co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

original song 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2MI1WHc6RI
u make me look stupid

lyrics:
i think were fallin outta love
i dont know who i could trust
i said i got issues
i swear to god this aint my luck
i fail at being honest
this was never my intention
im always lying to my parents
i dont know how i keep doing this

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

i hate how u always look at me
but it was nothing new to me
im too distracted by ur eyes
while u continue to keep breaking me
i think that we were fiction
u kept me suffocated
i know u never listened
im crying while im twitchin
your 'tude needs some fixin
thats not even a question
u got me second guessin
now im overthinkin

i tried to make u laugh
i tried to make it right
i tried to get a smile
but instead i make u cry
we'll feel nothing like the start
u just slipped out from my arms
i could never let u go
when i still have ur heart

i know i did u wrong i guess thats what i deserve
i hate to see u gone and the thought just makes it worse
u made it in another song i doubt youll even care
i know that this dont matter so i doubt youll even hear
i know i did u wrong and i know i killed us off
i know its all my fault but i made u another song
i doubt youll even care and i doubt youll even hear
i cut off all my hair just so u could stop and stare

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

heylog - u make me look stupid

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

oh its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore

i just cant tell you enough
my thoughts been opening up
i never said it enough 
my heart was filled with your love

i would sacrifice my love just to be on your side
gimme just another day so that i can reside
while youre waiting at the gates, ill find somewhere to hide

i need somewhere to hide
i know youre in the fields looking at me over the light
if theres a chance that you hear me singing into the night
i need to tell you that ill love you till the end of the line

you know i always cared about you
i might sleep in water hang my head whilel i cry
been 2 years now im lost without you
take me to a forest filled with water and pine

its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore

how could you take away my best friend
ive got no one to trust
ill see your face in the end
your words fill my stomach making me who i am
you wouldnt have left me, i know ill see you again

enough

prod by me
enjoy<3

lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

by the creek

spotify

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

how could i be worse then i was before
i keep writting songs
and you all want more
every word i say is just getting ignored
but youre wanting more
but youre wanting more

i dont know how i can keep going like this
ive got nothing left ive got nothing to give
can anyone hear me 
are you listening 
does no one relate to the words that i sing

i feel like no ones even trying to help me
not helping

cut my hair dow
worked on myself
why do i still feel like no one

savour my loss
hope youre drowning 
you wont let me out of this hell

cut my arms down to the flesh
ive been alone for
so many years

all these people
want my best
but i cant seem to deliver it

drag me to the top of the bridge
tell me to jump
i wont even hesitate, overthink 
i want it to stop
cause baby youre all that i have
all that ive got
and im dealing with it so bad
im fucking it up
im not unique 
im so replaceable 
and for the last few weeks 
ive been unbearable
i better sort my shit
before you break it off
and though i try so bad
im never safe at all

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

perfect

hope u guys like dis one!!! <3
another epic song w me and @imgeist
produced by: what?boy

LYRICS:

Take me back to last winter
When you were still here with me 
And I’m feeling so bitter 
Feeling so bitter sweet 
I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

As I run 
And I go to a place I don’t know 
It’s all changed, see your face, i don’t see you the same as before 
And I’m sorry I was always so cold
And do you have a second to spare 
I need your time baby, I just wanna get outta here
Been losing my mind lately, I cannot see things clear 
I suck at time saving, I ain’t seen you in a year
And since then I ain’t functioned sober 
And it’s you I can’t seem to get over 
But you don’t even remember what we had 
You just blame it all on a hangover 

I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

just leave me in the dust 
oh why the pretty words when u don’t care for us? 
you left a hole in me and ask me where’s the trust 
like you didn’t tear it up 
and it’s okay my love 

but tell me how you feel cause i’ve been losing my mind 
there’s only so much i can take before i let it all die 
and it’s been said my whole life
same song like one thousand times 
but i’m too tired to fight 
so can you save me the lies 
 
you don’t know the start of me 
and i don’t know what to believe 
you left me here just to bleed 
now i’m begging for relief

I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

have a good day :)

bittersweet w/ i'm geist

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

bound w/skele & heylog

lina - heylog (transparent)

shoutout https://soundcloud.com/cay2o for helping with the ending
all the rest prod by me

lyrics:
dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

slave away the day until i make it
this chest in pain feels so amazing
if you got some more, then i can take it
she said im mental, guess im crazy
IM SO CRAZY IM SO CRAZY
feeling lost, when you walked in with bleach blonde hair
i never thought we would talk now its been 3 years
on the rocks and im coughing i gasp for air
and she said, "kade, do u hate me? do u hate me?
please dont hate me!"

dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

coven

No way you’ve run
No way you’d harvest 
All of my bones
All of the forest
Grass isn’t green 
I need to plant it
No room for seed 
Nowhere to hold it 

Im not your king 
Don’t let me breathe
Pull down my crown 
Get hold of me 
For all I’ve done 
This can’t be happening 
Reside my throne
A thousand miles away 

I don’t
I don’t really even need much
Just a little conversation and comfort and love 
You 
You don’t even care to explain
Ask for my advice I’ll leave you sitting on the pavement 
You look so basic when you walk around
Why you stringing him to get it you can get it now
Cause I don’t give a fuck if you desert me
But why you in a rush to downgrade, not learning 

Must not know how to treat someone adequate 
I’d love to see your broke self work outta this
There’s no way I’m in a rush to hear you calling
And thank god I won’t see you in the morning 
Yeah
Pissed off I make two fists
Knuckle broke in my hand but you knew this
He’s got one black eye, make it two
I’m not the type of person that you ever knew
It’s far from the end it’s not over yet
I’ve got four more bars written out for you
Little fuck face you’re a parasite 
Get down on your knees, not uncommon for you

Anxiety’s killing me
What’s left of my wrist starts to bleed
I walked through the forest 
and found someone who looks like you
These plants die around me
I’m in this hole deserted
I found myself hiding 
From anyone like you

It’s so late out here
All I can tell
Is that you’re better here 
and happier without me now
I’m such a hypocrite 
In all these songs I give
I keep complaining just to get off
And make myself worse

bittersweet w/ i'm geist

B Murph