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casperrr

Vibes XII

smoke sesh

New & hot: Folk & Singer-Songwriter

Daily Drops

Collaboration with : LxseR / Prod by micco. 
Lo-Fi Artists🥀

a message to my ex

a message to my ex w/ matego

Here where I said,
I'd meet you again,
chasing the feeling,
falling for friends,

and I love you now,
had to figure out,
if I love myself,
and who I am myself,

Never love again,
I made a promise, once then,
you don't even know,
who I wanna be, and who I ever was,
I can't say that I would be anybody else,

and call to the sun,
we all let it go,
and god cannot save us,
so might as well love one n another,

Call To Sun w/ birdbody (prod. Idly Blare)

produced by sekani

completely non profit

lyrics

i guess its time that in finally wrote a song now
i guess its time that i finally put my phone down
i feel shit i feel shit on my own now
said im better off alone well im alone now

i guess ill get this started
its time to write another anthem for the truly sharded
how u broke me n im lonely but ive been that from the start
n now im faded with some papers that i blow on all my drugs
red lights inside my room at night
ice cubes pressed to my neck as i
lose blood out of my neck in pints
dry eyes, she knows im numb inside

hit the road n whip my bike up to the cliffside
650 cc on a vulcan 
look here comes the night sky
its so bright
but whered the passion go?
music like a bitch that only ever wanna smash n go
ay
but whered my feelings go?
used to be so many now im only ever feeling cold
hey I just tore apart my soul
gimme plays now
Hey I just met u
somehow already getting brain now
woah
she call me daddy n shit
she suck me off in her whip
the sirens passin n shit
so i just pass her a spliff
i only fuck when im lit
she say im big when im stiff
i say thats cap n she pissed

bloodclots (sekani)

hey hyd

lyrics
i been feeling like this maybe aint made for me
i been kinda looking out in the distance
this world isn’t really one id be missing

feeling builds up everyday 
dark dark but a dif shade
i just wanna move outta this place 
get outta this state

weeks go by 
when it feels like a fucking moment
i don’t know why 
keep tryna change coz it’s just fucking hopeless

i catn escape this 
repeating cycle of hoping no one’ll notice

but u can see it too
“dont go” as i weep for you 

still i know in my heart this aint doing me no justice

move me out
dont want a sound
im with the fog now 
i hate this ground

woah the sea starts to collapse with the whirlwinds 
words do more damage and i am hurting

she say lets do it tnight
im still at home in my mind 
u say its not jus th substance inside of ya
i can see straight thru ur lie

u can stay here stay stagnant 
thats not what i need in my life
i been thinking too much
this ones for those wondering why

wonder y (aer projects)

feature: matego // produced by: caps ctrl & xsus

my last goodbye w/ matego (Caps Ctrl & Xsus)

I hate myself (4lexf)

produced by neverforever

cty_gazing_ inspired by city gazing by hero

completely non profit 

lyrics

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

so c'mon
u get a free throw
i'ma break ur ribs with my feet tho
u can keep those
knocking out some teeth like t bone
12 zero

switch just flipped 
so I drink and drink and drink
Molly got boys fucked 
why do I not feel a thing
sitting in a gutter 
feels like where I'm meant to be
lemme take a second 
i just need some time to think

sunrise
that's home time
well past dawn when I close eyes
my surprise 
pretty sure that i hate going outside
like oh my i can be a hypocrite ik
dont we all sometimes 
like don't lie
u don't see the grey sky

that's all i see
in u and me

all the bad all the hurt
i guess i just see the worst
fuck urself
fuck the world 
save it? nah it don't deserve
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as dirt
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as -

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

fuck like
i really woke up?
fall asleep face up i wanna choke up
fully gave up
yeah
zoning out this bitch while smoking with the raindrops

this ain't life i'm stuck in my own self made hell
hate the world almost half i do myself
i just suck but u should know i'm something else
self aware i take the devil's side in hell

cough up sludge I force it back into my gut
taste just fine it's like a stronger form of bud
bought an h and in a week I'm out of bud
sleeves r stained, recycler bong that's full of muck

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well it gets lonely 
city gazing from the satellites
all alone here 
in this spaceship and the latern light 
well ive got oxygen 
enough to maybe make the night
but ive accepted that this place 
is where I'll come to die

the view ive got from in my coffin
well it's really nice
if I jumped what'd be the chance 
I'd land in powerlines
a mangled body's not the image 
that I'd hope ud find
a lump of coal that u can bury 
is worth the piece of mind

maybe best to turn this ship 
and gun for saturn's rings
I'd meet an alien 
and tell him how I really think
this world is ugly 
if u took the time to sink it in
people selfish and absorbed 
inside of useless shit

ive got a problem
ive forgotten how to let u in
my vision fades 
alarms are blaring, I hit jettison 
a fire show ignites
somewhere above the midnight sky
I hear just silence
void is pretty fond of eating life

city gazing, with my homies:
foreign parasites 
a formed allience 
between the dead and all this moldy life
I pull the plug on sos
command don't give a shite
I found ignition in the pain
that came from u and I

dmg_ctrl_/cty_gazing_ (neverforever)

Beat maker: Boyfifty // Feature: Lxser //

i’m always alone (matego & boyfifty)

lyrics

single off new ep all prod @secre_swallowtail
thx to @tearsonmygucci for the fire ft 
mix & mastr by @fleshgolem <3

//mæsk//
aren’t i enough
nough
push me away in to dust
picked apart as i rust
out in space time is slow but ur touch gives me a rush

just let me float now
flatline with no sound
dont give me false hope 
id rather not come down

id rather not come down
theres no life
no life in this world
oh, so id rather drift to the hole
she said dont go
u had ur chance to save me now 
now rest my soul

baby 
i jus gotta ask
will u remember me
coz i wont be coming back

//tearsonmygucci//

will you remember
sleeping in next to me love in november
eyes spilling embers
i can still feel how you touched me so tender 

spliffs at the hotel
now that your gone i just can't fucking sleep well
you seemed appalled
question if this shit was worth it at all

losing my head
eyes turning red
stains on the carpet from where my heart bled
saw in your eyes
you want me dead
silence the pain with some fucking meds

one single look made me question it all
i just wander outside and i walk till i fall
and i went past your place again just out of habit
i knew we'd lose from the moment we had it

novembrrr ft tearsonmygucci (secre)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

i'll move out and move on
sitting silent and all alone
but underneath the thunderstorm
there's always hope to move along

i'll move out and move on
all over my hands the scars are shown
but i believe that if i stay strong
this emptiness won't stay for long 

i'd give my life to see you smile 
and if i could i'd do it now 
just promise me that somehow
everything will workout 
do u remember our first date
we hid near a shop under rain 
i held you close u felt my pain
i loved u ever since dat day

i'll move out and move on
sitting silent and all alone
but underneath the thunderstorm
there's always hope to move along

i'll move out and move on
all over my hands the scars are shown
but i believe that if i stay strong
this emptiness won't stay for long 


this left me with a wreck inside my head
this left me with a wreck inside my head

i'll move out and move on (acey)

cute ahh song ;)

@zephyrcove

lyrics

@riensu
Your lips
On mine
When they touch
It's electrifying

My hand
Your thighs
They're right where they belong
Oh baby, waitin for you to save me
I don't wanna fall out of love

And it's one on one
I'm not done
There's just too much to say
If somethings wrong
Come my way
I'll make you feel so strong
No, it ain't nothin to me
Cause for you
I'll do anything

I wanna dance with you
Wanna romance with you
What do we have to lose?
Oh, tell me
Don't wanna waste another moment without you
I'm fallin apart, so tell me

@yokulol
I think I've waited too long
I keep starin' at my phone
Waiting for you to call back

Your voice is music to my ears
Is all I ever wanna hear
So if you call me more often
Then I will love you more

Would you let me change your mind?
Maybe you would like me even more

You look so good
You're just my type
Need to see you tonight

I know I'm a mess
I don't know what you see in me
Please don't waste your time
But all I wanna do is spend my time
With you

You look so good
You're just my type
Need to see you tonight

@riensu
Your lips
On mine
When they touch
It's electrifying

My hand
Your thighs
They're right where they belong
Oh baby, waitin for you to save me
I don't wanna fall out of love

I wanna dance with you
Wanna romance with you
What do we have to lose?
Oh, tell me
Don't wanna waste another moment without you
I'm fallin apart, so tell me

spotify

without you + yoku (manao)

(c) John David Lawson, February 2023
Written for a songwriting challenge. Topic given:  "Moving on" - a common theme; however, my rendition moved in a more apocalyptic direction. Guitar happened to be in an Open C tuning and the chorus came rather quickly, followed by the volcano imagery.

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Adiós, it's time to go

Some day may come a reckoning
Walk away from all you know
Up ahead, the highway's beckoning
Adiós, it's time to go
Time to go, time to go
Adiós, it's time to go

Kick the lids off of your coffins
Outrun the volcano
Before the pavement softens
Adiós, it's time to go
Time to go, time to go
Don't wait for the mountain to blow

Been seeing dreams and visions
I hear the Desert voice
To stay is one decision
'Come with' is a better choice

Some realize in an instance
What others spend lives to show
Burning bridges in the distance
Telling us it's time to go
Too late to take it slow
Don't wait to inhale the smoke

Time to go, time to go
Adiós, it's time, time to go


Credits
------
John David Lawson - C-tuned Guitar, Vocals, Background Vocals

Adiós, it's time to go

your skin in the rain
sunlight in your eyes
forgot how to panic
I'll go wherever you go
on different doses of Xanax 
still don't know how far I drove
Memories are vague
How did I survive?
I find the advantage 
of a damaged frontal lobe
I struggle to understand it
Understand that's how it goes
Stars talk to the planets 
as they're dancing into motion
I promoted damaged now I'm managing emotions
Been stuck in a fantasy 
Ain't plan to see psychosis 
I never claimed sanity when my hands where your throat is
open
your eyes before I close them
How can I break barriers down if you never show them
shit just gets way scarier when they're out in the open
I like when you barrier the so deep they can't get broken

Cigarettes, new daydreams
of things I hate to dream
they're fucking make believe
and still I can't forget
All the things 
in which you said to me 
a new one every week
and still there's
Cigarettes, new daydreams
of things I hate to dream
they're fucking make believe
and still I can't forget
All the things 
in which you said to me 
a new one every week

can you tell me why
is it hard to think 
there's a part of me 
that I held inside
is it difficult
just to listen to
a compelling lie
and it makes more sense
just to hate that bitch from a healthy side
lied to myself
because I knew it'd help
If I felt she died
Well it must be nice
Can you say the same?
spent a month or five
on the cusp of change
I've been stuck inside
for a hundred days
with the butterflies 
from the stomach pains
and the doves that fly
in front of my face...
Doves that fly in front of my face

Your Skin

Your Skin (prod. neverforever)

huge thank you to anthony for working on this one with me
go show him & his band this wild life some love <3

lyrics
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and we live just to die
so i pray i'm alright when i do
i'm shooting stars at the sky
not a crow left in my point of view
in the midst of a fight
throwing jabs till i knock out a tooth
if he pulls out a knife
and gets rid of my life
will the righteous ignite me with truth
(cause)
i will hide somewhere behind the dark that casts into
a room that thrives with blinding lights unwinding onto you
if only for a second i'm infected by the hue
please just promise me your honesty cause honestly i hate all that i do

and it lives deep inside
building homes in the holes of my heart
i've set my sights to the light
but i've been paranoid from the start 
red dot beamed on my forehead
deep breath this'll be a night you won't forget
cold sweat dreams terrorizing my cortex
woke up drowning outside on my porch steps
the waters been rising for years
hypnotizing my peers
into thinking they know me
but i live in fear
that they don't quite appear
to the likeness instilled in the old me
i swallow my tears
wander outside for years
with the hope that a god will come smite me
replenish these gears
cut my body with shears
make sure nobody's near even slightly

blue lights flash in the distance
red light stop i don't listen
projectiles from a piston
couldn't do it by myself need assistance
pink matter painted onto the concrete
think of this gunshot as a downbeat
red dot beamed on my forehead
this'll be a night you won't forget

it lives where i live (prod. anthony del grosso)

@c4v

gicc:
i feel like the worst bitch i hope you hurt
tie him up now he dead inside the dirt
i dont care i jus wanna make it work
bitch im ballin with my friends i might jus twerk

(stutters)
wha-wha-wha-whatever
(stutters)
wha-wha-wha-whatever

can you shut up
feel like @deepinparis bitch im getting sucked up

capri:
every time, i find my way back up
it’s fine, you’re so toxic
that’s not what i want
keep trying, i keep going
cause i don’t give a fuck
rewind, i can’t stop bitch
i ain’t giving up
bitch i’m feeling like the worst
they don’t want me
i’m gon leave em with a curse
bitch i hope you hurt
got a glock
you gon die over a verse
i feel like the worst
why you talking
you in last, i’m in first
bitch i hope you hurt
they don’t want me
leave that bitch inside the dirt

worst w/ c4pri

We've seen another summer
And now it's been and gone
To talk about the weather
Wouldn't take that long
Well now we are in winter
The wind is getting strong
Nothing lasts forever
Until I put my snowboard on
Yeah!
The glaciers conspired
They wanted to get me high
They lit my heart on fire
Until the smoke filled my mind
They thought I would do better
But I committed a crime
They say that nothing last forever
I said I'm more committed this time
Yeah!
There's a chance I may fall
Wherever I go
I don't care
I drift like falling snow
My heart burned in fire
Leaving ashes and rhymes
Feeling so tired
And out of my mind
The wind is getting wilder
So cold that it burns
I'm scraping the ice
With a heel-edge turn

At the start of this winter
I made up my mind
I'm taking my snowboard
Out for a ride
I'm not waiting for summer
It'll come in its own time
I love the winter
And I love to ride
Yeah!
And giving to my lover
I'm more committed this time
I showed her the ashes (that once were my heart)
She said "I'm here to give you mine"
I have her heart
And another new start
When we fall down
We drift like falling snow
Nothing unforeseen
Can break us apart
We one love
And we one heart
So outside we go
To play in the snow

Another Winter

lyrics
i been killing myself every night, i been losing sleep every night
i wish i could keep you alive, but it's over now, it's flowing out

don't wake up, i'm asleep, i can't sleep without you
every time i'm alive, tell myself pull it through
if i do, i can see, be with you, be with me
i can end this shit so easily
oh this life, nothing mean to me

oh this shit can't keep going on, ion know what's going on
stuck inside the house again, "its ok" i know its not
it's ok just let me die, it's ok just lemme grab this sawed off
paint the ceiling lights

i've been losing myself every night
that i dream of you i can't keep moving on
i've been losing myself to the knife
that i cut myself with every night it's selfish
i know, i know, cause i know, i know
cause i know, i know, cause i know, i know

it's not enough it's never been enough
won't ever be enough to change what goes on in my mind
it's not enough it's never been enough
won't ever be enough to change what goes on in my-

i've been losing myself every night
that i dream of you i can't keep moving on
i've been losing myself to the knife
that i cut myself with every night it's selfish
i know, i know, cause i know, i know
cause i know, i know, cause i know, i know
i been killing myself every night, i been losing sleep every night
i wish i could keep you alive, but it's over now, it's flowing out

every night i lose you

Resistance

Stone in my Shoe

Stone In My Shoe

https://open.spotify.com/album/3o09rW0QeegRtk2FwbBBZs?si=0xWlF4kjTa2Mzidk4xBXSw
@01kon
@brokitz

out my face if im talkin
understand the path that im takin that im walkin
like sum bitches u be flockin
jus know if u feelin safe yeah im watchin
down, down
fuck this town now 
theres always a pussy that wants me dead
if he comin closer ill show his mama his head

(2x)
fightback, nice try always wanna be me
bum ass boy next to bb pushin cds
go and jus cry to ya mama, know she wanna see deez
i dont really fuk wit the drama, dont give me no freebies

( kitz)
and i cant leave home, without giving you wat you want
ripped out my heart now u spillin the guts 
ive been feelin this way for a couple of months
and i cant leave home
without you up on my mind
i know you know
so i open fire, hummer boy if you wanna talk shit
i dont gaf if im toxic
jus need someone to talk to and gossip
i dont care at all, im bein honest
let me turn my lights down low
get girl ive been in my zone
if u talkin to me betta watch yo tone
stfu or im aimin for ur dome

hit my phone up(2x)
when u want to
goin to fast, to see some bitches
yeah thats not true 
yeah thats not you
ive been makin the bag singin in my room
laughin in yo face when u tellin me u want me
dancin in the store, yeah im movin like a zombie
hit u in the face yeah i hit u wit this tommy
got him screaming like a pussy, screamin for his mommy

(2x)
fightback, nice try always wanna be me
bum ass boy next to bb pushin cds
go and jus cry to ya mama, know she wanna see deez
i dont really fuk wit the drama, dont give me no freebies

left right left right
keep on movin
missin all the buckets say fuck it i keep on shootin
full face on who the fuck u think u foolin
step up to me, yea my choppa keep on droolin
wasting all my time up in the wasteland
and im startin the fire jus like caveman
and my minds on the islands jus like the caymans
and u still not listening to wat im sayin

im on my own, like once again
goin back to u tellin me we coulda been friends
but you lied, that wasnt right
get out my life(2x)
what a waste of time(2x)

(2x)
fightback, nice try always wanna be me
bum ass boy next to bb pushin cds
go and jus cry to ya mama, know she wanna see deez
i dont really fuk wit the drama, dont give me no freebies

fightback w/kitz (01kon)

https://soundcloud.com/heybelak
https://www.youtube.com/@prod.L1GHT

Obsessive w/ Belak

watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway
watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway    

(all that u do 4 me, is it pitty or love?
the things you say 2 me, do they come from the heart?
have i been a waste of life right from the start
cause im feeling lost, i needa sit down n talk)

i only have u left i don't know what to do 
don't know how to act, defense or attack
i just can't lose you
don't know what to say are things okay 
are you also confused?~
need something to see, something to touch 
or ill lose myself soon

down a spiral of hate, back to the blades
touching my skin,
im losing my faith, in need of a change 
the bloods runnin thin
nothings feelin great, and when you say 
u love me idk whatchu mean 
ill go back to my room and the drugs i consume
and keep doing my thing 

watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway  
watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway

watch me. (michael harrison)

君の好きな歌を聞いて
一緒に撮った写真を見て
私はつい思っちゃう
君は元気にしているのか？
体はちゃんと大事にしているのか？
夜はまだちゃんと眠れないのか？
それと、一番大事なのは
自分の心を託される人は見つけたのか？
私は-

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

won't ever change, i thinks it's genetic
engraved in my brain
used to the problems not used to pain
praying something makes it all go away
all go away
u left me alone dealing with MYself
u said u were gonna watch over my health
taking all the pills lined up on the shelf
like a buncha soldiers killin in stealth

chip me away, slowly
make me do it ur way, like it's holy
take our ring, break it
show me u never cared, bout me

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood
don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

don't say u hate me, i know u do (king theta)

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 
at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 


grabbin a drink feeling hopeless again
on my face's fallin tears, bottle gripped in my hand
outside i look fine 
but inside im fighting a war all alone on the losing end 
losing end but i can't see the end
losing all i have, losing my head 
i fight them off but they keep coming back
like cancer cells, avoinding treatment

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie

at least i tried (sorrow bringer)

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

produced by @distancedecay and @deliverbonjovi

Mastered by @darkskyparadox

follow me on ig @FATHERFUNERAL.
https://www.instagram.com/fatherfuneral/

Is it true
I’m high all the time 
Cuz of u 
I died inside
Issa mood
Im fine to drive, I’m cool 
I’m high not seeing twos 
Bright lights, 
I shine like moon’s
White lines inside my room. 
Might die tonight, like soon. 
eyes blue like my mood 
My mood my mood my mood 
Might change might make my move 
I hate I can not choose. 

I hate here 
I’m afraid of what if I stay here
I’m scared of ‘I don’t wanna face fears’
I’m gon be gone by late year 
Can’t stay here 
Wait there
I might come around in like 8 years 
I hope you sleep sound and you take care 
Take care

I was all alone on a hard day 
She was on the phone talking heartbreak 
Had nowhere to go had nothing to show 
I laid in the road tryna stargaze

WHAT? (prod. Distance Decay & DeliverTheCrush x DarkSkyParadox)

Sorry for mp3 quality.

I was coming down on a dosage 
I just pop a round, now I’m open
She said she would stay long 
As I was sober
Numb to the pain 
Can’t obtain your disclosure
I needed a break, need a moment
I could never fake these emotions 
I could never claim or remain heart broken 
Numb to the pain 
I refrain getting closer
Ima numb the pain with them things... im rolling!
Never been the same, I’m reclaiming focus
Never love again that’s a pain I’m over...
Never love again that’s a pain I’m over
I been switching lanes in ‘89 rover 
I can never hang when the Daytimes over 
Day times over 
Should stay nights over
Keep me entertained cuz I hate life sober..

prod. @opal707

mastered and mixed. @darkskyparadox

ITRIEDLOVING (prod. Opal x Darkskyparadox)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFE7yVvHdxo

LYRICS BELOW+++

BEAT PRODUCED BY @imissutelo

MIX AND MASTERED @darkskyparadox

I stay by your picture when I'm stoned
12 oz, punch liquor on the drive home
Shadows in the flicker of the light bulbs
Will anyone remember me when I go?
Lie low
Lie low
I've been suicidal
Neck hangs with my eyes closed
Don't matter where I go
This decision is final..
Never look behind you 
Might see what you don't like to 
I don't talk to God 
but sometimes wish I could find you
I look in her eyes
I see dreams, I see vitals
and I been seeing signs in the things I was blind to...

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

Song about a drug... 
You can see it in my eye, 
Something about your love gets me really fucking high
and
Through my mind you run from problems that you're hiding
I've been coming undone, put me in a cycle. 

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

MAKE ME FORGET (prod. IMISSUTELO x DARKSKYPARADOX)

produced by @proderis

mastering n mix @darkskyparadox

cover art by me

Not ur fault, get better..
Look exhausted, I can tell you've seen some awful weather
I can tell that you've been hurt by how you talk forever 
Christian Dior on ur Shirt
Louis Vuitton ur sweater
nevermind the weather

You'll freeze to death
Got her message, I accept 
but I dont read her text
I cant help it, I'm so selfish
I don't feind for sex
Make me better, Keep my head up
Got me deep in debt 

but I never knew
What putting all of those things inside ur head could do
I'd regret it but I forget what I said to you 
No I didn't have intentions to be sexual
No more friendship, be my bitch I'll give respect to you
Give respect to you.. 

I know I been distant, I'm protecting you..
You thought I was different; an intellectual..
She said "your addiction was the death of you"

I-I-I-I fucking knew 
Time flies by there's nothing new
Sigh-i-i Become consumed tonight
I find light, insight to new device.