prod. michael harrison x gavin hadley
mix, master, lyrics by me
(lyrics)
she caught me when i would fall
to let me go in the end
and i just wonder why i feel this pain
she says to me, get some rest
that pain i wont forget
alarm bells all in my head
im waiting for end

i said baby
please come back to me now
you wonder why im down
but wont call my phone now

i said why you do me like that
wonder all the time why my songs so sad
i dont know what is your plan?
killing me slowly get out of my head

and they wonder why
i hate this life
take a look inside and soon youll know
suicide
been on my mind
contemplate my thoughts until i die

wonder why (michael harrison x gavin hadley)

@55depths
@bleedteam
@zephyrcove
@eunhae
prod/mixed/mastered by me.
additional vocals by @riptenshi

i want myself back.

lyrics:
how could i look in the mirror?
all i see is someone hiding something
couldn't be any clearer
that i lost my way a real long time ago
did you really think you'd get this far?
are you truly fine with who you are?
cut the bullshit
you've been living a great lie
killed by guilt from the inside

you took a step back
and now you're losing your grip
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
i need to get back
or i'll just lose in the end
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
oh yeah i still do it again

(eunhae)
wait a minute
it'll be fine in the end
and if it doesn't
then at least we can pretend
we're in control and
it's all going to plan
i say i'm fine
but not and i'll just do it again
it's gonna take a lot of time
to heal from everything that makes me cry
i keep on trying even though i really wanna hide
i wanna grow but i'm still spending every day inside

you took a step back
and now you're losing your grip
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
i need to get back
or i'll just lose in the end
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
oh yeah i still do it again

on and on
i make the same mistakes
can't you tell
it's written on my face
pull the thread, unravel me
take it all
what's left of me
on and on
i make the same mistakes
can't you tell
it's written on my face
pull the thread, unravel me
take it all
what's left of me...

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do it again w/ eunhae

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

:) 


Looking half a mile away to see you face the wall
everytime u look at me my feelings burn 
all the things u wanted and I failed them all
Everytime u Talk to me my stomach burns

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Blood creeping out my window to my yard
All this involvement don’t know who u are 
All this water leaves, falls down where u are 
I don’t seem restless just going too far 
I’ve got no fuel left, you’ve drained all that I have 
Oh I’m anxious as shit, u should look at my arm
Cause I’ve torn it to pieces 
No pieces left
Just a pot that you piss in, now torn to shreds 

this feeling eats me alive guess i messed up my life
i try just to hide that way cant be right
well im just tired, everything is tiring
i stay up all night next day i sleep all the time
dont know what to say so i better stay silent
in my head im with you in fields full of violets

Walk myself to the pier this is life for me 
Pull myself up the wall u can’t carry me 
All this water gets colder crashes into me 
These feelings that I get I must have to leave

pier ft. melon

this is probably my favorite song I've ever made, and it means a lot to me.

if you've made it here, please like & repost as it helps other people who might relate to my music find it

ty to all who listen <3
prod. michael harrison

**lyrics**
I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

I dont really wanna die I just want a warm embrace
Looking at ya' from the sky but i cant see your face
Babe It's just another ride, you know Ima be okay
But man i hope they hear my cry when i finally break
(x2)

If I turned around, would you call your friend?
I hate who I was but I'm better again
I cant stand the silence, you're my medicine
It's starting to rain, would you just take my hand
(x2)

I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

limerence (michael harrison)

prod. caves x hero

Lyrics:

[hero]

ah
and i cannot lose what we've got
i'm clinging to threads weaning off
my body and mind start to rot
guess i'll claw out the ground through the rocks
9 years i don't know what we are
i just know i liked what we were
i'm racing you there to the top
in search of all reason there was

[NAVYXOWER]

i cried
while leaving
and now 
im leaking 
my blood out the needle that you left
im so tired of lying to myself and my friends
floating on a cloud
it felt like i was dying when you walked out the house
i made it my mission to keep you 
but i lost it
my anxiety is running like a faucet

hold
my hand
as we walk 
through the open end
of the world
i hope to see you again
when its over ill dream of you my friend
cutting it close
really dont know what to think about it
my body and heart
were going out i feel it happening
what is it worth
continuing life
without you here next to me
ill meet you there 
in the end of it all i cant believe this is happening

[hero]

ah
and i cannot lose what we've got
i'm clinging to threads weaning off
my body and mind start to rot
guess i'll claw out the ground through the rocks
9 years i don't know what we are
i just know i liked what we were
i'm racing you there to the top
in search of all reason there was

and maybe i never will find it
and maybe i never should want to
maybe i miss all the writing
but maybe i'm just missing you

~

AND I CANNOT LOSE WHAT WE'VE GOT
I'M CLINGING TO THREADS WEANING OFF
MY BODY AND MIND START TO ROT
IN SEARCH OF ALL THE REASON THERE WAS

irreplaceable (ft. navyxower)

lyrics: 

lost all my hope 
lost all my hope 
down the same road 
"fix up" but I cant
look at my bones
look at my bones
sailing on fear
the thin ice is breaking 

hate on my soul 
hate on my soul
wither then perish 
its dark, but I hope
I waste into dust 
powder; my heart 
I longed paradise 
but I tripped from the start 

oh how did I get here? 
how did I get here? 
blood on my palms 
from etching the scars 
my breath is so shallow
I'm falling apart 
I'm falling apart 
let me corrode away 
loosen your grip I'm fine 
loosen your grip

fix up [prod king theta]

it hurts, the weight on my chest
it burns, the tears that i shed
i want to breathe, but im dead
i cant take it, i'm sawing my head off

i spend my days just trying to figure out whats wrong with me
between the breakdowns and compulsions from the OCD
is borderline a good excuse for when i dont agree
im boiling on the inside, im Discouraged, you would never see

anxiety, throwing up like every morning
cause the moment that my eyes open im retching without warning
always think of suicide and then imagine how they're mourning
but i promise i wont do it, it's just thoughts they're getting boring

it hurts, the weight on my chest
it burns, the tears that i shed
i want to breathe, but im dead
i cant take it, i'm sawing my head off

man im so used to this shit i think i just be getting numb
ill stay attached forever if you show me bit of love
ill follow your whole trail, i be picking up the crumbs
really thinking you wont hurt me, how the fuck i be so dumb

why my stomach always hurting, feel it now writing this verse
im always feeling sick, and my brain always on alert
i never get a break i feel my body always hurt
cant keep up with my head, theres way too many fucking words

it hurts, the weight on my chest
it burns, the tears that i shed
i want to breathe, but im dead
i cant take it, i'm sawing my head off

what's wrong with me

whats wrong with me

this songs basically a song that is just being a song just bc ofc

prod by me bc i made the beat just my opinion

ty carter

lyrics

way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

it feels like you love me more when im going away
just look me in my eyes and tell me im okay
ill call you when im home so you know im okay
i could lose everything but id still keep my faith
i stopped smoking but i still keep them just incase
i wish i had some wings so i could fly away
way above the clouds
i wish i knew what i was doing instead of asking how
and im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
i was driving by myself im seeing a face in the fog
im supposed to be a man
but im just crying at a photo once again
and im obsessing over shit ill never get again
time moves fast i guess


way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

youre the rainbows and the sunshine
i can feel you in when the wind blows and you pass by
i can see youre face in everything
all sides
i need you to surround me till the day i die

as i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see you
smiling, shining
look how you did so well
and the day that i go
will be the day that you go
and girl im broken
i dont have a purpose
i dropped a song for you i hope that you heard it on your own
cuz baby this ones new and i just made it last night
i know they all sound the same to you
ive given up pieces of my brain for you
you know im trying to hold you tight when the night comes
but i feel you in my bones and my weak lungs

as i watch the storm pass 2 (cxrter)

poisonous waters (feat. sadeyes)

IV ♱ 20
i've given everything

how could i have known it was limited time

wonder why (michael harrison x gavin hadley)

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