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Lie to You

Lie to You ft. Kaiyko x Lil Narnia (Prod. Caps Ctrl x WellFed)

OTHER PLATFORMS

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Something's in the Way w/ guardin (Prod. Sinxi & Tagliatore)

VInyl & CD pre-sales

Goblin Kid

Instagram Stories (Remix) [feat. Sewerperson]

bite down on my neck

"you're the hardest thing I've ever had to quit"
Prod by. @hkfiftyone2
Cover art by. @walkerdunnvisuals on Instagram

lyrics-
I hate it that you haunt me
You don’t have to try, I don’t wanna hear you’re sorry 
I hate when you’re high, cause you always try to call me
I know I should block you but I love it when you want me

I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit
I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit

I thought you were the girl of my dreams
Loving you, ruined me
you showed me that my heart could bleed
you hurt me more than I let you see
I hate it that you haunt me
You don’t have to try, I don’t wanna hear you’re sorry 
hate it when you’re high, cause you always try to call me
I know I should block you but I love it when you want me

I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit
I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit

I don't need you, and I never did (Prod. HKFiftyOne)

Spotify

"Got me romanticizing all the times we were arguing just cause you're talking to me"
w/ @guardinmusic
Prod by. @hkfiftyone2
Cover art by. @walkerdunnvisuals on Instagram

Lyrics:

yung van/
How you gonna block my phone
When I’m not home
How you gonna do me like that?
How you gonna say you care
When you’re not there
How you gonna do me like that?

My life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

guardin/
But I said a lot of shit I wish I didn’t
Feelin stuck inside my head like it’s a yankee fitted
Homerun is what I call it when I disappear
And if I’m being honest witchu goddess I ain’t even here
Checked out of my mind
I ain’t doing fine
Wished upon a star that I would see past twenty five
Blisters on my body from the way I’m passing time
I’m alright

yung van/
my life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

What happened to when you were all over me?
Didn’t have to pay cause your loving was free
Got me romanticizing all the times we were arguing just cause you're talking to me
Now you’re always ignoring me
All these other girls are boring me
No matter what they do, they just ain’t you and that thought has been getting to me
I adore you, but I couldn’t afford you
Your love’s amazing, always entertaining
You had me locked out, I was in the dog house
You only called my name when it’s dark out

How you gonna block my phone
When I’m not home
How you gonna do me like that?
How you gonna say you care
When you’re not there
How you gonna do me like that?

My life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

there's nothing left to say

Other Platforms <3

there's nothing left to say w/ guardin (Prod. HKFiftyOne)

sinxi x yung van - I promise I don't care at all

1/5.
"I don’t know how you really feel, but I know that I still care"
@sorrow_bringer

Lyrics:

Verse 1/
Let’s talk around what we really mean
Don’t say goodnight, that’s getting too close for me
I’ll turn into a joke and we can laugh it off
I’ll stay up all night wondering if I should hit send or not
If I don’t tell you how I feel you’ll never know
Every time I open up I always feel uncomfortable
But I don’t want to lose you twice
I can’t bare to see you with another guy again
Just tell me how you feel I can handle it
I’d do anything for you like I’m Anakin
I see your chat bubble and I’m panicking
I should have told you how I felt when we were friends

Chorus/
I don’t wanna say too much and then scare you
I don’t know how you really feel
But I know that I still care
And I hope that you want me there
I don’t wanna say too much and then scare you
I don’t know how you really feel
But I know that I still care
And I hope that you want me there

Verse 2/
I’ve been losing sleep
Staying up all night to think of you
You saw me in your dreams
And I hope it’s cause you think me
We could talk all day about the most randomest things
all I care about is a smile on your face
I know I’m not perfect
I left in the dirt once
But I’m a different person
I’m hoping we can work things out
I just want to feel you my arms again
I shoulda told you how I felt back then

Chorus/
I don’t wanna say too much and then scare you
I don’t know how you really feel
But I know that I still care
And I hope that you want me there
I don’t wanna say too much and then scare you
I don’t know how you really feel
But I know that I still care
And I hope that you want me there

I see you everywhere I go

I see you everywhere I go (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

2/5.
"Now I can’t go to sleep unless you say goodnight"
@lilskeleskrrt
@irby314

yung van:
i cry when I think of you
I get so emotional, I swear I’ve never felt this way
i only feel this way for you
I’d make sacrifices just to make sure you’re okay
Now I can’t go to sleep unless you say goodnight
Every morning you’re the first thing on my mind
Throughout the day I’ll be thinking bout you all the time
I could spend the afternoon staring into your eyes 
With me you don’t need to worry bout if you’re perfect
I’ll always think you’re perfect, there’s nothing that can change my mind
I’ve never been down this road
I’m not afraid cause I’m not going alone 

I wanna put us on a t-shirt
And kiss you in the bleachers
While listening to Rascal Flatts blasting through the speakers
We’ll act like we’re in 9th grade
I’ll sneak out of my moms place
And text when I’m at your house to meet me in the driveway
I wanna put us on a t-shirt
And kiss you in the bleachers
While listening to Rascal Flatts blasting through the speakers
We’ll act like we’re in 9th grade
I’ll sneak out of my moms place
And text when I’m at your house to meet me in the driveway

Skele:
i know
baby there’s nobody else
so close
to you
right here i can tell
i won’t let go i won’t
i feel it
i can’t do it myself
baby ur saving me
i feel like it’s make believe
you feel safe to me
holding me like a movie scene
baby ur brave to me
right here when i fall asleep
falling so easily
falling so easily

yung van:
I wanna put us on a t-shirt
And kiss you in the bleachers
While listening to Rascal Flatts blasting through the speakers
We’ll act like we’re in 9th grade
I’ll sneak out of my moms place
And text when I’m at your house to meet me in the driveway
I wanna put us on a t-shirt
And kiss you in the bleachers
While listening to Rascal Flatts blasting through the speakers
We’ll act like we’re in 9th grade
I’ll sneak out of my moms place
And text when I’m at your house to meet me in the driveway

9th grade

Other platforms <3

9th grade ft. skele (prod. Irby)

3/5.
"I wanna be your boyfriend"
@irby314

Lyrics:
yeah, I wanna be your boyfriend
i don’t care if I only see you on weekends
In my heart, I know, what I’m feeling
I didn’t believe in fate, but you make me believe it
yeah, I wanna be your boyfriend
i don’t care if I only see you on weekends
In my heart, I know, what I’m feeling
I didn’t believe in fate, but you make me believe it

You make me so comfortable, I take my mask off
I wanna take you round my friends, I wanna show you off
Imma call me mom and dad “I think I found the one” 
You’re on my mind like everyday and you’re the only one
You make me so comfortable, I take my mask off
I wanna take you round my friends, I wanna show you off
Imma call me mom and dad “I think I found the one” 
You’re on my mind like everyday and you’re the only one

yeah, I wanna be your boyfriend
i don’t care if I only see you on weekends
In my heart, I know, what I’m feeling
I didn’t believe in fate, but you make me believe it
yeah, I wanna be your boyfriend
i don’t care if I only see you on weekends
In my heart, I know, what I’m feeling
I didn’t believe in fate, but you make me believe it

I feel so safe with you
I ain’t got no reason to lie to you
I speak from the heart girl I’m telling the truth
I wanna tell all of my friends about you
I be kicking my feet when you text me
Said you talk about me with your bestie
I mean it when I said you’re the bestest
I get excited whenever you message me 
If I was your boyfriend I wouldn’t make you cry
I’d sing you to sleep and kiss you goodnight
I’d give you a piece of me to keep by your side
All I mean is I want you to be in my life

yeah, I wanna be your boyfriend
i don’t care if I only see you on weekends
In my heart, I know, what I’m feeling
I didn’t believe in fate, but you make me believe it
yeah, I wanna be your boyfriend
i don’t care if I only see you on weekends
In my heart, I know, what I’m feeling
I didn’t believe in fate, but you make me believe it

your boyfriend (Prod. Irby)

4/5.
"I swear it's hard to breath, when you're not next to me"
@irby314

Lyrics-
and I swear It's hard to breath
When you're not next to me
and I'm praying on my knees
that you'll come release me
and I swear It's hard to breath
When you're not next to me
and I'm praying on my knees
that you'll come release me

Cause this love that we have is something I'll never give up
And I’m lying in bed wondering what in the fuck
is wrong with me?
I’m always writing apologies
And I’m fighting back the doom loop in my head
Until the next time I can sleep in your bed
And finally get rest

and I swear It's hard to breath
When you're not next to me
and I'm praying on my knees
that you'll come release me
and I swear It's hard to breath
When you're not next to me
and I'm praying on my knees
that you'll come release me

I know I said some things, but I didn't mean it that way
I'm just missing you more than I ever have today
and you run in my mind, run in my mind all night
and I'm thinking about, how I miss you by my side

and I swear It's hard to breath
When you're not next to me
and I'm praying on my knees
that you'll come release me
and I swear It's hard to breath
When you're not next to me
and I'm praying on my knees
that you'll come release me

when you're not next to me

when you're not next to me (prod. Irby)

I just wanna hold you
Let me hold you
Wanna get to know you
I wanna know you
I just wanna hold you
Let me hold you
I wanna know you
Let me know you

Feels hard to get to know where I stand
You told me to be patient, but I am
The days keep flying by, now I can't
Remember how your face looks

I just wanna hold you
Let me hold you
Wanna get to know you
I wanna know you
I just wanna hold you
Let me hold you
I wanna know you
Let me know you

And I won't forget the way
You imprinted on my heart
and I rot, decay
We'll never truly be apart

I just wanna hold you
Let me hold you
Wanna get to know you
I wanna know you
I just wanna hold you
Let me hold you
I wanna know you
Let me know you

if forever has an ending

let me hold you ft. sinxi (prod. Irby)

Don't leave me alone
Just promise me you'll stay on the phone
I don't wanna be here
But I don't have anywhere to go
Don't leave me alone
Just promise me you'll stay on the phone
I don't wanna be here
But I don't have anywhere to go

don't leave me alone (prod. yung van x vito)

I miss you when I'm gone
You told me that it won’t be long
I really hate this drive home
I’m tearing up singing our song
I’m thinking bout you
You told me that you’ll see me soon
I’m jamming to amnesia
I could never forget about you 

I wanna love you forever
and if forever has an ending 
Then keep me in the dark
Be buried to together
So our love can never die
Eternally held in your arms
And no matter where I’m at you’ll have my heart
I’m gonna show you what it means to be loved
And I’ll never give up on us when it’s hard
If forever has an ending 
Then keep me in the dark

I’ll tell you how I feel
I can’t promise that everything’s real
But I promise to hold you down
Nothing’s gonna hurt you while I’m around
And when I’m not there
Imma send my love through the cold air
Even when it hurts and it’s not fair
Imma hold you down
Nothing’s gonna hurt you while I’m around

I wanna love you forever
and if forever has an ending 
Then keep me in the dark
Be buried to together
So our love can never die
Eternally held in your arms
And no matter where I’m at you’ll have my heart
I’m gonna show you what it means to be loved
And I’ll never give up on us when it’s hard
If forever has an ending 
Then keep me in the dark

if forever has an ending (prod. Irby)

I’ve been running a muck
Fucking it up again
I say that i won’t
But I just keep falling in
My head
in My head
I just wish they would stop
they don’t even make much sense
I punish myself
For not being perfect, in
My head
in My head

round and around and around and around they go
there's a brief moment of silence
'till I hurt myself again
round and around and around and around I run
I keep looking for an answer
But sometimes there isn't one

I’ve been running a muck
Fucking it up again
I say that i won’t
But I just keep falling in
My head
in My head
I just wish they would stop
they don’t even make much sense
I punish myself
For not being perfect, in
My head
in My head

When you’re sad about nothing
nothing makes it any better
I displace all my feelings
You must be the reason I’m bitter
I’m always looking for something
my feelings pull me along
They take my hand and they guide me
Reassure me that everything’s wrong

I’ve been running a muck
Fucking it up again
I say that i won’t
But I just keep falling in
My head
in My head
I just wish they would stop
they don’t even make much sense
I punish myself
For not being perfect, in
My head
in My head

my head

my head (prod. Irby)

Thank you Hk <3
Cover art: @pytn.d on instagram

Lyrics- 

I don't really care
you were never there
Said you had my back
you just never cared
Said I never loved but that shit ain't fair

claiming that you love me but you don't mean shit 
Claiming that you had me but you never did yeah x2
Always wanted somewhere there but you pushed me away
You want me in your bed but I don't want to stay x2

pretty heartbroken


You hit my line,
We're just wasting time
Always on your phone, 
You were never mine
Talking bout your ex almost all the time,
Yeah talking bout your ex he was on your mind

ON SPOTIFY <3

I waited on you, you never came. (Prod. HKfiftyone)

Go follow my man <3
https://soundcloud.com/fuckhamz

Hammy:
I just wanna know
do you still think of me?
when you're all alone
i hope you still remember me
i don't wanna go
my heart is on your driveway
sitting all alone
they never care what i say x2

never care what i say
driving on the highway
driving on the freeway
you can have it your way
i don't really care girl
look at me and stare girl
i just wanna die now
smokin till i die now
diving on the highway
driving on the freeway
i just wanna see you
hope you want me too
i can't ever think straight
tell em that i feel great
even though i'm lyin
always fucking lying
remember what we had
now i can't stop crying
i just popped an oxy
now i think i'm flying
i just hit the ground
now i'm really dying

Yung Van:
I still have your number in my phone
Sometimes I drive by your home
I think of all the good times
I think we had some good times
I miss waking up to texts
I hate calling you my ex
I should have known this would happen
I should have known this would happen 

I've been driving all night
I'm just tryna feel right
When I think of you though
I don't want to die alone
Thinking bout you all the time
Wish that you weren't getting high
I don't think I'm feeling fine x2
Ive been driving all day
I'm just tryna feel okay
I know I can't run away
Girl you meant the world to me
Think of what we used to be
Wish it was just you and me
Guess we just weren't meant to be
I thought we were meant to be
I just wanna die now
I just wanna cry
I thought you were mine babe
I thought we were fine
Called you every night girl
Cause I thought you cared
Called you every night girl
I was always there
I wish I could walk away from all this pain
I feel like I was cut
I thought you were the one

Wish i was enough x4

FOLLOW HAMMY

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

@deadtreesnolongerbreathe
@yungcold
@guccihighwaters
@notmorgn

it was for the best

Spotify, Apple Music..

it was for the best w/ guccihighwaters (Prod. DeadForest & YungCold)

I love you all! please go check out Lux and Guardin!!
@lux_45
@guardinmusic

LYRICS-

Yung van:
Call me back I need you right now
On the ground as the rain pours down
Where'd you go when i needed you 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Call me back as the rain pours down
On the ground I need you right now 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Where'd you go when I needed you 
I called you but I can't speak
But I can hear you breathing
I'm wide awake cause I can't sleep
and I can only think of you

guardin:
think too much, i'm so lost, where my head go?
 trippin' now, blankin' out to the echo
all i fears finally here, movin' mad slow 
pacing now, trace your frown when i let go 
falling back into the depths of my own mind
 i'd be lying to you baby if i said that i was fine 
i've been rearranging furniture & finding stuff inside 
like the crystals in my pockets that you probably left behind 
i don't wanna be without you 
baby i am not okay without you

FOLLOW MY MAN LUX!!!

you were my best friend w/ guardin (Prod. Lux45)

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

Links-
@guardinmusic
@daddydandy

flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

Thank you all so much for supporting me! i couldn't be more thankful and happy with everything i have been given! I want to thank David Kiernan for the artwork and @leansipper !! Shout out to @cozyboycries for mixing song #7!! Love you all so much <3
<3 Acid Castle <3
Everyone who is on the EP----
@1800entity
@guardinmusic
@prodbyvessels
@artax666
@leansipper
@lilheartbreaker
@prod-trash
@lilhappylilsad
@tothegood

dear death, i miss you (Prod. lil heartbreak)

Mix/Master: @qawikamri
Cover: @collidingwithmars
I really hope you all enjoy this song! go show some love to the song i just dropped with @qawikamri over on his page as well!!! I truly love you all, thank you for everything you have done for me! Make sure to check out @prod-trash as well, he is amazing <3

Lyrics-

yung van:
I can see the storm in your eyes
When you're about to cry I know why
I can feel the pain in your tears
all of your secrets and fears
Let it fall
Let the rain run down your face 
feel it all
As your mind disintegrates

I'm only 19
You all know nothing bout me
You only know that sad
I don't even live with dad
But when you cry it's storm
You feel your body get warm
I see your eyes their all red
I know you wish you were dead

I know you wish you were dead x4

I can see the storm in your eyes
When you're about to cry I know why
I can feel the pain in your tears
all of your secrets and fears
Let it fall
Let the rain run down your face 
feel it all
As your mind disintegrates

qawi kamri:
bloodshot eyes from you crying
you don't want to wake up in the morning 
when you see my calls you ignore it
but i can truly see that you're trying
i can see the pain in your eyes
when you said that you're fine
i know that you lied
i know that you lied

yung van & qawi kamri:
Let it fall
Let the rain run down your face 
feel it all
As your mind disintegrates

qawi kamri:
I know you wish you were dead
I know you wish you were dead
i know you wish we were done
I know you wish you were dead

yung van:
I know you wish you were dead x4

yung van & qawi kamri:
I can see the storm in your eyes
When you're about to cry I know why
I can feel the pain in your tears
all of your secrets and fears

when you cry, it's a storm w/ Qawi Kamri (Prod. TRA$H)

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Mix: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Master: @scottysplash
Production: @lilbuckethead
Cover art: @iamdavidkiernan (on twitter)
Shout out @qawikamri & @producedbyaidan for helping me extend the beat and go show love to everyone who helped make this song possible (if ya got some to share) <3


Lyrics-

Yung van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life

Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Time
But I don't really care 
Said you had my back then you left me in the air
Flying all alone made me feel like I was scared
I'm drowning in your problems
Baby I can't solve them 

Running away
Running away
Running away
Running away

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

9TAILS:

says she wanna die with me
but thats just a lie
depression is like a virus
i see that shit in her eyes
shes up alone every night
weed is packed in the pipe
window open at night
smoke blowing by the streetlights

take me over like a virus
anti virus with the heisman
saw the bate no biting
calculate my timing

im out the door before you tell me to go
i had you blocked before i seen what you wrote
i got people to meet i got places to go
and she play the detective like murder she wrote

i dont have time for the games like its pay to play
feel like kobe how i fade away
keep you a bit behind thats screen delay
i know all your tricks no david blaine

u cant make me stress ya
u cant make me stress no
ask me whats been on your mind or else youll never know
we all will eventually die speak up before we go
put your plan back into motion hit me with the blow

tryna bring the heat like a tanning bed
get in line like its wonderland
break it off like a pencil lead

Yung Van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

Virus w/ 9TAILS (Prod. Aquinas)

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan
Mix: @lilsadeyes
Master: @lilsadeyes
Production: @tothegood
Cover art: @itsyungvan x @lilsadeyes x @guardinmusic

I really hope you all enjoy this song! It means a lot to me personally and i hope you can all connect to it! I love you all deeply thank you <3

Lyrics-

When I first met you I had nothing
You took it all away
I’m left alone with only one thing
These memories of pain
You took control of all my loving
Made me feel ashamed
For ever hoping I had something
I’m screaming out your name
When I first met you I had nothing
You took it all away
I’m left alone with only one thing
These memories of pain
You took control of all my loving
Made me feel ashamed
For ever hoping I had something
I’m screaming out your name

I can’t feel a thing
Till I see you and I’m taken back
Frozen in my shoes
I can’t move laying on my back
What am I to do?
I can’t prove anything to you
Bloody nosed and bruised
I’m hopeless like you

I’m good at hiding what I want
Protecting secrets at a cost
You’ve made me something I am not 
No one can know what I have lost

By myself again
Alone without a friend
By myself again
Alone without a friend

When I first met you I had nothing
You took it all away
I’m left alone with only one thing
These memories of pain
You took control of all my loving
Made me feel ashamed
For ever hoping I had something
I’m screaming out your name

Your name
Your name
I’m screaming out your name
Your name
Your name
Maybe I’m to blame
To blame
To blame
I’m screaming out your name

Screaming Out Your Name (Prod. Tothegood)

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan x @kaiyko
Mix & Master: @QAWIKAMRI
Production: @Xtravulous
Cover art: @itsyungvan x @GQHargis

Lyrics-

(Intro)

Yung van-

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

Kaiyko-

It's so hard to imagine it
both of us hand in hand hanging by a thread
And I dont wanna go home 
cuz im scared of the thoughts that come crawling when im all alone 
but everything leads back to you 
Why can't I unravel the truth? 
Can we just go back to the beginning 
Give me a reason why I can't leave things off like this 

I'm sorry I just seem to over complicate things
No I don't wanna let it die like this
Something beautiful is fading into the mist x2

Yung van x Kaiyko-

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

(outro)

Ashes and Chandeliers

OUT ON SPOTIFY NOW!!!!

ashes and chandeliers w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Xtravulous)

This song means a lot to me, I really hope you all enjoy it <3
@retrohills
mix and master by: @itshuskai

Lyrics-

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me
I thought you were the one, and I’d hold you down
I thought you were the one but you let me down
I don’t feel the same when you’re not around
No, I don’t same when you’re not around 

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me
I thought you were the one, and I’d hold you down
I thought you were the one but you let me down
I don’t feel the same when you’re not around
No, I don’t same when you’re not around 

Ayy, yeah I was never yours
Don’t act like you love me if you aint gonna give more x3

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me

I Just Wanted Somebody To Hold Me (Prod. RetroHills)

First single off of "          " I hope you all enjoy it <3
@tothegood


Lyrics-

I can’t keep thinking you’re all that
Living my life just to get past
Trapped in this moment, till I grasp
Hold of reality at last
I’m feeding my ego it’s last meal
Scratching my eyes till I can’t feel
Trapped in this moment till I grasp
I can’t keep thinking you’re all that

Verse- 
Tab out
Log in
Everyone wants to be like him
Tab in
Log out
Open your eyes till they fall out
Let the wind knock at my window
No one can hear when they’re shut closed
Curtains are down and the lights low
I can smell bleach in the air though

Chorus-

I can’t keep thinking you’re all that
Living my life just to get past
Trapped in this moment, till I grasp
Hold of reality at last
I’m feeding my ego it’s last meal
Scratching my eyes till I can’t feel
Trapped in this moment till I grasp
I can’t keep thinking you’re all that

other platforms

I Can't Keep Thinking You're All That (Prod. Tothegood)

1/5 from my upcoming EP "As I Walk Into the Night"
I hope you enjoy <3

Written by: @itsyungvan
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Production: @user-182805726

Lyrics-

(I'm waiting here for you to pick me up)

I'm waiting here for you to pick me up
Everyone is gone, now I'm the only one
I cried all night, but would you even know?
you never show
The things unsaid, tend to hurt the most
I wonder why you never show
The darkest sides of his heart, unknown
When is last time I opened up?
I had to close off my only love
Because the last time I opened up,
you never came and I had to bluff
Now every night he leaves open
I guess he's hoping, someone, will come and hold him
He leaves it vulnerable inside his drawer
Falling asleep he can only dream for more

As I Walk Into the Night

i'm sad and the weathers making it worse

Spotify, Itunes, Etc.

i'm sad and the weathers making it worse (Prod. SaintTomorrow)

"All alone but I just can’t face it 
I have no power and you know I’m right" 2/5...

Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @Skress
Artwork: @scottysplash

LYRIC VIDEO ON YOUTUBE:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BgXQqlelBDQ

"As I Walk Into the Night”

Chorus-

I never go outside
Unless my friends come and offer me a ride
I’d rather sit and 
hide Reliving all the terrible flashbacks about my life
And As I watch and wait
You’ve come to tell me how to bear the weight
Sing me that lullaby 
The blackbird watches as I walk into the night

Verse-

I don’t know what you want 
Please leave me out of your dreams 
Every night when I’m walking 
You’re all I ever see

Holding back from the urge to fulfill me 
If I can’t, then it’s alright with me 
Holding back from person I am like 
Hiding away is what will set me free 
Side note 
Don’t look in my eyes 
I’m sad to say, I’m afraid what you’ll find 
I’ve locked away all the monster inside 
But at times they’ll come out and there’s no where to hide

Contemplating, if I’ll get wasted 
I don’t think that I’ll even try 
All alone but I just can’t face it 
I have no power and you know I’m right

In the night time
They come out, all night x4

Chorus-

I never go outside
Unless my friends come and offer me a ride
I’d rather sit in hide 
Reliving all the terrible flashbacks about my life
And As I watch and wait
You’ve come to tell me how to bear the weight
Sing me that lullaby 
The blackbird watches as I walk into the night

Spotify, Itunes, etc.

As I Walk Into the Night (Prod. Skress)

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

They call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it...
(This is the last single before I begin to release work from "Past the Stars")
Written by: @itsyungvan x @sinxi
Mix/Master: @sinxi
Production: @prime
art by: @scottysplash

Lyrics-

yung van-
I'd be lying if I said you didn't cross my mind
I'd be lying if I said you didn't cross my mind
you pop up when I'm in class looking at the time
tell me that I'm crazy reminiscing
I forgot everything we were missing

You only love me because you used to
I'd tell you I love you but that is old news
when we split up, I thought I told you
I fell in love, but with the old you X2

Sinxi-
and I fell in love but with the old you
oh I catch your perfume as you pass-through
oh I think of the times that'll pass soon
oh I gave you my heart? I didn't mean to
I've been playing it over a couple  hundred times
yeah, the things I could say and ways to stay dry
yeah, to get you to see that I'm okay this time
but would it be a crime to try again one night

yung van-
You only love me because you used to
I'd tell you I love you but that is old news
when we split up, I thought I told you
I fell in love, but with the old you X2

they call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it

they call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it

i fell in love, but with the old you

Other Platforms

I fell in love, but with the old you ft. Sinxi (Prod. SteezyPrime)

Shoutout Powfu for letting me release this song we did <3
Stay safe out there Minivans, I love you and enjoy this song I am very proud of this one!!!
@powfu
@kmkzofficial

Lyrics:

Powfu-

I wanna hold you, but I can’t now
yeah I moved on, I got plans now
I might move out, with all my new friends
Yeah I look at life through a new lens
I wanna hold you, but I can’t now
yeah this life style, got me stressed out
I was into you, I held out my hand
you had the choice, and you missed your chance

ayy
Look at where I’m walking
I got plenty other options
but I don’t pay attention
They just want a taste, because I’m popping
it’s too hard, my eyesight blind now
Is this real? don’t know how to find out 
new heart, it’s only gon’ be mine now
I want love but I don’t know how
Taking off like Lighting McQueen
I just want them to like me for me
it feels wrong but it’s how it should be
yeah it’s how it should be 
Don’t answer my phone, when I’m holding it
Bury my alone, I’m so over it

I wanna hold you, but I can’t now
yeah I moved on, I got plans now
I might move out, with all my new friends
Yeah I look at life through a new lens
I wanna hold you, but I can’t now
yeah this life style, got me stressed out
I was into you, I held out my hand
you had the choice, and you missed your chance

yung van-

I once was a boy who would hold out his hand
Now you changed directions and I changed my plans
I let you walk over the roses I laid 
Outside of your bedroom that evening, that day
The day that you told me that we couldn’t be
See there was a boy that you liked over me
You told me you care but your actions don’t
Your words are like poison no antidote
There’s no objections, I have a question
Why’d you bring me over here, what’s the lesson?
How can I learn if it’s you who keeps texting
You tell me you care and that I was the best and
I don’t wanna hear it anymore
Getting tired of this rain and pour
Of this rain and pour
But I want you to know

Powfu-

I wanna hold you, but I can’t now
yeah I moved on, I got plans now
I might move out, with all my new friends
Yeah I look at life through a new lens
I wanna hold you, but I can’t now
yeah this life style, got me stressed out
I was into you, I held out my hand
you had the choice, and you missed your chance

you missed your chance

powfu x yung van - you missed your chance (Prod. KMKZ)

Youtube

Powfu x yung van - you missed your chance (Prod. KMKZ)

@ouseiceland
@digiyams
@kyotospeak
@hkfiftyone2
Coming to all platforms this Friday, September 4th <3

Lyrics:

yung van-
My heart’s so cold I can’t feel girl yeah
I don’t even know what’s the real world ay
I just wanna know what’s up with you Ayy
If you wanna talk girl I miss you yeah
I’ve been so numb since you left me yeah
How am I supposed to move on if you text me Ayy
All I can think about is you on me yeah
You got me questioning if you want me Ayy
You only answer me in the moonlight yeah
That’s when you tell me that you are all mine ay
But in the morning you always leave yeah
I always fall for it I can’t believe it ay
You only answer me in the moonlight yeah
That’s when you tell me that you are all mine
But in the morning you always leave yeah
I always fall for it I can’t believe it

Ouse-
yeah yeah
And my heart's so cold feel it freezing
yeah yeah
I just wanted you to know you're the reason
yeah yeah
Turn my heart to stone I'm so faded
yeah yeah
now my only way to smile is getting wasted

yung van-
My heart’s so cold I can’t feel girl yeah
I don’t even know what’s the real world ay
I just wanna know what’s up with you Ayy
If you wanna talk girl I miss you yeah
I’ve been so numb since you left me yeah
How am I supposed to move on if you text me Ayy
All I can think about is you on me yeah
You got me questioning if you want me Ayy
You only answer me in the moonlight yeah
That’s when you tell me that you are all mine ay
But in the morning you always leave yeah
I always fall for it I can’t believe it ay
You only answer me in the moonlight yeah
That’s when you tell me that you are all mine
But in the morning you always leave yeah
I always fall for it I can’t believe it

I've Been So Numb Since You Left Me ft. Ouse (prod. Kyotospeak)

Spotify link <3

Rip Jonathan Meristil, I love you bro <3

Mix & Mastered by: yung van
Cover art: JJ Meri x yung van

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