but nothings for nothing. 

@waitingoncisco did some extra guit stems

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-nothings-really-everlasting-lyrics

Nothings really everlasting

prod by me

lyrics: 

shes like, “kade why u always gotta lie?” 
im lying cause u make me do it.
last week I saw the story in ur eyes 
tell me could u see mine

flippin through ur pages 
cant say im ever bored 
I got a lot of patience, but I hate bein ignored
ill tell u what im feelin if im up to it 
first u gotta tell me why u aint trustin me

cus i dont got a lot of time for this 
im findin all the pieces ur denyin me 
was this all u wanted from the picture in ur head
u know that im not much, u gon work me till im

dead how I been feelin lately 
in our head how we been dealin baby
im sorry if im complicating 
im not an easy read im sorry baby

but dont take me for fool I need food too 
I get deprived from the feelings that I want from u
what do u want from me I told u that i told the truth 

I told u that. I told u u should know its true. 
u should know it in ur heart I didnt lie to u
and all the times that I did 
u made it the only way out 
u say excuses can be useless
well im on my way now 
yea im on my way out 

shes like “kade do u even cry anymore”
well..
u kinda got it all outta me so its usually jus hard to breathe now

spotify

books

this is kindaaa old, so ignore the mix LMAO but I decided I'd add some stuff and go ahead and release it <3

prod. by afterlife

distort (afterlife)

captive like the tide waves to the moon

featuring @paperrosehaiku
produced by @morgnbates
cover art by n.m. pane

thank you for listening
i love you all <3

STREAMING

cherry tree (ft. paper rose haiku) [p. homesick]

[+] I don't wanna die tonight so ill stay awake
* featuring @emofruits + @lilskeleskrrt * produced by @prodby2k6 + @rxhff *

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu

stay awake

+ spotify

stay awake (feat. emo fruits + skele) [prod. 2k6]

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
lately i’ve been feeling like i’m fucking dead
a walking corpse hanging by a single thread
about to cut loose; the hand that i was once feed
oh no i beg

for mercy
i’ve done my best for you, but you just hurt me
i question myself if she really knows me
1 year down
i’m on my knees
and i still beg to this day

for closure
whenever u sad, u had my shoulder
whenever i was down, i just got lower
i screamed away
oh i’m in pain
and i still beg to this day 

for you
never once a day i didn’t love you
i treated u the same after i’ve been through
all the lies
and all the fights
and u won’t do the same

ur a piece of shit
ur a liar
our memories
are now on fire
ur like a cigarette 
with a bitter taste
left inside my mouth
i can’t erase 
ur pathetic
ur delusional 
u find it so cool
like an aesthetic 
u think ur always right
u wanna start a fight
u want the war? i’ll bring it to u
u won’t win this time 
oh i am different now
u can’t control me now
i won’t allow ur words to hit me if i hear a sound
and i will block u out
and i will turn u down
i’ll turn away from your mistakes, u cannot fix this now

YOU (with heylog)

Hope u guys like this one. My fave song so far this year, enjoy <3

Production and collab with @prodjpjp

LYRICS:
all i seem to do is make you mad
i promise that, that wasn’t what i had in mind
give me one more chance to take it back
but you said that you’re leaving me far behind

and i did what you wanted
i cut all my hair and i changed all my ways
you lied to my face when you said you would stay
and all that i’m left with is a world that’s so grey
and i don’t react
when you say all that
just to get under my skin
and i don’t fight back
there’s no need for that
so i keep it all stored within

and i trusted you with all of my life
and you said some things to ruin my night
talking down like you’re double my height
and i could count the times that you fake cried
and i can’t hold it back no more
manipulating, liar, an excuse for a damn whore
i’ve reached rock bottom, way further than before
you’ve lit me on fire and made me your new torch

guess you got what you wanted
we were over in a flash
but i am always haunted
by the ghost of our past
i can’t believe i lost it
it went right through my hands
your sweater, i ain’t washed it
can’t let go of what we had

HAVE A GOOD DAY/NIGHT LOVE U 333+

within (jpjp)

Ethereal, ambient soundscape, from the Tales of Ten Worlds. Stories set in the past, present and future. Always with a twist on modern science life and speculation.

SFS - LIKE ICARUS

prod. Balance Cooper
________________________________________________
Lyrics:
[chorus]
Hope this bust right through your speakers like
lighting up and writing lyrics like I hope the dreamers might
take me up in arms when i'm armed
with the bars that i'm spitting on this open mic all fucking night
~
oh no I started again
all I ask for is a friend
THC 80%
welcome to weepings' descent
I do my best to disguise all of the pain that i'm in
that's why I look to skies find i'm alone and just sin

[bridge]
I don't want to take the chance yet I'm patient
what I see inside you baby its latent

[chorus]
Hope this bust right through your speakers like
lighting up and writing lyrics like I hope the dreamers might
take me up in arms when i'm armed
with the bars that i'm spitting on this open mic all fucking night
~
oh no I started again
all I ask for is a friend
THC 80%
welcome to weepings' descent
I do my best to disguise all of the pain that i'm in
that's why I look to skies find i'm alone and just sin

[verse 1]
what is this life that we live in bitch i dont know where to start
perception changin and i'm rearranging my goals watch me stunt
you know I just shoot for the stars but I fell right from the front
I try to get up, don't fuck with getups so I smoke the blunt
I ain't tracking your info
scroll down your page i'm amazed
shes no thot she's a 'nympho'
at least thats what she claims to be
so i'll orbit like a satellite
no need for space to breathe 
im just escalating state of mind as high as I can be
I just need some dopamine 
but that shit ain't set me free
it just keeps me trapped so I relapse success taken from me
I just want to cry like every time I think imma be alright

[hook]
yeah imma be alright
this ain't the antidote but I ain't asking questions alright
yeah imma be alright
but if im not will I know exactly where i'm gonna go tonight, alright
x2

[outro]
imma be alright yeah
imma keep on fighting yeah
till my last breath dying yeah

Inhabition

s/o to https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty for the fire beet and inspiration <33
s/o soundcloud.com/cay2o for mastering too
mixed by me

lyrics:
I know u hate this, I don't fkin like it either.
my brain cant stay still, I'm struggling to chill myself
I really hate me, cause I cant fkn kill myself
I been blocking out my mind just to heal myself.

she gon' thank me when I kick the bucket.
obsessive thinking, my mind crazy, but I cant say fk it.
cause I got u and these people who gon' listen to me
this shit my therapy, don't take it as a lecture homie.

I fkn, lay in bed just thinking and sht.
i think id probably be happy if I didn't think about sht, but i cant help it my mind racing like a track meet
i try to sleep then get depressed like tf happened to me.

I’m wastin my time, I opened my eyes
can’t rely on these bitches I learned that the hard way
comin back to my senses, but ive been through hell
i’m a lion in a cell, but its kinda hard to tell
now I dont mean to yell, but sometimes I need to get this feelin out of my chest.
I love my homies, s/o my brothas 1 time 
I hope they not lonely, cause im barely alive.

within (jpjp)

B Murph