I'll be the reason that I go to hell
Cause sometimes I'm the one ringin' that bell
At least I'm aware enough that I can tell

nightfall. | Produced by tundrabeats

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

Don't call me if I'm just your scapegoat
To ignore the pain that you hate most
I know that you're lonely cause so am I
But don't come around me with that damn disguise

Acting like you really might want me
I'm not a toy, don't try me, don't taunt me
Cause I've got impulses that haunt me
Do you really wanna end up as a trunk piece?

That's Detmer talking to Qayin
I'm Ken, I really don't like them
Don't hurt me, that's what excites them
Then it gets really hard for me to try and hide them

They been tryna get out, make something happen
Holes they wanna dig out, fill 'em with some tragic
They don't like to talk, they just really be on action
Once ounce of pain, all it take for them to tap in

Bitch stay away cause I promise you don't want this
You might let 'em in if you even choose to bump this
Burning embers, you can't even stomp it
My light getting thinner, turning into something

Ken stfu, we don't wanna hear you
They making yo blood rush, we gone make 'em feel you
If they wanna touch us, we gone make 'em fear you
Let 'em know they fucked up, then show them the real you

Tryna pull some fuck shit, we gone fuck 'em up now
Throw that body in a ditch, we ain't had enough now
Tellin' us they last wish but they out of luck now
Who left on that damn list? Let's see if they tough now

spotify.

last wish.

Ice in my veins
Knives in my heart
How did I die I dont know where to start

I start to fade
Everything grey
Other than death I dont see any way

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

Bodies everywhere, and I watch em all burn
Thinkin' to myself, "did I take the wrong turn"
I make mistakes and I will never learn
Once I depart I will never return

wired.

Archive: unknxwn.