prod: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNG1W2kKDmWGnGDtm0i1SSg
enjoy!

Reality Ripper (prod. hero)

scared

@bedroom_noise :P
i’m catching ur disease
ur begging for attention
you wont get any from me

put your face down while you bleed
stop running round in circles
and get back to your lead

i get angry and nauscious when you speak
i think it’s time to end it
you really look demented

you can’t reach out to me
cus i can’t talk to you
i couldn’t even talk to you

you’re twisting all my words
now i’m still useless
im climbing up your walls
watch me abuse this
you barley let me in
well i’m out
so pathetic and loud
act ur age and spit it out
don’t pretend u don’t know
who i’m talking about

don’t wanna talk to you now
your spit on my tongue, i’m leaking sludge from my mouth
i pick up the bottle and wash the thought of you down
sweat is pouring out my face, i’m doing fine though
i’m great, yeah i’m great

i turn to the door and then all of a sudden you’re better at listening now
i shovel you out of the dirt that you live in, the walls pushing mold through the house
i’m tired of holding you down
it’s crazy you feel bad now
i’m holding out for your honesty
but i cannot tell what you want from me

yeah i’m cold, but is this not what you wanted?
i watched you raise your knife and turn my back into target
maybe i’m exhausted, i don’t have the time to sit around and wait for you to tell me something i’ve already figured out

i could write a book about our memories
401 pages of us but now you’re dead to me
i’ll cover it in dust and hope inside that it is damaging
thought u were someone to trust
but my secrets are vanishing

pathetic (ft. bedroom noise) [prod.gxm]

produced by cxrter & threemvsk
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(halfhearted)
said i wouldn’t trip 
but i miss the way it felt when we kissed and our lips touched
don’t know how you live, just admit that i’m too much
since i was a kid, hear em saying i’m a no one
i wasn't one for the games
or making a song for the fame
hop in the whip switching lanes
burden still up in my brain, break all the chains
sick of the faces around
wake up and i’m drowning
when rain hits the ground, i can’t help but feel clouded

(kiddamo)
take my sweater cuz outside is freezing
i can’t live with the thought of you leaving
but if you want you can go
i got used to the cold
i miss the conversations that we used to have on the phone
if i could rewind
re-rewind to the start
watching as the fireworks combine with all the stars
i spent my whole life wondering like “where you are”
stay where you are

(brecken)
and i been grounded, but when it rains i still think about you
still hear the sirens whenever i do sum’ i shouldn't do
yeah well that's how it goes
lying to people you love and you know it
yea all of it shows
they can see what you doing in the moment
losing my focus
i'm feeling broken
thinkin’ bout chili’s
that would be so lit
all of my homies
eatin’ tortilla chips
chips full of spinach dip
just give me a tub of it

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(lil booj)
hey there can you pick me up 
i’m in the lost and found again 
i’ve got my only friend right beside me 
the thread i keep it tight 
i keep it on the mend 
i try to keep us safe and then you stop me 
tell me you’re sad about maybe we’re crashing out, i know 
nothing we talk about goes anywhere because i know 
sediment building up, everyone doubting me, oh no!
are you proud of what you see, now you feel it so?

(yungcray)
paranoia when i step outside 
i’m feeling like this all the time 
got no time, need to find my coat
i hope my gloves are still inside
ice heart, i know I’m cold 
yea this shit’s getting borderline
tell me that there’s more to life 
i can’t feel myself, but i’m the reason that i live like this 
gas up from the shelf, i roll it up and we don’t think a thing
i been in this maze, god this shit gon’ drive me crazy 
i been feeling different lately

(vails)
they tell me look for signs
might be written in the stars
even though they’ve realigned
i still feel like i am far away from an answer
oh i wish i had the answers
now it’s eleven fifty three
still been caught up on IG
scrolling past old memories 
of us by the tapestry in my old home
where we should of left it all alone

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

cameras out! (cypher) w/ notahero, halfhearted, kiddamo, brecken, lil booj, yungcray, & vails

i hear cracks from the mirrors inside
glitter n light in front of my eyes
with it coming too close into sight
scared of what might be coming alive
i left notes about taking my life
and the scenes that unfold in my mind
give me reasons for why i should hide
now that i’ve seen their hollow disguise

my sudden demise
they’d cope
but i can’t lie
they’d know
that i had died with hope
lost

i feel my heart turn cold
pick up a moss clad stone
sneaking along cold floors
now

then i see it
turn of the corner
i hear heavy breathing
running for cover
the terror is seething
at this point there’s no god to believe in

oxygen low, bone dry
sucking out all my life
clenching my fists, ready to fight
checking again if i’m dead or alive

the daylight vanished before i could catch it (dash)

lyrics 

i never wanted to be your savior 
looking back 
im jus an entertainer for you
centered on you
centered on you
need to matter to u
are you happy now 
happy now 
im bleeding out in front of u
if i could id rip that smile off ur face

if i had a chance id kill u
and id eat ur skin
if i had a choice
id back out
back inside my ritt
i just punched the wall so hard 
i damn near broke my wrist
it gets harder breathing out
with a broken rib

and i claw out my eyes
so i cant see what i’ve done 
and i rip out my throat 
so i cant speak to anyone 
oh im starved
oh im starved
oh im starved
oh im
oh im
oh im

what would it take 
for u to listen when i warn you
im in the party bleeding out
in the corner
is it me 
or are the lights shutting off
pls check my wrist so that im truly gone

i never wanted to be your savior 
looking back 
im jus an entertainer for you
centered on you
centered on you
need to matter to u
are you happy now 
happy now 
im bleeding out in front of u
if i could id rip that smile off ur face

if i had a chance id kill u
and id eat ur skin
if i had a choice
id back out
back inside my ritt
i just punched the wall so hard 
i damn near broke my wrist
it gets harder breathing out
with a broken rib

wipe that stupid smile off your face (p. wraithontheporch)

daydream

been a while since something like this
thank you for being here
prod by forzen (@whyeldershock on ig)

heavenly, at the sight of her angel wings;
been alone since seventeen
ain't expecting them to feel for me, that'll never be
let eden breathe, pick and twist from the apple tree, 
felt confliction at the bite and sting
left uncertain of it's purity, of what's underneath

cup so cold it's frozen, you already know
dialtone revoking all we had engrossed
mentality awoken from over the phone
i'm never that open, you had me from the go

couldn't catch her on the way out
she ain't here for what i'm saying now
it's even worse that i'm seeing how
you let me, you let me
why'd you let me down

let me, let me, let me, let me down
let me, let me, why'd you let me down
l-let me, let me, but you let me down
h-how'd you let me down
how'd you let me down

heavenly, at the sight of her angel wings;
been alone since seventeen
ain't expecting them to feel for me, that'll never be
let eden breathe, pick and twist from the apple tree, 
felt confliction at the bite and sting
left uncertain of it's purity, of what's underneath

eve (forzen)

lyrics ⬇️

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me
i hate the ridicule i feel like this is hide and seek
switch perspectives for a second maybe you would see
its not really all that perfect in this deep blue sea
i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 
nevermind the thoughts i had of what it coudlnt be
cuz i dont think too much or at all when i fall asleep
and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep
ur the only thing in my thoughts I miss all the dreams
it was nice that I escaped my sick reality
but now i gotta go right back to find my inner peace 

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me

i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 

and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep

now that I can’t fall asleep (secre)

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

it keeps me holding on
take the photo to remember you my memory ain’t great
all the time you wasted cuz i always show up late
police right behind me every time i switch the lane
i know you doubt me you think everything is fake
said im in love but you can’t see it on my face

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

fire in my lungs // holding on (mew2)

a los 18

'messenger pigeon'
ep, out now

thank you for being here.

eve (forzen)

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