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Alchemical Brothers

Disquiet Junto | Alchemical Brothers - disquiet0628

Errant thoughts of a January night (Quando Orion dal clielo...)

Greetings and good afternoon to my SC friends. This is the 10th and final song intended for my upcoming album ‘What Color Is Your Paradox’. It is also my 7th mind-blowing collaboration with our dear friend Carlos Vivanco (https://soundcloud.com/carlosvivanco-1, https://carlosvivanco1.bandcamp.com). 

This piece was highly entertaining and challenging to work on. We started with clearly defined regions (mine being the more techno sounding stuff… Carlos building the traditional instrument sections). I then mangled the whole thing, and tried to blur the lines more as the song progresses, until both worlds felt fully merged by the end. At least, that was the goal. I’ll let you decide if the structure succeeds in that regard. :)

The title is also quite significant to me at this point in my life; based on the idea of ‘masking’, and our growing inability to do so. 

If you aren’t familiar with the term ‘masking’, one Mental Health Care website I found defines it this way: “Masking often involves suppressing or hiding true emotions, which can lead to a buildup of unresolved feelings and contribute to increased stress, anxiety, and emotional turmoil in the long-term. In the context of mental health and neurodivergence, masking refers to the actions or coping strategies that individuals use to conceal their genuine thoughts, emotions, or challenges.”

It didn’t really occur to me at first that I was masking when I was younger. I guess that idea doesn’t resonate when you’re deeply lost in the illusion; at least, until something makes it obvious. But in hindsight, I’ve worn many masks over the course of my life (Art Director, Technician, Pre-Press Specialist and Graphic Artist would be some of my professional masks. And I would even go so far as to include Husband, Father and Son, since I was on auto-pilot during the earliest stages of those as well). 

As my life progressed, I felt more and more insincere in those roles. I felt something was wrong. I just couldn’t put my finger on it. Then COVID (something that actually required us to wear real masks. What irony!) came along, and miraculously changed that for all of us. We gained the necessary space we needed, to finally see the illusion more clearly. Now, that illusion grows more fragile and transparent by the day. So while I’m still in the early stages of trying to figure out the new paradigm… I suspect the really critical takeaway at this point is just recognizing when we’re being our genuine selves, and when we’re lost in a role; especially if that role is debilitating to our personal growth and well being.

Another thing I’m thinking a lot on these days…. Society is dependent on me playing those roles. And society doesn’t really care whether I’m happy or not (as long as I keep paying my bills, and buying their products, and believing their lies). So maybe, just maybe, society doesn’t have my best interests at heart (as I had originally hoped). Maybe… just maybe… we’re going to need to redefine who we are personally, as we stop playing along with this globally unconscious and ultimately destructive agenda.

Thick and chunky topic, I know. But that’s the way the world feels to me these days… like we needed a brisk slap across the face to wake us all up. COVID was that slap (and probably just the first of many still to come). It’s time to prioritize our own self interests; because if we don’t, they certainly won’t. So rip off those masks, and let your freak flag fly. It’s our life, and we’ll be the ones sitting on our deathbed, asking ourselves if we lived life true to ourselves…. or if we just fulfilled the role demanded by this illusion.

We hope you enjoy “Cracks In The Surface”; and it inspires you to think about what aspects of your reality are cracking. Keep in mind… if you still have a pulse, there is always time to change things up. :)

Paradox?

Cracks In The Surface | Carlos Vivanco & GrevusAnjl

(verse 1)
Level one academy better bet I’m the key 
Crown on my head like payment royalty 
rhymes in my life doing things creatively 
no questions asked that’s right just doing me
Don’t act surprise coming through like destiny 
still on the rise hang tight and you will see

Chorus
I bring the noise-I bring the noise-I’ve got the sauce now
Across the void-I bring the noise-so turn it up loud
My thoughts out loud-so just enjoy-this one’s-a cash cow
I bring the noise-I bring the noise-we-off the chain y’all

(Verse 2)
—👣—-Made to sparkle made to shine
dropping gems words to rhymes 
Holding back no not  me 
Coming through wait and see 
just Wait and see

(Verse 3)
hand over fist that is why I Can’t miss 
one with the force different levels do exist
Multidimensional words do twist 
Screw the imperfections as I transmit 
For the culture just a lift Precision with the gift
IPG1 on the mic I’m on the A-list 
Element of the rhythm who can resist 
Heat on each line dedication when I spit
Any doubt it’s word of mouth
sit back take noticed
Time out baby bro lemme get ‘em I got this
Creative days and nights  vision insight
This level so tight I slay and excite
Check your frequencies left and right 
Already built a winning team each player’s out of sight

———-Chorus

(Verse 4)
Academy Noise games departure flights loading
Embracing time and space so much I’m floating
Gotta beat the high score before there’s a landing
nothing last forever it’s all time spent learning 
A nonstop endeavor we’re hell bent earning
Another one on fire it so hot track’s burning 🔥🔥🔥——lit
Repeat (Verses 2, 3, and 4)

I Bring The Noise

A song about a close family member who really needs to understand that his relationship is over. 
And she as been letting him down gently without ever officially ending it. 
He continued to constantly offer his thoughts and opinions of which he considered it to be helpful but she did not appreciate or even understand it. 
He was casting his pearls before the final swine. 

CASTING PEARLS 

V1
How many times can you lay yourself bare 
make it the last as she now doesn’t care 
It’s face down in the water doesn’t wanna share 
Herself her children & this love affair 

Chorus 
I can see you were casting pearls 
Before the final swine 
It doesn’t seem to matter now
This girls made up her mind 
For the final  time

V2
Here we are yet again and again 
Riding two wheels to just to heal the pain 
Inspiring the life that feels mundane 
Ride your sunset from your hurricane

Chorus 
I can see you were casting pearls 
Before the final swine 
It doesn’t seem to matter now
This girls made up her mind 
For the final  time

Casting Pearls ~ Conscience Of Kings

Flaying Angels Alive

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Loski x Cass Type Beat - "Funds" | UK Drill Instrumental 2025

When the mirror cracked, I didn’t find my reflection.
I found the fighter I had buried.
This is REFLECTION.

Reflection

digital control

(Jan 9th, 2025) Just a quick message to let you know I'm not going to be active here for a while. If you need to reach me, you can always message me at GrevusAnjl@mac.com. 
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Welcome to my sonic playground. I don't consider myself a skilled musician. I just sculpt sounds to quiet my mind... often with surprising and humorous results. Thank you for stopping by. I hope you enjoyed your visit. :)