Greetings and good afternoon to my SC friends. This is the 10th and final song intended for my upcoming album ‘What Color Is Your Paradox’. It is also my 7th mind-blowing collaboration with our dear friend Carlos Vivanco (https://soundcloud.com/carlosvivanco-1, https://carlosvivanco1.bandcamp.com). 

This piece was highly entertaining and challenging to work on. We started with clearly defined regions (mine being the more techno sounding stuff… Carlos building the traditional instrument sections). I then mangled the whole thing, and tried to blur the lines more as the song progresses, until both worlds felt fully merged by the end. At least, that was the goal. I’ll let you decide if the structure succeeds in that regard. :)

The title is also quite significant to me at this point in my life; based on the idea of ‘masking’, and our growing inability to do so. 

If you aren’t familiar with the term ‘masking’, one Mental Health Care website I found defines it this way: “Masking often involves suppressing or hiding true emotions, which can lead to a buildup of unresolved feelings and contribute to increased stress, anxiety, and emotional turmoil in the long-term. In the context of mental health and neurodivergence, masking refers to the actions or coping strategies that individuals use to conceal their genuine thoughts, emotions, or challenges.”

It didn’t really occur to me at first that I was masking when I was younger. I guess that idea doesn’t resonate when you’re deeply lost in the illusion; at least, until something makes it obvious. But in hindsight, I’ve worn many masks over the course of my life (Art Director, Technician, Pre-Press Specialist and Graphic Artist would be some of my professional masks. And I would even go so far as to include Husband, Father and Son, since I was on auto-pilot during the earliest stages of those as well). 

As my life progressed, I felt more and more insincere in those roles. I felt something was wrong. I just couldn’t put my finger on it. Then COVID (something that actually required us to wear real masks. What irony!) came along, and miraculously changed that for all of us. We gained the necessary space we needed, to finally see the illusion more clearly. Now, that illusion grows more fragile and transparent by the day. So while I’m still in the early stages of trying to figure out the new paradigm… I suspect the really critical takeaway at this point is just recognizing when we’re being our genuine selves, and when we’re lost in a role; especially if that role is debilitating to our personal growth and well being.

Another thing I’m thinking a lot on these days…. Society is dependent on me playing those roles. And society doesn’t really care whether I’m happy or not (as long as I keep paying my bills, and buying their products, and believing their lies). So maybe, just maybe, society doesn’t have my best interests at heart (as I had originally hoped). Maybe… just maybe… we’re going to need to redefine who we are personally, as we stop playing along with this globally unconscious and ultimately destructive agenda.

Thick and chunky topic, I know. But that’s the way the world feels to me these days… like we needed a brisk slap across the face to wake us all up. COVID was that slap (and probably just the first of many still to come). It’s time to prioritize our own self interests; because if we don’t, they certainly won’t. So rip off those masks, and let your freak flag fly. It’s our life, and we’ll be the ones sitting on our deathbed, asking ourselves if we lived life true to ourselves…. or if we just fulfilled the role demanded by this illusion.

We hope you enjoy “Cracks In The Surface”; and it inspires you to think about what aspects of your reality are cracking. Keep in mind… if you still have a pulse, there is always time to change things up. :)

Paradox?

Cracks In The Surface | Carlos Vivanco & GrevusAnjl

#hardstyle #hardcore #trance #techno #electronic #ambient

I'm a composer, working from a 3' x 5' studio (some may call it a dinette) in a 5th wheel camper, while traveling the United States. I've been on the road for six years, so most of my recent work will have come from a different state (of mind and location) during my travels.

Music makes me feel better about everything. I don't know that I'm ever happier than when I am creating. I sometimes wonder if creativity isn't one of the primary keys to happiness. Do you ever feel better than when you say, "Look what I did."? This phrase magically conjures the purest sense of childlike joy.

Music works for every part of our lives. We all have music for when we are sad, happy, celebrating, meeting others, when we are alone, and even when we are lonely. Did a song come to mind as you read each of those situations? I remember the first song I ever heard on the radio, on my first bus ride to kindergarten. One of my favorite musical memories is playing in a band for steel beach on the flight deck of the aircraft carrier USS Nimitz.

I love telling stories with music. Everybody loves John Coffey in the Green Mile, but Mr. Jingles should have a song commemorating his reaching and joining the circus at Mouseville. If you agree, join me for this and similar journeys. The music here is synthetic, but as real as you would choose to have it.

My music most often lands on Soundcloud first and is inspired by one of my favorite communities, Naviar Haiku:
https://www.naviarrecords.com/about/naviar-haiku
I find writing to a Haiku prompt sufficiently limiting and exquisitely inspiring.

Sanja Musik, Anna  Artworks 
her/e too https://soundcloud.com/nexus-arkestra



free download. if you like, please download, I may remove tracks for space.


my long form sonics draw inspiration from both the late 1960s psychedelic uprising , as well as the improv liveset tekno-tribe culture of the 90s-00s...
I blend live - looped bass guitar, improvisation with experimental electronic music techniques which defy genre boundaries.

Long form bass is kindly hosted@ taRka's page, who is lovely :)
Full albums can be downloaded at Bandcamp. 

All the artworks are my partner's digital or traditional drawigs/paintings. 
 You can find the links below.

another note:
I don*t care about loudness war. You can turn up the tracks if you got a decent system. This is not music to be consumed on small earpods anyway.

some of my recent soundclouds...
https://soundcloud.com/denatura23
https://soundcloud.com/sunbeamspells
https://soundcloud.com/quadsanjana

A23 Arts:
https://www.deviantart.com/astarte23

Song writer, dancer and singer, focused predominantly in symphonic music and industrial rock.  

I'm a DJ as a hobby. I like to mix hard techno, hardstyle, and Latin music. Thanks for following me. =)

(Jan 9th, 2025) Just a quick message to let you know I'm not going to be active here for a while. If you need to reach me, you can always message me at GrevusAnjl@mac.com. 
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Welcome to my sonic playground. I don't consider myself a skilled musician. I just sculpt sounds to quiet my mind... often with surprising and humorous results. Thank you for stopping by. I hope you enjoyed your visit. :)

I'm an avant-garde musician. I like to experiment with software, instruments, and everyday objects when creating on a song.

Music is my latest artistic passion; aside from being deeply invested in making music, I create digital art, drawings, paintings, mixed-media pieces, photography, photomanipulations, poetry, and short stories. All of which can be found on my DeviantArt: Leehon.

Thank you for reading and listening.

All the songs composed and recorded in my home "bedroom" studio.
Artwork by Sara G. and R. Nunes
Photos by L. Fernandes
Comments are welcome.
Thanks for listening.
N. Gomes

EileenNoise is the personal project of Marco, composer, producer and bassist from Rome.
I’ve played live for years in several iconic venues of the Roman scene like Stazione Birra, the former Blackout, and many others , with my previous bands Harshine and later Noise Shelter. Those years shaped my sound: a blend of grunge, alternative rock, and darker emotional tones.

Over time I kept evolving, experimenting with electronic and new-wave collaborations inspired by Depeche Mode, before channeling everything into EileenNoise, a project where I mix real instruments, raw feelings, and female vocal performances that bring the stories in my songs to life.

I work with different vocal artists. Sophie appears on many tracks, but you’ll also find other collaborations that have been part of my path since 2020.

Influences: Alice in Chains, Soundgarden, Lacuna Coil, Depeche Mode, The Smashing Pumpkins, Hole.

My track “Burning Inside” was featured in SoundCloud’s official Buzzing Rock playlist.

New music is coming...
If you’re into this journey, follow & listen on Spotify and Youtube.

Housebracker
TechHouse / IndustrialTechno/ Artstyle  DJ from Austria.

Playlist includes different TechHardCrazy-Styles

[Working with: Cubase/Vinyl/Cdjs]


#TechHouse
#Drumcode
#Industrialtechno

Part of: #MomentumMusica