blvnkface + 5head

hey <3 ty for listening 
lyrics
ive been living all my life in my bed
in need of reassurance 
cuz im fucked up in the head
all i think about is u
and all i smell is your scent 
you dont care ab me
itd be better if i was dead
im not in your head
not in your bed 
i saw u out with him
had on your favorite dress
and the way u look at me is confusing 
i dont wanna try again ill end up losing

im a fuckin nuisance 
im so fuckin stupid 
and everytime i try i end up losin

im a fuckin nuisance 
im so fuckin stupid 
and everytime i try i end up losin

i could throw my life away 
i wouldnt care at all
im so sick of the constant pain
and the burning withdrawals 
and i would throw it all away
to see you fall
cuz ur everytime i needed you
you didnt care at all
fuck. 

im fucked up my lifes a mess
and my wounds get deeper with every step
constant feeling of anger in my chest
i dont want you happy
i want you dead
wakeup at 2am cant feel my head 
i try my best but i cant go back to bed 
im shaking 
heart beating through my chest
even tho i need to im not getting any rest 
shes a fuckin devil
shes a fuckin liar 
look at what u did my whole worlds on fire
gimme reassurance 
baby ik ur tired 
but i think tonight ill get a little bit higher 

it never works out for me 
ill never be who they want me to be
fuck

i could throw my life away 
i wouldnt care at all
im so sick of the constant pain
and the burning withdrawals 
and i would throw it all away
to see you fall
cuz ur everytime i needed you
you didnt care at all
fuck.

nuisance

li.sten.to/stillalive
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

lyrics:
Heartbroken, I've lost my focus
People talk down to me, and act like I ain't ever notice
Life is gray, I hope that it's not better for them
So go away, learn to be a better friend

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

I ain't trying to be mean
Ever since I met you back when i was 15
Reminisce about the times I lived on caffeine
Nowadays I see you open leave you on seen

I'm a bad guy, in a bad world
I'm becoming even worse I got a bad girl
Found my new home, it's when I'm with you
Depressed when I'm alone and that's the issue

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

still alive

bad guy

other platforms

bad guy (siem spark x chris marek)

shoutout @ericreprid
~
I can’t trust lil' shawty she a runner
Cop this Cartier like a stunner
That lil’ shawty a hoe so I can’t love her
She gon' hit the road when shit gets harder
Yeah
I’m gon' let this shit blam if you not vam
Can’t fuck with no fake shit they would never understand
If we don’t make money together it don’t make sense
Only fuck with Vamily bitch I ain’t gon fuck with them

[Verse 1]
Said she can’t help me cause her hands are tied
Do a lil’ BDSM but when shit gets rough I got vamily ties
Money gon' come money gon' go seen this shit plenty of times
Shawty want this, shawty want that, but I don’t pay her no mind
This year I’m finna get stupid rich
Might cop a new X6
My brudda see you like who is this?
We not who you coolin’ with
Bitch better stop with that foolishness
Or you gon' lose your shit
You hit me up and I knew what it is
Cause I ain’t new to this shit

[Hook]
I can’t trust lil' shawty she a runner
Cop this Cartier like a stunner
That lil’ shawty a hoe so I can’t love her
She gon' hit the road when shit gets harder
Yeah
I’m gon let this shit blam if you not vam
Can’t fuck with no fake shit they would never understand
If we don’t make money together it don’t make sense
Only fuck with Vamily bitch I ain’t gon fuck with them

[Verse 2]
Ok that boy a fucking goofy he a RICHARD
Stacking my digits my blood be so cold and I’m feelin’ like I be a lizard
Bitch I got food for some thots so I’m taking that hoe out to fuck up some dinner
Shawty be seeing these hunnits on me so she steady be calling me mister
I know lil' shawty get greedy for likes so I cut that bitch right out the picture
Whole lot of colours inside of my wallet my money be tryna play twister
I be done fucking that bitch it is what it is I’m finna dismiss her
Lately I’m focused on makin’ these hits so how the fuck I’m finna go miss her

[Hook]
I can’t trust lil' shawty she a runner
Cop this Cartier like a stunner
That lil’ shawty a hoe so I can’t love her
She gon' hit the road when shit gets harder
Yeah
I’m gon' let this shit blam if you not vam
Can’t fuck with no fake shit they would never understand
If we don’t make money together it don’t make sense
Only fuck with Vamily bitch I ain’t gon fuck with them

✦hope u like it :) recorded the part on like my first days w covid xd but i was able to finish it b4 it striked me down lol if u ever have or need anything just text me! i appreciate everyone listening to this <3✦

lyrics
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cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u 
when u see me up 
and i want that shit to happen 
cuz u did hurt me too 
and for myself im in a different spot now 
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

couldnt see the pain inside ur eyes, 
was it really all my fault?
now im asking myself what'd i do wrong
i know thats not what im supposed to do
cuz it wasnt my fault and u know that too

my vision's going blurry,
i cannot see anymore
which path should i choose,
the right or the left one?
i didnt do wrong 
yeah im feeling so dumb
fell down so often,
i cannot move on

all this pressure on me..
feeling like im dying!
im doing slowly,
but no one notice
not even my closest one's
"i just wanna closure"
i just wanna go far
where nobody finds me

cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u
when u see me up
and i want that shit to happen
cuz u did hurt me too
and for myself im in a different spot now
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

DEMON AMV <3

LAUGHING ME OUT (altery)

prod. siem spark <3333
lyrics:

wasting all my time with you
and you don't realize that, that means
i'd die for you

ooo
ooo

like baby i don't wanna know 
if you've been fucking 
with my head
and anytime that you're around
my heart is beating out my chest
we get too high
smoke cigarettes
girl tell me what's next
if it ain't me and you
then baby
lay me to rest
like baby i don't wanna know 
if you've been fucking 
with my head
and anytime that you're around
my heart is beating out my chest
we get too high
smoke cigarettes
girl tell me what's next
if it ain't me and you
then baby
lay me to rest

lay me
next to you
tell me
what you wanna do 
shawty wanna ride with me now
first class baby
lets get out
she give me those eyes
when she's down
she don't wanna talk now
so lets
turn the radio on
find your favorite song
she say im the one
oh

cigarettes

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

@55depths
@bleedteam
@x1fern

b-side of "si tu veux"
from the EP:
"si tu dois"

i hope you had a good time.

lyrics:

(dth)
(and i'll try my best)
yeah
thought we had it
tell me about it
and now you're shouting
i'm staying grounded
or at least i'm trying to
i'm not the same
when i'm near you
fuck off
what made you say it like that?
don't want the attitude
i'll throw it right back
the back and forth is really
getting to my head
you make me feel
like i'm better off dead

and i'll try my best
this aching chest
no longer beats for you
at all
so let's lay to rest
to see what's next
remember falling back then?

(fernn)
omg like what's the fucking point now
i try to lay to rest, I try to try my best
you keep on pulling me back
wanna hate you but I confess
everything is so fucked up lately
i been thinking you that you hate me
honestly it's fine
im tired of thinkin bout you all the damn time
you treat me like shit
then you're fucking me again & you're looking so fit
I don't understand this at all
so just lay me to rest cuz I'm praying on your downfall
(praying on your downfall)

(dth)
and i'll try my best
this aching chest
no longer beats for you
at all
so let's lay to rest
to see what's next
remember falling back then?

hope it was fun! w/ 1fern

featuring & engineered by @mjmadeit
produced by @fantom-instrumentals aka @fantommuzik

(Intro)
Tell me what's on your mind?
I know what's on mine
You and me tonight

I just wanna hold you tight
Make you mine
All the time

(Chorus)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

(JoshIGuess Verse)
And I said why'd you do me like that?
Arguments the only time you hit me right back
I'm sorry I'm not around I've been getting sidetracked
I've gotten comfortable with life while you still feeling attached

I want a simple life not no complications
Wonder if I'll ever last forever dating
I've been tryna work out I've been staying patient
But it's tough knowing things you did were blatant

(Chorus 2)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

lyric video

Myself w/ NightDreams (Fantom)

@55depths
@silentcxbin
@failure404
produced by me.
EP art by cxbin!

off of the COGNIZANT EP with silentcxbin!

lyrics:
(dth)
you think you know me
but you knew me
face it
while i'm lost in the darkness
and tracing my own chalk outline on the pavement
you must be dreaming
to think
that i'll take this
while i listen to you
exposing the truth in your own self hatred

is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

(epitomeoffailure)
i know you know that i can't stay
these racing thoughts have been
plaguing my brain
oh how i wish things would
stay the same
now i'm in pain
i have seen better days
i remember when things were simple
now every day just feels like a struggle
to know my place
and where i belong
when half the time
i don't know what's going on

(cxbin)
if i fall will i land?
well take me back to eden
place your bet
draw your hand
but still there never even

okay ya your walking now
okay ill just go on bout
don't wanna sit and pout now
don't wanna be around now

sell my soul
the scripture already written
don't think twice
but maybe i should listen
fucked up now
can't get out the kitchen
shoot at me 
got plenty ammunition
unload rounds in me
in my chest
keeps me down
from doing my best
i'm a stupid fuck
its all in my head
well that's what you wanted right?

(dth)
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

tough w/ epitomeoffailure and silentcxbin

@55depths
@knights-ofren

track from the EP:
"what i asked for"

lyrics:
and joy is slipping from my grasp
i'm sleeping less and less
running from myself
i can feel it in my chest
i know it's for the best
but i hate to think about it
about it
so what's it like to be the talk of the town now?
every avenue is talking bout you
i'd try and get you out
if only i knew how
guess i'm stuck with it
guess i'm stuck with you

and it's hard to let things pass ahead
(i let them slip on through)
and it's hard to let things pass ahead
(to make my way to you)

oh, where are you going?
oh, your feelings showing

you can't hurt me
even though you tried your best
you can't hurt me
you can't hurt me
you can't hurt me
even though you tried your best
you can't hurt me
you can't hurt me

oh, where are you going?
your feelings showing

what's it like (deathright + knightsofren)

produced by mix
on all plats

hope you enjoy

lyrics:
(sometimes i go blank
i get into these dark moods
think to fast to keep track of anything
then it's like, all my thoughts are gone at once
sometimes if i put them up there, i can focus and slow down
but i can't- i just- i can't)

they try, it's not the same
ohh ohh ohh ohhhhh
tears drip slowly from my eyes
listen closely i don't bite
you got to believe in yourself
cause you can't be someone else

cause you can b-
SOMEONE ELSEEEEEEEE 
SOMEONE ELSEEEEEEEEEE

I SWEAR THINGS GET BETTER JUST WAIT
YOU CAN TRUST ME I KNOW THE PAIN
YOU MAY BE STRUGGLIN IT'S OKAY 
JUST PLEASE DON'T BLOCK THOSE FEELINGS AWAY

AWAYYYYYY 

BLOCK THEM AWAY, DON'T BLOCK THEM AWAY
GIVE ME A DAY
A DAY, JUST GIVE ME ONE DAY 
ONE DAY, AND I SWEAR YOU'LL FIND, THAT YOU CAN STAY
STAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

just give me a day
i know what you face
just give me one day
i can see all the pain

just give me a day
i know what you face
just give me one day
i can see all the pain

SOMEONE ELSEEEEEEEE 
SOMEONE ELSEEEEEEEEEE

I SWEAR THINGS GET BETTER JUST WAIT
YOU CAN TRUST ME I KNOW THE PAIN
YOU MAY BE STRUGGLIN IT'S OKAY 
JUST PLEASE DON'T BLOCK THOSE FEELINGS AWAY

AWAYYYYYY 

BLOCK THEM AWAY, DON'T BLOCK THEM AWAY
GIVE ME A DAY
A DAY, JUST GIVE ME ONE DAY 
ONE DAY, AND I SWEAR YOU'LL FIND, THAT YOU CAN STAY
STAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I COVER MY HEART CAUSE IT'S SPILLIN OUT BLOOD
(cough, cough)
I GOT ALL THIS SWEAT DRIPPIN I FEEL LIKE A FLOOD
(water sounds or sum)
IM ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU CAUSE I TRULY CARE
(im sorry)
NOW I CANNOT BREATH CAUSE OF SMOKE IN THE AIR
(shhhh)

NO ONE ELSEEEEEE, NO ONE ELSEEEEEE
NO ONE ELSEEEEEE, NO ONE ELSEEEEEE

thank you..

someone else

new album out now
tour tickets: https://ffm.bio/joshiguess