unreal vocals. 🩷 my brotha u so goated

departure.

produced by cxrter & threemvsk
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(halfhearted)
said i wouldn’t trip 
but i miss the way it felt when we kissed and our lips touched
don’t know how you live, just admit that i’m too much
since i was a kid, hear em saying i’m a no one
i wasn't one for the games
or making a song for the fame
hop in the whip switching lanes
burden still up in my brain, break all the chains
sick of the faces around
wake up and i’m drowning
when rain hits the ground, i can’t help but feel clouded

(kiddamo)
take my sweater cuz outside is freezing
i can’t live with the thought of you leaving
but if you want you can go
i got used to the cold
i miss the conversations that we used to have on the phone
if i could rewind
re-rewind to the start
watching as the fireworks combine with all the stars
i spent my whole life wondering like “where you are”
stay where you are

(brecken)
and i been grounded, but when it rains i still think about you
still hear the sirens whenever i do sum’ i shouldn't do
yeah well that's how it goes
lying to people you love and you know it
yea all of it shows
they can see what you doing in the moment
losing my focus
i'm feeling broken
thinkin’ bout chili’s
that would be so lit
all of my homies
eatin’ tortilla chips
chips full of spinach dip
just give me a tub of it

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(lil booj)
hey there can you pick me up 
i’m in the lost and found again 
i’ve got my only friend right beside me 
the thread i keep it tight 
i keep it on the mend 
i try to keep us safe and then you stop me 
tell me you’re sad about maybe we’re crashing out, i know 
nothing we talk about goes anywhere because i know 
sediment building up, everyone doubting me, oh no!
are you proud of what you see, now you feel it so?

(yungcray)
paranoia when i step outside 
i’m feeling like this all the time 
got no time, need to find my coat
i hope my gloves are still inside
ice heart, i know I’m cold 
yea this shit’s getting borderline
tell me that there’s more to life 
i can’t feel myself, but i’m the reason that i live like this 
gas up from the shelf, i roll it up and we don’t think a thing
i been in this maze, god this shit gon’ drive me crazy 
i been feeling different lately

(vails)
they tell me look for signs
might be written in the stars
even though they’ve realigned
i still feel like i am far away from an answer
oh i wish i had the answers
now it’s eleven fifty three
still been caught up on IG
scrolling past old memories 
of us by the tapestry in my old home
where we should of left it all alone

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

cameras out! (cypher) w/ notahero, halfhearted, kiddamo, brecken, lil booj, yungcray, & vails

Produced and mixed by Carlby
Guitars by Kazba

LYRICS

Listen on Spotify!

Kindred (Prod. w/ Kazba)

veins. w/ sevenfeet (king theta)

healer. w/ brecken & lil booj (king theta)

broken home. w/ greenwood (king theta)

forever, yours. w/ vails (king theta)

this was so fun to make, hope you like it
got a song coming every 1-2 weeks for next month (:
thankful for every listen <3

beat by the insanely talented @illsee
lyrics:

I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you call me when it’s imminent
I’m terrified it’s certain
I live among the vermin 
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you promise you’ll be with me when I’m pulling back the curtain

I've been up in arms
wondering how I’d tell you
when I wanna be in yours
wish it was that easy
but it’s pulling back and forth
wish I could appease it
but it’s gonna run its course

I'm always down on my luck
not coming out of my rut
I’ll find a beat
that I like
and make some shit on it once
but Imma finish a song don’t care
if I hate it
Imma keep up with this i swear
never disappear

I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you call me when it’s imminent
I’m terrified it’s certain
I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you promise you’ll be with me when I’m pulling back the curtain

vermin (maybe)

im no different than yesterday
days will bleed together
we’ll all be replaced
some of are us fake
but i’ll share my thoughts out
you won’t hear me 
you just hear my sound

i got lots of words to say
i don't share them here
they're all on my alt page
i hate to leave my house
i fear they laugh at my face
i walk into work in fear 
and i dont know how to behave

idk where i'm going
same song it’s still not flowing
what if they hear
what if they find the real me
change their mind
they'll change their mind about me

all they say is ‘nice song’
like did u read the lyrics...
ignorance is bliss 
maybe they just don't see it
maybe they don't know

i'm crashing out in a song
where did this come from
where did i go wrong
i have been feeling this
i have been feeling this for so long
wanna ruin my body like i ruined my brain
the cycle is repeating and the cycle is insane

oh its only 10pm on a wednesday
why it got me feeling this way
tell me how to erase my brain
all my songs are sounding the same

everything just sounds the same now
in the mirror i've been looking lame now
i don't even wanna fucking go out
i ruined everything i ruined everything

do u still listen
to my songs
used to see ur name
now it's gone
seems i've been replaced by the one
i don't think she's changed
why don't u run

real me [nctrn]

lyrics

pink purse
i swear i never meant to make your feelings hurt
i swear ill sail the seven seas if i could make it work
im really glad you look your best today, i feel the worst

just tell me youre still in it in it
try to grab ahold of my heart i cant feel it
you said that its sounding like art
but you dont understand it
and neither do i
but when youre laughing and look at me its the fourth of july
so thats the best thing that i could ever look at its so
my hands trembling and my body shaking out of controol
its something well understand when were old
can you help me open up the door im tryna get out of the cold

I’m pulling up it’s warmer inside the car
take this drive with me and stare at the stars
the man i used to be i left his ass at the bar
going through these changes it feels new to me
like who are we?
21 years old the world feels new to me
talking bout the things i did it feels like yo ass is shooting me
you killed that part of me
blank slate i don’t even know who to be
just show me a sign that you’re really there
just show me a sign that you really care
talking about my memories like you were really there
like are you aware of what this shit really feels like
i was scared to fall asleep without the glock nine
baby come a little closer every nights a cold night
don’t know how long it takes to find us but we’ll find it on our own time
find it on our own time

it could be worse i could be layin in the hospital
or laying in the dirt with all my family and my friends gone
it could be 10 times worse but i don’t recognize a thing
think they could tell that it hurt
when i lost you i went to sleep
cuz if im sleepin theres a chance that i could see you still
if im dreamin theres a chance that i could feel it still
might be walkin in a trap but i dont even care
i would rather see what happens when i get there
i miss your attitude and somehow that cold stare
gimme bad news but you fix with no hardware
well i hate to be the bearer of bad news
but i cant fix this i think that we met our doom
i can see the floor give out beneath our feet as we speak now
rocks fall from the ceiling bury me into the ground
cant tell if your kidding but your fillin me with doubt
and i hate how it sounds
i hate the sound of your car starting up to leave
i cant make these thoughts leave i wish that you could see
wish that you could see everything that i had done in thought of you and me

just tell me youre still in it in it
try to grab ahold of my heart i cant feel it
you said that its sounding like art
but you dont understand it
and neither do i
but when youre laughing and look at me its the fourth of july

still in it w/ kiddamo & brecken (p. under the maple tree)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @noahmadethiss & @horoshavibes
Mixing, additional vocals & guitars by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by @melmige

LYRICS
(sewerperson)
All alone on this Summer night
Look for me in these velvet skies
Pray for me while I walk this fire
Anything just to see you smile
November came and our Summer had died
Leaving us with nowhere to hide
When everyone dropped dead like flies
I had no choice but to make you mine

When we fade away where do the feelings get dropped
'Cause I got boxes of these things like home videos
I'm away like half the year
She doesn't miss me though
All while I'm thinking about her touch
It makes me miserable

(Carlby)
Somehow I'll find a way to reach you
Drag you through the screen
This time I'll tell you everything
How much you really mean to me
And all I am today
Because the bleakest weather is better in your company
Although you're long gone now
I hold tight to your memories
Like home videos
Just know I'll never forget these

I still stare at old photos
Wonder where does the time go
How can I get it back

(Horosha & Carlby)
The past is dead and yet I still I feel it
A shadow sliding over concealing
Anything in the present that would bring me joy
And still I miss the pain

I knew our time was short
But your summer eyes
They captured me by force
A willing prisoner
Even with a painful ending you made every moment shine like gold

Home Videos w/ sewerperson (Prod. noah thomas)

prod dash 

sample from whiplash
lyrics ⬇️
theres not a future thought in my head oh well
well i could tell you what i want next 
but you would yell
yell at me for my best
for secrets that i had kept
then wonder why i aint slept
oh well
think this is something i cant repeat
keep stoopin low
you gonna find me out in a ditch
i dont want you to know
i dont think i dont think i can be seen like this
id rather you go tell everyone im just in an abyss
stuck out in the snow
way too cold so i couldnt flinch oo

think my lil brodie jus hit em a clip
360 y y hit on yo miss
and he doin damage so that you cant stitch
all of the stuff that you wish he aint did
act like my wifi aint runnin so i could just possibly find me some rest
act like this wachu been wantin
honestly please come be my guest

white paint on my whip
all of my vices green
i dont want you to trip
but i dont wanna you to cling
like what do u mean

well its pretty easy if you would just listen just for a minute 
i could tell u how i really have been 
like walkin to finland
thats how the distance feels between us when you get tempted
if i had wishlist you wont get it
ill throw that lil promise over the hedge

hits like a comet covered in ship
if we woulda saw it it would be sick
hints like a comment you wont forget
but we had a problem thats what we missed
covered in star dust under the mist
woulda been harder not to be hit

barley had started when you had dipped
hate you departed think we had skipped
my head been clouded hate to admit
i hope these feelings diminish they cant replenish
you act like a skit but this now a show
like where did u go
if i had a blick then i woulda blown
like you didnt know

and i cant explain how im feelin alone
every night i feel like theres not a phone
no where to reach
nowhere to be
part of me feel like im left out to bleed

finland (dash)

6. I Will Win Again
The final anthem: no matter how many times the devil returns, the will to fight and rise will always triumph. A declaration of victory, both past and future.

I Will Win Again


Laughing at the Riverside is a nostalgic indie rock ballad that captures the emotional texture of a summer evening reunion among old friends. Set by the riverbank at dusk, the song explores themes of memory, time, and quiet connection. Through poetic verses and a melancholic male baritone voice, the lyrics reflect on shared stories, lost moments, and the bittersweet beauty of aging friendships. The chorus, anchored by the line “Laughing at the Riverside,” evokes a sense of timeless joy and emotional release. Instrumental sections—ranging from ambient intros to orchestral crescendos—mirror the emotional arc of the night, making the song feel cinematic and deeply personal.

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🎵 Laughing at the Riverside
Lyrics by Martin Oliver Beinersdorf

[Intro – Twilight Pulse (0:00–0:45)  
Soft piano arpeggios in low register.  
Muted bass pulses gently.  
Ambient pads with tremolo shimmer.  
Delay-washed electric guitar textures.  
No drums yet, slow emotional build.  
Mood: dusky summer evening, anticipation, warmth.]

Verse 1  
We parked the cars by the willow bend  
Sun bleeding out like a quiet friend  
You brought the cheap wine, I brought the old jokes  
Someone lit a fire, someone almost choked  

The river moved like it knew our names  
Skipping stones, trading old mistakes  
You said, “Remember that night in June?”  
I said, “I barely remember you”  

Pre-Chorus  
But the laughter came easy, like it used to  
And the silence felt softer than truth  

Chorus  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Where the past comes back but never bites  
We were ghosts in denim and light  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Like nothing ever changed  
Like everything was right  

[Instrumental Bridge – Echoes in the Current (2:10–2:40)  
Drums enter with off-kilter rhythm (5/4).  
Muted trumpet and trombone add melancholic accents.  
Dissonant guitar chords slowly resolve.  
Synth sweeps mimic water movement.  
Mood: flickering memories, emotional tension.]

Verse 2  
You played that song from senior year  
It cracked like vinyl, but we all cheered  
The moon hung low like a borrowed time  
And someone cried without a sign  

We talked of jobs, of kids, of loss  
Of how we all got a little lost  
But no one judged, and no one lied  
We just let the river decide  

Chorus  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Where the past comes back but never bites  
We were ghosts in denim and light  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Like nothing ever changed  
Like everything was right  

[Instrumental Interlude – Denim Ghosts (3:30–4:10)  
Strings (violin, cello) play a nostalgic theme.  
Piano repeats intro motif, higher and fragile.  
Slide guitar adds emotional texture.  
No drums, ambient bass carries the mood.  
Mood: time suspended, quiet reflection.]

Bridge  
The fire burned down to a whisper  
And I wished I’d said more to her  
But maybe that’s the point of nights like these  
You feel too much, and speak too little  

[Build-Up – Firelight Crescendo (4:40–5:10)  
Drums return with driving rhythm.  
Brass and strings swell into crescendo.  
Open guitar chords with tremolo.  
Warm synth pad underneath.  
Mood: emotional climax, shared joy and sorrow.]

Final Chorus  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Where the echoes feel like lullabies  
We were young, we were terrified  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Like nothing ever changed  
Like everything was right  

[Outro – Riverside Fade (5:40–6:20)  
Sparse piano notes like water drops.  
Reverse guitar effects echo memories.  
Slow bass pulse like a heartbeat.  
Field recording: river sounds, distant laughter, crickets.  
Mood: closure, memory lingering, peace.]

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© Lyrics and concept by Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. All rights reserved.

Laughing at the Riverside

Alternative rock song in the style of 2000s German indie rock bands, melancholic and intellectual mood, poetic and cryptic lyrics in German. Dry baritone vocals, calm and slightly detached delivery. Minimalistic arrangement: steady mid-tempo drums, warm bassline, clean electric guitar with subtle delay, occasional dissonant chords. Sparse production, raw but intimate, evoking early 2000s indie rock with a reflective and melancholic atmosphere, lyrics: Balkonblumen, music: AI



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