Glass Heart

guitar by @pekarot_161
this is for the OG listeners, I love you all from the bottom of my heart. 

lyrics:

i don’t know where i came from
only where i’ve been 
i could scratch out my eyes
when i’m feeling like this 
i can’t breathe since you left
i got cuts on my fist 
and they hurt (they hurt)
they hurt (they hurt) 

and i know that i’m sad but still smile when we kiss
i got scars on my arm from those nights i gave in 
and then you said forever but now you’re with him
and it burns (it burns)
it burns (it burns) 

but those scars on my arm 
they tell you a story
since 14 years old
they’ve been coming for me
i’m not what you want
so just throw me aside
and i’m old enough now
so i’ll wipe my eyes

and i’m praying to god
that i’ll just get better
i’ll hide in my car 
and sleep on the leather
i love you to death 
from now to december
this ones for the grayfox fans 
love you forever 

and now i’ve learned 
i’ll never be first 
but at least i’ve turned
my life around,
look at me now 
x2

look at me now
look at me now
look at me now
not 100% but i’m still here 
so look at me now 
x4

lookatmenow (pekarot)

nevermadeithome:

I don't even know what's happening 
your words come down like avalanche 
and I swear your tears hurt me more than you know 
and I'll be on my walk again covered in snow

I'm just a fuck up
for some reason you still find love in me
i guess its tough love
because I'm trying to figure out what you see in me 

I'm still waiting 
waiting waiting waiting 

I'm still waiting 
waiting waiting waiting 

areuhappy w me? cuz i kinda hate myself 
I cant communicate the right way, what I'm tryna say 
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm what I'm tryna say


sendflowrs:

can’t you hear what I'm tryna say
i buy a gem i fell in love with the finer things
and you won’t ever see my face at the pearly gates
love, it’s a funny thing
so I'm smokin on that gas till it go away 

like can you go away, no
I cannot hear a thing, woah
all this noise my darlin 
I don’t think ur listening, no
that song it curses me 
and I can hear you whistling, woah
swear that she’s a god at this
but I won’t ever say a thing, no

Spotify

are you, happy? w/ sendflowrs (irby & jolst)

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

https://fanlink.to/lfadb
guitar by @kill_vein

i’m just trying to find
a reason to care
i once believed in a god till i cried out to him
and nobody was there

a burden on my brain
that isnt going away
and now i’m looking for reasons
that i shouldn’t need this
but i can’t turn away

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t relapse
but now i’m standing
on my deathbed
and i don’t want to stay
when i've always been this way

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t go back
but now it’s been 3 nights
at the hotel we met at
and you’re not here with me
but the memory remains

and as i took my last line
i was approaching the light
you laid your head next to mine
what a beautiful sight

i made up my mind
i’m friending i’m fried
i don’t need these drugs
i just need your love

ive got no reason to hide
tell momma i’m fine
it’ll be ok down the line
but i’m tired of trying

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t relapse
but now i’m standing
on my deathbed
and i don’t want to stay
when i've always been this way

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t go back
but now it’s been 3 nights
at the hotel we met at
and you’re not here with me
but the  memory remains

letterfromadeathbed (prod. heffy & killvein)

guitar by @imcaves
rest is me
something told me i should put this out now, so here you go
hope you enjoy .
retention 8/26

totally unprepared
faces shapeshifting around me
i tell myself, don't be scared
only what i think can hurt me
but every night's harder than the last
(the last)
(the last)
(the last)
i let my spirit shatter just like glass
(like glass)
(like glass)
i stood up again last night
i couldn't close my eyes
no matter how much i cried
i tried
i tried...
night.

spirit trash

sewerperson - we were so good (branwen)

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

sewerperson - another day

[Intro: Sewerperson]
(branwen)
I can fling it
I feel it, I guess it's our turn
Oh, all this armour

[Chorus: Sewerperson]
Another day of talking just to say nothing
I message pretty much two people at the most
I'm scared of saying something wrong
I wake up and apologize for the millionth time this month
I'm tryna get fucked up so I'ma hit it from the bong
Substance been my best friend since she did me wrong
But we don't get along, this should kill me, I'm not strong
I won't put it in the setlist 'cause I would start to sob
This love you feel is fake, they just tryna get on

[Verse 1: Sewerperson]
I'm about to give up, they don't even know
I've thrown up every meal, I'm just tryna take it slow
Of course I knew that I would have these dark days
But dear God, just give me some of the light, please
I forget what had hurt me in defense
I regret every minute we have been friends 
Deep in thought, I reflect
But I'm brought back to reason by these scars on my neck
I'm not tryna pretend, I'm just geeking
Even if I was dead, you would knock the bleeding
And I know I made my bed and I'm sleepy
This bitch tryna kill me, made me happy

[Verse 2: guardin]
Been ignorin' all the signs, I'm not doin' fine
Lost another friend and I was sure that we'd survive
In the midst of all this shit, I put my life in an archive
Next to everything I loved and hoped eventually would thrive
But the truth is hard to swallow after everything has died
In the process, hard to grieve in tears, I wanna compromise
So you better try to settle for your comfort in the words exchanged from you to I
Move across the Eastern Coast and commit social suicide

[Chorus: Sewerperson]
Another day of talking just to say nothing
I message pretty much two people at the most
I'm scared of saying something wrong
I wake up and apologize for the millionth time this month
I'm tryna get fucked up so I'ma hit it from the bong
Substance been my best friend since she did me wrong
But we don't get along, this should kill me, I'm not strong
I won't put it in the setlist 'cause I would start to sob
Just let me feel this fate, baby, they just tryna get it all

sewerperson - another day (ft. guardin)

Acoustic cover of the song: 9TAILS - incompatible

incompatible

9TAILS - incompatible *acoustic cover*

The SoundCloud Files

other cheek

lyrics ⬇️

i walk away from everything i know
let me be
where i wanna go
drifting away in my sleep

broken lamp but the light still on
everything i do i feel is wrong
tell me to try and then i end up seeming dumb
yea my anxiety riddles my tongue

i cannot speak without feeling numb
and i feel at home when im all alone
weak in the knees when i see em run
i know that theyre against all of the stuff ive done

Crawl out of the basement find another when were out of touch

find someone to share the love from up avove
i dont hate the pressure but i fold when it gets way to much
yea outta luck
yea outta trust

i saw my demise when i saw you do that lil shoulder shrug
yea now u hate my guts; no longer think im a stud
yea i thought it was over with the first time that you left me off
wrong all along
turn my body off

(skele)

skele -
i won’t let you go 
but we won’t make it till the morning 
colder than the snow 
but i still need someone to hold me 
start to lose control 
i hold it down
inside it’s storming 
hear it in my voice 
it start to shake 
when i’m recording 

going numb 
off this bottle 
poured up 
nobody left 
no more light 
no love 
fool me once 
gave my life 
for what 
all i want 
in my eyes 
was us 

nobody there for me to cry for
breaking down 
to you i’m looking like an eye sore 
breaking down 
to you
you’re someone i would die for 
triple digits on the dash 
hit a high score 

i thought maybe i was someone you could try for 
i thought maybe i was someone you would like more 
i thought maybe i was someone you could fall for 
i can’t feel it 
i can’t feel it 
i can’t anymore

spite w/ skele & static (blocktane x nate2timez)

I love and appreciate all of you out there whoever and wherever you are. It took me awhile to except life for what it is! U don’t gotta be foolish like I was u can escape this bull shit system.Recorded 3/2/24 Indianapolis Indiana somewhere up ina burbs. live in the NOW

Talktomuch (Prod.MichaelHarrison)

lyrics:

moldy life
i see poltergeists
in room at night
they stare at me
while i start to cry
in his cubicle
till his funeral
youre not living right

im walking home
its like 4 some miles 
im tryna prove a point
i wont get far with my rusted joints
 die off the grid in these rustic loins
in these broken clothes
in this forest ruin
on this vineyard throne
with a pedant draped
on top my broken bones
when u open it up
u see her face in stone
i spit i promise i love you
out my broken throat

moldy life
i see poltergeists
in room at night
they stare at me
while i start to cry
in his cubicle
till his funeral
youre not living right

everything i valued
torn apart by the winter
i had never thought id see it
i never thought id believe it
bury my bones
rearranged
i dont wanna wake
take my mind
take my body
and trade for me my faith
mist blows around 
in the wind
we all fuck up
we all sin
girl are u really tryna judge me
we could play pretend
ill be proper
ill be bubbly
she gon play to win
but i catch up
when u dust me
please dont think u know me cause u never know
i dont even know me like i did before

moldy life
i see poltergeists
in room at night
they stare at me
while i start to cry
in his cubicle
till his funeral
youre not living right

spring. (+ pekarot)

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