knowing your songs this finna be fucking fire

im in love with this song its helped me a lot with the breakup im going through rn you're doing great man keep it up!!

this is actually amazing I cant wait for it to be on spotify

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 
at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 


grabbin a drink feeling hopeless again
on my face's fallin tears, bottle gripped in my hand
outside i look fine 
but inside im fighting a war all alone on the losing end 
losing end but i can't see the end
losing all i have, losing my head 
i fight them off but they keep coming back
like cancer cells, avoinding treatment

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie

at least i tried (sorrow bringer)

crumbling everywhere i go to, lately 
breaking down nowadays is something, daily 
i swear i tried but i can't seem to escape this trapped in a maze where every corner's an abyss

it seems like no1's trynna save me 
no helping hands, no calls nor texts
they just leave me to face it
got no support, full of remorse i need you to embrace me 
in ur arms, they sooth the scars and make me just forget this

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r 

and i’ll sit alone
my phones on dnd 
but it wouldn’t matter 
no one checks on me 
and they’ll say they care
but don’t listen closely 
they’ll say they care 
when i finally can’t breathe 

friends hit me for a feature 
but they’ve never shared my songs 
and i’ll pretend it’s cool 
cause it’s not worth i’ll play along  
so i may be a narcissist 
please say that it’s okay 
cause if i do not love myself 
then that leaves no one loving me 

i walk alone 
drag broken bones 
they throw their stones 
and go for my throat 
i’ll turn off my phone 
and i’ll keep it closed 
cause i don’t need anyone to know where i’ll go

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r

casperrr & geist - cast (pekarot)

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

lyrics:
in the middle of the night
nothing never ever feels right
i swear i think i’m loosing my mind
a girl like you is really hard to find

and stick and stones might break my bones
and when i’m sad, you’re the only one i feel at home
and tears fall, like they say, when it rains it pours
so i stay inside to avoid the cold

love me
hate me
tell i’m dumb
fuck me
break me
after ur done
hold me
show me
what i am worth
or leave me
tell me
what i deserve (x2)

will u ever come back?
will u ever come back?
ohhh
ohhh

and stick and stones might break my bones
and when i’m sad, you’re the only one i feel at home
and tears fall, like they say, when it rains it pours
so i stay inside to avoid the cold

vivid (taymxru)

@killedmyself

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

all my life i felt worthless
i took my heart and i purged it
never comin up to the surface

thought that you would be worth it
i thought that you was perfect
tell me what'd i do to deserve this?

take me back,
take me back to the real world
take me back,
take me back to when i couldn't feel

rip my heart straight from my ribcage
i've been led astray from the good place
i've ran out of luck where did my good days go
the place in which i reside no longer feels like home

20 years have caught up wit me n jus fucked up my mental
tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

real world

real world (killedmyself)

you don't wanna fuck with me ill put you in the limelight
try and make a scene, but your bitch says that its alright
bring her to crib, on a cold rainy night
then i looked her in the eyes, i can tell that she's all mine

pour up
another cup
baby this is my night
don't start fight
with me cause your time spent
in my life
is gonna be the best years
of your life

remember when we kids
couldn't see you at your crib
cause your parents didn't let you hang with boys it made me so pissed
pretty every night
7 passed and dimmed the lights
22 im trading every friend i have to make you all mine

all alone
going through this life
with a wife and some kids 
i dunno if its right

flip the 9
ima put it on its head
ima throw you into bed
never worry bout the things we did

i feel the agony flowing through my blood
i feel the heat coming through my lungs 
i feel the burn from the drugs in my gut
this shit was never really fun
i am on my way

sat out in the rain on the bench in the night
lost my job cause we got into a fight
then it rains and it pours on my soul every time
love is agony i really didn't think about it twice

you don't wanna fuck with me ill put you in the limelight
try and make a scene, but your bitch says that its alright
bring her to crib, on a cold rainy night
then i looked her in the eyes, i can tell that she's all mine

pour up
another cup
baby this is my night
don't start fight
with me cause your time spent
in my life
is gonna be the best years
of your life

agony (prod. santana)

prod me

mind of damage
fall back each time
hesitate if i see anger
caused in every crime
wrap it up and then turn us in 
light flashing, was i meant to win
call him up just to let him sin 
nights replay, autumn to spring

i got poison in my veins
drinking soot to ease to pain
heavy water keeps it in 
where to start, where to begin
yeah i can’t control whats here 
body freezing below fear
there’s no point if there’s no damage
to see is proof it happened

somebody show me the score
gotta keep it up, need to keep him wanting more
dont do well under pressure
way too tough to show him affection
i dont wanna hear you out
all you ever seem to do is shout
i don’t wanna hear you if you’re loud
never seem to listen, just freak out
you’re so crazy


i don’t know myself anymore
rotten to the core
they own the demons next door
drag me to the floor
i see the red, is that yours 
spread all on my porch from last night
tell me that i’m right
no way for you to win every fight
pick at the wounds i healed and
battle with my own mind
i will repress every feeling i’ve felt
no way to win if i’m calling for help

damage

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

(ghostbxy)
I already know that were not gonna make it
You’ve been fucking around with them so shameless
You’re the reason why our love is tainted 
Do you think me dumb?
Do you think me brainless?

I’m always trying my best
But you’re lying 
Stabbing knives in my chest 
So I’ll go 

You're not different
You're just like them
Veins were filled with toxin
That's how you lured me in

You might be poison ivy with the way you go invite me into your Toxic life and its fucking constant fighting

Cause you don't want to admit the truth
Burning all that smells proof 
Ashes stay like scent infused
Clothing that I bought for you

Giving my all but you don't give a fuck
Breaking my bones while you're breaking my heart
Telling me that this is all my fault

(halfhearted)
You don't know what you do to me
I don't think you ever will
Remember that night
You said I won't drive
I've been behind the wheel
Crossing the lines that I said I won't cross
???
???
You walked out the door
Why it take you so long

And I'm stuck in my head with no mission
Remember in school I would get you detention
Used to fall asleep, now I'm up all night
I can't dream
This is for the kid that I was
Headphones on in the back of the bus
Can't feel shit cause a knife in my gut
Let me live girl, I've had enough

(ghostbxy)
I’m always trying my best
But you’re lying 
Stabbing knives in my chest 
So I’ll go

A Sorrowful Heart w/ halfhearted

Having to upload on this account due to upload limit reached on my main, hope that's ok with you guys x 

Lyrics:

You’re far away 
You’re far away 
I'm falling into another mistake 
You’re far away 
You’re far away 
I’ll cut my heart out 
and feed it to the wolfs 

I know your far but your heartbeat
I still hear it 
I fell in love with your voice 
Yeah I’m all ears 
Its been a minute since i drove
through my dark dreams 
I push the keys in my car 
And whip my German like I’m driving pro street 
You have a art degree 
Your so pretty, make me nervous
When you talk to me 
But can you talk to me? 
You got time for me? 
Can we link up and drink herbal tea?
You're far away 
You're far away
I can't drive to you
you're oceans away

You’re far away 
You’re far away 
I'm falling into another mistake 
You’re far away 
You’re far away 
I’ll cut my heart out 
and feed it to the wolfs

Far Away (King Theta)

prod. sorrow bringer <3

Lyrics:

guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
she give me brain cuz
she just wanna taste mine
yea!
i could never take sides
guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
i've told less shit to my mom than my mic
yea!
guess i'll cut ties

you're dodging my messages fuck you i'll erase it
back to the board ye we back to the basics
you lost me your value and i lost my patience >:(
love are you deaf can you hear what i'm saying
fuck it you win i'm so done with the chases
was so codependent i'm embarassed to say it
but now i feel like i'm a god in the making
so watch from her arms while i exit my caging.

watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging

guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
she give me brain cuz
she just wanna taste mine
yea!
i could never take sides
guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
i've told less shit to my mom than my mic
yea!
guess i'll cut ties

A Sorrowful Heart w/ halfhearted

ghostbxy

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