@shikixo
this one is fucking crazy, so proud of it
much love to all of you for the support recently
<3

intro: shiki

im way too numb i cant let go i dont where i am
i feel my ribs they make me scared of everything
i wanna kiss u in the car when its about to crash
i feel my ribs i see my shadows just bleeding

verse: soph

well i dont know my way out of this
i feel so numb to everything
i sing my sorrows every night
i tell my sorrows good bye

verse: shiki

lost soul, I don't ever wanna go home
i let u bleed me out
before im without u
and nothing lasts forever baby
and dont i been waiting all night
but you never picked up the phone

chorus:

oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out

falsetto part:

prechorus:
i'll make u bleed me out
i'll make my lungs collapse
ill make my heart stop and start
if thats what u want
i'll make u bleed me out
i'll make my lungs collapse
ill make my heart stop and start
coz thats what u want

chorus: shiki
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out
oh no i know
i'll let u bleed me out

bleed me out (ft Shiki XO)

Downfall w/ Gaiden

feat: Evan Carr: https://soundcloud.com/ejcarrmusic
Prod: Irby
Mix on my vocals: Decks Music online 24/7 help line: https://soundcloud.com/decksmusic
Lyrics

Ichorus
love me

i don’t know why you love me
i just wanna feel something 
i fall asleep in the snow banks
tell me all the things that you know babe
i want to see 
everything you love about me 

love about me
baby what’s new
tell me all the things that are happening with you
i don’t wanna talk about me tonight 
i just wanna let you know 
that i’m not alright 
i’m not okay
i don’t wanna think about the things you say
when i tell you what happened to me 

my past mistakes are always great 
are always great
i just wanna be ok
i don’t know why you choose me
i’m no light i’m just another phase

Evan Carr:
i don’t remember how it’s supposed to feel 
is this it? is this real? 
am i going somewhere i won’t heal
baby lemme tell you i tried
to do my best while i’m dead inside 
if you love me tell no lies 
in the end are you by my side?
i’ve been having doubts 
i’ve been breaking out of this ship that we’ve set in motion 
i’m freaking out cuz there’s no emotion 
if this is love where’s the devotion 
lie awake for something 
will i wait for nothing 
to come of you when i’ve got this far 
i’m begging you tell me who you are

Love Me +Evan Carr (Irby)

old track i've had for a while i dont think ima do anything with
prod @4evrgone
hope u enjoy

lyrics:
pull up to the function
and im goin on a bender
i’ve been overdosing on the thought
of you and me together
tell me how and where and why
i’ll buy you things that you like
im using to falling quick for people
who make me feel alright, alright

i been having longer nights
fighting with the light inside my room
hoping that this all pays off when 
i can finally dream of you
baby what i did to you is fucked up
praying that i havent run my luck up
im sorry that i been so fuckin stuck up
i just want another chance between
you and i now
thinkin where my future lies now

everything is passing in color
remember in grayscale
seeing you here but
caught up like a hangnail
used to the past
fading in like the paper
cover my walls and
remember my labor
labor of love
when i had nothing
baby girl u were my something <3

pull up to the function
and im goin on a bender
i’ve been overdosing on the thought
of you and me together
tell me how and where and why
i’ll buy you things that you like
im using to falling quick for people
who make me feel alright, alright

someone like u (4evr)

im. sorry

stormzy: @cherryonline
jaykae: @vieraxo
aitch: @birdbay

take me back to london w/ stormzy, jaykae & aitch

I'm looking at my reflection asking "who it is"
It's hard to answer when they ask me how i feel
I'm scared to make em scared saying how i've been
i've seen death and i stared right in her eyes

I'd point it to my head if you passed me the ak
I'm moving too fast you don't wanna stay on my way
I live life to it's fullest cuz it could be my last day
Life taught me you have to fall in love with the pain

Make sacrifices or you're sacrificing success
I worked more than anyone and they'd talk about coincidence

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me yeah i'm not having fun
Traumas looking for me, i've been on the run

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, I'm not having fun
My traumas looking for me yeah i've been on the run

Heart's racing with everything you say
I still remember your lyrics about me
But everything is so hard to understand
I know you the best but i still don't get it

I might just ghost em all they won't hear of me again
Stay where you are, i don't really care

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, i'm not having fun
All my traumas are looking for me, i've been on the run

I didn't hear your voice for so long
So i hope you will hear mine in this song
But i know i'm a lost cause, because

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, i'm not having fun
All my traumas are looking for me, i've been on the run

On The Run

lyrics

sorry, the number u have called is unavailable at the moment, 
please leave a message at the tone

hey uh, so
I'm calling cus I
I saw what u posted today
and I can't just can't do this at all anymore
I don't know what made you think it's okay to just
fuck my best friend like that but
we're done
n uh, you're not gonna see me anymore
bye

I've got a feeling that sits in my soul
to fight thru the pain
to let it all go
of all the blood I bled
I know there's more to give
n I can't taste the ash
I know u slept with him
if I could I would forget u
here's a list of everything u said that wasn't tru
God damn I'm gonna miss u
but I wish I never met u

I wish that this could be
one of the last songs I write about u
but we can both see
that this is gonna take a bit of time 

I remember freaking out cus I got sober 
I remember dates we set for late October
but we had to wait till it was over
where u at?
I'm smoking out the back
two packs and friends wanna get a bag
ride fast, crash a car n fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse, yeah
lock myself inside my house
I keep it down
cus I'm trying not to cry loud
it's all ash, but I gotta clean the bong out
two hits n I'm gonna put the knife down
yeah

does it cut u when i say that i don't want u around?
ur in my head but I still tend to keep my ear to the ground
n I swear
it gets so overwhelming 
time flying past 
but it feels like last week

n what do I say when I can't breathe?
what do I say to make this pain cease?
I'm all choked up n I can't think
what can I say to make this okay?
I hope u hear one of my songs
but u don't know so u sing along 
till u look down, see my name so
u say: "oh shit, what have I done?"

we're sorry, u have reached a number that has been disconnected, or is no longer in service
go fuck urself

Salem Pt. 2 (5head)

@ejcarrmusic carried the song ngl, still dope! :)

Feel free to repost this track or upload it on other platforms, just make sure to give me and evan carr the credits.

LYRICS
[dye'vert]
I feel so headless wasted my time while I had it
now Im in panic lay in bed with a headache
Im like an addict for things that make damage
now I cant stand this, get me down off this planet yah

Shit happens and I knew it (I knew it)
How do i get myself through this, yah
What does misery have to do with, me
So I get myself right into it

¡Oh shit! Now Im crying you an ocean
Hopeless, words already spoken
Notice, how Im suppressing my emotions
I just need to focus
I just need to focus

I feel so headless wasted my time while I had it
now Im in panic lay in bed with a headache
Im like an addict for things that make damage
now I cant stand this, get me down off this planet yah
x2

I feel so headless (I feel so headless)
Tell my why am I headless (tell me why am I headless)
now Im in panic (now Im in panic)
now Im in panic get me down off this planet

[evan carr]
i think i need to fade away
heartbreak design, won’t play the game, cuz i
i think that I’ve had enough
of overthinking it all
it’s always making it rough
and now i’m taking the fall

lost my head, lost it all
and lost my temper
the world around mes not making it better
Im always thinking how these words’ll make me stress, now I’m singing to myself saying why am I headless

[dye'vert + evan carr]
I feel so headless wasted my time while I had it
now Im in panic lay in bed with a headache
Im like an addict for things that make damage
now I cant stand this, get me down off this planet yah
x2

Prod. dye'vert

Headless w/evan carr

Grove [+ sogimura]

Sunsets

LYRICS

They said I'd figure it out when I graduated high school 
nearly ten years, I still don't know what the fuck to do 
writing songs alone in my room is the only thing I ever learned how to do 

I wasted all my time,
on fairy tales and lies 
so should I draw the line right here
before it's too late? 

I used to pretend my life was a movie 
with credits rolling as chapters closed 
in the back of my parents' car 
with the lake disappearing slowly 
I promised myself I'd remember this feeling 

Now it's 2021 and I'm still here on lockdown,
but life is the virus that caged me, I can't get out 
I can't remember the wind through the wind through the trees 
and the sun at my back, when my mind could just be at peace 

cuz that's all I really need, just some relief from being me