i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

I'M BACK BABY
I've been cooking up a ton of songs, so regular posts are in order. 
This time for real (:


cool feats coming too, keep an eye out
loved making this with my boy wraith <3

amv made my itai/itoshi: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AerAym1RlfQ
lyrics:

(2x)
oh timing never even really mattered to me
that’s how I keep my balance
I get by on my feet
oh separate me limb by limb 
and sell me for scraps
then you tear apart my packaging
and kill me out back

Oh girl I know
sense that I should go
I should run for cover
try and make it past the oaks

brush up on the trunks
I got resin on my clothes 
as seasons change
I hide my face like
leaves under the snow

fuck I create
the weight
that sits on my back
so many days
to waste
just cut me some slack

fuck I create 
the weight 
that sits on my back
can’t win the chase
this place
it follows my tracks

[wraith]

Stuck below the water
I’m for sure a goner
I know I could cry for help
But I don’t wanna bother

So fucking sick of this
Barely improving
I’m feigning my ignorance
Blowing my smoke
And you barely believe it
Tryna cope
But I’m thinking of leaving

I’m burning the candle from both ends
I watch it igniting my canvas
The pictures I’m trying to paint and
I don’t know how long I can take this

Watch you go
Right out that door
I give it up cause
I’m all out of arguments
I lose control
Just like before
I’m spiraling cause
I think I’ve had enough of this

resin w/ wraith (wraithontheporch)

"fragile" produced by: ilyl1ght
inspired by xona

lyrics:
its getting worse now, worse now
ill work it out
calm down, calm down?
ill find a way out, way out?
now ill regret the day i let you see my face

i lay out on the floor
i wither to my core
feels like that i'm at war
think i felt this before
think i felt this before
think i felt -
im worried on what id do
new year, new me and new you
bad timing cant follow through
im sorry but who are you?
i cant be doing this
my face inside my hands i guess i'm used to it
dont want my friends to know
i got this on my own
the wall they make me sick
i think there caving in

its getting worse now, worse now
i need to calm down, calm down?

so tell me what do you want from me
oh
my body's fragile and i feel so weak
i'm so sick and tired of the ones who speak
speak lies
speak, speak, speak, speak
so tell me what do you want from me
so tell me what do you want from me

fragile

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

ty mistral for the guitar <3

original song <3 : https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic/inside

Lyrics

I bet you like the way that I
Sit inside on a Friday night
Doing nothing with my life
While you're out partying with other guys
But I'm not wise and these aren't lies
According to you it's all in my mind
But I see the things that they post online
And it makes me sick to my fucking spine
I worry a lot about the day you leave
'Cause the day you leave is the day I leave
And I think too much about suicide
About killing time, about time I try
Something new
'Cause this shit gets old
But I love the way that she says "I love you"
And I tried many times to rewind to the days you were mine
And I tried many times to erase what we made, what have I done?
'Cause a part of me died when you left in November that night
I think he's right, beside you telling you what to say to me, why?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?

inside (guardin cover)

prolly a one off but been listening to ericdoa recently n wanted to try somethin similar
couple weeks off for a halloween based drop but better late than never

o and i got the pass from multiple bi/gay homies <3

Lyrics:

she tryna get chased far 
in a scream mask
i'm like take a second 
you don't mean that
she on her 41st dude
like a sea bass
lookin at me for next (tf?????)
"where the cream at"
he heard the shit i'm droppin and quickly started his suckin up
no go on tell me what you think i can take it u little pussy fuck
smash bros in the basement ur weird for maining jigglypuff
rather watch a movie in a blanket w a girl i love

spark it up
pass the blunt
i can never do enough
she tryna get her hand down my pants but imma pry it off
her guy is kinda upset
he's a little quick to punch
lay him out
calm him down
it's not me who's fucking up

yuh

it's not me who's fucking up
slow down
hoe bag 
this dick up for no grabs
find you unappealing you would think I was a whole ***
monogamous as fuck check my discog if you don't know that
draw a line yea i bet you'll fuckin toe that
repeat a bar like the shit you said was all that
he can't hit what i do like it's kovaak's
tistic like i'm chris chan 
where my girl at

she tryna get chased far 
in a scream mask
i'm like take a second 
you don't mean that
she on her 41st dude
like a sea bass
lookin at me for next (tf?????)
"where the cream at"
he heard the shit i'm droppin and quickly started his suckin up
no go on tell me what you think i can take it u little pussy fuck
smash bros in the basement ur weird for maining jigglypuff
rather watch a movie in a blanket w a girl i love

it's not me who's fucking up
slow down
hoe bag 
this dick up for no grabs
find you unappealing you would think I was a whole ***
monogamous as fuck check my discog if you don't know that

ghostface (prod. nightiger)

Keep it up I’ve been missing
This thing that I feel is drowning out
Try to keep myself afloat I can’t keep up. I’m losing steam I know that I might regret this thing I’ve done. 
I know I can’t keep secrets from anyone.
So if I peaked your interest and I don’t see it , means I don’t need it so pass it on

It’s just all been in our offset
So tell me what comes next
I’m losing hope that I’ll ever find love yet, I keep to myself and 
I think it’s upset. 
I think it’s upset.
This ghost is upset 
it follows the sunset
I keep to myself because I know what comes next
And wait for the sunrise to feel that regret
I don’t want to regret the things I protect
To keep it safe and I know it’s not 
real

Talking to myself, I think it’s real
think it’s real
I’ve been writing this note and I think it’s real
Really wish it wasn’t real

Still by the coast while I write this note
A note to a ghost that I’ll never grow
All for a girl that will never show
Up at the spots, we love the most
I can’t let it go
Just wanna know why try to hold on to things that closed
The door is closed
Just let it go 
they always tell me just to let it go but they’ll never know
How I felt when she held me close and told me she’ll be here for the worst of it
She’ll hold me when I need it. 
She’ll give me my fix like I’ve been feinin 
But I’ve been bleeding
Why the fuck did she never tell me she was leaving?
I came home to a door that was leaning
A chair knocked over
A throat no longer breathing

notes to your ghost  (secre x babieyummo)

your shadow crawls from my ceiling
i cant sleep, i just might miss it
hoping i wake myself up
claws unsheathed drag me through mud
permanently all i want
so unhealthy, that i know
claws unsheated rip me to bones
drowning you drown out my soul

hiding myself between pillows and walls
you dont want nothing, no nothing at all
i could have given you all that you want
spending some time with me really that rough ?
hiding my thoughts while my feelings collide
ruin myself, all ambitions will lay
here on the floor next to nothing at all
broken, misused and mistaken for soil

what if i never picked up the phone
what if he never even called at all
i dont know, but i dont care
theres a reason why im still here
what if the tide wasnt so far in
winds a little calmer, so i could swim
or have i sinned ?
what if i never went away with my friends
and i spent the last minutes on a call with him
and i got to say goodbye, and that this is the end
at least id have some fucking closure on this life that i live
and what if he never accpeted any help from the meds
cause his children needed longer and they offered him that
just to leave him no time at all
i know its hard to accept but im falling flat

your shadow crawls from my ceiling
i cant sleep, i just might miss it
hoping i wake myself up
claws unsheathed drag me through mud
permanently all i want
so unhealthy, that i know
claws unsheated rip me to bones
drowning you drown out my soul

hiding myself between pillows and walls
you dont want nothing, no nothing at all
i could have given you all that you want
spending some time with me really that rough ?
hiding my thoughts while my feelings collide
ruin myself, all ambitions will lay
here on the floor next to nothing at all
broken, misused and mistaken for soil

claws

Rage of the Brass

D4RKMOON

𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘵, 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳.

fragile

ilyl1ght ✦