this dope af.. uploaded it https://youtu.be/BLnLpNCFrJM?si=roKZYqwOAk9InE-f

last song of the year
going to be consistent next year. thanks for listening this yr :)

lyrics:
you say its time for me to go and move on
im living life like ive been stuck through your con
i wasnt through with all the things that i want
we hide in separate theres no reason to flaunt

so why do we keep
all the pieces
scattered around 
to get lost

cus i thought we needed
something pretend
to mend things together and solve

sad for the heartbreak
mad when need you to be
take all the time away

this superstitious place
its real but you would think
its part of every dream

dark skies, been clouding up my vision
you fed me lies, you say its always true, you know it isnt
and the things you to do me
they warp all of my feelings
can you please just get away
so we can break this tension

lonely nights
scenic skies

the world is always so bright
but you're down on the earth
they block it out, leave you tied

go explore
pacing forth
get you a new pair of eyes
you can think what you want
you can see through the lies

so why do we keep
all the pieces
scattered around 
to get lost

cus i thought we needed
something pretend
to mend things together and solve

sad for the heartbreak
mad when need you to be
take all the time away

this superstitious place
its real but you would think
its part of every dream

i see everything in peoples fate they lead on
pass them all away and make sure they dont think nun
im pullin strings and cards and things that they wouldnt believe
and 
im all for certain bout this place
no matter what your thinkin

and you wouldnt believe me even if it was in front of your eyes
in front of your eyes

you say its time for me to go and move on
im living life like ive been stuck through your con
i wasnt through with all the things that i want
we hide in separate theres no reason to flaunt

so why do we keep
all the pieces
scattered around 
to get lost

cus i thought we needed
something pretend
to mend things together and solve

sad for the heartbreak
mad when need you to be
take all the time away

this superstitious place
its real but you would think
its part of every dream

fixing what's broken prod irby

art by: @gumishrk on insta
produced & mixed by: @01kon

me: 
talking behind me
wish you could face it
lost track of time
i cannot trace it
honestly i want to be what you want me to
chasing you down
came unannounced
hearts on my eyes
yea you poison me
pinching my tounge
yea you torture me
i might die by falling for you
its all my fault
what you want me to do

wounded me badly
now my knees are touching the ground
dont make a sound
i hear the voices
inside my head
cant make it stop
cant make it better
you gave me trauma
i cannot sleep
yea youre my problem
as you can see
like who am i talking to
(who am i talking to)
the girl i knew would never dismember me

rans0m:
and you can save that sh*t for later
i dont got time to wait around
all of the games you play
they f**k with my head
i cant surface i think i might drown
look for a path
need to find my way out
dont need your assistance
i dont need your help
where were you back then
i like me by myself
i like me by myself

stevyn:
yea
drinking a driving
surviving all of this sh*t
why the f**k you always stalking me
wanna taking a pic
so i go away

call my phone
and then you tell me you dont wanna play
you dont talk to me
youre like a pretty princess
in a white dress
and youre watching glee
living unrest
waiting for the night
that you wanna undress
why told me
that i didnt do my best

pichu: [idk but its hard]

thrml:
it was u all along i couldnt win if i wanted
my baby cant
do any wrong
dismember my body and haunt it
just go head and
do what you want to me
im done with the front
i knew that you werent the one for me
im done playing dumb
cause i heard u

me:
(chorus)

ily<3

dismember w/rans0m, stevyn, pichu, thrml (01kon)

last single off my upcoming ep, pre save here: https://ffm.to/miseryfm

pre save

atlanta (wisssery)

s/o to biteki for this cool amv/lyric vid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATj8gL--S_Y

i dont rlly wanna talk like that in my head
girl u rlly got me so down bad what the heck 
i dont even wanna fuck i jus want u in my bed
when she left i could feel myself get upset

its the same ol situation
time is sprintin i cant escape it
we just avoid the topic
feels like were looping conversations
i jus cant be another npc
i dont think the norm is right for me
its getting hard for me to breathe
anxiety got the best of me

i think i was in psychosis
u stare at me feels like slow motion
i keep losin fuckin focus
forgot i could feel emotion
got off the sauce now im fiendin
i need someone to believe in me
ignore my cheesy sappiness
i hold myself from happiness

@luvkurtis
dont hide come take it all from me
intentions clear too see
know you wont give it back
so hold it tighter its yours too have now

come tear me down 
i wish that i was found 
by someone else, compassionate
its all i needed

you made my heart stop
heart complications
know that you caused
you caused a break in

my minds spinnin from the come down
psychosis settin in im numb
so you can tear me down too what you wanna take from me
its ruined now 
i cant believe that
its all gone

psychosis w/ kurtis (yungspoiler & scrobaby)

lately i've been thinking much
i don't know where to go now
i've been thinking lots
yet i think that it's your fault
baby i am gone
you made me, you did that
always in the wrong way
just tryna get the right path
tryna get the right path
baby yeah u had me
i feel like im all set
baby yeah u played me
now i don't have a place to run to
it feels like it was wrong to trust you

cause all my people always told me
that i shouldn't get lost in this coldly
she asked me if she can hold me
while im bleeding out

she said run boy, run boy
through the snow
you got so much to lose on you
i've been going on and on, and on
this seems not fair, not fair
not at all

this seems not fair, not fair
not at all
she said run boy, run boy
there u go
i run, and run, and run at all

you got so much to lose
don't you?
lately i've been fucking done
i'll talk through
i cannot make up these lies u told me
i cannot make up the things that u did
all the things u wanna know
all the things u pulled through
baby i've been thru alot
been thinking alot
of all the old times
and now they are gone

she said run boy, run boy
through the snow
you got so much to lose on you
i've been going on and on, and on
this seems not fair, not fair
not at all

i don't like myself (nextime)

mixed by @luvkurtis
prod by pekarot
lyrics:

And i've got this pit in my gut
I'm not sure what I want
So ill keep my mouth shut
And I'll just bottle it up
But you told me to

(chorus)
U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart

And I cant keep
Doing this all on my own

I'm breaking apart
I don't know where to go

You told me its
Fine but i'm not even
Sure if i'll make it back home

And id cry when i needed ya
I cant keep faking but i'm too conceited ya
You'd tell me to calm down when i get too heated yea
You know i can't leave my life here without you

But you know
You'd pick me when i was low

You taught me how
to pick up the phone

You taught me how
To just let it go

(chorus)
U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart

And I'm, And I'm giving up
And I, And I need someone
And I, And I, And I hate your guts
And I, And I dont think I'd

Ever run
I hope that I
Become what you want
And I cannot
Talk Im done
If im breaking I'll
Suck it up
I know that its
Over now
Still wish we could
Talk somehow
But I've become numb
And you dont know what
I've become

U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart 2x

spotify <3

talk it out

[LYRICS]
i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

don’t wanna remember the end of the night
i was so fucked up i thought i would die 
i guess there’s a reason why im still alive
but i feel like there’s something missing inside
baby im so alone
i party with ghosts
you’ll never see them and you’ll never know
but that’s how it goes
when you’re diagnosed 
i need a drink i need a dose 
so what if i fuck up my life 
so what if im fallin behind 
i don’t think i wanna live 
i couldn’t do this again 
oh no please don’t leave me in here
(im prayin prayin)
sitting in silence 
my tongue i bite it
i been out wilding
getting lit till im dying 
i’m dying

i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

thank u to @nokerbforever for mastering this song and thank you to everyone who sticks around to listen :3
this song is about my struggles with alcoholism so its a bit personal but hope u enjoy!

PARTY4GHOST

PARTY4GHOST [branwen x ryini beats]

feat. @claudesdiary
prod. dercept x jkei
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.
.
.
(lyrics)

im runnin fast in my forces
i said something but i dont think that its important yeah
i felt some things but i just think that i ignored it
i couldnt smell a thing cuz of the white that i just snorted

im runnin fast in my forces
filled with cracks like some porcelain
i made some racks and i just balled em up and torched them
lookin at my past there was a couple of misfortunes

-claude-

im finna get me a bag
why they gon tell me its bad
i needa get them racks fast
no we ain’t gon make it back
im finna put that on my life
someone come get me high
roll it up touch the sky

i was always on my fuckin knees being treated less
do u understand a single thing? has it been making sense?
don’t tell me that it’s over
don’t tell me that it won’t hurt

i was always on my fuckin knees being treated less
do u understand a single thing? has it been making sense?
don’t tell me that it’s over
don’t tell me that it won’t hurt


:')

porcelain feat. claude

sped up by 1 :D 

mix by me, @ploua,  @assperrr
master by asperr

lyrics

act like you didnt have a choice
everything u do set fire to me
hide the truth lie to me
dont know how to help i took the lead
and now my jeans covered in blood
cut up yea i still bleed 
you leave ur mark on me

(chorus)
i aint expect much
 just hoped we would be together 
autumn we fell in the leaves
since whend you stop fucking w me
scraped up from my hands to my knees
you wanna see me hurt
its how you find ur peace
ur doing better with him than me
dont send me pictures i dont wanna see
i dont wanna need you
you threw away everything now i see you
i dont wanna see u
you let go what we went thru
i know ur doing better than me
i dont wanna be here
w someone not fucking w me
trying harder but its just me
crying harder been losing sleep
up at 3 reading old reciepts

(ploua)

dont expect much 
if its me youre looking
you were talkin tuff
bitch dont know i got carats on my teeth

gotta keep in mind 
get yo money up 
a couple stingers on me 

try to buy 
a couple rounds of the soda ya 
make fuckin name 

sorry i dont like you 
snort another line
try to get me back 
betchya didnt know that

(chorus) 

if u wanna be with him then be
i was trying to win u 
cuz i didnt want u to leave
but if u couldnt see me for me
then why would i be here
this whole time u wanted to leave
my heart cant find peace
im better of getting used to me
i still cant see
the reason u lied to me
whyd u tell me u were gon come back
whole time u knew u dont need me
i hold to me a reason u do what u did
cause if i rlly knew would happened i think id be sick as shit

find ur peace ft ploua (asperr)

spedup by 1🤤

mix master by me

vocals
https://soundcloud.com/kryst4n/payperview-vocals-130-bminor/s-difQAkXR1rF?si=e27bf0426497488f932c3416aa5e994d&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

lyrics
if u dont feel it say that
dont lead me on dont make me feel bad
and u said u loved me did u really mean- fuck that
and before u leave and pick up ur keys
you could just say that
you didnt want me at all
u just wanna leave it all

(chorus)
like bitch i cant see at all
like whyd i trip i shouldnt care at all
weight on my chest it aint the best
and i cant breathe at all
like bitch i dont know what u want
say u want me, u dont, ur dumb
count up my bread by the end of the month
u were all I thought I'd want
one good month was all i wanted
ud have to go get him involved
cuz u know u needed someone else
i guess i wasnt that great for u
alone garnering hate for u
ur watching me like pay per view
i tried before but I fucked it up
I tried before but u fucked me up

so we'll leave it at that
i been trying to heal
its better but still bad
i know u dont feel bad
you set my heart cold but i still feel
ur caught in a lie and I wonder what was real
I blunder, u forgot the deal
and my hearts still cold
I'm walking a tightrope
I'm better off keeping my eyes closed
i wonder where the fuck my time go
no its not great for me
and im whipping i dont wanna drive slow
u had to be so damn dry though
like what was ur deal
tried hard but we couldnt be real
u didnt see me i didnt appeal

(chorus)

payperview (pekarot, jolst)

produced by xona

@seenyona

-lyrics-
the only path that I run is getting worse than I’d want
got to you without a fuss and you didnt even care enough
to ask if I’m good or better than way before
hoping it’s a get back and less of hearts being torn 
I got too much hatred overtaking my entire heart
even on the side ive been looking for the way-

cause the way that I hide
makes it ever harder to come by
I can’t decide
whether I should cut the rope that ties
no, don’t I wanna live with myself
but I’d rather die then ask for your help
so how can you act on guilt
when you caused this to wilt

cant let down, someone youve never had
im pushing past all the static man
your words cut past my flesh, and im 
sure if they heard the vile words
they'd leave just like i did before causin quivering lips
who the fuck you think you are, constantly giving me lip? 
no matter how many times u post your body
it wont ever give the same attention that i give

cause the way that I hide
makes it ever harder to come by
I can’t decide
whether I should cut the rope that ties
no, don’t I wanna live with myself
but I’d rather die then ask for your help
so how can you act on guilt
when you caused this to wilt

porcelain feat. claude

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