deaths got a grip on me
showing me what life just might be
if i wasn't right here breathing
i wouldnt cry each night screaming

can you please help me 
im trying
i swear that im not lying
this mountain that im climbing
is scary but im sight seeing

its 4 am and i feel alone
im walking down a road 
i dont know where it goes
but ill take the risk
im sick of being the pessimist
but behind the mist

theres monsters underneath my bed
following me in my head
so obsessed with finding reasons to convince me just to end
the cycle
this never ending recital
if only you knew what i know
but you dont
im not suicidal

if i leave in the middle of the night
just know i tried
gave my life within the fight
against this horrid blight
its such a bloody site
it'll leave you terrified

cause there's a monster
monster
oh there's a monster
monster
monster
oh there's a monster
monster 
monster
oh there's a monster
oh there's a monster
oh there's a monster

monster (prod. p4ra)

lyrics:

connect the dots within the stars and you just might find
a reason to move on but there is no lifeline
nothings making any sense so i try to find dimes
but there is no change in my life or maybe i'm blind

cause tiny pieces are so hard to find
especially the fragmants of a broke mind
it once was a world full of glee
once mine
now its overrun by big land mines

my thoughts and emotions have turned into oceans
im stuck in the middle i've been waiting here just soakin
roped in 
surrounded by locusts
i can't ever focus

cause they're always on my mind
stole my heart, performed a heist

why oh why am i so fucked up
i wish that i could blame my tough rough luck
but maybe its because my hands are cuffed
tucked away 
tied to a 
shooting star
that's going away

i don't know
where to go
i haven't ever felt this alone

no i haven't, oh no i haven't...

isolation, isolated, isolate (prod. tied for silver & taurs)

prod: @dutchrevz

Lyrics:
I 
I know your type 
You hate goodbyes
You’d rather fight
Confrontation what you like
Tell me off, tell me twice
What you really feel inside
Everything that you despised

YOUR BETTER OFF DEAD
THATS WHAT SHE SAID
WHAT DID I FEEL
NOTHING BUT DREAD
ALL IN MY HEAD
ALL IN MY HEAD
HATE THESE DRUGS
FUCKED UP LOVE AND REGRETS

YEAH
YEAH
YEAH IVE HAD ENOUGH BITCH
ILL BE ON MY OWN WHEN THE SUN SETS
SICK OF YOUR ASSUMPTIONS 
THE TONE OF YOUR VOICE AND THE WORDS THAT YOU CUT WITH
NEVER FELT LOVE
MONSTERS ATE MY HEART IN THE ABYSS
PULL ME APART LIKE A PUPPET
LIKE A PUPPET

In this room playing a game of waiting
What’s the point of saving time 
It’s draining
No one’s staying, I feel my body breaking
I been breaking down lately 
I hear a sound of scraping
Scratching, dragging through the day
Covering up my mouth with tape
listen to abuse you say
You can throw it all my way

SPOTIFY

MONSTERS ATE MY HEART IN THE ABYSS (prod.dutchrevz)

Featuring HKFiftyOne on the vocals. Enjoy <3

SORRY

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LIL DUSTY G & RONEN - SORRY

This is the first song of a long overdue album called "Instability", it's a big project I've been working on for the past few months but thank you guys for making GhostBxy somebody I'm still proud to be called. Hope you enjoy.
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(lyrics)

ask myself if i disappear
will they cry?
will they shed any tears?
my whole life
ive been plagued with a fear
can i survive?
for how many years?

wake up and i feel the same
i know that i am to blame
i have no clue how to change
if i did then i wouldn't be this way

sit on the floor
while i stare at the ceiling
doing it like there's something appealing
got real sick
tied a noose to my feelings
questioning hope is it even a real thing

spending time inside
purgatory is my mind
ive spent so much fucking time
trynna get through this fucking night

docs give me meds but that shit can not save me
fucked in the head these fucking feelings are invasive
chained to my bed
awake but im stuck in a daydream
screaming and im shaking
foundation isnt breaking

hate myself so much i think im better off alone
breaking down my walls like the're made of styrofoam

ask myself if i disappear
will they cry?
will they shed any tears?
my whole life
ive been plagued with a fear
can i survive?
for how many years?

wake up and i feel the same
i know that i am to blame
i have no clue how to change
if i did then i wouldn't be this way

purgatory (ushanka boy)

Lyrics:

im just a sad demon
trying my best to find reason 
plagued by a blight so they all leave me
so what right do i have to believe
that things will get better when i sit alone
here in the snow unbothered by the cold
why am i so hopeless i do not know
how to cope when im out here all alone

hair snow white
my eye glows red
warmth is gone
heart is frozen
drink coffee
to help cope with
my soul that is so broken

i see myself staring back at me inside a broken mirror
distorted image yet i somehow can still see so clear

i realize i am awful 
a road with a big pothole
a story with a plot hole
a rightfully earned title

sleeping beauty's scared of me
im a horrid site to see
i scared her right back to sleep
ghouls are far from lovely

im just a sad demon
trying my best to find reason 
plagued by a blight so they all leave me
so what right do i have to believe
that things will get better when i sit alone
here in the snow unbothered by the cold
why am i so hopeless i do not know
how to cope when im out here all alone

Just A Ghoul (prod. acey)

(GhostBxy)
killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be
  
ive been on my own for a minute now
i really need to scream but i cant be loud
taking deep breaths to help calm down
but i wasted each breath trynna figure out
how to get out of this house i built
on top of a grave of someone that i killed

miss who i was
replaced by a face that i hate
why is it the same
wished for some light 
but then i got me some darker days

im beyond saving
my life only equated
to a broken shattered down old battered heart
the one thing i had was torn apart

rip me to pieces like letters in shredders remember november
when you tore me down

killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be

(Yungcray)
(I’m sorry bro but I don’t know your lyrics yet)


(GhostBxy)
killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be

Just A Ghoul (prod. acey)

ghostbxy

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