lyrics:
i had that dream again last night
it culminates from all this  pain i hold inside...
and i try to hold it all together 
but it really doesnt matter now
im trekking thru the stormy weather
but somehow the rain doesnt make a sound
yeh
i been trying to get better
studying these flaws of mine
inscribe in this fuckin letter
to bad i cant send it back thru time
cuz i been fucking up for the longest time
try to find myself
then i lose my mind..
i lose my mind...

idk how to make this right
idk how to feel inside
cuz something...aint right
guess ill down another pill
and at this point i just do it for the thrill
oh i be doin it for the thrill....

[casperrr]
all the pills i take
are because i ache
and every breath i take
makes me pray for a change
im losing my head
alone in my bed...
my visions going black
and pain is all you left...

break down again in my bedroom
i shouldve never trusted you...
now tell me what am i going to do?
i kinda wanna know where to go to...

oooo....

lost my mind on the way to myself w/casperrr [+Boyfifty]

drawn 2 u (flesh)

@reject333
prod. Tied For Silver & flesh
Stream "Vulnerable" on all platforms:
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Vulnerable (ft. popularreject)

produced by sorrow bringer

mixed by me

mastered by teddyboi

art by my lovely girlfriend <3

lyrics:

(go away from me now, i don’t wanna see your face)

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
cause the damage is already done

you took advantage and had your fun
don’t you think the time has come
for you to let go
the soul owes no bonds so lose control

but the memory won’t fold 
i’ve been losing sleep and growing old
it’s been fuckin weeks and it’s been cold
my rooms been stinkin’ foul from the mold

everybody ask me how
how i even do this
frankly i just push along and don’t think i’m an artist
faintly i’ll just make a song and don’t think i’m a above this

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
enemies always start out as friends

once dear to me 
it should’ve been clear to see
but in this fog i couldn’t recognize your face
the feeling of the shock it put me in my place 
i hate the taste 

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
i know you think that you can erase and or amend
but you can’t so just accept

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
it’s time this ends

(random mumbled gibberish lol)

go away (sorrow bringer)

(prod. wisssery)

can we see each other one more time
your face in my mind
my heart racing fast as you sit by my side
oh i miss this
i wish time sticks to this

oh, you can be the one 
you dont need to run
ive been feeling numb
you got me stunned oh x2

its the way your flip your round me
little things like staring at me 
i didnt wanna fall inlove
but i guess thats how i see things
need to steady my breathing
i wanted this to be the last time
i cant help my feelings

so what do i do
where do we go from here
i dont wanna end this in tears
i see everything clear - now

love is a drug to me
addictive its not a want  a need
with you its different 
i give submission to ya

im falling to the ground
im falling down hard
if i see u with someone else
it'll hurt like hell
am i hard to understand
just look at my hands love
im shaking
aint no going back now

oh, you can be the one 
you dont need to run
ive been feeling numb
you got me stunned oh x4

i've been feeling numb (wisssery)

www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @lil-p_nut
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
I can’t help but
Let my insecurities
Get the best of me sometimes
These thoughts still linger in my mind

Maybe she’s out with friends trying to have fun
Maybe her phone is dead
And I’m worrying too much
Or has she finally had enough

Am I so undesirable
To actually believe that she would cheat
Maybe she just fell asleep on me
I’d hate to be a rain cloud
That follows you around
Or an anchor tied up firmly to your feet
Maybe you’re better off without me

(pnut)
What you talking 'bout baby 
I’ve been going crazy in my head  
I’m sorry if I’ve been ghosting
I’ve been holding back my threads with these useless pins
‘Cause I don’t want you to know me
Shit always goes sour when we’re more than friends 
I fight that I want you to hold me 
I’d prefer to stay back where it never ends

Listen on Spotify!

Maybe She Just Fell Asleep w/ pnut (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
It’s getting bad again
But I hesitate to get back on the medicine
Orange bottles on the shelf feel like a nemesis
When I feel it flooding back I can’t pretend
This isn’t how it’s supposed to be
Thought that I could stand tall on my own two feet
I can’t
Take one step
Take another step back
Standing in the same place
Like I’ve always been

I feel selfish for complaining
I need help but I’m abstaining
I’d hate to be a burden
So I’ll keep it to myself

Tripping over my own thoughts again
Holding on to oxygen
Hoping that someday I’ll learn to stand
Ignoring what’s been said
It’s getting bad again

It’s Getting Bad Again w/ Horosha (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @user-757072975

LYRICS
I so regret the time we spent
But somehow still miss you
You stole all of my innocence
But swore you never intended to
Now I’m left alone
Alone in my room
No choice but to cope with the ghost of you

So maybe one day I’ll escape from my hometown
Or find out the hard way
That there’s no easy way out
There’s only so much that I can tolerate
Before I start to break down
Been told there’s hell to pay in finding my own route

Drive through these back streets
Comb over loose leaves
I’m turning the page to find
What’s hiding underneath
Free from my sense of constant urgency
I’m finally at peace

Winnebago Street (Prod. Horosha & Lavender_Txwn)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
These days
Everything means nothing to me
I’m not phased
Can’t help but feel
I’m living in a movie
I’m so sick of simply getting by
I long to take control
To truly own my life

For years I have waited for the warmth of the sun to come
But it never does
And I fear attachment
‘Cause I know that this won't last
And if I hold on to my heart
Then no one can ever smash it
Into tiny bits just like you did
I guess that’s what I get for being selfless
I won't make that mistake again

Because I gave myself away
Trying to paint a picture
That would make you want to stay
I should have known better
‘Cause it’s right in front of me
Everything I needed yeah

Phased (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

becoming what i lost w/ Fallen Oceans

Endless Agony

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

Winnebago Street (Prod. Horosha & Lavender_Txwn)

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