so much production for only 600 streams you deserve more several more 0s on the back

you are goated, I'm happy how much you blow on Spotify

entry three: worthless

@dercept @remghost

and i dont know what i care for anymore
every single person turn tail and they ignore
all the time and dedication that we swore
that shit sent me burning flames straight into my core

and all those pretty lies
i get
that my time's compromised
i walk
towards the purple lights
bleached hair
and my life's a landmine

time keeps tickin away
dont stall just cut right to the chase
cold dead eyes on a pretty face
got me out gunned an arms race

and im wasting every day
i dont really fuckin know
what im doing anyway
so (i dont know)
i stay up to 3 am
melatonin in my head
cuz i just cant go to bed

and i cant
just be myself
but i hate
that someone else
in my head
is always somewhere
fighting
against my conscious

landmine

@kodylavigne
@johnnyfriend

lyrics:
[killnord]
i want you to tell me
what was i supposed to do?
and i won't let you blame me
think i'm done with avoiding you
cause it's not my fault
that it all went wrong
and it wasn't love
and i tried it all
now i'm feeling numb
i need more drugs
my body's sore
i'm on the floor

i don't wanna feel like this or like that
my heart is breaking in half
already feel like a mess
already feel like i'm dead
i try my best but it's not enough
i guess that i'm not the one
i guess that i fucked it up
the pain just will never stop

[kody lavigne]
i know you used me
but i won't fall again
and i won't play pretend
girl you never were my friend
i'm tired of all the lies
i hope this is the end
and i hope you tell your friends
that i broke your heart again
it feels like girls don't really like me
they just wanna hurt my psyche
in the end it always bites me yeah
i know that i won't fall in love again
because you fucked it up for them
why can't i get you out my head? yeah

[killnord]
i don't wanna feel like this or like that
my heart is breaking in half
already feel like a mess
already feel like i'm dead
i try my best but it's not enough
i guess that i'm not the one
i guess that i fucked it up
the pain just will never stop

spotify

what was i supposed to do? (feat. kody lavigne)

"is she slidin'?"

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

2 pints in the blue whip, right side 
l-left side that's my extra pipe
this bro got his hands on his gun
you ain't that guy (x2)
got it from the mud yeah i got it outside
wanna manage my shit is you worth my time 
bitch take a hint, hit a kid offline
i just flipped a bag and i bought red wine

when i get my money what do i do with it?
pay my dues back then i'm through with it
replace all my thoughts what you do with it?
replacing my thoughts no you ruined it
um
hi
you don't wanna fuck up my vibe
unchained the things that live in my mind
same thing you do to me all the time
my pain's the only thing on your mind

so prove me wrong
sew your lips up and your tongue
tar in my lungs
hand held high don't give a fuck
so baby set it up 
we'll get high we'll run it up
come say wassup
i'm too high to give a fuck

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

2 pints in the blue whip, right side 
l-left side that's my extra pipe
this bro got his hands on his gun
you ain't that guy (x2)
got it from the mud yeah i got it outside
wanna manage my shit is you worth my time 
bitch take a hint, hit a kid offline
i just flipped a bag and i bought red wine

you're life's shit bitch i bet it is 
walked outta my crib fit is vetements
know you gave your number but i forgetted it 
know you gave me your name but bitch i forgetted it
and it ain't never what you said it is
just wait while i take my sedatives 
ima break the bank like a president 
ima break the state as a denizen

so prove me wrong
sew your lips up and your tongue
tar in my lungs
hand held high don't give a fuck
so baby set it up 
we'll get high we'll run it up
come say wassup
i'm too high to give a fuck

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

red wine (prod. jean parker)

https://soundcloud.com/spazixoxo
https://soundcloud.com/1mosh

Starships w/ Spazi x MO$H (p. Johnnyfriend)

:(

thank u @itschrismarek for the amazing beat ily dawg 

hope u guys like this btw, tried summ different 

lyrics:

cut my wrists and burn me down
you’re all i think about
you’re all i think about
you’re an angel from the clouds

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

(i gave you all the fucking world)

did you miss me?
cuz you left me with these scars like i was sixteen
fucking crying in the car and sippin whiskey
i remember all the times you would kiss me
that you would kiss me

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

all plats

feel the same [prod. chrismarek]

IM DROWNING IN MY PAIN AGAIN AND HIDING WITH THE DRUGSSSSSS

@zupehr i am literally SO FUCKING GLAD we tapped in again. i missed workin with u so much dawg, everything we make is super deep and our vibe is just gjdhjgdjhkg so good ily brobro

i went to war with myself mixing this so ur welcome for posting this btw lol

lyrics:

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

i been fighting
but the razor blade is looking so inviting
all the memories we made are coinciding 
in my brain again my skin is just dividing

fuckin it up and i just blame it on the timing 
nobody loves a man without a silver lining
down to my gut i feel that i won’t be surviving 
covered in cuts i been a mess that i been hiding 

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

hiding [prod. zupehr x sadpra]

li.sten.to/nirvana

ig: @ripavah

Calm before the storm
Peace before war
Because of her my heart is warm
Left nirvana at the door

I used to be me, but I changed that day
The dots and the floaters, they can have their ways
Tryna live life, I'm in disarray
I wanna be real, but I feel so fake
Perception's feeling different, and I can't get out
I had no choice, so shut your mouth
The doctor said I'm tripping, but I'm bugging cause I'm dead; how?
I hope I'm still alive, cause somethings different in my head now

I'm gone, I'm gone
Replaced by a deepfake, Eternal heartache
HPPD tears me apart
This the first time I'm saying it; it's hard
I tried to say I'm still alive
But now I gotta rest in peace
Moving on ain't easy
Ears ringing, feeling uneasy

I used to be me, but I changed that day
The dots and the floaters, they can have their ways
Tryna live life, I'm in disarray
I wanna be real, but I feel so fake
Perception's feeling different, and I can't get out
I had no choice, so shut your mouth
The doctor said I'm tripping, but I'm bugging cause I'm dead; how?
I hope I'm still alive, cause somethings different in my head now

If you knew me back then, how am I now?
The dots and the floaters in the sky or the house
So many options, but no cure
Nothing feels real, when I'm not with her

I used to be me, but I changed that day
The dots and the floaters, they can have their ways
Tryna live life, I'm in disarray
I wanna be real, but I feel so fake
Perception's feeling different, and I can't get out
I had no choice, so shut your mouth
The doctor said I'm tripping, but I'm bugging cause I'm dead; how?
I hope I'm still alive, cause somethings different in my head now

nirvana

other platforms

Instagram: @ninewaterss

lyrics:
it's finally the end, i've been so despicable
better off dead, i'll just end up killing you
if you wanna talk about the pits then i might know a thing or two
i've already done this in the past so i don't care 'bout getting rid of you
but i've been so regretful of everything i've given you
you shoulda picked a better man 'cause i've been tricking you
you could ask me if i felt the love, i was beginning to
i could never say it to your face what i'm admitting to

i'm gonna keep this feeling for the rest of my life
20 pints of lager to help with the strife
i'm drowning out the pain but it still makes me wanna die
i'm riding out the plane, yeah i've been thinking of the highs
but i've been lit like a match tho
tell me that you want me, you won't even give the catch tho
i need a bitch like misato
i don't really want your love 'cause you make me feel anxious
i don't really care anymore
fill me up with lead, you can leave me on the floor
i'm running out of love, no love for the whore
you like your life but mine's a fucking chore
i've been sipping on that coors
don't wanna learn about you, i don't care about your cause
and i've been feeling evil but don't wanna break the law
i would still be with you if you didn't make me bored

good riddance

Good Riddance (prod. @crocusyoukilledit)

prod by me
all plats: https://ffm.to/byekento-morgue

(lyrics)
everybody treats me like i don't fucking know
freezing in the fucking cold 
i wish that i had a choice
fuck it i don't care no more
leaving me without a voice 
screaming out "please save me lord" 
i'm standing on your fucking grove 

i know they won't keep me close 
so i stay the fuck alone
tell me that its all my fault
i'm just tryna stay afloat 
walking down the same old path
find out where it fucking goes 
now i'm not the same as then
and i know it fucking shows

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

i can't even breathe your air
sware that this ain't even fair 
fucking had a heart attack
guess you had another laugh 
i can't even go outside 
wasting all our fucking time
live or die i can't decide 
i cant seem to make my mind

but i guess i don't need to
all this shit is see through 
they been tryna tell me what to do 
but i don't fear you
and i sware everything's a fucking curse 
when i'm near you
and i wish that you had the fucking nerve 
to come and see it through 

everybody treats me like i don't fucking know
freezing in the fucking cold 
i wish that i had a choice
fuck it i don't care no more
leaving me without a voice 
screaming out "please save me lord"
i'm standing on your fucking grove 

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

(screaming out "please save me lord"
i'm standing on your fucking grove)

selfish (ft. wubz) (prod. kt3lly)

kaden.

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