i cannot speak or make a sound
my time is up ive been found out
he holds the key and the highground
and i couldnt save the casualties
youre getting numb while i feel your pain
i medicate to calm down my brain
something is up with the walls im insane
now youve caught me hands up and im feeling so lame

thank you for listening<3

found out

blink your eyes and it's here

with @ejcarrmusic
executive produced by immortal

enjoy. <3

lyrics:

talk back
nothing short of me
fall back
the life i wanted needs
more than anything at all
something changing when im gone
i can’t tell if i’m just broken
or if all this has a cause
its all in the differential; sub-sequential results
change me like an oil spill in the gulf
my heart isn’t breakable but i know
the mood changes are taking half of the toll
that i pay when im driving past your home
the time frame isnt making sense, no i know
its all fake when i’m grinding down to the bone
i need faith but its hard to believe in ghosts

i tried to see it your way, cuz mine’s much worse
this pessimistic viewpoint just leaves me cursed
i won’t say never, cuz i won’t quit
but nothing ever changes till i’m all in

but when’s that come 
to stop the hurt 
i’m waiting for signs 
that’ll heal this curse 
it’s something that i’ve never seen before 
yet something i know i’ve been bracing for 
and i’ve got this feeling that 
i should just face the facts 
live in reality 
but we both know 
that wouldn’t be me 

i tried to see it your way, cuz mine’s much worse
this pessimistic viewpoint just leaves me cursed
i won’t say never, cuz i won’t quit
but nothing ever changes till i’m all in

i’ll never see it your way, you know it well
i tried to keep the peace here, now i’m in hell
and i can say never, i don’t give a shit
cuz nothing ever changes till im all in

spotify & apple!

heretic w/ evan carr [immortal x splashgvng]

Spent 19yrs Underneath The Surface Of The Ocean N Now Im Growing Coral

disbelief (prod. tiedforsilver)

~2300~

produced by Ezra Martin

Lyrics:

[Chorus]
Hate it
You know I can’t beat it
I don’t want you saying
That you don’t feel like staying 
Dear god, I want it to be over
I wanted you to call me back
I want it to be over
I’m always gonna get attached 
I wanted you to call me

[Verse]
You hate it
I know
Can’t go
So cold
Rather be alone at home
Blood keeps spilling out
Heart exposed
I won’t let them change me ‘
To be like you
Empathetic
Felt it all fall when you said it
Immerse myself in the lies ‘til i’m dead inside 
Might’ve been wrong but you said it
Nothing you can say gonna hurt my
Pride

[Chorus]
Hate it
You know I can’t beat it
I don’t want you saying
That you don’t feel like staying 
Dear god, I want it to be over
I wanted you to call me back
I want it to be over
I’m always gonna get attached 
I wanted you to call me

hostile

ignored every sign

prod. pekarot

ive become a carbon copy of all of the things that i used to despise
maybe ill feel much better with some conversation and the touch of your skin tonight
jump my bones
bleed me dry
take it all from me i swear its fine
i dont know who i am without our hand’s intertwined 
and the picture i keep is a symbol of time
im way more fucked up than I realized 
shot myself in the foot, i ignored every sign
i pray to god we hit every red light 
cause when moments are fleeting, the now must suffice
maybe we can fall in love again for a night
forgive and forget, I dont care who was right
He might be remembered, but we’ll never die
search for salvation in all your goodbyes

Oh what a shame we became 
Such a fragile broken thing 
Wish we could’ve stayed the same
Oh the pain that it brings
When I think of all the ways that I could’ve seen it coming 
Would’ve fucked up anyways
Still dont know what im running from , so the songs are how I deal with what we’ve become
The glow in your eyes is as bright as the sun and it stays there even when push comes to shove
you mean more to me than you realize 
Girl you color my sky
why the fuck would i lie?
your face is a mainstay inside of my mind
read the texts back in your voice like every time
give me the chance to take you on a drive 
the way that you hold me makes everything fine 
moments so perfect at every red light
and i wish i could feel it at least one more time

red light (prod. pekarot)

I’m laying on the asphalt 
Doing what you asked for 
Treat me like an asshole 
Even tho I’m fragile 

Blood flows down from my gold teeth 
Feeling alright when you stay near me 

All these tears are meant to be 
All these tears just prove what you meant to me 
All these tears just prove what you meant to me 
All these tears show its  meant to be 

I’ll try to run away tho 
Doing what I’m said or told 
It’s hard to stay 10 toes 
When ur all I’ve ever known 

Blood flows down from my gold teeth 
Feeling alright when you stay near me

Meant to me (Prod.Emptyroads)

prod. by: @yagirlbunny
shoutout : @theraevyn <3

lyrics:

what'chu know about it
you don't even make sense
roll another blunt
just so i could deal with it
there's something in my bud
but i'll smoke another spliff
laced with fentanyl
this gon' be my last hit

what's up
got bands, bitch, i want it all
die young
bump peep at my funeral
pour a cup
you gon' need it when i leave this world
leave you all behind
except my boys
we with the reaper

(@theraevyn)

i remember after the fall
i don't see you here
i don't see you at all
i miss you, my dear
my knife cuts through it all
blood leaking onto the floor
my body drop and i'm cold

x2

when you forget my face
i'll be in heaven at the gates
on the other side where the angels sing
i hope you come back to me

before i go

(prod. cxrter x the sound clown)

lyrics:
oh my youre the danger zone
i let you get so close
then you go and take control
of every muscle

you have me by a piece of string
ill be your puppet just let me in
ill give it up ill let you win
do i mean a thing

here we go again
acting innocent
lately its been different
youve been so distant

oh my youre the danger zone
i let you get so close
then you go and take control
of every muscle

oh how its killing me
you love to watch me bleed
still do it so willingly
anything you need

you have me by a piece of string
ill be your puppet just let me in
ill give it up ill let you win
do i mean a thing

Danger Zone

2nd single <3

lyrics 

darling our love ain't the same
still getting fog in the brain
pissed off but can u still stay
i'm longing but walking away

she wanna sit on high hopes
lie on bad copes
soon ill fly home 
soon ill fly home 

pouring in slowly
rolling up sacks
to moving so quickly
how do we do that uh baby

i see all all the skies that we’d watch go by before we’d sleep
i cant help but keep these memories locked away

baby our love was the top
made sure we’d feel in the top
like baby you're hitting the spot
baby you're hitting the spot

just take my heart
it's not the same 

she don't wanna stop, like can you just drop it, no way
like, i wanna love you, i wanna fuck you yeah aye

she coming back, back to me
i'll keep it a stack, dragging me
like can you relax actually
just trying to figure out who i really wanna be uh

i wonder why you don't say i love you anymore directly to my face
i can't even let these words out no more, just pour the champagne

'coz i wanna love without help
wanna learn to love you by myself
i don't mind, i don't mind, i don't mind as long as i'm sane
i don't mind, i don't mind, i don't mind long as you're s-
i don't mind, i don't mind, i don't mind long as you're safe

love song, this a love song baby
love song, this a love song baby

pouring up champagne
rolling up fast
smoking a stack
making it last uh baby

i see all the stars but you
you
you 
are the one

homebound

homebound (jabarionthebeat)

The cycle of entropy is always 🌒

Prod/mix/master_ me

found out

auby