blvnkface + 5head

hey <3 ty for listening 
lyrics
ive been living all my life in my bed
in need of reassurance 
cuz im fucked up in the head
all i think about is u
and all i smell is your scent 
you dont care ab me
itd be better if i was dead
im not in your head
not in your bed 
i saw u out with him
had on your favorite dress
and the way u look at me is confusing 
i dont wanna try again ill end up losing

im a fuckin nuisance 
im so fuckin stupid 
and everytime i try i end up losin

im a fuckin nuisance 
im so fuckin stupid 
and everytime i try i end up losin

i could throw my life away 
i wouldnt care at all
im so sick of the constant pain
and the burning withdrawals 
and i would throw it all away
to see you fall
cuz ur everytime i needed you
you didnt care at all
fuck. 

im fucked up my lifes a mess
and my wounds get deeper with every step
constant feeling of anger in my chest
i dont want you happy
i want you dead
wakeup at 2am cant feel my head 
i try my best but i cant go back to bed 
im shaking 
heart beating through my chest
even tho i need to im not getting any rest 
shes a fuckin devil
shes a fuckin liar 
look at what u did my whole worlds on fire
gimme reassurance 
baby ik ur tired 
but i think tonight ill get a little bit higher 

it never works out for me 
ill never be who they want me to be
fuck

i could throw my life away 
i wouldnt care at all
im so sick of the constant pain
and the burning withdrawals 
and i would throw it all away
to see you fall
cuz ur everytime i needed you
you didnt care at all
fuck.

nuisance

li.sten.to/stillalive
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

lyrics:
Heartbroken, I've lost my focus
People talk down to me, and act like I ain't ever notice
Life is gray, I hope that it's not better for them
So go away, learn to be a better friend

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

I ain't trying to be mean
Ever since I met you back when i was 15
Reminisce about the times I lived on caffeine
Nowadays I see you open leave you on seen

I'm a bad guy, in a bad world
I'm becoming even worse I got a bad girl
Found my new home, it's when I'm with you
Depressed when I'm alone and that's the issue

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

still alive

bad guy

other platforms

bad guy (siem spark x chris marek)

shoutout @ericreprid
~
I can’t trust lil' shawty she a runner
Cop this Cartier like a stunner
That lil’ shawty a hoe so I can’t love her
She gon' hit the road when shit gets harder
Yeah
I’m gon' let this shit blam if you not vam
Can’t fuck with no fake shit they would never understand
If we don’t make money together it don’t make sense
Only fuck with Vamily bitch I ain’t gon fuck with them

[Verse 1]
Said she can’t help me cause her hands are tied
Do a lil’ BDSM but when shit gets rough I got vamily ties
Money gon' come money gon' go seen this shit plenty of times
Shawty want this, shawty want that, but I don’t pay her no mind
This year I’m finna get stupid rich
Might cop a new X6
My brudda see you like who is this?
We not who you coolin’ with
Bitch better stop with that foolishness
Or you gon' lose your shit
You hit me up and I knew what it is
Cause I ain’t new to this shit

[Hook]
I can’t trust lil' shawty she a runner
Cop this Cartier like a stunner
That lil’ shawty a hoe so I can’t love her
She gon' hit the road when shit gets harder
Yeah
I’m gon let this shit blam if you not vam
Can’t fuck with no fake shit they would never understand
If we don’t make money together it don’t make sense
Only fuck with Vamily bitch I ain’t gon fuck with them

[Verse 2]
Ok that boy a fucking goofy he a RICHARD
Stacking my digits my blood be so cold and I’m feelin’ like I be a lizard
Bitch I got food for some thots so I’m taking that hoe out to fuck up some dinner
Shawty be seeing these hunnits on me so she steady be calling me mister
I know lil' shawty get greedy for likes so I cut that bitch right out the picture
Whole lot of colours inside of my wallet my money be tryna play twister
I be done fucking that bitch it is what it is I’m finna dismiss her
Lately I’m focused on makin’ these hits so how the fuck I’m finna go miss her

[Hook]
I can’t trust lil' shawty she a runner
Cop this Cartier like a stunner
That lil’ shawty a hoe so I can’t love her
She gon' hit the road when shit gets harder
Yeah
I’m gon' let this shit blam if you not vam
Can’t fuck with no fake shit they would never understand
If we don’t make money together it don’t make sense
Only fuck with Vamily bitch I ain’t gon fuck with them

prod. siem spark <3333
lyrics:

wasting all my time with you
and you don't realize that, that means
i'd die for you

ooo
ooo

like baby i don't wanna know 
if you've been fucking 
with my head
and anytime that you're around
my heart is beating out my chest
we get too high
smoke cigarettes
girl tell me what's next
if it ain't me and you
then baby
lay me to rest
like baby i don't wanna know 
if you've been fucking 
with my head
and anytime that you're around
my heart is beating out my chest
we get too high
smoke cigarettes
girl tell me what's next
if it ain't me and you
then baby
lay me to rest

lay me
next to you
tell me
what you wanna do 
shawty wanna ride with me now
first class baby
lets get out
she give me those eyes
when she's down
she don't wanna talk now
so lets
turn the radio on
find your favorite song
she say im the one
oh

cigarettes

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

@55depths
@bleedteam
@x1fern

b-side of "si tu veux"
from the EP:
"si tu dois"

i hope you had a good time.

lyrics:

(dth)
(and i'll try my best)
yeah
thought we had it
tell me about it
and now you're shouting
i'm staying grounded
or at least i'm trying to
i'm not the same
when i'm near you
fuck off
what made you say it like that?
don't want the attitude
i'll throw it right back
the back and forth is really
getting to my head
you make me feel
like i'm better off dead

and i'll try my best
this aching chest
no longer beats for you
at all
so let's lay to rest
to see what's next
remember falling back then?

(fernn)
omg like what's the fucking point now
i try to lay to rest, I try to try my best
you keep on pulling me back
wanna hate you but I confess
everything is so fucked up lately
i been thinking you that you hate me
honestly it's fine
im tired of thinkin bout you all the damn time
you treat me like shit
then you're fucking me again & you're looking so fit
I don't understand this at all
so just lay me to rest cuz I'm praying on your downfall
(praying on your downfall)

(dth)
and i'll try my best
this aching chest
no longer beats for you
at all
so let's lay to rest
to see what's next
remember falling back then?

hope it was fun! w/ 1fern

@55depths
@leftunconscious-xo

background vocals by leftunconscious-xo

i'll be there soon.

lyrics:
"hi, it's me.
um, i'm just calling to see
what time you're picking me up
this morning.
um, so just give me a call"

i wrote you a letter
attached to my sweater
and babe it gets better
i thought you should know
i'm trying my best
if love were a test
i'd study for you
with notes on my chest

and give me a reason
to wait through the season
i'm tired of waiting
i'm falling apart
and give me a reason
to stop all the bleeding
i've slowly been fading
no love in my heart

it's never the same
cause things always change
the seasons will know
just how i feel

and give me a reason
to wait through the season
i'm tired of waiting
i'm falling apart
and give me a reason
to stop all the bleeding
i've slowly been fading
no love in my heart

seasons w/ leftunconscious

prod traxee x deathright 
title was too long so i put here 

enjOY!

my hands are so cold if there are typos sorry (x (x (x aha!!
rics:
what if i woke up and i didn't love you anymore?(awkward >.<)
that would hurt you, yes for sure. 
why i think it will not work, it will
stop it stop it
tell me im your only option
stop it stop it
im your only option
what if i woke up and i didn't love you anymore?

anymore?

that's not an option 
she said she loves when im all in
born to ball thats my calling
i put all my gold up for auction bebe

so whats a diamond to all the starz?
i was born to ball 
im all in
yea im here to start (wtf is a benchwarmer?)

i was born to ball 
you was born to ball
i was born to ball
you was born to ball
we was born to ball
we was born to ball
we was born to ball
we was born to ball

oh, yellow brick road 
filled with potholes that i might trip on
uh, and i dont really know what the hell is the point of these people 
if they arent my friends.
so i woke up with a hankering to get it over with(die!)
guess I dont get it then. 
do i believe in him
do i believe in him
di i believe in them
maybe i should just give in

but that's not an option 
she's said she loves when im all in
born to ball thats my calling
i put all my gold up for auction bebe

i was born to ball 
you was born to ball
i was born to ball
you was born to ball
we was born to ball
we was born to ball
we was born to ball
we was born to ball
----------------------------
thx fo listening @ !!

what if i woke up and didnt love you anymore (p deathright)

featuring & engineered by @mjmadeit
produced by @fantom-instrumentals aka @fantommuzik

(Intro)
Tell me what's on your mind?
I know what's on mine
You and me tonight

I just wanna hold you tight
Make you mine
All the time

(Chorus)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

(JoshIGuess Verse)
And I said why'd you do me like that?
Arguments the only time you hit me right back
I'm sorry I'm not around I've been getting sidetracked
I've gotten comfortable with life while you still feeling attached

I want a simple life not no complications
Wonder if I'll ever last forever dating
I've been tryna work out I've been staying patient
But it's tough knowing things you did were blatant

(Chorus 2)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

lyric video

Myself w/ NightDreams (Fantom)

@55depths
@silentcxbin
@failure404
produced by me.
EP art by cxbin!

off of the COGNIZANT EP with silentcxbin!

lyrics:
(dth)
you think you know me
but you knew me
face it
while i'm lost in the darkness
and tracing my own chalk outline on the pavement
you must be dreaming
to think
that i'll take this
while i listen to you
exposing the truth in your own self hatred

is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

(epitomeoffailure)
i know you know that i can't stay
these racing thoughts have been
plaguing my brain
oh how i wish things would
stay the same
now i'm in pain
i have seen better days
i remember when things were simple
now every day just feels like a struggle
to know my place
and where i belong
when half the time
i don't know what's going on

(cxbin)
if i fall will i land?
well take me back to eden
place your bet
draw your hand
but still there never even

okay ya your walking now
okay ill just go on bout
don't wanna sit and pout now
don't wanna be around now

sell my soul
the scripture already written
don't think twice
but maybe i should listen
fucked up now
can't get out the kitchen
shoot at me 
got plenty ammunition
unload rounds in me
in my chest
keeps me down
from doing my best
i'm a stupid fuck
its all in my head
well that's what you wanted right?

(dth)
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

tough w/ epitomeoffailure and silentcxbin

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