i dont make hyperpop

prod. guda

https://twitter.com/ghostsocia1

irl (guda x strang)

this song was hard to make </3
@prodbyaustyn

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shattered my heart 
and opened my eyes
life has been hard
and the least bit of kind 
but i keep on moving, won't lose it
my minds gotta prove i'm okay 
the thought isn't soothing, pursuing
a love that keeps running away

but i could try 
another goodbye 
maybe this time it won't be a surprise 
the moment i find 
the hate in your eyes 
for someone in darkness who just found the light
you know i'm trying, i'm trying, i'm trying 
i'm tired of crying, i'm dying inside 
a flicker of hope
drifts away like smoke 
can't keep being a lighter

can i ask u some questions?

lighter

@prodbyaustyn went so crazy on the verse AND the prod so shoutout ily bestie

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i'll try, to get by 
but i find most times i'm dying inside 
can't cry, went dry, 
i don't know why my eyes are tired

tomorrow i'm dreading
trying to block it but someone keep letting in in 
all the depression, 
trying to end it, but then i regret it again 
i can't explain, the reason i'm in so much pain 
what will it take? i'm tired of feeling so drained 
i'm tired of the clouds and the rain 
tired of relying on friends
don't need to take medicine 
to make me feel happy again
holes in my heart and they're caving it in 
i don't even know where it ends 
it's something they won't understand 
making a line in the sand 
throw my life away, then i'll see where it lands 

i'll try, to get by 
but i find most times i'm dying inside 
can't cry, went dry, 
i don't know why my eyes are tired

eyes are tired 
i’ve been so uninspired as of late 
needing fuel in the fire i cant explain 
i see your face in the crowd like picking shapes in the clouds
intrusive thoughts are so loud, i feel it keeping me down
i’m tired of relying on friends
only for that shit to end
treating me just like a trend
say it to me you don’t have to pretend
this shit is broken won’t bend 
pull it apart it won’t mend
can’t wait till i’m happy again
i’ll throw my life away and i’ll see where it lands

i'll try, to get by 
but i find most times i'm dying inside 
can't cry, went dry, 
i don't know why my eyes are tired
i'll try, to get by 
but i find most times i'm dying inside 
can't cry, went dry, 
i don't know why my eyes are tired,

tired eyes (feat. austyn with a y)

tired eyes (w. austyn with a y)

this song came about so naturally and beautifully, and i hope she knows that <3

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i had a dream the other night that made me think 
where you saw past my flaws and all my different things
where you were mine and i was yours 
key in hand, unlocked the door 
and now my head is spinning, you're all i want and more 
i saw you dancing in the mulch of your front yard 
was where it started didn't think i'd fall this hard 
passing glances, i'm a mess
you looked so lovely in that dress 
the way you twirled and stepped and made my heart a wreck
don't stand a chance 
there's so many other guys here
within your trance 
i wish you'd whispered into my ear 
and said these hands are yours to hold 
meant to last not meant to fold 
i got no plans of moving on, the feelings grow 

caught up in you, i got no clue 
it's almost 2 do you miss me 
i hope that it's true, you feel the way you do 
this songs for you, hope you're listening 
we play a tune, the stars in view 
i always hoped you had wished me 
when you're 22, the beauty's shining through 
you're all i want, you don't have to convince me

20two

huge thank you again to @backlightorg for putting this album together with me, it came out beautifully <3

and to @wishlane,
i adore you, you mean the world to me, it was a bucket list thing for me to get my favorite artist to produce a song of mine, and you helped that come true. ily buddy thank you so much for creating this with me <3

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i am terrified of all that lies ahead of me 
will anyone remember me 
the sky 
doesn't seem to shine, i try to find a melody 
but i'm out of touch, out of key 
is it over?
do i have more to write? oh am i at my height?
feeling sober
i don't seem like the type to just say that i'm fine 
getting colder
and i keep losing sleep, keep my grief underneath
everybody around me is showing teeth
lately i cannot find any time for me 

do i even have to keep putting on a front 
do i even care if my brain gets corrupt 
i could just play pretend and brush it all under the rug
wont answer questions and give the people the hurt that they want
could i ever find a way to get out of my head 
i'm interviewed by these strangers, don't hear a word that they said 
the first impression of me is something that i always dread 
wont answer questions, keep the pain to myself instead

questions (prod. wishlane)

questions

@bonddot is so cracked i'm so glad you were able to tell this story with me <3

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ruined everything, i'm a shell of who i once was 
because i gave you all of me, wasted my time, left in the dust 
i try and try again, i can never forget 
falling in love, oh i couldn't pretend that this 
was something special, you had went and broken all of my trust
i think about the night, late call, didn't think it would end 
couldn't have said it any clearer, to the day i can still hear what you said 
you said that i had been the problem, and you didn't feel like solving a thing
leave my life, out of sight while you leave me to drink away the sorrow, hope i die before tomorrow again

don't get me wrong, 
i don't even give a fuck about the shit that you're on 
even though i'm steady trying to forget all of the songs 
i don't think you ever cared, i know you put up a front
but now you've given it up

december feels like forever ago 
remember nights where i felt so alone 
bad weather, thought you would never be cold 
you've got me, i'm so controlled 
this trauma makes it much harder to grow 
don't wanna take to the bottle and fold 
take me away cause you're gone i suppose 
i still miss you more than you know 

it’s been two years since we ended
i never thought once we were friends since then
and you were always on the fence
last time you hit me up, i was burying a friend, yeah
you said we’re still friends and you act like you don’t know me
when we were together i still felt like it was lonely
i’ve been moving on, i know i don’t need ya
thought you left a sorry, you still walk around my head like athena
and i’ve been waiting for this wound to heal but i know it won’t 
your words cut me deep, cut me straight to the bone
i’m in a better space without you, yeah i did it on my own

december feels like forever ago 
remember nights where i felt so alone 
bad weather, thought you would never be cold 
you've got me, i'm so controlled 
this trauma makes it much harder to grow 
don't wanna take to the bottle and fold 
take me away cause you're gone i suppose 
i still miss you more than you know

trauma (feat. bond.)

trauma (w. bond.)

lil bit of much needed therapy

i can't stand myself anymore
i'd end it all if i could
but that's too selfish, of course
so i
cut you off, hurt your feelings and force
you out my life, close the door
crush every hope i could hold onto
sharp knife
remove and cut ties
chamber round
one shot, a deadeye

clawin out the brush in my brain
driftwood in my veins
weeds in my lungs
dandelion in my stomach
feelin clean for today
lotta work little pay 
daisies pushin through my teeth
dead leaves under feet
i'm a waster 
i feel like i'm always
dyin by nature
it's a problem i can't fix
that i enable
no you cannot help
you not my savior
that's off the table
i hate reflections
i just wanna disappear
you hate these sentences
how you think that i feel

deadeye (p. michael harrison + ayoley beats)

SPOTIFY

shacklez w/ solderis

I've been struggling with the image of myself. How people perceive me, the way I look, the way I act. I'm a self conscious person.

Lyrics:

please don't look at me
don't come here I'm hiding
just don't look at me
I hate when they're eyeing

Please don't look at me
you're so
{your so god d*mn ugly)
ugly
why bother even loving
you're just oh so disgusting

I'm trapped in my thoughts 
and the words that I make up
Tumbling over and over again

I've never been friends 
with the man in my head
I needed escape
but he wanted me dead

please don't look at me
don't come here I'm hiding
just don't look at me
I hate when they're eyeing

Prod. Guda

I Wish Things Were More In My Favor

I Wish Things Were More In My Favor (guda)

wooooooo


Ive heard it said
Time and again
Youre not my friend
Dont you pretend


Ive heard it said, time and again, you would be there show me that stare
Now and then i get upset but i know its all in my head
Show me some respect i know what i said left you on read ur better off dead
How are you still ok? Didnt i ruin your stay?


In autumn i learned that im not the one you want
When winter came crawling i found out who i was
Now springs here theres no fear and i finally moved past you
In 2 months ill be healed lying with my tears cleared

Ive heard it said, time and again, you would be there show me that stare
Now and then i get upset but i know its all in my head
Show me some respect i know what i said left you on read ur better off dead
How are you still ok? Didnt i ruin your stay?

I know its all too much, bloody wrists, torn lips, i sit waiting
On you to fall in line, waiting, hatred growing i cant

Find the right way to you
Are you lost too?

Ive heard it said, time and again, you would be there show me that stare
Now and then i get upset but i know its all in my head
Show me some respect i know what i said left you on read ur better off dead
How are you still ok? Didnt i ruin your stay?

(shoutout bella for this part)

Im falling to pieces x2

(kindof)

questions

Dylan Longworth