yet again another banger from miss josetta

my best friend

deep end

circa — June 2023
updated — May 2025

When I said I love you did I say it in a bad way, in a wrong way, in a bad way
(I've always thought about us together anyway, I know you love me can you tell me so that I know)
When I say I love you I mean it I'm not kidding, you do the cooking while I put away the dishes, uh huh
I hope those words mean anything to you, when I'm not with you the world seems so blue, uh huh
(Dreaming about how you were in my arms yesterday, and like always you threw my life away)
Eighteen years I've been living I've never met someone like you, someone like you
(I'd never thought I'd just be dreaming my life away, dreaming about how, bout how, bout how, bout how, bout how, bout how)
And like always you threw my life away

Stream

cover photo by @zzoos
samples works by @vaultofsecrets854
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(where are you, where are you)
oh i cant say i feel the same as you
what do you want
its irrational, a place not meant for two
what are you on

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
lets make the most
before youre gone

will you think of me?
oh, i hope not
i pull the petals off, loves me not

love me, love me not
i dont care when im in your thoughts
and as i watch you rot and decay, i feel invincible
oh its all that i want

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
lets make the most
before youre gone

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
please dont come back
lets make the most
before youre gone

ill die all over again

love me, love me not

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1JAV46oTdV7Z05cJZIF0ac?si=67e499cfa1f6436c

lyrics:
i know your starving in heaven 
i know your starving in heaven
are we all meant to die (die)
are we all meant to

stop!
are you a fan of a person you dont like
if you cant stand closing the curtains when its night 
and i cant tell if im doing this all right 
and i cant tell if you're doin alright 

(stop) i got 24 missed calls inside my inbox
too many gamma rays around me need to detox
you got me trapped inside your springlocks (springlocks)

(stop) cus im so constantly worried like "what do they think about me" "am i not interesting" 
its getting harder to sleep without you
you said its only me but why am i counting two

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
(bring me to life)
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

well what do you think 
why you so bad
you've done terrible things
you ain't the one to change cus you've never been

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)

bring me to life

produced by me
written/mixed/mastered by me
cover illustration by server (https://serverxyzz.carrd.co)
interpolates jishoumushoku by sasanomaly

[lyrics]
~verse 1~
i like to keep things close to the same
got personal problems adapting to change
i always plan things so far away
but when i get started its far too late
i like pretending i know what to do
like if i really feel at home then itll all come true
i like pretending ive made it on my own
when it could all end with a phone call home

~bridge~
god, its so hard
to juggle all the things that have been handed to me
but i cant stop
ive got to get back up

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

~verse 2~
i try to sleep well, but every night
i cant shake the feeling im wasting time
ive gotta sink before i can fly
but im still afloat and i dont know why
maybe its all gonna slow way down,
thats all i can hope for, but i still dont know
i roll with the punches, i live in the now
i take a step forward and i double back

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

Steps

art: @xaev 
prod.me 

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes
she says that i'm fine
it's all in my mind
i don't wanna die
i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes 

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

JUST TAKE WHAT YOU WANT
I HATE GAIN AND LOSS 
I'VE LOST THE WHOLE PLOT!!!!!!!!!!

close my eyes and i'll see.

gain & loss

(lyrics)
about a million conversations in a day
i give up, i give up
head screwed on the wrong way 
don't know what I'm supposed to say
another awkward moment sitting here
i guess silents been okay
I wonder what i'm so afraid of 
what i'm so afraid of (so i)

so afraid of

ingredients:
jaron - icarus
tsubi club - laced up
defsharp - tell me
underscores ft 8485 - your favourite sidekick

if icarus was laced up he wouldnt have fallen

my submission for cut2static song wars

lyrics:

heartbreak saturday morning night
inquires, injuries, i'll be alright
outlaws like me said "such is life"
they prophesied over me, i'll be alright

the first in too long, went outside
a mirror, i wanted to throw up in fire
every part me was so loud (except)
my desire to scream, unexpressed in the quiet

couldn't even spare one day for every month
couldn't even spare 2 weeks but i'm still fucked
i was never upset at you, and i'm still not
it was always "i never could live with you gone"
and now i can't think straight when you're up
and now i can't fucking sleep at all
a pathetic shell of who i was
of a man that did nothing for you
i'll die a man that did nothing for you

newsflash, something don't sit right
i meant not to be overt, i promise i tried
outlaws like me said "such is life"
they sculpted me into something i despise

the first in too long, went outside
watched myself and the last half year fall in real time
i think i would rather die than watch you lock
falling apart at a life that could have been mine

couldn't even spare one day for every month
couldn't even spare 2 weeks but i'm still fucked
i was never upset at you, and i'm still not
it was always "i never could live with you gone"
and now i can't think straight when you're up
and now i can't fucking sleep at all
a pathetic shell of who i was
of a man that did nothing for you
i'll die a man that did nothing for you

outlaw

wrote this one for a friend of mine who i was madly in love with last year lolol 

it's been sitting on my laptop since like october and is almost finished so expect this to be released on all plats at some point :]

i hope u like :]

i’ve been yearning
for couple of years
i tried to put it to bed
wish i could find my person
but it doesn’t seem
to be worth it in the end

then you came along
i felt those butterflies in my chest
you can guess the rest
that year has went and gone
my feelings never left
and i’m still so stuck in my head

and i know that
you think of me just as your closest friend
but if things were to change
would you feel the same?
i wanna know what’s going on inside your head

i want you so bad
and you know that
it’s a simple fact
wouldn’t it be so rad?

i want you so bad
(so bad so bad so bad)
i need you so bad
(so bad so bad so bad)
want you to give me a chance
(so bad so bad so bad)
want you to be my man
(so bad so bad so bad)

cause i want you so bad
i want ya
mmm
do you want me back?
i bet you want me back

finally typed out that text
gathered up the courage to read it and hit send
you said maybe, you said that it might be a yes
but i wont give my hopes up just yet

cause i don’t wanna misunderstand 
or jump to conclusions 
gotta see it from your lens
you don’t wanna see me heartbroken
this has torn me apart
i keep on asking questions
like “what if this is the start
of the end of the friendship?”

i want you so bad
and you know that
it’s a simple fact
wouldn’t it be so rad?

i want you so bad
(so bad so bad so bad)
i need you so bad
(so bad so bad so bad)
want you to give me a chance
(so bad so bad so bad)
want you to be my man
(so bad so bad so bad)

cause i want you so bad
i want ya
mmm
do you want me back?
i bet you want me back

i want you so bad
mm, mm
mmm
i want you so bad

i want you (so bad!) (demo)

i make music sometimes
my debut EP digitally altered is out now!!

i want you (so bad!) (demo)

josetta

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