Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @jolst
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Art by @melmige

Too much time wasted on you

Got me in a bad mood

Chillin' bumpin' sad tunes

And all I want is your attention

Desperate for just a little affection yeah

It's no fun how

Things between us didn't work out

At least not in the way that we planned for

You were my greatest mistake but you left me wanting more


It’s not that I miss you
That’s not the issue
I just wish you felt like you used to

So
I'm breaking everything you gave me
I'm not proud of the man that you made me
I'm ashamed of who I’ve been lately
I can’t blame you when you say you hate me


I'ma take this forty to my face
How many doctors you think it’ll take to save me
Am I even worth saving

(skele)
always waking up in a bad mood 
all this fucking time that i’m wasting 
baby i hope you know i want you 
i didn’t wanna go, i hope you know i had to
tell me that it’s hurting you bad 
you know i’m sad too 

Got me breaking everything you gave me
I know I’m falling it’s not me who needed saving 
I’m steady fucking up my life it’s so frustrating 
Got me looking at the things I’ve been erasing 

Too much time wasted on you 
I still wish you would just come through 
I still miss when you would hold me 
Is it okay if you could call me

Listen on Spotify!

Not Worth Saving w/ skele (Prod. Jolst)

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

spotify

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

Na Na Na

Act like you've been suprised, girl its wintertime,
that time of year when we fight almost every night,
scream through your lungs that you hate me in every way,
why do I love you and give you my everything

And I gave you everything, I watcher her just walk away..
let me hear something that you've made up, figured my best bets at night getting drunk..

You cannot change me like the drugs do, I wish that I could hurt you again
you dont believe what I say, you're not the one who's hurting.

everyone walked away, was it my mistakes? staring across to the stars as their glistening,
know that im destined for better keep wishing, did this for you I just hope that you're wishing

and I gave you everything, I watched her just walk away (x2)

Drugs

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @metlast
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Still the same scared kid that I was way back then
Know I'd give anything to change how it happened
Still bleeding from the wounds of my past and
Pursuing happiness
But I can't have that

Take another hit to my pride and my passion
Loss after loss like a chain reaction
When everything goes wrong
I need a way out
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

The drugs don't make it better
They just keep me distracted
From the life I'm supposed to live
And out the one that I'm trapped in
When everything goes wrong
I tend to break down
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

(skele)
And love I promise that I mean well
All those things I did were fucking my health 
I've never been good at helping out myself
It's getting bad
I prolly need help
I never meant for you to run away 
I just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain 
And when everything goes wrong I hope you'll be here 
Need someone to fix all my fears

When Everything Goes Wrong w/ skele (Prod. metlast)

secret (ft. skele, sendflowrs, shinju)

the cut (prod. mydepression)

Happy Thanksgiving!

SEE THE HOE IN YOU

i'll be ok this time

i ruin everything i fucking touch

prod: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_16

yeah i better wake up quick
"get it going, gotta get an iced out wrist
aint nobody going fuckin hard like this
and i been down bad but now im on my shit"
and all my friends
wanna act like i switched
now everybody wanna take a pic 
god damn
see your face on the gram
got me really missing when i could hold your hand

it's a lot to see u when i wake up
it's been hard to tell u that i want us
i ruin everything i fucking touch
and you'll get sick of me wont take much

yeah you'll get tired of me 
you'll just stop missing my company
it gets so hard to breathe 
wrist cut straight to the artery
i wish didn't push u away 
but sometimes i really don't know what to say
i see your eyes when u ask me to stay 
i just don't know how much i can take
and it's a lot to tell u that i love u
i swear it's me, i wanna trust u

sick of me (prod. pekarot)

thank you for listening 
<3
@jolst


 i just wish you were here 
holding me 
cause my thoughts hurt less 
when you lay next to me 
but u don’t care at all
blame it on the alcohol
is there something there that i can’t see 
how the fuck am i supposed to breathe 
like oh
it’s okay if you wanna let go 
i know you probably need a little more 
i just miss when you were close
i know how this shit go
fall apart when it gets cold 
n i start to get feel real low 
know you’ll leave me when it snows 

when it snows 
iced out had to put on a coat 
neck cold but my hearts on froze 
fucked up i can’t do this alone 
baby why u gotta do me like that 
n still ask why my songs so sad 
everyday gotta put on a mask 
happy eyes with a knife in my back 

i say i love you 
“i love you too” 
most days i can’t get enough of u
when you leave i feel it 
it’s hard to deal with 
the crushing weight of this lonely feeling
rain it trickles 
cry a little 
nothings real 
it’s so artificial 
“you’re too brittle”
how i am supposed to feel when you speak in riddles 

i know i’m cold sometimes 
but i could never lie to you
i always say i’m fine 
i really don’t know what to do
i need you a little too much 
i’m scared that i’m never enough 
when you get distant it feels like i probably fucked up
get a little too scared i don’t mean much

snow (prod. jolst)

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock, and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact