@x1fern
@navyxower
@northshoremusic
@kuriositylol
@emptychest

War w/ 1fern, NAVYXOWER, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

Lyrics: 

i dont wanna fight, i just wanna be by your side uhh
please don't leave me alone, won't you hold me through the night uh uhhh
cause my brain always tells me, that life's not worth living
and i can't decide whether to keep on creating
and honestly i can tell i'm the only one hating
but still i can't get it out of my mind
cause i'm lost in thought yea lately i been ruminating 
on the chance that i might end my suffering

i can't save it 
oh im finally facing
the inevitable end of our relationship
and ain't this what you wanted
don't tell me that your haunted
by the ghost of your decisions 
oh this time around was harder

cause i been feeling like im in a loop again
honestly i just think i need new friends
cause all of mine still hate me 
and the rest they tried to play me
every time i text you ain't been gettin replies lately
all these burdens i'm stressed out
i just wanna be held down
baby i'm so sorry i know it hurts you when i carve my arm now 

oh they're caught in my throat
all these words i'm tryna say
baby i'm teary eyed, and i'm fuckin terrified
i just want you to hold me
i'm so tired of always bein lonely
honestly i didn't think i'd make it this far
if i don't see you now then i'll catch you in the next form
we only text so it gets lost in translation
but i hope you know that when i check up on you it means i miss you
and baby i can't deal with all this fuckin distance
but when you don't text me all day oh it makes me worry 

cause i gotta respect myself enough to speak my mind
i can't go a day without hearin from you and just be fine
that's not how love works baby i need your attention
i need to know if you care or if you're just pretending
these thoughts are running all around inside my mind
and no matter how hard i try i just can't stop thinking 
and i don't know, oh should i give up now, or hold on until the end

i cant stop thinking (tied for silver x flesh)

prod iof and me
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kanashi/i-dont-think-itll-ever-be-okay-3
lyrics:
im like, dadadada, like dadadadada

i dont think that ill ever be okay
i just sit inside and overthink
like everyday...
every single day
and its kinda gettin old to me
and the older that i get 
the more that i regret everything
everything that ive ever done
all the times that i had to collect my things and run...away
from ppl that dont mean the things that they say
they say...
they dont mean the thing that they say

and i know that ill never feel
the same as i did
way back when i was 
a stupid naive kid...(so stupid)
cuz oh my god i wish i could go back
with what i know now...
im followed by these black clouds
and life never seems to slow down
thats why i rely on drugs now
thats why i sit at home and make these sounds
i dont think that itll ever be okay again...

i dont think itll ever be okay
and it feels like im runnin out of things to say
and im feelin' worse like every single day
and i dont know why i even try anymore
its like the thoughts inside my brain
and my heart are at war...

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i don't think it'll ever be okay...

In my head looking for a friend who looks like heaven sent 
Terrified of losing them 
But can’t go on with keeping them fit

Toxins, that I know are basically ruing your life 
Said that you would stop a couple hundred times 

You’re Dope sick, you ain’t worth it 
I can see it your eyes 
Wasn’t meant to make you cry 

Might dig you a grave I’m being honest 
Went to your parents for help, I’m uninvited 

Toxins fill your head I'm tired 
Recently I been uninspired 

These days the streets fill with violence 
Terrified but so inviting 

Smoke in the air 
I got thoughts in my head about what’s truly there 
Am I supposed to be here??

In my head looking for a friend who looks like heaven sent 
Terrified of losing them 
But can’t go on with keeping them fit

Toxins, that I know are basically ruing your life 
Said that you would stop a couple hundred times 

You’re Dope sick, you ain’t worth it 
I can see it your eyes 
Wasn’t meant to make you cry 

Might dig you a grave I’m being honest 
Went to your parents for help, I’m uninvited 

Toxins fill your head I'm tired 
Recently I been uninspired 

These days the streets fill with violence 
Terrified but so inviting

Dope Sick [+ Cimor x splashgvng]

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
My heart starts to speed up like when I was sixteen
I feel all the color rushing to my face again
When I let my guard down I feel it completely
Please be the real thing

Suddenly I see full spectrum again
It’d put my mind at ease if you said
This wasn’t all just pretend
Have my inhibitions been to my own benefit
‘Cause I’ve been hurt before
But no more
Could this really be it

Don’t use me up
Don’t break my trust
I’ve been at it for so long
But I still believe in love
Don’t hurt me now
‘Cause I believe in us

So many times that I’ve been burned
And I can't pretend old wounds don’t hurt
But there’s something that I see in us
A different way forward
From all the time I spent lonely coping
Every time I felt love it hurt me
But this flame is gentle
It feels like a good place to start

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Colorrush!!! w/ Horosha

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @user-757072975

LYRICS
I so regret the time we spent
But somehow still miss you
You stole all of my innocence
But swore you never intended to
Now I’m left alone
Alone in my room
No choice but to cope with the ghost of you

So maybe one day I’ll escape from my hometown
Or find out the hard way
That there’s no easy way out
There’s only so much that I can tolerate
Before I start to break down
Been told there’s hell to pay in finding my own route

Drive through these back streets
Comb over loose leaves
I’m turning the page to find
What’s hiding underneath
Free from my sense of constant urgency
I’m finally at peace

Winnebago Street (Prod. Horosha & Lavender_Txwn)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
These days
Everything means nothing to me
I’m not phased
Can’t help but feel
I’m living in a movie
I’m so sick of simply getting by
I long to take control
To truly own my life

For years I have waited for the warmth of the sun to come
But it never does
And I fear attachment
‘Cause I know that this won't last
And if I hold on to my heart
Then no one can ever smash it
Into tiny bits just like you did
I guess that’s what I get for being selfless
I won't make that mistake again

Because I gave myself away
Trying to paint a picture
That would make you want to stay
I should have known better
‘Cause it’s right in front of me
Everything I needed yeah

Phased (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @pekarot_161

LYRICS
Blank stares are all I ever get
Promises bounce back like blank checks
I’ll have to take a rain check
Haven't felt myself at all since you left
At all since you left me
It all feels so heavy now
Like ten tons of concrete
Attached to my feet
Dragging me further down

So let the ocean take me
Far beneath the waves
‘Cause I’m not worth saving
Into a watery grave
Maybe one day I’ll emerge unscathed from all this
Despite the fact that I’m the one who caused it
I advise that you take caution
Time you spent on me is lost
And it weighs heavy on my conscience

Ten Tons (Prod. Horosha & Pekarot)

prod. wisssery

u shld know, idc ._.
this is how it should go, this is how it should be,
yehhh...
u might care, but i dont,
all i see is me on the god damn throne!
uhhh......

u shld know :c,that i care!x.x
i struggle at showin' it!
but god damn girl, im throwin it!!
back 4 u.. </3
AHH~!
U KNOW DAMN WELL, SHIT WONT WORK OUT THAT, WELL-
SWELL!
MMMMMMHH... ;(((((((((

i dont wanna miscommunicate 
(NO!!!)
i dont really wanna wake up late
(HELL NO!!!)
f*ck all the fame and the accolades,
i dont care what all yall bitches say..
i dont wanna miscommunicate,
i dont really wanna-
wake up!
wake up!
(hell no..)

swell 𓋫

if i left would you be hurt
i tried to be a better me
oh i fold to the sound of your voice
it aint easy being me

and i care too much about things that dont even matter
and i hate myself sometimes but thats who i am 

just hold me
i just want you to hold me 

love me 
i just want you to love me 

if i left would you be hurt
i tried to be a better me 
oh i fold to the sound of your voice
it aint easy being me...

it aint easy being me

Big L - Put It On (REMIX)

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

Colorrush!!! w/ Horosha

Carlby

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