The Banger Bus

they stay so obsessed with me they don't ever let up

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production: me
mixing & mastering: me & orchid (@0rch_id)
cover art: ddertbag @ddertbag

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[chorus]
make me nothing again
mother, i’ve sinned, i repent
i’ll make amends w/ my death
don’t wanna waste your time
so sacrifice my life
i’ll make amends w/ my death

[verse]
i feel it all flow
inside my veins
down below
what i’ve done, i know
my guilt has tainted my soul 
let’s put it all to rest
no more lyin 
in that tattered dress
make me feel like i’m j worthless
everything that i did, i regret
my body shaking, cold 
persisting at my core
my essence, broken, old
my cries, they go ignored  

[chorus]

lilith

RiverKinn
"Missfortune"
Produced by RiverKinn

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Misfortune
Feeling like I wasn't that important
I let the paranoia run its course and hopefully pass
I ain't really tryna force it
Misgiven
I recognize it wasn't my decision
I really need to get ahold of my addictions
Pour out the glass
Tryna better my position
Think of my condition
Changing
A mirror I don't want to see my face in
Got me nervous, walking circles like I'm pacing
With my heart racing, wasted
Face it, I hate this
Hopeless
Going blind to the way I can't focus
Throwing stones in a glass house broke it
Run from the past
Til I can't breathe, choking
Shit I can't cope with

And all I ever wanted was your love
But maybe I'm just not enough
--------------------

@riverkinn

Play Dead MMXXI

Missfortune

PPL ALWAYS MAKE SHT FKN WORSE

PPL ALWAYS MAKE SHT FKN WORSE (feat. Days to Waste)

prod. sleepwater, tnvr, i'm geist
@tnvr555 @imgeist

// sleepwater
heart gone i want it back
wait for you to call back
when I'm not with you heart gone black
never in love now, the fucks that
hearts set on u, want back
room to run round, seeing black
black
black
black
hearts in the ground seein bad

rotting my brain out need u stay now
lost in the ground
its just a test

// i'm geist
heart gone i want it back
wait for you to call back
when I'm not with you heart gone black
never in love now, the fucks that

the fucks that
did u find it in the trash?
cause i don’t seem to have any must have lost it in the past
and u tried to show me that it wasn’t that bad
then you watched it all bleed saw my heart turn black

the fucks that
i’m 200 on the dash
cause I’m running out of time i either save us or i crash
and i gave my all for u to stab me in the back
but u said that you would love me when my heart turns black

// sleepwater
heart gone i want it back
wait for you to call back
when I'm not with you heart gone black
never in love now, the fucks that
hearts set on u, want back

i'm geist & sleepwater - heart 404

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Hit My Line

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Hit My Line (Prod. Saba Lagrange)

RiverKinn
"Face Value"
Produced by RiverKinn

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Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live

This the life I'm meant to live
I knew off the rip
Look inside and I admit
Something's gotta give
Focus up and get a grip
Can't afford to slip
Graduated from the sticks
To mortar and brick

I've been chasing a ghost and
Self-medicating, upping my dosage
Say I might hate it but I still chose it
Claiming that I made it, never came close

Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live

Yeah, I was losing my head
I guess I've done it again
I got addicted to venom
I was caught in a web
Yeah, I've been through it before
Don't mean to make it a trend
I can't pretend
That I don't already know how it ends

I've been chasing a ghost and
Self-medicating, upping my dosage
Say I might hate it but I still chose it
Claiming that I made it, never came close

Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
--------------------

@riverkinn

PLAY DEAD MMXII

Face Value

shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

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trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

prod. @sorrow_bringer 🖤


~~lyrics~~
fuck where’s the trust
leading lust, between us 
heating up, on the cusp 
self-destruct, blowing up
into dust
i wanna fall
(don't wanna fall)
into my own hellish spiral

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blow my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

co-depend, don’t forget
that i’m fucked up in the head
leavings cuts cause i’m not enough
and you won’t believe a single thing i said

i got too much on my plate
so i just puke it up & regurgitate
i do not fuck with the fate
pushing away the people
that would try to relate

trust my spirit
(where is the trust?!)
do you hear it now?
(i’m not enough)
it hurts falling down
just let me drown

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blew my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

i know what i’m doing, i know what i did
what i would give to go back to a kid
selfishness underneath my skin
to begin again, i would have to end
i’m a letdown, fight it off
hellbound, so fucking lost
count down, until i’m gone
ultimately i’m not what you want

(3x)
not what you want
(yeah…)

hellish spirals [prod. sorrowbringer]

producer: @deadfishpoland

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/goodbyewilson

lyrics:

'another suicide attempt, why would you do that'
my family concerned, why they didn't knew that
all you have is talk with us, that's what we're here for
no one knows it isn't easy, when you're sucidal

feeling like a burden, do you know the feeling
Won't talk with nobody, rather stare at the ceiling
Don't want to be a problem, that's what I'm thinking
try to change my point of view with "just get a grip kid"

Depression, you're always sad?
Just don't think about that
You're seeing things and you're scared
You know there's nothing there
Panic attacks, you can't breath?
Just calm down and you'll see
You can't get out of your bed?
Just pull yourself together

"YOU'RE DEPRESSED? HOLY SHIT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT"
WHY DO EVERYBODY THINKS, IT'S EASY TO JUST SAY THAT
PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AND JUST TALK WITH US ABOUT IT
I FEEL LIKE I MUST PRETEND THAT I'M ALWAYS HAPPY
X2

Nothings ever easy when your suicidal
Catch me on the floor broken bottle poisoned vitals
Move on with the day because the pressure hasn’t killed me
End it with a bang because the pleasure what I’m feeling

You have no idea how bad that I wish that I could tell you
If only it would work and you could save me with your help soon
Cuz time is running out n I don’t think your gonna make it
But I’ll hold out my hand in hopes that you are gonna take it

Can’t you see that it’s tearing me up
While these thoughts keep on breaking me down
I just wish I could turn this around
But Not more than I wish I was underground

"YOU'RE DEPRESSED? HOLY SHIT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT"
WHY DO EVERYBODY THINKS, IT'S EASY TO JUST SAY THAT
PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AND JUST TALK WITH US ABOUT IT
I FEEL LIKE I MUST PRETEND THAT I'M ALWAYS HAPPY
X2

Mental Illness

spotify/iTunes etc

Mental Illness (feat. goodbyewilson)

producers: https://soundcloud.com/odece & https://soundcloud.com/northeastlights

VISUALS: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZlIb0WqfreI

lyrics:

Don't look in my eyes
I tell nothing but lies
You've been caught by surprise
I feel paralyzed

Vision's blurry, I don't care
(teared up eyes, are you sad)
keep on drinking 'til I'm dead
(slit my wrists and go to bed)

You say you're afraid
That I'm turning insane
You need someone to blame
I am so ashamed

So ashamed of myself
cause of what I did
I have nothing to say
My words bear no weight

How many times have you felt this way
Like you're nothing but dust but you say you're okay
I can see your scars, pretty sure it's my fault
Keep saying that you're fine, I will take your word

'Cause I believe that I can trust you
If you find yourself lost, I will guide you
What I'm saying is absurd, you don't need me
Cause too many times, I brought you tears

Don't look in my eyes
I tell nothing but lies
You've been caught by surprise
I feel paralyzed

Vision's blurry, I don't care
(teared up eyes, are you sad)
keep on drinking 'til I'm dead
(slit my wrists and go to bed)

You say you're afraid
That I'm turning insane
You need someone to blame
I am so ashamed
So ashamed of myself
cause of what I did
I have nothing to say
My words bear no weight

Spotify/iTunes etc.

My Words Bear No Weight [prod. Odece & Northeast Lights]

[produced by dj khaled's son]
[mixed and mastered by neek and convolk]

lyrics:

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

stuck here
in the same place
everyone fake 
they all wanna save face
my heart chokes
intimate notes 
everyone wrote
when i lost my way

you don't know what i been through 
i don't show what happened to 
me back when i wasn't cool
me back when i was a fool

feel like i'm kanye back in 06
feeling like what i say, people notice 
colder than an ice age cracking both fists
colder than an ice age heart is frozen 
x2

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

swear to god

written/produced/mixed/mastered by me

lyrics:

misunderstood
never feels right
we're going down
this ain't so bright

we have each other
we are the youth
we never bother
with how are you

maybe I am insane
I can't even feel the pain
heart shut down, nothing strange
had enough of being drained

you know I'm not okay
and I know you feel the same
nobody understands
so we'll choose a different way

tell me babe, wanna leave this town
say it, all I need is you and we are out
we can aim for bigger things
this place is killing dreams

let's go love
I keep on getting tired
don't think love, let's hold hands
imma guide you through the dark
x2

I can't lie, I'm falling through
'cause i'm fed up and that is true
cuts, incisions on my wrist
don't want to die but don't want to live

I feel like I'm in a cage
all I ever knew is how to deal with pain
maybe you know how to cope
'cause I've had enough, I want to go

you know how demons work
grab me and hold me close
voices tell me to let go
slipping away so you can cut my throat

tell me babe, wanna leave this town
say it, all I need is you and we are out
we can aim for bigger things
this place is killing dreams

let's go love
I keep on getting tired
don't think love, let's hold hands
imma guide you through the dark
x2

spotify/itunes

if you want to leave

RiverKinn
"Last Ditch"
Produced by RiverKinn

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Pain inside
I keep running away from it all
But I can't hide
And I don't know what I expected
A waste of time
Will this be the rise or the fall?
I can't decide
I took it for granted and I paid the price

Head to the wall
Luck of the draw
Flip of the coin
Roll of the dice
I make the call
Don't get involved
I don't need your motherfucking advice

Eyes down with the card face
Small change in the long game
Right man in the wrong place
Right place on the wrong day

It's all confusing me
My thoughts consuming me inside
But opportunity don't wait

Pain inside
I keep running away from it all
But I can't hide
And I don't know what I expected
A waste of time
Will this be the rise or the fall?
I can't decide
I took it for granted and I paid the price

Head to the wall
Luck of the draw
Flip of the coin
Roll of the dice
I make the call
Don't get involved
I don't need your motherfucking advice

Eyes down with the card face
Small change in the long game
Right man in the wrong place
Right place on the wrong day
--------------------

@riverkinn

Play Dead MMXX

Last Ditch

Meaningless lyrics, did this to experiment and have fun.
Outside of my normal style, but I hope you guys enjoy :)

so take it slow
just ripped the soul
just let me go
the center folds
it takes it toll
nowhere to go
you say its cold
you're staying low
you're breaking bones
empty soul the grave is all
you've ever known

taking 2 steps you're backing
i see your footsteps im tracking
I see emotion you're lacking
I see you fall away

drawing blood with a knife
I'll start by taking your life
gripping to death in the night
I see you fall away

Come snapping bones I can show that
low blow to the chest I can strike back
pull up to the show with a full pack
you dont know when I blow you'll be stabbed back
say you reap what you sown but
I can see that you aint going nowhere
make like a fool when you run back
sliping down in a pool of your blood, ha

gripping the grasp of a soul
you better know, 
I'll be taking it all
hit a new low
this path that I chose
it aint for me anymore

slippery slope
down to the floor
im taking it all
with me to fall
you aint anymore
ayy 

so take it slow
just ripped the soul
just let me go
the centre folds
it takes it toll
nowhere to go
you say its cold
you're staying low
you're breaking bones
empty soul the grave is all
you've ever known

Grasp of a soul [prod. goodwill]

ROCKETSHiP! (prod. JODY)

prod @venaz7
THE GOAT @sinxi
lyrics:
[sinxi]
i'm too complicated baby
i don't wanna change a thing about us
you're too perfect for me lady
can you just spare a minute for me please
and i found love it was bottled up
it was sent down river how's it holding up
won't wait for a wish if u would need me
i am blessed i have you with me (oh nooo)

[venaz]
and i don't even know how to feel right now
perc30 with a 40oz
she just wanna fuck and i get that
i don't even know how to feel right now
hit it and i leave yeah forget that
i beeen wasting money
yeah desinger on my feet
perc30 with a 40oz
yeah i'm fucking wasted
i can never fucking sleep

yeah and if we took one step back
left all the shit in the past
fuck all these panic attacks
i would've called if u had asked

yeah are u still my friend now that it's fucking over
i been wasting time look like fucking stoner
baby i just wanted you come closer
you don't tell me shit but i know you need a shoulder

bottled up

Biteki びてき

bottled up ✨ (feat. sinxi)

AMV - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=quSVbT4BwfE


prod. kaii
mixed and mastered by me

this shit hurts bad, please don't go
you say you need some space to grow
so tell me why you're so afraid on your own
when the darkness takes you it won't let go

I never was enough
you never gave a fuck
you had to turn me into something you could never love
and now I'm breaking down to pieces, you wont pick me up
I swear to god you only took me in to cut me up
I never was enough
you never gave a fuck
you had to turn me into something you could never love
and now I'm breaking down to pieces, you wont pick me up
I swear to god you only took me in to cut me up

now I'm on your mind
you're out of time
shit don't go my way
wait I'm 20 already? need a replay
in my mind
don't behave
feeling 15
i'll never leave the teen age

can't get enough of your sweet taste
can't turn me off, ill replay
I'm broken, can't be changed
baby I'm the one that you've betrayed
can't get enough of your sweet taste
can't turn me off, ill replay
I'm broken, can't be changed
baby I'm the one that you've betrayed


fall down, fall down, fall down 
fall down, fall down, fall down 


I never was enough
you never gave a fuck
you had to turn me into something you could never love
and now I'm breaking down to pieces, you wont pick me up
I swear to god you only took me in to cut me up
I never was enough
you never gave a fuck
you had to turn me into something you could never love
and now I'm breaking down to pieces, you wont pick me up
I swear to god you only took me in to cut me up

now I'm on you're mind
you're out of time
feeling 15 never leave the teen age
feeling 15 never leave the teenage
now I'm on your mind 
you're out of time


fall down, fall down, fall down
fall down, fall down, fall down

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

Rivilin
yeah baby  im gone you know i don’t mess with the past
but I know you just try to hit me up and fuck with my heart
now im alone darkness seems to swallow all of me
till my room fills with light and I see you hitting up my phone

cus im chilling with the vermin swarm, drug addictions all we know
best intentions peeling back my scalp you grab a bottle and take my soul
all the money I have got spent on frivolous things
try to fill an empty void with friends and designer rings
 
RipThePetals

I've got fake friends who dip when they pop off
New friends only like me cause im Petals
I've lost too many friends to the drugs, but they give me more, when i'm coming down, just to keep me around

And i can't answer the question to why your coming back to me
Your blowing up my phone just to treat me like i'm the enemy
I'll fall in love again, just a chip in my heart
Girl you broke me apart, but i can't seem to let you outta my arms

Rivilin


so what did  you say, what did you say
i don’t wanna feel like this anymore
so why did I turn, why did we fight
everytime i seem to be just at your door

so what did you mean, so what did you mean
that everyone just wants a little piece of me
the shadows seem to stalk im out of my mind
I feel like paranoia gets the best of me

yeah so baby im gone, try to fill conversation with validation
but you just want to chuck it back in my face no imagination
yeah if you just really want to hate me
At least just say it to me face say it to my face

if you just really wanted something  yeah
why can’t you just take it and let me just fucking leave
cus it always ends up this way
two best friends fighting over someone that we wanna hate


RipThePetals

Hate me, always love it when you tell me that you hate me
On these amphetamines, you tell me that you break me
All those words you've never spoken that I can't read
I’ve been abused in every fucking way so

You cant do a fucking thing to me
I see my demons when I’m smoking weed
I think about it they look just like you, when you know the truth, come crawling back to me

INVALID FT. RIPTHEPETALS

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals


RipThePetals

Icy Veins
Freeze within
Calm me down
Think like him

Passion fades from everyone I know
The flowers grow, when your all alone

It's nice to know you cared, I never cared at all
I never cared

Rivilin

ill pop a few more, i‘ll pop a few more
cus i don’t know where ill end up if I accept myself
valium to lithium yeah this is just a false hell
scratching at my faults until i end up hating myself

I turn the whip hard I flip the fucking car
and now im still struggling to put my head in place
Percocet’s to credit cards yeah my minds going numb now
do a few more lines so I can just forget about myself  

RipThePetals

Cigarette in my hand
Stains on my jeans from when the ash mixed with the tears
I'm in a false hell
And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, Im tryna get out

It wasn't fair i put you through that
Im manic, depressed, i'm in all this stress
I couldn't even tell that i was fucked up
And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, Im tryna get out

And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, I'm trying, trying

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