Fairyfield & Ráithín

His gorgeous lips I sit on, Venom, 
Between his teeth I rest
his forked tongue prodding the top 
  of my head
as I drift off to sleep
My chains bind me to his teeth
Regurgitated
Allowed a glimpse of the world I
  used to live in
this is the light in the chaos that
brings such fear for
fully diving in
The ascension
this highest esctacy 
filled with terror and with 
  death ahead
Death below
Death all around
an intensity that can never be 
  recovered from
Do I even want this ? 
To obtain this thing? 
I've lost my sense of security, 
  the normal sensations
of the immediate and concrete


Something white
a hot light on my brain
communication, a transmission 
pleading with me, suffering
this filthy doubt
covers the world
as it covers me


Does death not preceed life? 
is it what makes any of this possible? 
We have read the immanence of death in life
with life being the prisoner
Where does Lex fall into this? 
inherited by lords at thirteen
never quite forgiven for their sins
but given the gift of punishment
for perhaps someday Lex'll be punished enough
and eternity shall then end
Would I renounce this glory
this exaltation of suffering
for a life behind the veil
for a life of blind mediocrity? 
have I even the chance? 
This exposure to truth was
the nail in my coffin 
And as the rot comes on
a slave to the mouth of the beast
Is it a choice to even follow them?


Something white
a hot light on my brain
communication, a transmission,
pleading with me, suffering
this filthy doubt
covers the world
as it covers me

Lex 1 - 5

Tebe Poem

passage tomb

Passage Tomb

Recorded December 2023 at the Orchard House Studio.

Festering Red Hot Snake Bite

Recorded at Chillhouse Recording Studio with Will Holland.
Art mine.

(In)Sane

Confronting Depression and Building Resilience to Overcome

Composed, written, played and mixed by Guglielmo Allegro aka WillyKuma
So fragile yet so beautiful...

Chrysalis

Boys will be boys is commentary on the experience of being a female in the music industry. 

The opening lyric "Big man sits, he's loud and shrewd" refers to men with what my friends call "big important music man" energy. The song reflects on how a certain subset of mostly male musicians make space for themselves, while subsequently ensuring there is no space for anyone else.

The instrumental track is from the oceans album "Dreamers in dark cities". I am the lead singer for Oceans, and we perform this version of the track live. Thomas Lee (Oceans) and I decided it was important for this version of the song to exist in the world, so I set about recording and remixing it with the original engineer Lindsay Gravina (Jet/Adalita/Magic Dirt).

Boys Will Be Boys

https://soundcloud.com/kwilsonk and I exchanged a couple of tracks. Kwils sent me a very nice ambient track, perfectly good in its own right. It seemed a shame to alter it, but I did anyway :)

And, check this out: https://soundcloud.com/kwilsonk/zynthing-tuonela-x-kwils

905 P [with Kwils]

Lover of Death

Lunatic's Calling(Live from Solitary Confinement 2003)

Music is my journal, and I put it out there for the world! Many of these tracks were written about my experiences with mental health struggles.

I write, record, and produce all of these tracks by myself. I'm continuing to learn and grow in this process.

Lex 1 - 5

Jellyfish Punch

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